xXdreamingofFireXx's Journal

Okay so first off.... I have a Mibba account. Here's the URL: http://member.mibba.com/42426/ And if that doesn't work my name is: Burnt_Bridges_Fall And BEFORE you all start bemoaning how I DON'T love you anymore..... LISTEN up! I am NOT, I repeat I am NOT deleting my Quizilla account. There is no way in hell I could EVER leave you guys. You readers that have been loyal and faithful to me since the beginning. And this does NOT mean that I am going to slack here. Not any more than I already do that is. *dodges rotten vegetables* I am STILL writing ALL the stories I have running here. And I WILL be getting my info this weekend, come hell or high water, for my Zacky and original Frank stories. So they WILL be updated at some point soon. And BEFORE I post new on Mibba I will ALWAYS post here FIRST. You heard me right. I will ALWAYS post new shit here first before I post there. So you are not forgotten. Nor less loved. I am not turning out to be one of those people who switch over and forget the people they have here. The people they had first. The people that made us realize that we could write, and the people that thought what we wrote was something worth reading. The people made us feel amazing about our writings. So my move doesn't mean anything bad. Just one more place for my writing to be out to people. So yeah, that's all I have to say. LOVE YOU ALL TO ITTY BITTY PIECES!!!!

Oh my god I swear I haven't died you all. Here's the low down:

Basically guess what, the real world doesn't allow you to take breaks whenever you wish. And I've been abnormally swamped. Things at work got super hairy, like almost everyone that would share MY type of work load quit. So guess who had to shoulder the extra weight? You guessed it, none other than myself. Don't believe me? Ask Katie, she's been helping me and dealing with my shit via texting. So yeah shit has been so busy that I haven't been able to think straight,

Then you add tours coming up all over the place. Still making time to book and promote bands. GAH! I'm going insane.

And then, and THEN it gets even fucking BETTER! Oh yes. My fucking bitch ass face, fuckwad of a lame piece of junk computer goes and goes haywire on me. A-fucking-GAIN!! Like I couldn't believe it. It's the EXACT same problem as before, only it shouldn't be fucking occuring. Like nada. And this time it CAN'T be my fault. So my computer is fried and I'm waiting to hear back from SmallDog [the comp place that fixes my computer all the time]. So as we speak I am typing this on a test computer my uncle lended me. And guess what? It doesn't have any fucking thing for me to actually WRITE in! And I was hit by the creativity fairy too!!! So I wrote it out, all in an email to myself. Yeah, that's hardcore.

So I am sorry for the lack of updates. It's just that I got MASSIVE writers block, then work went down the fucking lou, and then my comp goes and does that to me again,

Ever felt like just breaking down and crying for no apparent reason? Yeah I'm at that stage right now. I'm so done. I'm taking my damn ball and going the fuck home.

Gah. So it's like almost 2 AM, I have a new hells minisode story to post. I'm going to be no better than cheese whiz tomorrow at work because of it, but hell I love you all just that MUCH. You deserve it.

I hope you all still love me!!!

*muah*

Okay here's my oppinion on the new uproar about the whole Quizilla possibly banning Lemons. I think that lemons are lemons, don't like them then don't read them. Generally a lemon will be titled so in the heading of the story. So it generally says it right out there in the open. If it says LEMON and you don't like them, then don't open the story and then bitch about it afterwards. You had ample warning. Now there are some that aren't labeled as such. Like my slightly steamy parts/chapters. I don't put lemon in the title. BUT I do rate them accordingly. If there's sex, then it's labeled adult, or possbily just mature depending on the type of content. ALSo I put a warning in the memo, and you really can't miss my memos. I think writers should take it upon themselves to put a warning in their memos if there is to be such content. Because some of their readers might like their story, but just aren't comfortable with reading that type of stuff. That way, coupled WITH an appropriate warning label and rating, it should cause no one grief. But I believe that people should be able to read and write what they like, regardless of whether or not they "know" what they're talking about. And that people have to realize that people, we, will find away around it regardless. And it's jsut better to let well enough alone. I have yet to receive any bad messages or hate mail about my stuff. And why is that? Hmmm, well because it's labeled properly and people know that they can skip it and continue on with the next chapter. So no one runs across it who doesn't want to read it. There, I've said my peace. I think people, on both sides, should take a breather. In with the good mojo *takes big breath*, out with the bad mojo *exhales*. Calm. Down. xJesse

Okay so please, pleaee, please listen to me and hear me out, I'm begging you. Okay so I know that I haven't been on in like 2 freaking months or more but I have a legitimate excuse, like in a big way. My family and I went on vacation for the weekend, just a little day or so trip. So I naturally left my computer at home since it was going to be so short that it was pointless. I left my iPod because the battery had quit on me and I needed to buy another one so I brought my discman. Life was good. We got back home and the shit hit the fan. We had been ROBBED!! As in some sic kbastard broke into our house and robbed us. Thankfully not blind, but still stole our shit. My computer was stolen, my stereo, my second digital camera that I use for work, my broken iPod and some other things that were small in comparison. And that was just me, I'd rather not go into the rest. Needless to say we were all really really upset, it's kind of a shock when you realize that your home isn't safe anymore. That someone can come and rob you without second thought. I was pretty shook up for a while. But needless to say I had no way of typing more, of updating or even of going on line. My mother fucking computer had been stolen. So it took me a bit to get over the whole house robbery thing. AND then I had to save up for a new fucking computer and that took me for fucking ever let me tell you, and I even had my family helping me out. So now I am BACK and I'm pissed off at men (separate issue entirely) and I'm temporarily pissed off at the world so that means I'm raring to write. I may have to sitting here starting from scratch since all my files are gone but I'm fucking doing it god damn you! I still have what I published here and my sparse hand written notes to go from. So there will be new shit, oh yes there will. I ALREADY have new stuff for Zacky, I have "one" shot or mini series I owe Joce ready to be put up. And after that there will be more and more and I will be a posting writing machine. Just you all wait. So I deeply hope that all of you who have been so good to me and stuck by me through all the shit I've gone through and still read my stories will keep it up. I write for myself yes, but mainly I write for you all. The ones that have been there since I got this account to the ones who just added me and told me they love my stuff already. So I hope that you haven't given up on my completely. I'll be messaging people personally to explain all, but I wanted this out there. I'm going to make it a journal post and an update on my homepage. Hope you still haven't lost faith in me. I'm back. I swear!! xoxxooxoxoxox

Anyone else feel like breaking into The Academy Is...? Cause I sure as hell do after that title. Anywho, moving on. Here's the 411. I'm putting up another story. I know, Gasp! Shock and Horror! Another story you ask? Is she freaking out of her mind? The answer is yes, to all those questions. I know that I have three going already that people are reading with a fervor, and I love you all for it. And I know that I have to write and post more for all of them [especially the Ville one, sorry guys :'( ....]. BUT here's the thing. I was hit by the creative bug the other day, like it was weilding a giant 40 lb hammer with this one. Cause I haven't been able to get it out of my mind, it won't go away. So I'm typing away on it, hoping that if I get enough of it done I will be able to write on the others. I already have a little over 30 pages written and it's driving me insane. So I'm going to be posting it. I hope you all don't hate me for it. Now some things about the up and coming new story. It's a SLASH. So don't like that sort of thing then DON'T read it. I will NOT be sensoring myself on it so it will always be rated (M)ature, and (A)dult for the lovely sex. There will be lots of sex, swearing, and all the good bits. There will also be drugs and cutting involved. So that's a big warning. And I'm graphic. But I'll always put a big warning in the memo if either of those two show up so you can have the chance to not read that particular chapter. Those types of chapters will also be rated (A)dult for their content. In the next chapter I'll give a quick run down of what happened for those who didn't want to read the previous one. But only for chapters including either of those two contents. It's going to be half original slash, half famous musician. Said famous musician just won't be a large part of it for a good long while. He'll be there in bits and pieces. Don't like how I'm writing then tough shit. It's how I feel like writing it, so move on. But if you like this sort of thing then I think you'll enjoy it. So go ahead and read it when I post it. Just don't say I didn't warn you. xJesse

Soooo..... guess what all? And yes I'm really writing a journal post about this, lay off. I've had a lot of sugar and so it's making me jittery. ANYWHO.... I just pimped myself out in a big way. I TOTALLY just got a new, revamped homepage that everyone should go check out and leave some lovely cbox lovin on it for me. Why do you ask?? Because you all love me and I love you. So it's fair. This really isn't that much of a journal entry or anything. I'm just super giddy about my new homepage set up and my new cbox. Cuz for some reason I lost the coding or something for my last one, which hella bummed me out. So go make a sugar highed, uber jittery girl happy and leave me some love. Either on my stories, or my new page. I don't care which, I'm not greedy. Just needy sometimes. Ha!!

So this for those that have been reading my stuff with a fervor, and those just starting. I was gone for a few days. I spent the weekend in Jersey at the Bamboozle festival so of course wasn't able to post. I also broke my finger in a pit, so typing will be a little slow. But it will come, oh yes it will. I met so many bands and musicians, hung out with so many people I only dreamed about. It was amazing, so there for I feel it a legitamet excuse for not posting. Hope I didn't lose anybody from it. But come on I hung out with FFTL, Say Anything, TBS, MCS, HH, Jeffree Star and so many others. I did tv interviews, got hit up by record companies and the whole thing. I promise to be up ALL night posting what I have for Ville, and writing and posting for Frank. I will re-write this and post it as a memo for those that don't get it. ~fire

So here's the downlow/411, or whatever, on the sitch. See as it stands, I would like to write in a few girldfriends for the guys. Maybe now, maybe a little later on. But the thing is I don't know what to do for them. SO I am putting it out there for you all, even though I know that this is a newly posted story. But that's the beauty of it, I can get this out here now, at the very beginning. So if you want to be the lucky person attached to one of the soon to be mentioned batchelors (in my world at least) then pipe up. Send me your name, or the name you want to go by in it. And anything else you want about your character. And don't WORRY you'll get mad props continuously for it. That is unless you don't want to, then whatever floats your boat. But still, it would make my day, and my life that much easier and I am trying to do 3 stories at once, while 1 other is paused, and that is a lot for me So I need girlfriends for: Raab, Dico, Rake, Novak, Glomb and........... even BAM! Yes so that's it for the CKY crew, cuz Dunn is not available for love now. Also for the Finnish rockers as well: All of The 69 Eyes [[EXCEPT for Jussi, he's taken]], and ALL of H.I.M. So go crazy people, please. My brain hurts too much to deal with it all. Greets and cheers! ~fire

So UNLIKE the last time I said I was back in the game, this time it is for real. No more idle threats. I'm back and raring to go. I am currently taking a pause on my vamp story because when I moved (which is the reason I didn't follow through with my threat of being back last time) I lost the notebook I had all my notes in. Not only massive notes, but large sections actually already HAND WRITTEN out. And now without it I am kinda at a loose ends with it and am having massive wirter's block. So until further notice that one is on pause, unless anyone else has any idea they wouldn't mind throwing my way. Anywho, I have two new stories out as we speak, well I type and you read. A Ville Valo story and a Frank Iero story. I also have a piece of /slash/ that I am working on writing. As soon as I get more than the four pages I have I will start posting it, it's a Gee and Frankie slash. I know, I know. Hella over done but come on, who doesn't love that pairing. Soooooo I hope ya'll go and read my lovely stuff, cuz well I really like it. And I promise to those of you that have asked, yes I will eventually get back to my vamp story. *Hugs* ~fire

Guess what everyone.... I'm back in the game. I finally got my computer fixed and running properly. When I first got a new one, it didn't work properly and had to go back to the damn computer hospital. Anywho... I am posting my story again, have one chapter done and another on the way. Though I do need some help. I lost my notes for my story when I moved so I am slightly at loss as what to do. So any feedback would be great, just what you would like to see happen. Anywho, once I get more written for this story (Goodbye to Sunshine.... I Guess) I plan doing some more. Yea for fan fic. I have a Mikey Way story basically planned out on paper, also a Sonny Moore one, and a Patrick Stump one are in the near future. So that's all ~Fire

Hello my fellow readers [especially those who have been dedicated to me], Anywhose I am just using this journal place to post shit cuz i am still computer retarded (i mean completely), and this is the only way i know how to get news out to my readers. Yeah so yea for venting areas!!!! First and foremost i want to say thank you for all the wonderful messages from people who have been reading my story, or the sad excuse for one that i have partially posted. I love you all dearly and appreciate it all. Anyways news on why my sorry ass has yet to put up a new post on my story. My bum ass, piece of shit, retarded computer is still in at the "Computer Hospital" being fixed. So i have no way of writing any new stuff and posting it out there for ya'll. I am using my uncle's computer to post this, so i could at least get (or TRY and get) news out to people. I really hope people read this. Anywhose...... thanx again. I promise, give me at least 2 weeks, that there will be new stuff. Not just one or two new posts, I mean at least 5 or so in the first stuff. I basically have it all pre-written in note form. Besides I owe to everyone who has read it and/or wrote to me to get this shit out there. Alright, like I said give me at least 2 weeks. Till then have fun ya'll!!!!