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f*ck i HATE QUIZILLA! i just typed out a f*cking journal and when i went to post it, it completely logged me out. stupid f*cking thing!


i guess i'll retype it, i have no other choice.

okay well i guess today at the gym i got thinking a lot about my friend and i, and how i haven't really spoken to my best friend since last week, but that was only a drive by, and i stopped for 5 minutes. i've talked to her twice this summer. first time i called, second time i drove by. she hasn't called me once, or texted me. it's like all she cares about is hanging out with someone that lies. she's been hanging out with one of our friends who in my case is a huge phony. she's religious freak! i hate how she's always wanting me to join the goddamn bible study that her and this senior formed last year. i don't think she's gotten it through her head that i don't believe in god. in y owrld there is no higher power. i don't need to pray to someone that doesn't exist. i don't need comfort in the bible. the bible isn't real. it's a book written by someone that wanted to view the world differently, rather than the big bang. humans evolved from other species, not being created by a f*cking higher power. i'm sorry if you are religious, and if you are then you're probably going to argue with a comment, but you know what? i'm not going to care. i believe what i want.

gah i'm sorry for being a b*tch but seriously i'm really sick of not being able to talk with my supposed best friend, but honest to god i don't know if we'll be friends by next year. i hope we will, but i'm not sure that will happen. i'm going to try to talk with my other friends about it, and see what they think, although they probably haven't talked either. i feel so lonely without anyone to talk to. i know they're just a call away, but i hate talking on the phone. i'd rather get together and talk face to face. maybe i'll go out to lunch with callie or inga before the fourth or early next week. i just really need to talk to someone. right it's quizilla, and i'm betting no one will read this, until quizilla shows updates, which the way the site is right now i'm doubting that will happen.

i'm happy i'll be getting together with two of my track friends, because i just need to get away from reality, and throw a shotput. i think working out tonight at 9:15 was a bad idea, because now my mind is racing andi don't think i'll be able to fall asleep anytime soon. TV will be my comfort right now. I just hope tomorrow clears my head a little.

Mel

ps; thank you for reading. i know my life probably isn't interesting, but hey, it's nice to know someone is willing to read about it.