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October 12, 2005

depression, loneliness, and pain

that's how i feel! depression leads people to many sad effects. lots of its victims commint suicide and lots of others hurt and vut themselves. people think that depression is normal but do you know how much pain does it cause? it hits you liek a hundred knives, but instead of dying quickly, it kills you slowly until you get sick of life being like that. depression is just like a fourth-stage cancer, it spreads throughout your body until it reached your heart and destror it into many pieces. people cut themselves to punish their actions, to feel pain other than sadness, or to leave this cruel world that has been haunting their lives, dreams, and relations. through depression, their victims feel lonliness and cold. the feel their heart heavy from carrying all these pain in deep inside them. people don't care! they never understand! they think they do but they don't! talk is cheap! i have created a dark world inside my head where all my sadness, pain, misery, and loneliness lies. i call it "the shadow realm" XD where every roaming, sad spirit, such as mine lies. there it is completely dark where dark figures eat you up slowly and teasingly. i just want to scream from the top of my lings sometimes to remove at least a little pressure from my heart, but living with 5 people isn't easy. i have to hide this depression deep inside my heart and stop myself from crying my eyes out. i don't want anyone of my friends or families to know how sad and depressed i am. i can't express my feeling to anyone and that is what's breaking my heart and putting holes in it. that's why i feel utter loneliness, depression, pain, and cold... anyone who's suffering because of sadness can talk to me. i know how it feels cause i'm experiencing it. i'm not like those liers who are saying that i understand what you feel. NO! i am here to help and share with anyone who needs to share all these feelings deep inside her. trust me, sharing it now made me feel a little better. talk to me and i will help as much as i can...i promise :)

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