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*I'm telling you this because you don't get it, you think you get it, which isn't the same as actually getting it. Get it?*Sorry I'm late. You wouldn't believe the traffic.-Hatake Kakashiはたけカカシ
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- Jul 17th, 2004
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- Oct 22nd, 2008
About Me
I am awesome, get over it... HAHA. I'm kidding. My name is Oceane, but you can call me owsh. I am a self-proclaimed writer. 16 years of age and is currently attending college. I am a second year student taking up Masscommunications major in Media. Yes, I want to be a reporter/writer. I love singing, dancing, writing and playing the guitar. I'm not the best musician, but my boyfriend is currently teaching me how to be better. I am half French and half Filipina. I am very proud of both my countries. ^^. I have few close friends whom I trust with my life. I am a friendly person to those who treat me well, if you do otherwise, you really don't want to know. I love reading books and stories on quizilla. Believe me, there are a lot of great writers on this site. It really makes my day when someone sends me a nice, simple message. Well, that's all I can say for now... ^^. Ciao.
Newest Creations
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[x.Hatake Kakashi.x] Always And Forever, I Pray It Will Be [oo8]
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[x.Hatake Kakashi.x] Always And Forever, I Pray It Will Be [oo7]
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5.00 |
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[x.Hatake Kakashi.x] Always And Forever, I Pray It Will Be [oo6]
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5.00 |
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[x.Hatake Kakashi.x] Always And Forever, I Pray It Will Be [oo5]
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4.75 |
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[Hatake Kakashi] .♥[+] Dear Love, Goodbye [+]♥. [One shot]
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4.75 |
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Latest Journal Entry
July 13, 2006
Empty (I need advice 4.)
Hey guys... some of you may know that the guy on "I need Advice 1,2 and 3." and I broke up... yes, we did. He told me that he couldn't go on anymore and that he didn't want to be with me any longer. I, of course, felt hurt... but I didn't show it. I just smiled at him and asked him why... he ignored my question and just stayed silent... It crushed me... I mean, there I was thinking that this guy and I would last longer than this (5 months) but, shamefully accept that he doesn't need me anymore. This is the first break up I've ever had that hurt me. We agreed to be friends... and I just nodded and smiled even when deep down I felt so empty.When I saw him the next day I felt something inside of me saying: "There he is." and another one saying: "He's no longer yours." It basically torn me to shreds knowing that the guy I once held hands with, cuddled with, went on dates with, and the guy who told me I love you is no longer mine. I know I don't own him, but still I felt incomplete... and no I am not quoting the BackStreet Boys. This is just what I feel. I still love him. Hard to believe? Not really. I just really do... I guess he was my first love and I always wanted him to be my last but I guess my one simple wish didn't come true.
I once saw him smiling with his friends and laughing but when I passed with my friends he stopped and looked my way. I, of course, looked down, knowing that I couldn't stand looking into those eyes that once were filled with love, now filled with nothing. I didn't cry, I never cried after the break up... even if I wanted to I just kept it all inside... I don't know if I did or said something wrong on my part as the girlfriend but... it hurts, you know?
When I saw him this morning... I just stared at him and then I realized that he turned around and held my gaze for about 5 seconds then I turned away... I mean, he still acknowledges my presence as I do to his... but I'm not used to this feeling of being unatached. When we were marching at the CAT (Citizen's Army Training), me being an officer I saw him meet my gaze from time to time... I see him stealing glances but I don't know... I just can't read his expressions anymore... When I see my friends with their Boyfriend's I feel left out... but everytime I tell myself to forget him, I just end up staring at him... I know it may seem pathetic to your part, but please understand that I really love this guy and I can accept unto letting him go even if it hurts... but I need advice unto which I may know how to handle this feeling of emptiness inside... Thank you.
