xXbleedingblackroseXx's Journal

Today was fricking terrible. My "friend" was talking about one of the many guys she thinks hot, and i disagree with her. She said,"Aww, but he's so cute." I scoffed, and said, "Yeah, like a puppy." Then she got all pissed at me and SCREAMED in the middle of our completely silent art class,"Well so what i like him. You like Sean(who happens to be my best guy friend too)!!" I just stared at her in horror, and all she said after that was,"Oops, did I say that out loud?" I knew she would do it too, cuz she told one of my other friends(she wasn't my friend at the time) and in my experience, just one person, is right before, just the whole school. *sigh* i don't even know why i trusted her, i don't know why i bother trying to trust anyone. most of them just end up hurting me.

There is a Hawthorne Heights concert in Atlanta only about 2 hours from here and they won't let me go!! I love Hawthorne Heights so I really want to go, but they never let me. The only time they let is if it is in Colombus and no one good ever comes here so I have to stay back and listen to all my friends talk about how awesome the concert was. Gah, parents suck!!

Well, um, at school, there's a guy I like. He's really cute, funny, smart, qualities that are hard to find all in one guy. Well anyways, so, I like him, but it's way more than a crush. And....well...i heard that he likes this really preppy girl that i hate. and i don't know, i haven't actually felt anything since i heard that, but i don't know why. that makes me confused. if i really liked this guy, why didn't i feel anything? i mean i really do want him to be happy, but, i see him everyday, and this whole day, i didn't feel anything. i just want to know why. if any of you have any idea could you please message me? i'd greatly appreciate it.

okay, so my best friend likes this one dude. it is completely obvious that he likes her too. I asked her why she doesn't ask him out, but she says that it could ruin their friendship. Now, she's my best friend so naturally i'm going to try something to get them together. but, she already spends more time with him than me. I'm beginning to feel left out. on top of that she'll probally spend more time with him if i manage to get them together. i just don't know what to do. should i
a)just stay out of it and not mess with them until they are ready
b)try to get them together even if i end up failing and risk hurting myself emotionally
c)don't do anything and know that she would be so much happier if she was with him
it's not that i don't know which would be the right choice, I just don't know which one i should choose. i'm just being selfish i guess, but please. help me someone. i don't care what you comment but please, just say something. though, if you would just message me i would be grateful to you for all eternity. so please help me. and to my friend: IF YOU ARE READY THIS YOU SHOULDN'T BE!! YOU TOLD ME NOT TO GO THROUGH YOUR STUFF CUZ YOU THOUGHT IT WAS CRAP SO YOU BEST NOT GO THROUGH MY STUFF!! AND WHAT THEY SAY MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT IMPACT MY DECISION SO IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER DOES IT?! okay, that's all. thanks again, see ya.

i finally got the new quizilla working right for me. i found most of my stuff and made some more stuff. i still like the other quizilla better but you know. at least something is going right....

GOD I HATE THIS NEW QUIZILLA!! I CAN'T FIND ANY OF MY STUFF!! I HAD LIKE 14 THINGS ON THE OTHER ONE AND I CAN ONLY FIND FIVE!! I HATE IT!! i liked the old one so much better. it was simple.

Well, there is a guy at school I like. I've liked him for awhile now. Today, my friend, having just broken up with her boyfriend, told me she liked the same boy. It tore my heart out. During lunch she told me she wasn't ready to date though but if the guy asked her then I'm pretty sure she would jump at it. I don't know what to do now. Should I tell her the truth and probably hurt her, or sit back and let her have him while my heart breaks? I really can't handle all of this because my step-grandpa just died so I'm really, incredibly sad and confused. Please help someone. I just can't figure out what to do.  

Hi. My life is taking a downhill turn. My parents don't understand me at all. All the people at school hate me. My "best friend" stabbed me in the back. Now, that is what i need advice about. i wanted to go apologize to her for being an @$$ but then i found out she was talking about me to every single person on quizilla listed as a friend. she keeps calling me a backstabber when it was her fault. she was the only person who understood me. my parents find my reasoning stupid. please, i need advice. should i just go on with my life with out my former best friend, or should i try to make up with her? my broken heart is clouding my judgement. i also found out she wants me to go die. so, please, anyone, i need advice.