Ok I know I said I was going to remake it but there is such a drastic change in the story that I've decided to make a version to and finish the first one so that I don't disappoint my fans.

I am sorry to have kept you waiting.
I know that its been quite a while and I do hope that I wont disappoint you with this news.

I read over my story and found myself quite unhappy with how I wrote it and put it together.
It was too racie [sp?] and I couldn't keep it in one place.

So I've made some changes to it and you will be able to read the new story soon enough.
again I hope to not disappoint you, its going to be a rather large change but I do expect it to be even better, please bare with me, I intend on adding new chapters to my other stories ASAP.

*in other news the cat just made stinky in the literbox and I feel as if I'm going to die.*

I Am.............

A Mother, A Daughter, an Employee, A Worker, An Aunt, A Friend, A SISTER, A Niece, A Granddaughter, A Good person, A Poet, a Self titled artist, A Great Granddaughter, A Sinner, FREE, a Saint, God's Child, A Woman, A Citizen, And so much more.



I WAS...

A Wife, A Girlfriend, A druggie, a backslider, A Drunk, a lowlife, a trator, A Lost soul, Hurt, Lost, Confused, Young, A child,
A bad person.

I Was Forgiven, taken back, given a chance, made whole.

I AM NEW.


What I have.


A Mother, A Father, My Sisters, A Grandmother, A Grandfather, A Nephew, A Daughter, A Job, A home, A New life, The truth, My God, Good Health, My Friends, A loving Family, My Pets, My Poetry, My Country,
My voice, My Freedom, my dreams.
And then some.

Well I did it!
Its hard to believe that I brought another being into this world, but I did.
I'm amazed, extatic, full of cheer and I'm tired all at once.

After 22hrs of labor and 3 hrs of pushing things didn't look so well,
She got stuck and when she was born she was purple and non-responsive,
she had swallowed too much fluids and it took them several minutes to get her to start breathing but we were all praying and she pulled through.

Amelia Rose was born June 26th at 8:07pm
She weighed 8.3LBS, 19inches long.
Has brown hair and it looks like her eyes will be brown too however their a funny looking blue now.
(Like they want to change to brown.)
She seems to be very healthy and is very strong despite the scare at birth.

She has surprised a lot of people by showing them that she can hold her head up already and turn it to look around, She has also shocked me by rolling over when I was tryin to change her diaper (which their not suppose to be able to do until their third month - so I was told.)
So shes not letting anything bring her down and shes showing off how strong and healthy she is.

Ok I guess from what it looks like she'll be on time after all.
For the last two days I've been having contractions,
when they started to get closer they were about 12mins apart and today I had them for a while and they were 7mins apart but they seemed to have ebbed down a bit,
however she's getting quiet and as many people have told me,
that means shes up to something - AKA shes preparing o.O'

I can tell you I am completely half and half between scared and excited....
I know thats really confusing.
Well I guess I'll post when I've had Amelia and I'm back from the hospital.

(I'll post a picture of her :))

I Know I haven't even finished they other stories I started but this one I will finish.
(and after I finish it I may go back and rewrite my other stories and finish those aswell.)

But before I add another chapter I want to have at least 15 votes or it'll sit.
This one has an introduction to it and the first chapter is pretty decent in length.
So Please Read "Who's the Real monster?"

As a lot of you know I'm having a baby, well She's decided she wants to come earlier then her due date so I may be away for a while...
So a little update:

Amelia's birth weight should be 6 1/2 - 7lbs, Shes very strong and should be very healthy.

I on the other hand could be doing better...
I'm not to go anywhere because I could go into labor at any day now,
I'm sick with flu like symtoms, a cold and I'm lacking Iron I think I'm at like 8 and I should be at 14 or something, so I've got to get my iron up before she comes or I'm gonna end up with a blood transfusion after delivery (which i really don't want, Yuck.)

So to help me get rid of the crudy cold I have and the flu like stuff I've been put on a liquid diet so I drink lots and eat lots of soup (blah, Neither me Or Amelia care for that at all. we'd both prefer a double bacon cheese burger ^^')

I've also decided I can't do the all natural thing, labor hurts, A lot, I've had a small taste and I don't like it.

But other then that Amelia is doing very well and the nurses joke about her and say she's more of a Rocky instead of an Amelia because of how strong she is.

So Yeah, I may not be on for a while because I'm so tired, But I'll miss you all and all your stories, I'll let you all know when I have her, or when I get out of the hospital I'll let you know :)


~ E. Rose

NOTE: Some stories may not have all the chapters available due to Quizilla's change of layout.
I hope there available soon.


1. "A Vampires Bet" by Kenoyra [45 chapters]

2. "Slave to a monster" [FINISHED] & "Raised by wolves" By Orangesharpie18 [7 chapters]

3. "I saved you; A vampires deception" By Ex.pafilyzon. [45 chapters]

4. "I think I just ran over a vampire" [FINISHED] & "Daughter dearest..." by rippedXangelXwings [10 Chapters]

5. "Cursed moon Child" by Anomally666 [12 chapters] (very good story.) [she's finishing her story on another site read her blog.]

6. "Bad Moon Rising" [26 Chapters] By Theburningroses

7. "Deceptions and Confessions" [FINISHED] by Wingmae [Me]

Ok I've stumbled onto a poll that gave a link to a petition, It's completely safe so don't be afraid of signing it.
By signing it you can help get the old quizilla back.

Your signature is needed!

Go to: http://www.quizilla.tk/

AND SPREAD THE WORD!

In journals
In quizzes
In polls
In story's
On your profile
Through E-mails
And other sites.

Ok I can honestly say I hate quizilla!
I'm so pissed that they deleted the personal sites they let us have, I did reviews on stories and everything and they deleted all my reviews when they deleted my personal site.
Not only that but they deleted over half of the favorites I had!
These were stories I was in the middle of reading!

I'm beyond pissed.

Is anyone else upset?

I'm getting ready to leave,
Does anyone know of any other site like quizilla or rather like quizilla was before they changed?
I'm actually on here for all the stories and stuff so if there is a better site for people who write stories please let me know because I'll totally delete my account once I find a good site like that.

I wanted to finish reading the stories I was reading but I can't even find them all and I don't even know how to access half of my own stuff.

This layout is stupid, Its like quizilla is trying to copy myspace, have you noticed how similar the layout is to myspace, Or is it just me?

Well I have to say I'll miss you guys once I leave... but hopefully we call all stay incontact maybe on a better site...

I do like how the sending messages is easier and the journals are nicer too but they could have changed a few things at a time to let us get use to it, not the WHOLE SITE....
Sorry I'm just very upset.

I am writing a book its called "Straight forward. Young, Pregnant and single."
I'm not sure when it will be published because I've just started putting it together, most of my material is finished its just the matter of going over it and finding the right places for it.... then the whole book cover thing.
I'll be publishing through Lulu.com and when it's finished I'll post a link up here to my store front.
I'll also be linking it on my myspace and at the local book stores.
And I've already got a title and some material for my second book.
I know its a little strange having material for my second book before the first is done, but I was inspired.
Well, I'm off and wish me luck!
E. Rose.

I need to vent.

I am so sick of cleaning, I'm the only one who does it!
I told my little sister that I would keep the kitchen,
computer room and bathroom clean but I didn't/couldn't keep the front room/living room clean so that was her job.

Well I've done my part, all the stuff I said I'd clean and keep clean is clean.
Now my sister Ivy says that its not fair her rooms are more dirty and I didn't have enough work.
THATS BECAUSE I CLEANED IT ALL UP!
IS SHE STUPID?!
I am 8months pregnant, If I can clean up all that I do every single day then she, Being 15yrs old and home schooled, with no friends (well she has friends but non can drive and live too far away.) can clean up the living room.
I'm sick of it.
The living room is so trashed that the dogs have started to use the bathroom in it!

THATS SICK!

Not to mention I've been cleaning up my sisters cat's piss because she refuses to, the stupid cat has been pissing in the kitchen and she was the first one that started using the bathroom in the house so I think the dogs thought it was okay too or something...

I'm losing my mind, I'm sick of this house being so trashed and I can't clean it by myself, and even when I do no one helps keep it clean!

I mean, They open a tv dinner heat it up and it explodes in the microwave; they do nothing to clean up the explosion, Then they discard the tv dinner box on the table or the kitchen floor!

They take the bread out and my themselves a sandwich and the bread is left open sitting on the table aside with the mustard and mayo though they do put the meat away; they don't reseal it so it gets hard and rotten.
I'm sick of living in filth and I'm sick of being the only one to clean up after myself.
I can't keep doing this!
lifting all the stuff I am and everything, I spend my whole day trying to clean up and keep clean the few rooms I have to do, And it seems pointless. and I swear if her cat pisses on anything again I'll throw her out into the street, especially if she goes in my daughters spotless and newly painted room to scratch up the new crip or walls or take a dump up there, I'll throw the dumb cat off the roof!

I've had enough and I'm sick of it!

My little sister is a lazy no good whiny brat!
She doesn't do anything but watch t.v and lately thats really all she does, because she hasn't even been doing her school work.
If she doesn't do her school work and has time to sit on her lazy ass then she can clean house!

Anyone agree with me on that?

Ok, I really thought I'd have more then 4 chapters to 'My deceptions and confessions.'
but they are long chapters too so that would explain that.
So yes, its finished and I'm already feeling better.


Now I'm off to visit my sister out of town and wont be back until Sunday,
So I say farewell to my friends, and to all those that I'm in the middle of reading your stories; WRITE NEW CHAPTERS!
I can't wait to do some more reviews and I'm extremely pulled into most of them.

I leave you now and I'll miss you all...
In the mean time please check out some of these awesome stories:
1. "A Vampires Bet" by Kenoyra [44 chapters]
2. "Slave to a monster" [finished] & "Raised by wolves" By Orangesharpie18 [4 chapters]
3. "I saved you; A vampires deception" By Ex.pafilyzon. [34 chapters]
4. "I think I just ran over a vampire" [FINISHED] "Daughter dearest..." by rippedXangelXwings [10 Chapters]
5. "Cursed moon Child" by Anomally666 [12 chapters] (very good story.)

Please check out my home page for story reviews on some of these stories and others.

Until Sunday, I'll be gone...

E.Rose

I'm confessing the things that were in my life that I am ashamed of, in my new story "My deceptions and confessions." its very condensed or believe me you'd be reading forever. I may add more later.

I mean, you would think they would leave me alone and be scared because I'm gonna have a baby soon...
Oh no...
Apparently from what I've been told a lot/some guys are actually extremely turned on by pregnant woman.
.............
.....
....
WHY!?

Its kinda creepy if you ask me.
At first I thought it was because I am pregnant and single, and that guys thought I was easy or something because of that...
But the more people I talked to the more they told me, no, that its because some guys are just attracted to pregnant woman like that.

I feel like I'm gonna rip my hair out, I can't get rid of them, they don't seem to want to take no for an answer.

So, I guess my question is, Why are guys turned on by pregnant woman?

Its just plain weird.

I've added some more poetry to quizilla, some of its a bit darker and cold referring to my past that I'm rather ashamed of but it was a long time ago and just recently I decided to write about it... (I dont know why.)
I'm rather bored today...
I think I'm gonna write another poem.
It'll be like a vampire poem...
yeah... thats what I'll do. :P
lol Later!



E. Rose

(just another thing I've posted on myspace and wanted to share here.) It has come to my attention that many people think that because I’m younger and pregnant I have no clue about anything.

( I know for a fact that I’m not the only one having some of these problems.)




So let me tell you this.


Woman have been having children since Eve, No one explained anything to her and yet we’re all here.


What I’m saying is please don’t tell me how to raise my child or what I should do for birthing, Advice is nice but don’t force anything on me, especially when your child is running around flinging food at people in restaurants and biting people at random while swearing and yelling at you or other authority figures.
A child does not have to be that way and mine wont.
I know my child will misbehave but not that badly to the point where when she’s 7 she’ll need boot camp.

So yes, I’m young but remember I’m still an adult.
I’m the one who’s pregnant, I got pregnant without you there guiding me, I’ve carried this child without your help, and I’m going to be the one to bring this child into the world No one else.
I’m going to do the pushing and I’mgoing through the pain this baby is going to come when she wants with or without the help of a doctor.



Holding my child…

As for people holding my child, I need bonding time with her not her grandma/grandfather, a cousin, aunt/uncle or some stranger.
Don’t think your coming over to take my baby.
I’m the mother.
A mother and her newborn need bonding time and that’s just that!
If your a mother and have been there already you had your time, your child.
Let me have mine.

I also don’t want small children holding my infant.
Don’t get offended I’d just rather my daughter not end up in the hospital because a child dropped her or her end up sick because small children breathing germs on her (children are children and they do carry them.)
I also don’t want my daughter being passed stranger to stranger,
I don’t want eight different people passing her back and forth, coughing, sneezing and breathing germs all over her.
If I do let you hold her don’t be upset if I have you wash your hands or use hand sanitizer first,
A lot of people don’t wash their hands.
I don’t want a line of people waiting to hold my infant a week after I have my baby.
They get sick easily.




Don’t remind me….


I’m well aware being a young single mother is going to be hard, No need to remind me of that.
I’ve done a good job so far, I’ve made it through a lot of different things, I’m not giving up now.


I know I sound completely over protective but honestly, What is it hurting?


Now please think about other young mothers and how they must feel too, Don’t take away their bonding time You’ll get your chance to hold the baby, but the baby needs to know who’s ’Mommy’ and the baby isn’t going to be getting milk from you is it?
Think about how you felt when you had your child was someone telling you what to do all the time because they thought you couldn’t do it?
We’re young but times have changed, there are a lot of young mothers now days and they’ve figured it out.
Remember what comes naturally?
It’s woman’s gift and even if it doesn’t seem like its going to kick in for some of us, It will.
We will know what to do.



~E. Rose

Okay, this is a bit different then what I normally write but I just wanted to share some stuff and get it off my chest I’m sure a lot of girls can relate to this…

So, Lately I’ve been very annoyed with a few boys, well I’m really annoyed with guys that can’t get a hint.

(*Warning this may result in one of my long and pointless rants. But At least It makes me feel good.)

Why is it that you say “no” and they can’t comprehend that? Or “sorry I’m not interested.” or “actually… yeah I’m busy on that day too…”
And still they think you want them.
I mean I’ve tried one excuse after another and they still wont get it.
Pretty pathetic huh?
Well I found that not all guys but quite a few are very obsessive, possessive and ignorant…
Sometimes all you have to do is say “hi” and they think you want them, when really you’re just being nice.

I’ve also noticed how a lot of these losers go for the insecure ones,
You know, they see us pregnant and single or going through a bad break up, or maybe someone you were close to just died and your depressed and need a shoulder to lean on, they totally rush over and shove their way into your life in a very unwelcoming manner.
They think that maybe we’re desperate and they have a chance to take advantage of the situation and you, yourself.

Honestly I’m flat out sick of it.
I mean you can’t even be left alone with some of these guys because they just wont leave and they insist on watching a movie or something and wanting to turn the lights off, or they want to go to your room (if you have a t.v in there.) to play video games or watch a movie there, where clearly the only place to sit is on your bed.

Come on, We’re NOT DUMB.
Honestly, do they think we’ll fall for that?

I mean I know a lot of girls that have these problems some have even flat out told them to their face that they weren’t interested and they wanted them to stop calling or coming over, et cetera, etc.
And still they don’t get the hint.

They also often pull the “pity party” act where they whine about being lonely and they don’t know why they can’t get a girl/keep a girl because they claim that they treat their girl like an angel and that sex isn’t what they really want in a relationship that it was the girl that pushed it on them.
HA a cold day in hell I tell you, a cold day in hell.
Clearly you can tell their lying through their teeth and they actually think that you’re falling for it!

Another thing that annoys me is that they’ll use the whole “I love you” or “If you love me…” act, I actually had a guy tell me that, I mean I wasn’t dating this (I'll try and make this short and to the point.) guy I knew him but not that well and we were alone for a while outside and he interrupted me with a very random “I love you.” I didn’t even know what to say or rather I did but I was shocked at how random it was, I simply replied with “Uh, You might like me, but you don’t love me so don’t ever tell me that again.” it was really awkward for a moment then he replied with “Oh okay, well I like you then. You know your really smart for saying that.” and I kind of rolled my eyes and a moment later he adds “Does this mean we can have sex. ” You really don’t wanna know how I replied to him besides the high pitched shocked squeal/yell “NO!” I had many other… Verbs, to show him that I wasn’t interested in him and wanted him to leave me alone….
It seemed to have worked.

AH HAH! I may have found the solution to our problems…

When words don’t work anymore and the restraining order just isn’t cutting it.
Feel free to… Express yourself.


VERB. Its what you do.

~E. Rose

(something I posted on myspace bulletin for all my friends having boy troubles and I figured I'd share this with any girl on here thats having boy troubles too, I hope you laugh.)

I've noticed that a lot of us have been having issues with boys and I just wanted to cheer everyone up.


To all those single mothers or soon to be single mothers;
Yeah it sucks that were all alone in this but thats why we need to stick together!
Remember you still have friends and family, it'll be hard but you can make it!
Don't try to rush into any relationship, remember you have baby to think about.

To all those girls going through a hard break up;
Don't waste your tears, someone better will come around for you.
Your probably thinking "yeah easy for you to say."
Sure it hurts and the truth is it never gets any better with any break up, if anything it hurts more,
so why rush into something only to get hurt if it fails?
Take your time. He'll (meaning the ONE) come around and sweep you off your feet before you know it.

To all the hurt girls;
Feel free to make up songs and sing your anger and bitterness away (believe me It helps a lot)
Don't worry about feeling stupid, You can do it anywhere.
Write your feelings down, talk to a friend or close family member.
Don't do anything stupid to hurt yourself, its not worth it, He's not worth you ending your life.
Sure it might seem like life isn't going to look up but it will.
Life will surprise you when you least expect it, you can never predict the future.



Now lets have a laugh.
Have you ever noticed the Men are the main source of our problems?
To name a few...
Mental Anxiety
Mental Breakdown
Menstrual Cramps
Menopause...
You see that? Men at the very beginning of our problems.



20 things a girl wants a guy to know (but he never really gets. 1. We love want them to cuddle with us.
2. A kiss on the cheek is very sweet.
3. We want them to put their arm around us at the movies.
4. We really don't care if he's the strongest/weakest guy in the world.
5. Stop talking about your "size" we don't want to hear it.
6. We don't always look our best so get over it.
7. We shouldn't have to plan Everything.
8. We're always ready to talk so call us!
9. We're not perfect so deal with it.
10. We love surprises.
11. The little things guys do mean the most.
12. We're not all "girly girls.
13. We might like boy stuff too.
14. Cursing and fighting, Doesn't impress us.
15. Don't be mean to get our attention.
16. Don't tell us who is hot because we really don't want to hear it.
17. We can tell when your not listening so listen up.
18. When we say we are cold thats your invitation to come closer.
19. Hugs mean more sometimes.
20. We do need your advice sometimes so don't be afraid to give it.



something I just wrote yesterday for a friend.

Not the only one who’s hurting.
By Emma R. Johnson
Dedicated to one of my best friends who’s having some troubles with boys just like a lot of us girls.
Men are sometimes nice to have around,
but woman can have much more fun when we don’t have to wipe their butts!
No confusion when their not around, we laugh and joke;
its nice to have a girls night out.

Just laugh with me and forget about your troubles,
don’t worry, your not the only one who’s hurting.
Next time a boy comes around don't hesitate to put him in his place.

Put up a fight, make sure he’s worth your time.
If he isn’t what you want, there are many more options out there.
Plenty of men to go around, just make sure you pick the right one.

You’re an angel, worth so much more, Don’t let any guy put you down.
Until you finally settle down, feel free to look around.

We can be mad and trash talk men and after a while we’ll sit and laugh.
Once we get over all our hurt maybe we’ll each find someone worth our time.

Until then lets sit and talk, take our time and rest our minds.
Lets pick out what would be our perfect guys.
Lets have a good time like before any boys were messing up our lives.



Now, A little "Man - bash."

It's okay to have a laugh sometimes thats the best way to get over something.





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And I leave you with that,
Now go call up one of your girlfriends and go get a cup of coffee, dress up in something nice even if your not going anywhere,
Go for a walk if its nice, Take a compliment, Go to the movies,
Go window shopping with a friend blow off some more steam,
Go to walmart and read some cards to get another laugh,
Treat yourself to a new shirt or purse.
Don't let anyone put you down, today is your day spend it the way you want to!

A girl always needs a day to relax without be bothered by some guy.
But still feel free to flirt it'll make you feel better.

Just another day but this one happens to be my birthday.
To tell you the truth I had forgotten until my sister told me happy birthday this morning.
Well I don't think I'll be doing anything special today but I would like it if one of my friends could take some time out of their days to go to a pool with me,
I've been dying to go swimming and it would be an awesome birthday present if they would just go with me.
Heck I'd even pay.
Well I'm off to take a shower.

Later.