okay well um
... my boyfriend and i have been together for like about 3 months already, and i've been thinking of giving him a kiss. >//< but i never kissed a guy before! plus i've been feel really distant from him. we arent the jealous type, i see him huggin other girls (he has alot of friends that are girls) and im not really jealous (or am i? idk). i see him happy... but im so ashamed that im not happy with him. i really love him and i truelly mean that. before we went out i had a crush on him, then when he knew. he asked me out. but why am i happy that im his girlfriend but not happy that im enjoying it. i made a promise that id live my life like there will be no tomorrow until school ends. since i have to think it that way i'd have to give it my all. my heart feels so distant. the truth is... he never said the 3 words i wanted him to say(i love you), i guess i expected a lil to much. school is almost over. and time is running out fast... i just dont know what to do. i've been feel so depressed.lonely. am i begging for attention?
whats going on with me? why do i feel like im not good enough for him?
