vejhed's Journal

Ok, lets start off like this: I have a bf. We've been a couple for exactly a year. Seriously, our 'anniversary', should we call it that, was yesterday. The thing is, I think I'm either bored or tired or I don't like him as much anymore or something. Ok, now lets add in another factor: I think I like somebody else who just happens to like me back. That 'somebody else' also happens to be my bf's best friend. The thing is, I don't wanna hurt my bf by liking 'somebody else' (who also lives three houses down from me). And I don't wanna make any bad descisions. I've been thinking about breaking up with my bf for a while now, but I don't want to make the wrong desicion and break up with him only to want him back three days later. Also, if I don't want him back, I don't want things to be weird with him. I wanna stay really good friends with him for a long time. And then if/when we break up I don't wanna hurt him in any way by wanting to go out with 'somebody else'. I probably would never do that because that would just be wrong. But I hate that! If I am no longer going out with anybody, I should be able to goout with anyone I want right? But even if I could do that, I wouldn't want it to seem like I left my bf for that 'somebody else'! This sucks!!! Help!!! ...me vewy comfoozd...

The title pretty much says it all... Seriously tho! I wanna watch Bleach episode 158 when it airs but I don't know what channel it's on! I've been watching it on the internet through free streaming no download sites and stuff and now since I've caught up with the series I have to wait for ppl to post the episodes on the web so I figure it'd be just as easy and way more fun for me to watch the episodes on T.V. Only one little problem... I DON'T KNOW WHAT CHANNEL IT IS!!!! And the new episode airs on the 30th. Help!

I am so happy for tomorrow!!!! My friend and I are still fighting but it's mostly her problem. She's upset abut everything and she needs to get her life back in order and when she figures that out she won't want to fight with me any more. She's just making a lot of her own problems and she doesn't realize it. On the bright side my bf will be back at school! Yay!!!!!! I was getting so lonely! All my friends come to my locker when he's here. He comes for me, Mark comes for him, Dillon comes for Mark, Matt comes to be weird, and Kyle comes cuz that's where everybody else is. Also I was missing him a lot! Anyway, hopefully things will be a little better! I'll write tomorrow when I know for sure what to write about... I just need to et off some energy right now... Mostly my friend is making me really upset and I don't like it. But like I said, she's just upset cuz her life is fucked up. It suks cuz there's nothing I can do about it. I can't fix her life! Trust me, I would if I could but I can't so I just have to wait for her to sort it out and let this goddammed stereotypical highschool drama queen crisis run it's course and things'll be better. I'm pretty sure... I'm just gonna keep telling myself that.

Ok, this has been the most dramatic week of the year. I'd say hellacious but, for one thing, I can't spell it and for another, I'm not sure the word completely describes my week. Ok, so here's what my week boils down to: My boyfriend got suspended for a retarded and embarrassing reason, I got sick and my best friend and I had a fight and to make things seem worse than they are, I'm on my period. I know that last part isn't something you just say to the entirety of Quizilla to read but I feel that it plays at least a little part in my problems. Cuz all you girls out there know that you're usually a bit more emotional at that time of the month right? Anyway on Tuesday, Skyler (my bf) got in trouble for looking at gay porn and was assigned to 3 days OSS. Now before you start freaking out about how he's a gay weirdo let me tell you the retarded and embarrassing part. He was tricked by this kid we all hate called Whitey (cuz his last name is White). Here's what happened. They were in math class (in the computer lab) and Whitey and two of his friends told Skyler to go to a site that was supposed to have some cool midevial (obviously I can't spell that either) on it that Skyler would probably like and Skyler being the middle ages freak that he is (sorry if your reading this Skyler although I find it very unlikely that you ever will) went and guess what it REALLY was? Ew. That is seriously all I can say. Anyway he's in alot of trouble which is very sad because he's really a good id even if he can be a bit (or alot) of a perv at times (thankfully not around me!!!) Then I got sick and stayed home on Wednesday playing Runescape. On Thursday (today) I was going to stay after school in he math room with my friend Haley so we could do our homework with the math teacher in the room and ask questions and stuff. We ended up getting into a fight abut everything and nothing at the same time. Don't ask me how that works. I'm not exactly sure. The cause of the fight was from absolutely nothing then we fought about everything. Well it was more like we talked about everything and everything we said we didn't agree on. I think it was one of those fights that needed to happen though. You know? Those fights that happen and things get better because of them, because you worked stuff out? That kind. And of course everything seems like a little bit worse and a bit more emotional if your on your period. Or it does for me at least. Also, I'm lonely! Everybody usually meets up at my locker between classes, but this week I've realized it's not for me!!! Skyler comes to my locker for me, Mark comes for Skyler, Dillon comes for Mark, Matt comes to freak people ou cuz he's weird and funny like that, and Kyle comes cuz there's nowhere else to go. Without Skyler nobody comes. I was on the phone for like three hours last night and then when everybody hung up, I begged my mom to stay in my room and talk to me. I never thought I'd be lonely without my boyfriend! I'm not lonely for him I'm lonely cuz nobody comes to see me! Now I've been going to everybody else's locker and walkin around the hallways with people for as long as I can without bein late... I can't wait for next week. Maybe everything will be better. And I swear anybody that makes fun of my boyfriend is getting their ass kicked! And yes, all my friends are boys. I have like ten boy-friends (NOT bf's!!!) and like three girl friends... *sigh* This week, I swear...

Man, I'm sick and it sucks! I've been coughing and sneezing and blowin my nose all over the place. I know none of you guys want to hear this cuz it's gross an all and I'm sorry but I need someone other than my friends and family to complain to. They've heard enough from me. Sorry, I'm a big complainer when it comes to sickness... I just hate it so much! *sigh* I'll talk to you peoples when I'm not in danger of coughin up a lung... Luv ya. Bye...

Ok, today my friend Haley wore a VERY glittery shirt to school. I swear, I tried to read it but the letters were so big! And the glitter... I swear it either would have blinded me or hypnotized me. I mean it was a very cute shirt but the giant wordz and glitter really distracted me. Any way she ended up getting glitter all over the entire school!!! So now I call her glitter beast -lol- not really. That as just a one day nick-name. It was really funny in science because our teacher was walking around the room and saw glitter on Danny's shirt and she said jokingly, 'Danny did you wear glitter to school today?' So he replied very sarcastically 'Oh, yeah I wore glitter to school today Ms. James.' That got my attention and like half a second later I started laughing because I knew why he had glitter all over him! His locker is right next to Haley's!!! Hahaha... Then Devon piped up and said, 'Man there's glitter everywhere today!' which led to a comment from someone else of, 'It's all over the place next the window in the math room...' which is where Haley sat today!!! Hahahahahahahaha!!!! After science I told Haley about it and she said she got glitter on Danny on purpose cuz he made a comment about her hair or something so she flicked glitter on his back when he turned around. It was so funny at the time but I guess you just had to be there... Also I picked this picture cuz it reminded me of the blinding (and funny) glitter... XD

Ok so this morning me and my friend Mark were waiting at the bus stop for the bus to pick us up and take us to school. After a few minutes of standin' around the bus came over the hill and -WHOOSH- drove right passed us!!! Mark was all confused and I swear he was freakin' out or somethin'! He was all like 'Wh-? Wha the fuck? That is so messed up!!!' and it was really funny cuz I was laughin' my ass off! I swear! At the time it was just so funny! I thought I was gonna have to sit down or somethin'! I was seriously talking between giggles. I was like 'That is so weird! We didn't miss the bus, the bus missed us!!!' Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... I'm gonna be laughin' about that one all week... XD ...so funny... (^_^) Oh, and if you don't think it's funny, don't worry about it! It's one of those things where you just had to be there.

Roses are red Violets are blue Sugar is sweet And so are you But the roses are wilting The violets are dead The sugar bowl's empty And my wrists are stained red

Her name was Auroura She was only five This is what happened When she was alive Her dad was a drunk Her mom was an addict Her parents kept her Locked in an attic Her only friend Was a little toy bear It was old and worn out And had patches of hair She always talked to it When no one's around She lays there and hugs it Not a peep of a sound Until her parents Unlock the door Some more and more pain She'll have to endure A bruise on her leg A scare on her face Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear And softly cries She loves her parents But they want her to die She sits in the corner Quiet but thinking "God, why? Why is My life always sinking?" Then one night Her mom came home high The poor child was hit and slapped As hours went by Then her mom suddenly Grabbed a blade It was sharp and pointy One that she made She thrust the blade Right into her chest, "You deserve to die You worthless pest!" The mom walked out Leaving the girl slowly dying She grabbed her bear And started crying Police showed up At the small little house They quickly barged in Everything was quiet as a mouse One officer slowly Opened a door To find the sad little girl Lying on the floor It must have been bad To go through so much harm But at least she died With her best friend In her arms

OMG!!! They are ruining Runescape!!!!!!!!!!! What the hell???? All the 2008 updates are driving me crazy!!!!! No more uneven trading, new limits on player killing in the wild and the Grand Exchange!!!!! There's more but they don't affect me because I'm not a member. With the no uneven trading outside of 3k, I can't sell anything!!! I can't get anything either!!! My friend was going to give me a set of addy armor absolutely free, but the game saw that it was waaaay over 3k and I ended up having to pay him for it!!!! He says he's going to pay me back though because that wasn't fair. I also can't make as big of a profit off stuff I'm selling. I was going to trade a full steel set of armor (which only costs 3.5k) to some guy and in return he was going to give me 70k worth of stuff (which I would have sold to make a 70k pile of money in my bank) but it wouldn't let us trade because it was like 65K out of range!!!!!!!!! Grrrr!!!!!!!! No fair!!! I ended up selling it for only 4k... Grrr....... There's also new limits on killing other players in the wild (I though I heard something about that somewhere but my brother insists that I am wrong) which is totally rediculous because the whole point of the wild is that you can just walk up to somebody and kill them. You don't have to be in a tournament arena or a bounty hunter or whatever... I don't really care if they changed the wild because I never go there. All I do is make food and sell it. My cooking level is 41, so I can make a huge profit off my food. The problem with the Grand Exchange is, it's interfering with the selling rates and how much of a profit you can make off stuff. My friend used to sell full blue wizzy's for a few K a piece and now that you can just go up and buy one out of the Grand Exchange for waaay cheaper, there's no reason for anyone to buy them from him so he can't make money from them anymore. He also sells capes, but since the Grand Exchange and the uneven trading has been set up, his capes have to be sold for alot cheaper than before or he can't make a profit. Once he sold an orange cape for 10K (no lie! I was there when it happened!!!!) and now all his capes have to be for 500gp or he can't make money at all!!! All my friends are having money problems now!!! Every one of my friends that are members are protesting and complaining to the people of Runescape in the member forums but no change yet. We are also threatening to stop playing or hold a strike or something because this totally sucks!!!!!! My friends and I had a really good idea for a strike: all the members quit paying for their membership for a month and all the non-members could just log on but not do anything. The people of Runescape would lose about 5 million dollars just from the members not paying and if nobody was playing out of protest they would HAVE to change the game back to how it was. According to my friend Ares1968, who's been playing the game for nearly ten years they've been making he game worse and worse throughout the years and it used to be soooo much better than it is now. He's really upset about these new updates and I think this is one of the last straws for the long time devoted players... If you play Runescape and agree with this, comment. If you're a member, comment. If you don't play Runescape so you don't have even a shadow of an idea of what I'm talking about, then why did you even read this thing? (lol) Anyway, that's all I have to say... =,' {.........Runescape.....where did you go.........?

Ok, what I don't get is why the cool music died... I mean stuff like The Dead Milkmen, Cindy Lauper, Madonna, The Proclaimers, The Bangles, The Cure... Why doesn't anybody listen to that anymore? If anybody were ever introduced to those bands, more people than you'd expect would like them. My sister has friends that usually listen to Linkin Park and and stuff and she brought a Proclaimers' CD to school one day and now they love them!!! I mean, dude! That stuff, however old or weird (compared to todays standards) they may be, are AWESOME!!!!!!! I just don't get it... And what about, instead of country the radio plays blue-grass? Not crappy blue-grass like the guy singing never even learned how to talk right, I mean good blue-grass like Alison Krauss or something! I mean, there has to be something other than rap and country in the world!!! Don't get me wrong! I love Carrie Underwood, but seriously! Why don't we all listen to Weird Al and Cindy Lauper? Who's with me? Hello.....? Is anybody out there? *Cricket chirps in background* -Sigh- Why does this always happen to me? lol

Ok, I only have one question... How do 1,100 people read my fanfic and I only get FIVE comments?????????????? FIVE!!!!!! When I ask very nicely and then demand and then threaten!!!!!!!!!!! That is frustrating. I kindly ask people to review and I even say that I accept ALL kinds and they still don't. I tell people that they can say I'm the worst writer ever and I should break all my pencil and go crawl under a rock and die so they'll never have to hear (or read) any of my mindless torture ever again if thay want to. You'd think that would engorage a person to write a review but sadly (and infuriatingly!!!!!!!!) no... Grrr... My best guess is that maybe they died of boredom (or brain melting torture) before they even had a chance to reveiw. If that's so, I feel very guilty... I just killed 1,095 people and probably hospitalized 4. The other one probably needed counceling or something... This is not helping me... All I wanred was reveiws and now I find out I robably made a new graveyard...lol But still... If you read this and you agree, say something... If you read this and it's happened to you, feel free to post a comment...