xUnholyxSinfullxAngelx's Journal

Weeeelllllll guess what? (lyk yu dont already know) My boyfriend rox!!! ^-^ His name's Malo.....dont laugh I like it. It's COOL! Oh....and....he kinda lives in the Phillipinnes ^^' But we talk alot tho on the internet. Heck, if not for my friend Abi, I wouldnt have known bout him! Big big Thank You to Abi!!! ^-^ Bet you guys are thinking this will never work huh? Well.......do yu think it will or not? Lemme know!

One of my best guy friends should hate me. I've hurt him so much and no matter wat i try to do to fix that, I seem to be hurting him more and more and more. I asked him out a while back, just to see if I'd like him more if we went out. But...things got so awkward that I had to break up with him one day later. He was crushed even if he wouldn't admit it. None of my friends would talk to me at school that day. I had to sit with the people I hate at lunch, too. I cried for most of that day when no one was watching. Somehow we're friends again. He's totally forgiven me---something I dont deserve. Also, he hates it when i cut myself, so he's mad at me for doing that, too. And he hates it when I always say yes to my ex bf cuz I just cant say no to him *stupid stupid stupid.* He's too nice and I don't deserve any of his kindness for god's sake! He should hate me after all I did to him.......

Remember when I said my laptop deleted my stories??? Well, with very careful working, I got my stories back now on my desktop computer. Sadly, my laptop still won't work, so it may take a while to post these up. Also, half of my 3rd chapter was lost, so I'm rewriting it. And for those of you who have read the Twilight series, I decided it The town Ashe lives in is Forks! ^-^ So this is loosely based on the best teen book selling series in America! Anyway, if you want a heads up bout the next chapter- It's in 1st person now (I'm Ashe so Haha!) It tells more about her past like in the first chapter and her nightmare And the title for this chapter is called "The Hamiltons" so I think you can already figure that one out ;-) So there ya have it. Bye Bye now! *-* Oh, and sorry if that picture didn't show up. My computer sux ^^'

I'm pretty sure Im not the only one who knows this There's some "hackers" on quizilla and personally I wanna know whats up with it. I got messages from people like "LindaM" and "QuizillGifts" saying I have a crush or won a free IPod. What's up with this and what happens if I open it? They're connected to my e-mail so Ive only read them on there and haven't actually opened them on this site....



Whats going on with this stuff???

NO FREAKIN WAY!!!! My laptop (the one I use to make the stories) yeah well the internal battery fried!!! So my laptop with my story on it is GONE! Dead! No mo' existo! (pathetic attempt at Spanish I know) But to those that actually read it, I'm sorry. It will be a while before I can get my laptop working again and hopefully all the stuff will still be on it. I hope ^.^' Oh, and remember that guy I told everyone about? That's him. Also my main character-- Matthew Hamilton. And no Hamilton is not his real last name. His real name is Matthew, though. ^-^ Anyway I'll get my laptop recovered I hope soon. Bye!

Ok--- for those that actually read my vampire story, I have an announcement. Starting in Chapter 3 I will be telling it in 1st person cuz telling things in 3rd person gets so boring and annoying! So I am Ashe Livingston (Ashelein is my full name *not in real life in the story*) and at the beginning of the 3rd chapter (and also the 1st if you didn't figure this out already) i am having a nightmare about the night when my best friend was killed in front of me. And I am also basing most of this story off of my real life so the reoccuring nightmares, the best friend's death, and the first names of all my new friends in there actually happened and are actual people. I just changed the last names of most of them and my name and my best friend's and her brothers' names. So anyway- Please read! It's getting better if you don't like the first few chapters but trust me #3 is good! I have all my friends reading it as I write it and they love it! So, please read, rate, and message!!! Thnx! ^-^

Ok..if you've read the last few journals of mine, then u know there's this guy I like ALOT that also likes me alot. He promised before he would ask me out on my birthday as his gift to me. On Monday of this week (my birthday) He said he can't cuz Im gonna be moving [In 6 months] and told my best friend that he had a gf. During lunch that very day while I was sitting beside him, I didn't look at him. I stared away from everbody with my hair in front of my face. He leans over  and asks if I'm mad at him. He then noticed I was shaking and asked whats wrong. I didn't care at this point anymore so I turned around and all my friends seen I was crying. On my birthday god dangit. AND that night as well as last night I sent him a picture of my arm...*you know dont make me say it* and today he asked in the morning if I was still mad I said yeah He said why I said cuz you're an idiot And he said "I did NOT like that picture you sent me. You need to stop doing that especially over me. And if you can't stop doing that then you need to find another boyfriend." word for word. We're not even going out, Im pretty sure he hates me, and he says that?! Did I miss something here?!?! Help!!!

I'm guessing most of you guys that have read my other journals know that there's this guy that I like A LOT that likes me too but, miraculously, we're not going out! SO... last night I finally worked up the courage to call him....and he didn't answer. "Great." I think. I was already stressed enough with homework and stuff, so I decided to take a shower. As soon as I get out and pull on a towel, my phone starts vibrating. Wonderfull timing, eh? Waits till Im naked in a towel before he'll call! He told me "I'm going to tell you something I haven't told anybody at all and I don't care if you get mad at me so I'm just going to say it." there was a pause and he finally said "I've been flirting with Traci (aka preppy cheerleader that tried to steal him away from me that s***) just to make you jealous. Are you mad at me?" I was suprised that I didn't get mad at all! I was actually flattered that he would do that for some odd reason...kinda weird I know. Then he said "You just don't get it do you?" and I said "What?" and this part really took me by suprise--- "You just don't get that I'm so in love with you that I'll do anything to get your attention? To get you to talk to me? To actually get you to understand that I want you more than anything?" I could've fell on the floor at that moment. He's not really the most sensitive guy, but he can be occasionally. Oh, and with my birthday coming up, he said he spent over $50 worth of stuff for me! And he even said he had another present for me that can't be wrapped so...hehe! And about the ::Naruto 7 Minutes In Heaven:: quiz--I've ran out of ideas so I had to actually read a romance book! It's called Twilight by Stephenie Meyer and it's probably THE best book ever!!! It's about a girl that falls in love with a vampire, and the movie's coming out late this year!!!! But I've decided to take the following people off--- Sasori (cuz he's a puppet), Zabuza (cuz he will NEVER fall in love, thats a fact), and Tobi (cuz he's a freakin piece of wood!!!) So...I'll finish Kabuto's result either tonight or tomorrow and post it up here ASAP. Thnx u guys!!! Trust me, you're gonna love it!!! (I hope...sry no self confidence at all ^^') Bye!!!

Okay he tried calling me today (but thanx to my mom taking up my phone I missed his call) So I  got my phone back about 2 hrs after he called and called him back...he didn't answer. An hour later while I was eating he called back. Another missed call cuz my phone was in my room. I called back and he said he couldn't talk and hung up. He always just hangs up with no warning or anything. Gets on my nerves too. Oh, and...we're moving soon and with him having another gf, everyone's yelling at him cuz he's doing this to me shortly before we move. And I dunno why but I just can't stop thinking about him. When we were going out he kept saying that he wants to be with me forever, and that he would do anything for me not to move. (And we're moving states so that sux). His New Year's Resolution--- To be with me and love me for the rest of his life. Sounds lame but when I heard him say that it was like I didn't care about anything else anymore. He was the only thing that mattered. And now....he has another girlfriend... So...from the info from my last journal and this...do you think that he might maybe still like me? I must know! Lol. Thnks! Bye!

Okay---Yesterday I found out the guy that I like ALOT and he likes me ALOT had a girlfriend. Everyone said he was a jerk for doing this to me and went off on him, making him in return mad at me for being mad at him. HOWEVER- as soon as we got home from school he calls and sounds all sorts of PO'd,confused,upset,nervous, and happy all in one (yeah lot of mixed emotions I know but thats what he sounded like). I answered and he said "Yeah! Hey! Ummm...w-why were you so mad at me today?" he actually stuttered. I answered with "What do you think idiot!" Yeah I was mad, just that my parents were just outside my door- meaning I couldn't cuss ^^'. "Why? 'Cause I got a girlfriend?!" he yelled back. I relaxed a little and said "Yeah, you dumb jerk." He paused, and when he spoke he sounded somewhat irritated and said "Look, if I didn't like you I wouldn't have called you as soon as I was alone." There was another long pause followed by "Do you dig me?" Lord knows why he said that (probably something outta a book he read). We talked for a few more minutes and he had to go. BEFORE HE HUNG UP HE SAID THIS VERY QUIETLY---"I'm sorry,______,really." and hung up. (I'm still not giving you guys my name so yeah my name goes in the line).  WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?!?! DOES HE STILL REALLY LIKE ME OR WHAT?!?!?! I asked my friends and they either said Yeah Maybe or Depends. I'm so confused! Help!

Where to begin...Ok...I didn't get in trouble (thank God) and she didn't either! She just had to write an apology letter to her! That sux. Umm... the quiz is coming along pretty well. Personally I didn't think the first one would've been as popular as it was. So I dunno if this one really will make it up there again or not. ^.^' Which is why I'm trying to make this really good. I'll put on the original results too, so it'll be like THE ultimate Naruto 7 Minutes In Heaven Quiz EVER!!! I am getting real hyped up about this, but it's also stressing me out. I'm getting so stressed over everything lately. This quiz, school work, guy I like ALOT, making sure SHE doesn't ask HIM back out to make me mad AGAIN, oh and to top it all off, we're moving. Soon. I hate that. I gotta go to a completely different high school with people I don't even know....this sux! T.T (dang I can ramble when I'm hyper/bored/really stressed out!) BUT the Naruto quiz SHOULD HOPEFULLY be out within a week. Depends if my parents don't ground me for anything cuz I get grounded alot. I'm trying you guys, believe me I am. It's taking so long, but I'm trying to make it the best as I possibly can. I'll add a few more funny things to it (or at least try) And FYI Lee's result is NOT perverted I'm proud to say! It's actually very sweet, if you like poetry and sweet guys. Now most of you are probably going "Ugh." or something but for Lee this is a big step for him. He never shows his feelings like this, and doesn't faint! It's really nice if you ask me. (well duh I made it but still) Oh and one more thing, In Pein's result, my friend came up with most of that (and she hardly ever watches the show) so don't fret if it's nothing like him. I don't really know all that much about the Akatsuki, execpt for the obvious. (Like Tobi's made of wood, Kisame's a shark person type thing, etc.) So yeah. Any help would be greatly (and I mean GREATLY) appreciated!!! Thnks! Later!      ---Lust+

Ok- It has taken me much longer than I thought to make the rest of the results for this quiz. That's because of 3 things- #1. I have to add like 12 people. #2. My computer crashed and deleted the 6 I finished and I had to redo them. #3. This has been one hell of a week cuz one of my so called friends said that one of my best friends should (and I quote) "______ can take her Damn but back to mexico and quit acting like she can take us both. You can shut your mouth and quit talking about my best friend because she is a much better friend than any other gothic mother f***** you bring up. She knows how to treat a friend much better than you know how to keep one. Dumb***"    Figured I'd "*" some of that out. She wrote the actuall words and I wanna say 2 things. I'm NOT gothic and probably never will be. My favorite color just happens to be Black Purple and Blue. and another thing I was NOT talking about her friend so yeah. Oh and tomorrow I might get kicked outta school cuz I DID cuss her out for saying all that stuff. And cuz she said it'd make her and everyone else happy if I killed myself. I hate that dirty little...But yeah I'm working on the quiz best I can. Sorry this does not include Hidan (basically cuz I never heard of the guy) but does have alot of the other guys. Even Kimimaro, Kabuto,Orochimaru,Zabuza,Haku, and just about the rest of the Akatsuki except like 2 I think. Thnks!

  Ya know there's different ways for people to vent about their feelings and mine just happens to be through poetry.If you've read any of my poems you'd know how messed up my life is. So if you havent read them go read them then give me the advice cuz I cant just break up with my bf and I cant just forget about the guy I love. Anybody else got any "bright ideas"? Which reminds me-while ur there PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PPPPLLLLLEEEEAAAASSSEEEE rate and/or message PPPPPPLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok Im done

Wow you guys are real help.Seriously. I just got one teeny little problem----HE DOESNT LIKE ME YOU MORONS!!!!! Sorry I get a little "excited" at times ^^'. Oh yea and my boyfriend claims he's in love with me so how am I supposed to break up with him when I kinda like him too????

In case you guys are blonde or just slow and couldn't tell by the name of this MY LOVE LIFE IS COMPLETELY SCREWED OVER!!!!!! Yea I have a boyfriend right now but I don't think I really like him. I'm in love with one of my guy friends and he is Mr. Perfect For Every Girl I swear. He's smart(-er than me) he's so funny,whenever I cry he can make me smile,whenever I'm mad he can help me get over it-----fast,and he is by far the ONLY person in the WORLD who understands me.Told you he's Mr. Perfect For Every Girl. Oh and just incase ur still not sure-He has sorta a dark side so if you think thats hot then there's your sign. He listens to Rock-N-Roll ya know the classic Ozzy,Van Halen,ZZ Top,Lynard Skynard,Motley Crue,Nirvana,Guns-N-Roses,and Black Sabbath. Whats not to love? Oh did I mention he's totally HOTT and 100% OFF LIMITS?!?! Why do people always want what they can't have and don't want what we already got?Somebody answer this please as many people as possible cuz Im totally at lost.Thnks!