rockbarbie01's Journal

I couldn't really think up a title for this post because there are so many things i'm putting in it lol. Ok first and foremost, we all know about the Jared and Sandy split and that there has been a lot of specualtion over the real reason for it but what some of you may not know is that Sandy has added fuel to the fire by selling everything she owns that Jared has ever touched on ebay. No joke. I have to say I think this is very disrespectful to Jared especially considering that it's turned a number of his fans against him and the majority of people are quick to point the finger at Jared for the break up. While I understand and sympathise with Sandy, It must be very painful and I respect that , what I don't understand is why she posted on her website that they had indeed broken up but as she still cared for and lovedJared very much people shouldn't say or do anything that might upset him. That's a bit hypocritical isn't it. At least he was honest in the end and didn't wait till after the wedding or there was kids involved, I just want to urge everyone to give Jared their love and support and remind him he does still have people out there who care. I'm considering organising a petition too to have the stuff removed from Ebay.

Speaking of petitions www.petitionspot.com/petitions/ashleesimpson, i hope I got the link right, ok this might be a bit mean but I found it hilarious, people actually want her label to drop her and for her never to be seen again lmao! I mean no one bought her last album yet here she is inflicting another one on us and claiming her new stuff sounds like siouxsie and the banshees etc honey please one thing you'll never be is a rock artist, you can barely make it as a pop artist. Also she's had to employ a bodyguard and take side doors going into venues because so many people are waiting to take a pop at her, awesome lol. And she apparently bought six pairs of x small jeans to try and fit into after the baby's born because she's self conscious about the weight she's put on, you couldn't fit into an x small when you weren't pregnant so give it up. I mean poor Pete goes out and works from 7am to whatever time at night, a direct quote said he goes to work at 7am and comes home to puppy poop and a pregnant wife, I mean seriously take five minutes away from spending all Pete'smoney and clean up the poop for crying out loud. Ok sorry Asslee fans but she just really angers me, Pete slaves away just to make money for her to spend and hes gonna end up getting ill cause of exhaustion or some s**t and it just sucks majorly.

Also happy belated birthday to Ryro who turned 22 on Saturday and happy birthday to Spencer who's 21 tomorrow. I love you both *hugs and kisses* Ryan please don't be the next fbr person to get married lol

Go check out my baby Jen's new account xJenniWinchesterx! She is writing a Supernatural fan fiction called Twisted. Also read her journal post on a certain liar we have here on Quizilla! Thanks everyone!!

Let me know what you think of the new Ed story and if you'd like to read more :)



You Never Heard Me Break Your Heart - Preview


My eyes narrowed in unobtrusively on the flex of Chace's fingers as they grazed the small of Ed's back, sucha subtle yet intimate gesture, much like how this whole thing had started out. Allegedly. Their announcement hadn't come as much of a surprise, now that I thought about it the signs had been staring me in the face for a while, but it didn't make the pain of finding out any less bearable. I couldn't deny they made an adorable couple, I was happy for them even, but part of me refused to accept there could be anyone more perfect for Ed than me. Although in a less stalker-esque way, more in the been together so many years we'd become part of each other sense. A small smile creased the corner of my lips at the increased pressure of Ed's arms around my waist, a sure indication that he felt the same. I pulled away slightly, eager to avoid any awkwardness or unease on Chace's part as I extended my smile to them both without disentangling my fingers from Ed's.

"Just to be clear you don't have to move out, and you're still coming to my party right? we'll cut back on the PDA I promise". Chace looked slightly disgruntled at Ed's attempt to compromise but was apparently no more immune to the Westwick grin than I was. I responded with a soft roll of my eyes, reminding myself that he was in fact turning 21 and not 5 as his current disposition suggested.

"I'll be there and yes you'll still get your present. Apparently there's some unwritten rule somewhere that since we were still together when I bought it I still have to give it to you". If possible, Ed's grin widened as he raised his hands triumphantly, causing his shirt to ruck upconsiderably and expose the soft, slightly tanned expanse of skin from his hips to his stomach. Chace and I tilted our heads simultaneously, smiling in amusement as we caught one another appreciating the view.

"Are you scoping out my boyfriend?". Chace's words were accompanied by a teasing smirk which sent a deep lurch directly to the pit of my stomach, which felt like it could drop out at any minute. Ed looked equally surprised by Chace's somewhat possessive statement, giving the impression that they maybe hadn't discussed the boyfriend situation yet. Shallow waves of nausea pooled gently in my stomach as the realisation hit me, it wasn't just some fling like a page from a fangirl's fantasy, Ed was apparently Chace's boyfriend now, not mine anymore. Somehow puttinga label on all their mixed emotions and feelings that until now had boiled away contently under the surface made it seem so much more official.

"Just because i'm giving up the saddle doesn't mean I can't groom the horse" I replied with a teasing grin to rival Chace's. Ed shot us both a look that Chuck Bass would be proud of, apparently mine and Chace's show of jealousy was doing wonders for his ego.

"Just to be clear the only horse like thing about me is how well i'm hung". And things officially cross from playful to awkward. A slight flush spread across Chace's cheeks as I reached for my purse, hoping the slight tinge of rouge disguised my own blush well enough. It wasn't as if we didn't know we'd both been sleeping with him but it sounded a little less sordid when it wasn't thought about out loud.

"I'd love to stay here and continue this stimulating conversation, no pun intended, but I said i'd meet Rory and i'm already late so i'm just gonna leave you to it". Chace's eyes lingered on his feet guiltily at my sudden attack of hostility, stepping away from Ed who clearly knew he'd toed the line. I chugged back the dry lump forming in my throat, willing away the the stinging behind my ears from the tears that were threatening to fall. They'd come under enough scrutiny from the press and such and I appreciated how hard it had been for them to tell me, no point in making it any harder.

"Lana? this is gonna sound totally weird and probably selfish but i really hope this won't affect our friendship. I know this must be killing you and it was wrong of us to keep it from you for so long, but I adore both of you and I don't want to lose you. Either of you". Chace's sudden attack of conscience was the last thing I expected, given that he dumped his last girlfriend by text message. The lack of sparkle behind his pretty blue eyes assured me that he meant it and I acknowledged his attempt at an apology with a small smile and an affectionate squeeze.

"It's gonna take some getting used to but for what it's worth, I'm glad he chose you and not some random skank". A soft sigh of relief escaped Chace's lips as the door closed behind me, my own breath leaving me ina choked out sob as I left the building.

I never realised how haunting that song was until they used it in the Supernatural trailer over here for the lead up to the season three finale. Its like playing the song in the background and then there's obviously clips from the show with captions like 'when you sell your soul there's hell to pay' and 'one hell of a finale'. Im like ok ok Dean's going to hell stop it shut up! lol. I actually have to cover my ears every time the trailer is on because the lyrics are just so fitting to Dean's situation and even though i'm a Sammy girl through and through I love Dean and its totally unfair that they're 'killing' him. Even worse now that i know they're keeping him in hell for six months which is years in hell time and he comes back with post traumatic stress. I mean it'd be kinda funny if he came out all 'Sammy i've seen the error of my ways, i'll never have a one night stand again' *giggles* but on the other hand he's gonna be so depressed and upset and I kinda just want to hold him in my arms and make it all better til the old Dean comes back, if he ever does. I've been having nightmares and everything, seriously, i'm totally disturbed by Dean going to hell. I have this recurring one where i'm in a graveyard but all the graves are standing up and made of glass and everyone of them has Dean/Jensen's body inside. And I mean they're all dead but I can hear him screaming and begging me to get him out and asking me where Sam is and then his hand just comes out and grabs me Carrie style and he's all bloody and crying *shudders*. Happy now Kripke? i'm traumatised too lol

So it's been like 12 days since the split and there's still no sign of Jared and Sandy getting back together, which is the most awesome thing ever, he's apparently staying with Jensen until they start filming season 4 so I know he's in good hands and he's probably doing more than ok without her. I totally have 'Never Again' and 'Misery Business' playing in my head right now lol Now i have to focus on getting rid of Daneel using my amazing psychic powers, seriously go back and read my journals i've been saying for months Jared would dump Sandy before she turned thirty etc etc plus he still hasn't cut his hair and that was over a year ago I had the dream where I made him promise not to. So yeah ima try work my mojo on Jensen now lol. Omg there was this guy in the shop today who was the same height as Jared, I measured myself against him and I come to just beneath his chest like level with the bottom of his armpit,I was real excited cuz i'm like omg we can totally still do it in the missionary position which caused Alex to almost wet his pants because the dude was giving me this really weird look lol i'm like don't flatter yourself honey I didn't mean you lol. I always thought with the height difference it'd be tricky but apparently not and Jensen's shorter than him so that means it'd work with both of them lol. I mean of course, I want to hold their hands and stuff too but yeah you gotta consider the physical side too cuz they are men after all lol.

Ok well i've rambled enough, have a great weekend guys, go check out the new Jared and Jensen story and feel free to message me anytime :)

Ok so technically it should be ding dong the witch is gone but whatever fact is Jared confirmed at the convention in Dallas over a week agothat he and Sandy have split *grins wide* no one cheated or anything it was decided amicably because it was the wrong time for them and they weren't meant to be and wanted different things blah blah blah *smooshes him* im really sorry it didn't work out baby and i apologise for this but *does chandler bing happy dance* oh and btw Sandy hun, read your post about it on sandramccoy4fans.net and just thought you should know foul is spelled f-o-u-l not fowl, man confirming that your got dumped and that you're every bit as dumb as you look in one day sucks to be you lol ok fine i'll stop gloating now lolone skank down one to go, actually three more if you include Kenzie and Ashlee but hey the biggest one is gone thats whats important. I told you he didn't want to get married, behold my psychic Sammy skills lol, the connection again see lol.

So ghostfacers, interesting episode. It sucks they blocked out the swearing though, i love it when those boys talk dirty *giggles* and ewww creepy gay geek love, seriously leave it Sammy and Dean boys *giggles*. Although it's good to see Jensen is filling out again and has his SMC's back, also known as sexy man curves, as sported also by Spencer Smith and Brendon Urie from Panic at the Disco *giggles*. I know he had to lose like a stone and a half (about 21lbs) for ten inch hero for some reason but im glad he's put it all back on, where would we be without that you can bounce a quarter off lol its like watching Chad and Jared on Gilmore Girls (they're repeating the first season over here) they're so young and scrawny and pre-pubescent babies *smooshes them* its so weird looking at them all tall and well built now lol fourth season of Smallville is also being repeated which means lots of Jensen saying Lana mmmmm lol

Story wise i'm reinstating Dirty Pretty Things, i found the originals and i really miss that story it was fun, i've also come up with a bunch of new ideas for the story which i discussed with a friend last night and got good results, they include a new nickname for Jared which stems from getting very inventive with twizzlers and rainbow laces. Also we concluded that to get over the break up Jared needs Jensen to dress in a nurse uniform and be a candy stripper *giggles* yes we live in the gutter permanently now, its very cosy lol

take care guys and happy celebrating Jared fans *smirks and giggles*

I adore that song, i think it's my favourite from Infinity on High. Considering Ashlee and Pete got married at the weekend its probably gonna come as a surprise to some people that i'm using fall out boy lyrics because i was major p***ed at Pete for a while there lol. Yeah i had to block out the swear word cause apparently quizilla are blocking all swear words out anyway so ifigured i'd save them the trouble lol. In all seriousness I wish Ashlee and Pete the best of luck with the marriage and the baby, i'm not really sure about what the magazines are saying about her dad offering them pics of the baby and stuff for money but I guess they can't be blamed for that. He acted the same with Jessica so i'm guessing Ashlee will be on her guard about him telling her what to do for publicity and stuff.

Omg what an emotional season finale of Supernatural *sniff* poor poor Dean, here's hoping Sammy finds a way to save him and that he's not gonna turn all demon on us or something next weekend. Also how can a demon possess another demon like Lilith did to Ruby? is that even possible im confused. Also in all the lore i've read Lilith is a grown woman and a succubus but i'm guessing they've just borrowed the name as opposed to the whole character.

Anyways just another bored and random post from work, hope you guys had a nice weekend :)

Finally all my stuff has been moved over. It kinda sucks that all the votes have been reset though cuz not many people are gonna go back and take the same quiz or story twice. Oh well. Cobra Starship gig tonight, my mom's friend is throwing her a birthday party so my conscience is totally clear on one hand but on the other my girl will get sad if i go and even though she trusts me she'd probably worry that i was gonna ditch her for some rockstar or pretty emo boy. She even gets sad when i go to sleep at night cuz shes more of a night owl and sleeps mostly during the day and the result is that im now sat at work on the verge of tears, with bags under my eyes snapping at everyone from the lack of sleep cuz i feel obliged to stay up with her. How do you tell someone in the nicest way possible that although you love them dearly you're kinda suffocating slightly and need some personal space. whats a girl to do.

On the plus side Jared and Jensen in 3D :D can't wait for the new Friday the 13th and My Bloody Valentine movies. Although if i was Daneel i'd be worried given that Jensen's co-star and love interest is a gorgeous blonde model and he has an impressive track record of falling for people he works with. Just saying, nothing personal lol. I'd kinda like to do a story that's a mix between Friday the 13th and My Bloody Valentine it'd be fun to write but there doesn't seem to be much room for those kinda fics on here. Also in the process of writing a Hayley Williams fic, i've read a few femmeslash ones on here and i've never been one to make a secret of my sexuality and i'm not ashamed of the fact i have a crush on her.

Well hope y'all had a nice weekend and you'll check out the story or stories when they're up :)

I just thought those lyrics were very fitting since the Supernatural season three finale is heading up and im hella nervous about what they're gonna do this year lol. Although seen as we have a season four im assuming Dean doesn't die but that doesn't rule out another big emotion fest like last seasons finale.I mustpoint out thateven though the lyrics are the same, i'm using the All Time Low version of Umbrella lol. From what i've heard of them they sound pretty good, i think they're the first band i've heard before seen lol.

Feeling heapsbetter today, i posted lyrics to misery business and they made it on to the most popular list so yay but im guessing thats just cuz everything hasn't been moved over yet lol. My mom's off for her birthday this weekend and my sister's staying with a friend so i have the place to myself which funnily enough im looking forwardto even though i hate being home alone especially at night. I guess a Supernatural marathon would probably make me even more jumpy lol but meh who cares, as long as im snug in my duvet with tons of sugar and Sammy and Dean i don't care who tries to attack me lol not that anyone would, i just get very paranoid when im home by myself which i think i mentioned in a previous entry a while back.

So Ashlee wants to legalise cannabis huh? lol i'm sure your younger fans appreciate that hun, i didn't even know Pete smoked pot lol i mean with all the meds he's on isn't that a bad idea? lol according to her they like to get high together anyway lol and apparently shes been sent death threats, they're not from me i swear lol, fingers crossed the sicko sending them actually follows through *giggles* ok mean i take that back thats not very nice. I feel kinda bad about ditching my mom on her birthday so im having a major attack of conscience over whether to go see Cobra Starship or not which sucks. stupid conscience voices lol.

Have a nice weekend y'all :)

Just felt like i needed to vent, again lol, that first line is probably the readers cue to run away lol. 

Just one of those days, i mean i was fine yesterday, its like i have good days and bad days and today i woke up and nothing has gone right.  I was feeling real confident yesterday, but turns out no one's interested in out for the kill anymore, i know its only a preview and its been forever since i updated but i really can't help that, it doesnt mean i should be excluded from all the supernatural cliques that seem to have formed on here, if you're a fan then it shouldn't matter how often the person you're a fan of updates, like authors take years between books but someone on here takes a break for a few weeks or months and all of a sudden people lose interest and exclude them its really annoying.  Im also annoyed that im always seen as the cute, sweet girl why can't i be the hot girl for once? or why do people have to bang on about what a hottie someone else is when they know the person they're talking to is insecure and probably feels quite hurt about it

On the plus side im going to see Cobra Starship on the 14th, same night as my mom's birthday but lets face it gabe vs mom there's really no contest lol

I looooooooove that song, it came on the other day there in the store when me, Alex and Chris were discussing the convention it was so weird, they'd been like bugging me about why im not going and im like well neither of the boys are going and Jared pulled out just after i did so itd be kinda unfair and then boom those two lines started up lol. Yeah im weird, its not as if it was really a message in the song it was just so coincidental it was funny. Speaking of the boys, i posted a preview to the next chapter of out for the kill, i really wanna try and update it more, i think now i got another season two boxset to watch im getting my mojo back lol I don't even care that Jared and Sandy are getting married anymore, he still makes me all tingly lol Ive also been showing everyone simon said and pointing out where Dean calls Sam babe lol even my mom said it was definitely either babe or baby, i did try to point it out to Alex and Chris but telling them to watch the movement of Jensen's lips resulted in trips to the bathroom for them both, ewww lol though i can't talk, they also discovered what listening to hey man nice shot by filter does to me. I had to put on skin to show them and they both agreed they'd never listen to that song in the same way again lol Anyways just wanted to check in and keep you guys posted, not that many of you pay attention these days but oh well lol have a nice day guys :)

I love that song, its fight the good fight by triumph and i believe it featured at the beginning of either Salvation or Deadman's Blood (episodes of Supernatural), man its been a long time since i watched season one but watching it last night i realised i still know most of the script off by heart lol Ive also ordered my new season 2 boxset and about three hours later found the one i lost lol and i can't cancel the order so now i have two lol oh well you can never have too many when it comes to Sam and Dean lol once again Jared pulled out of going to the asylum convention directly after i did, thats two years in a row its happened, totally weird.  Maybe we have some psychic vibes going on or something lol i swear, seriously like somehow i just knew without even having met them that Jensen's weak spot is behind his ear and Jared's i think is his neck and other stuff like that.  Both Jensen and i are pisces and they're supposed to have a real strong psychic connection so who knows.

Also updated the Devour story, im getting real excited about it, somehow Dean's ended up coming into it lol my original plan was just to have Sam in it but then i thought itd be a fun case for them both to investigate so boom there Dean is lol.  Its also gonna cause a lot of tension cause there's the fact that she has a crush on Sam but hes so shy which could lead to some flirting with Dean and then there's the whole jake angle lol im thinking of just letting the readers decide who she ends up with. 

Anyways best get back to work, hope y'all have a good day :)

So i know its two days early but loads of birthday hugs and kisses to Patrick Stump who is 24 on Sunday *smooches and squeezes*, that makes him exactly two months and one day younger than me lol here's to getting drunk and hopefully telling Ashlee what he really thinks of her *giggles* man that would be funny.  Although i can't really picture Patrick drunk, hes too sweet and innocent. 

We have to wait til the end of May for Supernatural to come back on over here *pouts* i mean the writers strike is over so what's the deal with the break? im like a drug addict without their next fix lol i need my Winchesters lol omg and they also tried to ban the new Supernatural ban for being "too sexy" wtf? dude i know the boys are hot but you can't censor them for being good looking, last time i checked there was no sexual scenes or swearing or anything that wasn't appropriate for a promo.  Stupid old network fuddy duddies.  Good news about Bela not being in season 4 though, i knew Kripke still loved me lol, asta la vista bitch lol Jared also confirmed in his CW connect interview that neither Sam or Dean will ever have love interests, its always gonna be them and the impala.  Thank you Kripke, thank you sooooo much, see we totally have a connection and are on the same page *winks and giggles*.  I got a new phone though and ive got most of the Supernatural soundtrack on it which is awesome, i also have plenty wallpapers and screensavers and videos to keep me going so no biggie.  i have to get a new season 2 boxset though, i lost mine :(

The new vamp story seems to be going down well, hope y'all enjoyed the updates and have a great weekend <3

Doesn't that sound more like something Pete or Brendon would say? *giggles* don't get me wrong i love the new confident side of Ryan and hes awesome when hes being bitchy, hes like the gayest straight guy ever lol and i don't mean that in a bad way. Things are finally looking up and im getting some good luck thrown my way for a change. I won a copy of pretty odd on kerrang radio which was awesome and the american dj who helps present the show said i had a gorgeous voice lol i know some americans have quite a liking for the scottish, i wonder if i could charm Pete that easily lol so i posted my new vampire fic, nobody seems to be taking it though. It features, Hayley Williams, Pete, Ryan, Brendon, William, Gabe, Ryland, Nate, Travie, and tons more and im actually quite proud of it. I think there's something up with my cbox though, either that or its just that no one has been leaving messages lol

Im feeling a little down right now and i guess i figured the best way to feel better is to write everything down and vent it all.  I can't even explain why i feel so crappy i just do, its like this big black cloud hanging over me waiting for the next lot of bad news to come along and drop on me.  Seriously nothing has gone right for me this past month, nothing.  Im not gonna feel sorry for myself or anything because there's no point, someone once told me the only way things will get better is if you believe they're going to get better.  Same as if you really want something bad enough to make it happen then it'll happen.  Although i can't make Ashlee infertile or make Pete impotent or stop loving her lol but its not just about that, i mean i know its totally sad to be down about something so stupid so im trying not to let it get to me. 

On the plus side the messaging system works again, funnily enough it started working just after i posted the first part of my new story. it was supposed to be a Panic one for xxAmberxxlovesyou but it kinda took on a life of its own and became a Pete one which will feature Panic.  I feel like im going crazy because no guy has ever had this effect on me and i feel like a complete saddo for feeling this way.  Hope you guys are having a better week than i am xxxxxxx

I know its kinda strange to use fall out boy lyrics after a simple plan signing/gig but there is a connection between the two, im getting to it i promise.  I wasn't really planning on going to the signing or gig because of the whole David being friends with Ashlee thing, turns out hes not i was actually wrong for once lol, but anyway my boss insisted i be professional and non judgemental and hang around to welcome them to the store and whatever.  So while we're waiting for the boys to arrive me and Chris are having a conversation about the new fall out boy dvd, which is awesome by the way i can't believe they actually called it f**k unless its supposed to be just four stars lol but anyways, i remarked on how the best part was that there's no Ashlee in sight and all of a sudden Alex bursts in fresh from apparently flirting with David but i have no proof so im sticking to alleged flirting lol.  Hes all breathless and like Lana don't be mean hes not friends with her and he made this totally valid point about how it was like Nick and Jessica all over again and that high profile relationships like that never work which kinda got me thinking.  Maybe thats the plan, get all the fame and publicity then divorce Pete and take all his money.  I mean her new video has shot straight to number 5 in the most wanted charts over here since they went public with the engagement and shes on most magazines over here so it kinda makes sense lol.  Anyway point is David Desrosiers thinks im prettier than Ashlee Simpson, woooooow *giggles* i totally reverted to a fifteen year old.  I didn't come out and ask him i just mentioned that it was awesome how much time Simple Plan dedicate to their fans and stuff and that at least they don't take sly digs about their fans being jealous of their girlfriends like Pete did on the dvd and he just kinda laughed and hes like seriously? what a d**k, i wouldn't take it personally you have nothing to be jealous of i think it'd be the other way around, im like blushing my ass off by that point. Im still blushing right now lol.  Maybe im totally being paranoid but Pete was taking a dig at his fans who hate Ashlee im sure, first when they played don't matter by akon hes like this song is pretty applicable and then before thanks for the memories hes like this song is about loving a girl so much and being so jealous of her you want to cut her up into little pieces cuz she tastes like you only sweeter.  Sounded like a dig to me lol.

Anyway the whole thing inspired a new Pete story lol where like one of his exes who he broke up with because of his inability to commit and stay faithful finds out hes marrying Ashlee and even though shes marrying someone else it still kinda hurts her but then circumstances, mostly Patrick and her female friend's meddling, cause her and Pete to meet again and they're kinda trying to pretend that they're happy and excited about the weddings and stuff but all the old feelings are there and blah de blah lol also inspired by a naughty dream i had about Pete the other night and by the a little less sixteen candles video because he makes the fangs and eyeliner look hot lol.

So the messaging thingy still isnt working, anyone who wants to message me about anything can either do so through my journals here, my cbox or my email which is either wentzette01@yahoo.co.uk or happy_bunny0179@hotmail.com use whichever one you like just make sure you let me know who you are cuz im a bit ditzy lol enjoy the rest of your day guys <3

That last line should read 'you can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, im liking the new Simple Plan album and i loooooove that song.  It feels like over the last two days nothing has gone right, and i don't just mean Ashlee officially announcing her engagement to Pete, good luck with that hun even her own sister called her a tramp so i'd get an STD test before you sign any prenups or anything lol.  Although hes apparently still allowed to make out with guys, more specifically John Mayer who hes supposed to have had lots of make out sessions with following his break up from Jessica.  sigh, oh Petey pie.  Then my girl tells me that she lied about cheating and just said it to hurt me because i was being all nonchalant about her going on an overnight cruise with her friends.  On some level it kinda hurts more that she lied about it purposely to hurt me than if she had actually gone out and cheated on me.  Im not sure what to do, part of me is relieved but part of me still doesnt know whether to trust her or not.

On a lighter note seeing Simple Plan tomorrow night, Alex is dragging me there, he says it'd be rude to go to the signing and not the show.  Except we work at the music store where the signing is so we can't exactly not go to the signing.  Im way excited, no standing in queues this time cuz i'll get to meet them before they go out to sign, is David really married now? i know him and Ali have been together for like forever but i wasn't sure.  He's still hot lol, hopefully he still has the dark hair even though i still would if he had the blonde hair again lol.  Im trying to talk my boss into maybe getting Panic or Fall Out Boy to sign next time, then Ashlee could have a nice little accident on the stairs *innocent giggle* obviously id get Alex to push her im not going to jail for anyone lol i know it sounds kinda mean and manipulative but whatever lol As for this whole spamming thing i got messages from both ion1907 and quizbot and i can still see my messages and access them but when i reply and return to my inbox they're not there lol so im not sure if its working again yet but i hope it will be soon cuz its frustrating not knowing whether i don't have any messages or if i have new ones but i just can't see them.

And now i really wanna do a new simple plan story so the new one is gonna have a loooot of people lol panic, fob, tai and simple plan wow so im gonna need a lot of people except no one gets Ryan, Pete or David sorry lol well i might reconsider at some point.  Anyways hope y'all had a better weekend than me, love you guys <3

So once again i've been cheated on, my girl, well not my girl anymore, admitted she slept with some guy behind my back, i don't know if i'll ever trust anyone again, everyone ive ever dated with the exception of the first girl i dated has cheated on me.  There must be something really wrong with me.  Part of me wants to just grab Alex and drag him somewhere and just lose control of my inhibitions but i know it won't take the pain away, it'll probably just cause more.

On a lighter note happy birthday to Brendon Urie for tomorrow, 21 at last bless him, maybe he'll get a nice big birthday smooch from Ryan, or Pete even lol speaking of Pete my fall out boy dvd is almost here, its not released til Monday but it should be arriving before then.  Alex says if Ashlee's on it he'll give me my money back lol it does have all the music videos on it though which is awesome. 

Anyways have a good weekend guys

Yeah i know that song is totally cheesy but ive had it in my head over the last few days, its with you by chris brown for anyone who doesnt know lol its actually a pretty good song, maybe Patrick will be nice enough to sing it like he did with im so lonely by Akon and that other sick of love songs and tears song.  I ordered a copy of goodnight moon after seeing that clip of Pete getting down and dirty in it, i love it when he really starts getting into it and holding her down and getting rough.  Yeah im kinda weird that way lol im probably just gonna put that part on repeat and ignore the rest of the movie lol

so my whos your panic at the disco shopping buddy quiz is going down really well, im surprised i thought everyone would just think i was weird lol but now i have people demanding a panic story so im working on that.  Well thats all folks, just wanted to give y'all a quick update :)

Thats my karaoke song lol i dont have a voice as good as Hayley's but i do kinda rock at it lol i know i said i wasn't gonna mention Supernatural again and i wasn't going to watch it last night but yeah what can i say lol the episode had it all, Dean in the shower, some little minor wincesty themes ("Sam i get all tingly when you take charge like that") best quote ever lol since im not speaking to Jared im just gonna focus on Dean/Jensen right now lol after all the biggest kick in the balls for a guy is watching the hot chick who thought you were a god turn to your best friend *giggles*. I seriously thought Dean was peeing while Sam was brushing his teeth at first, too bad he was gargling although it was really sweet that they were sharing the bathroom and the hug *squees* Sammy was really holding him, so cute.
 
I hope you guys had a good weekend and are enjoying the easter holidays, wish i had time off work for an easter break lol. Then i could also avoid Alex after our argument cuz id never have to leave the house lol. He said some really nasty things about me after he found the pics of me and Pete on my memo board. I think he took offence to the fact that i kinda flirted with Pete but im not showing the slightest interest in him, i did point out that i wasn't dating my girl at the time i met Pete for the first time but apparently thats "just an excuse to play the whore for Pete". I know, i wasnt even doing anything lol. Men, they're worse drama queens than women sometimes. Then he said i was shallow and he hopes i do end up with some pretty asshole like Pete to teach me a lesson. Which i replied as long as hes wearing the heels *giggles*, which apparently Pete totally does at home, the ones designed by Jessica Simpson more specifically. That is so hot seriously, im starting to think hes like the bitch and Ashlee's the daddy lol i think Alex failed to realise Pete wasnt serious about the modelling thing so im sure i wont be off to live a shallow life anytime soon.  probably lol.  Although i really would love to model for Clandestine, i have this vision board at home and mostly its full of stuff to do with me and my girl like our house and babies and stuff but i have this thing of Pete and the model chick from the shoot they did to represent my dream job and theres a pic of me with Spencer and Ryan stuck on loaded with shopping bags lol.  Seriously that pic of Spencer with his pink bratz shopping bag is the most adorable thing ever and when he said he sings girls just wann have fun in the shower lmao awww, even if he was joking thats the sweetest thing.  Im kinda starting to see the attraction to him now lol.  Pete was also bratz shopping with them *giggles*.

 Well take care folks, ima shut up now cuz im running out of things to blab about and im sure ive bored everyone enough lol

I don't know why everyone was so quick to diss Infinity on High its actually a pretty decent album, i still prefer From Under The Cork Tree or Take This To Your Grave but there's some good songs on it.  I miss Pete's angry songs though lol.  Anyways yeah the lyrics are from Hum Hallelujah but i guess you all knew that already lol in case you're wondering why i just went on some rant about Fall Out Boy albums lol.  And yes im in a much cheerier mood today, Alex and i feng shuied and de-jareded by bedroom last night lol i got rid of everything i owned that had to do wiith Jared or Jensen or Supernatural and it actually felt good.  My obsession wasn't really that healthy anyways and we had a giggle doing it too, apart from when Alex called me high maintenance and picky because i said if i wasn't with my girl i wanted a boyfriend in a band like a proper band and then hes like you mean you want to date a Pete Wentz or Ryan Ross or Brendon Urie which is really disheartening because us real boys are never gonna look like that.  It was a funny and animated discussion to say the least lol.  I didn't even mean a famous band, just a pretty little emo boy because they're adorable and you can trust them not to break your heart and y'know most of them make out with other boys which is a bonus lol.  In conclusion im not high maintenance i just have high standards lol.

We also watched some videos on youtube because Alex was appalled that i'd never seen an interview with William Beckett, he has the sexiest voice ever, i mean its like feminine but not too feminine and all silky smooth.  It was that interview where that chick Tila or whatever her name is is getting interviewed on the red carpet about putting pics of herself in her underwear on her myspace and Will kinda skips over like hi im William i don't have a myspace send me pictures or something like that and then she goes away and the interviewer woman is like i wish i looked as good as you in tight pants and hes like oh im sure you do.  Hes like the sweetest guy ever and he was all stuttery and nervous which oddly made me want to grope him *giggles*.  Also thank you to miss Mel for pointing out that in the video for Nine In the Afternoon Brendon isn't wearing underwear, Alex and i were glued to the screen for hours watching it and then we searched for pics of him on photobucket and found one of him in the shower and his boxers were all clinging, you have some competition mr wentz lol well if Brendon ever decides to post any naked pics lol.

And in case anyone's wondering why i deleted 'With the Lights Out Its A Little Less Dangerous' its because im working on a much better TAI/Panic/FOB story,i also want to do one of those 'Your Night With Fall Out Boy, Panic and TAI' type quizzes just to give something back to everyone whos written awesome stories for me to read, i honestly wish i could do a personalised one for every one of you but that'd take me like a really long time so yeah lol

So ima shut up now, take care folks <3