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October 11, 2007

AUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, I know I don't post journals usually, but this is important! I need help! OK, so it all started about a yer ago. My mom helps my dad's company by showing employess wanting to move to Canada around. Everyone is british but some have lived in SWitzerland for the past two years. So one day last year, mom comes to pick me up after LEGO ROBOTICS (I know it sounds nerdy but its fun ok!)but instead of just having my little sister with her, she has this REALLY hot guy with her too. Apparently, his family was moving from Switserland and he was lookignat highschools. He was my age. So I showed him around and he seemed to like it but because he might have to move back, he might have to go to the other highschool with the internationally accepted program. i saw him once more before he returned home and we hhad a nice laugh but in the end i knew i wouldnt see him for atleast a year and shouldnt get worked up over him. So this summer my parents tell me that his family hav just movedinto their house and they are coming round to borrow some movies before their stuff makes it over. So i met his older brother and we all enjoyed the nice weather and we agreed to go to a movie with one of my friends who was going to the same school he was. Again we had a good time. So then came the first day of school. We have three new kids in our class who have transfered for grade nine. ONe of them, was avery. At first i didn't even notice him, but after a few days i realised i wasnt the only one who had to leave class early to catch the bus home. Every day i would say hello to the other guy out of the bus window while we waited at his school and he seemed ahppy to see me.BUt everyday i would talk to avery at my locker before going to catch my bus. We flirt innocently but i dont take it as anythin. ONe girl on my bus came from the grade seven eight school upstairs ad djoined in our convo one dy and arfter she was telling me how cute she thought he was. After she said that, i suddenly reallised that i think so to! So i like two guys, niether have met each other and both seem to like me. What to do!? but then i stped seeing the guy at the other school and avery and i start hanging out more. My frieds told me that i couldnt like two guys at once, and i had to pick one. So i made my decision. I like avery. It worked out alright i mean, i get to see him more anyway! In gym thta day i was looking for my friend on the other side of the room and my gaze fell on avery. The only thing was, he was looking back. OUr eyes met (i know it sounds sheesy but just visualise it literally, i cant describe it anyother way!) and i felt my self blush. I didnt see him ofr the rest of the day, but i felt sure he had noticed too. That night on the bus i was looking out the window thinking of avery as we sat at the other school. I wasnt really paying attention to wahat i was fdoing as i stared at the front door, i notice someone walk through the doors and look at me. He was smileing. I bropught my self out of my dream to see hot swiss guy, looking at me. As hesmiled i felt my slef blush and my heart seem to do a back flip and jump up my throat. and i could stop thinking about it all the way home. What am i gonna do!? It's not fair! I'm my own worst enemy! So i began to re- evaluate things. i was going to forget about hot swiss guy, i like avery. deal! i will simply ignore what my heart is telling me.Only, today, during the fire drill i was really cold and ebegan to walk around the group trying to warm. And then i saw something that made any thought of liking avery cleam out of my mind. The he stood with his around rapped around allison (the class slut and avery's ex girlfriend) trying to keep her warm. i was horified. Avery and allison were holding hands at lunch. They were partners in gym. Allison was very happy in drama. I saw hot swiss guy thi afternoon, he seemed happy to see me but i couldnt say hi so i just waved and smiled, but i felt like somehting in side me ahd died and wanted nothing more than to just give him a hug and not let go. I don't know what to do, who to like, whether or not i should talk to one of the three and i was planning on asking hot swiss guy to meet some of my friends at the football game next week with both our schools...but i dont know if i should. I need advise bad! PLease comment! Tthanx! Sumi

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