okay well um
... my boyfriend and i have been together for like about 3 months already, and i've been thinking of giving him a kiss. >//< but i never kissed a guy before! plus i've been feel really distant from him. we arent the jealous type, i see him huggin other girls (he has alot of friends that are girls) and im not really jealous (or am i? idk). i see him happy... but im so ashamed that im not happy with him. i really love him and i truelly mean that. before we went out i had a crush on him, then when he knew. he asked me out. but why am i happy that im his girlfriend but not happy that im enjoying it. i made a promise that id live my life like there will be no tomorrow until school ends. since i have to think it that way i'd have to give it my all. my heart feels so distant. the truth is... he never said the 3 words i wanted him to say(i love you), i guess i expected a lil to much. school is almost over. and time is running out fast... i just dont know what to do. i've been feel so depressed.lonely. am i begging for attention?
whats going on with me? why do i feel like im not good enough for him?
Comments
@ 12:16 AM EST on Friday, June 20, 2008, Line-Of-Question said:
Hey I don't like how indarkerdays and them put it.....But LOVE is such a powerful powerful word and who have to be careful with such a powerful word like that. If your have second thoughts (cuz who said sumtin about not being 'fully' happy) or anything like that them o beleive the you Are DEEP in like with him and in my opinion you need to tlk to him or just wright him if ur to shy to say it to his face and just tell him all you true feelings. About how you really really like him but u don't want to feel to clingy and even tell him about wanting to kiss him. IF he feel's the same way about you then he'll understand. U may feel really nervouse about doin it but i still thin u should!! Just trust in yourself and no matter wat happens just know that u'll be allright and that u still have ur friends to bak u up and be with you......@ 8:20 PM EST on Monday, May 5, 2008, akatsuki-angel said:
lol sorry that was random anyway... your going to fast ^-^' and i really agree with blackwolf and indarkerdays... your kinda almost in the same position then me except- oh heh nvm sorry i shouldnt compare... how rude of me lol sorry! but yeah... take its slow alrighty.@ 3:01 AM EST on Monday, May 5, 2008, wolvenimperial said:
i agree with 'indarkerdays'you aren't in love with him, but it's clear you like him a lot. he hasn't said he loves you because he's on the same level with you, 'like' not 'love' but if you wanna kiss him go for it!@ 2:34 AM EST on Monday, May 5, 2008, BlackWolf2011 said:
Ive felt the same way before but it ended up with me in heartbreak.(Too long to explain in a journal comment. SO message me if u want)Anyway ur expecting too much from him but u need to keep it spicy abit tho like go out and have fun maybe on doubledates or just hang with friends. Also give eachother little trinkets everyonce in a while. Tho u dont want to get too attached like I did cuz u never know wut may happen.@ 1:15 AM EST on Monday, May 5, 2008, indarkerdays said:
u dont love him...u cant love him...u havent even kissed him yet. :S...sheesh. why dont u just realize what the problem is, maybe you are thinking way too hard. just go with it and if it doesnt feel right, let him go. its the best thing to do, for yourself and for him