poetryroxmysox's Journal

Veeeerrrrry bored. Only writing this took fill up the time. Thanks for reading. xD

Hope you have a nice day...

Sorry; I couldn't think of anything else to say.

Bleh. I feel like crap because my stomach hurts. And I'm getting very pissed off at some journal posts and quizzes around here. I'm sorry. I mean....I love Quizilla; honest. But seriously; what the fuck is going on around here? First of all; preps and emos...stop labeling people! Preps may seem horrible to you; but they are STILL PEOPLE. And about how Fall Out Boy/'Emo' Band sucks. First of all; since when was emo even a music genre?! And if Fall Out Boy sucks; keep the nasty comment to yourselves; I think we've heard enough. Plus; if someone likes Fall Out Boy and you hate them; don't yell at them just because they are fans! Which brings me up to my next topic...Disney Channel Stars...High School Musical....Miley Cyrus and Hannah Montana...and the Jonas Brothers. Yes; I'm well aware that some people love them; some like them; and very many of us despise them. But they're just people; it's not like you're ever going to get a chance to yell at them saying how much you hate them. (Well; maybe; but that's honestly not my point.) Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana. Seriously; she may suck to most of us; but she doesn't suck because she's from Disney Channel. She may just naturally suck. And if you hate her; why are you even talking about her?! Jonas Brothers....they're hot vs. they suck. Get over yourselves! The Jonas Brothers are only playing/composing/whatever for their fans (I'm pretty sure of it) and if you don't like them; stop listening to them or talking about them and complaining! Okay? I personally think they're okay...

Thanks. By the way; I am not defending any Disney Channel star; I'm just saying my honest opinions.

I'm glad I can type out my feelings because I honestly wouldn't have the guts to ever say this.

Yeah; I know; don't bug me about the crappy cheesy-sounding title.

Anyways; I'm not mentioning any names ever on this site; the most I'll ever do on this site is two initials.

Now that we have that cleared. As I mentioned in my other post today; D hates N. I definitely don't hate N and I'm not just saying that because she's sensitive. But honestly; she needs to stop becoming a clone of J. Cause I can't stand J. She's so fucking annoying; she pokes me (I HAVE SENSITIVE NERVES! It was much funnier the first time I said that.), brags too much; and thinks she's sooo damn smart and great at singing. We get it. You're right! You're the perfect person...so bright...so wrong! It's almost cruel. But the downside is she's sometimes nice. I still see through the bright things though; because the flaws overshadow the positive qualities in J. N better not become a clone of J.

And I like two guys. I still like the guy I talked about in previous posts; but not as much. Now I also like some stupid [saying that cause I feel like it; he's not stupid. I'm pretty sure he's in all honors class or at least 3] violinist. That isn't my type.

-sigh-

Yes, I sighed again.

Anyways; (don't I say that a lot) that's it for tonight.

Alright; so my friends basically can't stand each other. I'm not coming between it. I mean N hates L1 and L2 (They have the same names). J hates L1 and L2. And D hates N. I'm pretty sure L1 can't stand J. -sigh- If N or L1 actually makes a comment on this post/reads this. 0.0 sorry. I just got bored... And um...well...yeah. There you go.

 

Did that actually help break awkward silences?

 

Hm...

 

Might post again tonight if I feel like it and if I have time.

 

~poetryroxmysox~
[Cathlin]

Yeah; I kind of thought of the title because I'm listening to Thriller by Fall Out Boy. Anyways; I'm soo glad I got their new CD/DVD - ****: Live in Phoenix. And it came out on 4-1-2008. Yay! The CD is great and most people say that they suck live; but I actually think it sounds really good and I can't stop listening to it. And I love their cover of Beat It; I've listened to 17 times and I got it today. 0.o The DVD is awesome too. The concert is...well...the concert; it's amazing. The Behind-The-Scenes has some really random moments that just make you smile and laugh. Plus; it includes 8 music videos. :P I am so happy now! Compared to how pessimistic and sad I usually am; you'd think I'm going through a strange phase. I can't tell if I'm more excited or happy; so I don't know which mood it is...whichever one I choose fits anyway. Well; thanks for listening! Or reading...

So; you must be asking why I am filled with everlasting happiness? Well; if you aren't; I'll tell you anyways. I saw Pete Wentz on The Sauce. =D If you hate him; I'm very sorry for going against for views of hating such a guy. Honestly; there are amazing things about him. Anyways; so I'm happy that I got to see him on TV. Why; you ask; has my happiness been slightly crushed? Well; I've heard that there's a 5-year-old blind girl that can play Fur Elise after just hearing it. GR! I'm definitely proud of her and all; but I tend to get a little...okay; VERY jealous easily. If there's no prodigious activity in my life; I don't feel special. That's just me; I'm not sure about you. Anyways; that was a nice little update. You're lucky; I usually don't update on weekdays.

No; seriously; it has been.

Nothing much happened that I feeling like speaking of.

My boring life is just gotten more boring.

But the world has gotten stranger in the last few days.

and I amSO MAD!

I don't want to watch a fucking basketball game!

Or even answer questions on it!

Just wanted to say... [I know; most of these aren't true; they just sound nice]

'Sometimes; the person you tend to ignore in the meantime is the one you always keep coming back to.' - Me

'You never realize how great something is until you experience it again.' - Me

'If the color blue was a guy; I'd fall in love with him.' [Okay; let's be practical; would you marry a color?

I might post more; I just wanted to keep you posted and let you read something. xD

~Cathlin

Ah...my elastics don't hurt anymore; which is a relief. But it's still a little painful.

Um.

This is quite boring.

Usually I'm more expressive than this.

I mean; I always have my mind cluttered.

I guess there's not much to say.

Stay tuned; it'll get better.

Hopefully.

I just feel like venting feelings and frankly; I don't care if YOU don't care. Today I went to the orthodontist and I learned that oddly enough; braces aren't that bad. And rubber bands are. >.> My first day...they hurt. Of course; I can still eat so...it could be worse. Much; much; worse. Just wanted to clear that up. Okay; journal readers; you can all go back to your normal lives now.

I know; I know; that's the cheesiest title I could've come up with; but honestly; it's true. Being an outsider myself; I know what it feels like; but I'm not in a gang. The book is amazing and draws out so many emotions in me. And the movie's amazing; keeps you hanging; and makes you cry. Unless you're emotional deprived or something. xD But the book made me cry when Johnny died. In the movie; Dally dying was sadder. Anyways...let's not talk about deaths so much; it's making me feel down. The Outsiders truly does equal love. If you haven't read it or haven't seen the movie; you should. I had no idea what it was about when I first heard of it. I was like 7 and thought it was about people who lived outsider ._. Of course; now that I am older; I've read the book and seen the movie and somehow I fell in love with both.

♥♥♥

P.S. Just so you know; my favorite characters are Johnny Cade and Ponyboy Curtis. I practically fell in love with Johnny when I read the book. xD

My 36th entry. Why I counted the entries; you ask? It's because I went to a party; well; family gathering/dinner; and my cousins counted my mood swings. I had 36; and this is Journal Post Number 36. How coincidental. Well; that's all I feel like saying now. Might post later or tomorrow.

Hearts, Lies, and Friends II
||Hearts|| Let’s see…where should I start? As I’ve mentioned in the last few journal posts, I really like this guy and so does my friend. But today; something rather…um…emotional…happened. I told him that I liked him. Now I didn’t just go and say ‘I like you’, that would’ve been extremely embarrassing for me; I’m not that confident. We were in Science class and I sit next to him. It’s a coincidence, I didn’t mean for it to happen or anything. So we were just talking and I brought up the fact that my mom told me I should stop liking ________. When I didn’t tell him whose name was in the blank, he went on and asked me if his name was in the blank. It wasn’t even ironic; I kind of knew it would happen. It was rather awkward, he kept on explaining. After fiddling around; avoiding the subject; and trying to say ‘Maybe’ about 5 times; I said yes. I wasn’t even planning to say it so suddenly like that; but I just couldn’t keep it in anymore. I think he dislikes me more than this friend of mine; hence the fact that he banged his head on the table more so when I told him than when she told him. I’m not quite sure why this heartbreak hurt more than the rest. In the past; I’d mope for a week and then get over it and I realize that all those guys didn’t mean as much as this particular guy. He and my friend have so much in common; but not everything. That’s a little strange and creepy. So are we saying that opposites don’t attract anymore? I truly thought they did and I was hopefully hopeful. This guy and I are almost total opposites. He’s an optimist and I’m a pessimist. He’s carefree and I’m a perfectionist. Somehow we managed to have a deep conversation about dysfunctional families. We ended up agreeing that my family’s more dysfunctional. But even with all our differences, I like so much about him. Whenever, I’m around him or I talk to him I go from slightly gloomy to happy. It’s amazing and it’s a huge difference, trust me. He makes me laugh when I don’t even want to smile. I know that’s a cheesy quote, but it’s true for me. I love the way he draws smiley faces on my school stuff just to make me happier. It works magic…and I have no idea where this ‘relationship’ is going; but I hope it’s not downhill. We still talked a little today; but it was awkward.
||Lies|| Hm…I lied and said I didn’t like this guy every time he asked. I think secrets sort of fit into the ‘lies’ category. So I’ll confess: I’ve liked him ever since I first talked to him. I just didn’t want to tell him right after I started liking him because I didn’t really want to rush things. After all; I first talked to him a week or two into the school year. Also; I didn’t want to risk getting hurt.
||Friends|| I don’t know if my friend knows I like him; but he was her first guess of to whom I liked; so I think she’s suspicious. I don’t want to hurt her and she’s happier than usual [though she’s extremely hyper in general; she has anxiety issues], but I’ve never liked a guy this much. I wonder when she’ll find out. I hope I still have a chance…I hope.

Don't worry; this entry won't be as long as the last. >> Okay; um; so my friend likes the same guy I've been talking about these last few posts. -gasp- So as you don't know; I kind of forgave him somewhere in my mind. I couldn't have just told him that; that'd be weird. Anyways; so my 'friend' [[YES. A real friend.]] likes him and now she's dealing with the pain of asking him out because he said no. I wonder if she knows I like him too...? I'm not that surprised that she likes him...I'm just...TOTALLY SHOCKED. Hm. Something to think about.

Remember the guy I told you about a few journal posts ago? He confuses me. A lot. At first he told me he disliked me on Thursday in Science class. Let's just say none of my classmates were usually doing much. And then I got all depressed for approximately 24 hours over just one sentence he said. I wrote poems; had dreams; I even wrote a freakin' story! Anyways...I was pretty nervous/excited/anxious to come back to school; only because I wondered what would go on between us. Ahem. Yes, us. Before first period even starts; he stops by my locker [[I hope he didn't memorize where my locker was ._.]] and says something about the 7th grade genius. I ignore it and tell him and I won't say hi to the 7th grade geek. -pauses for laughter- Okay. Now, during Science class, we're back to normal; talking; poking; laughing; and teasing. I have to admit; I kind of like it. It's like my life is missing something if I don't talk to him as much. You can call it love; but it wasn't. I'm not sure if he's trying to avoid the problem; or if he just doesn't care at all. And what's more pathetic is...I don't even know if he meant to say he dislikes me because he truly he does dislike me or if he was just having a bad day. And I'm trying my best to hide the fact that I still like him as more than a friend. Another weird thing is...we don't even act like we dislike each other. It's kind of like we're best friends. I'm confused. But I think I'm happy again. ♥

Feeling: Bored, Almost Desperate, Sad, Lost in My Own Life
Loving: Fall Out Boy, Poetry, Evanescence
Crushing On: All the Fall Out Boys, Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross
Listening To: The sound of my breathing. [[Forgot to turn on music...]]

Well, I guess that's it. I don't feel like venting my real feelings out in a too-long entry YET.

Loving: Fall Out Boy, Panic at the Disco, Music in general
Liking: The same guy I'm partially loathing, Patrick Stump, Andy Hurley, Brendon Urie
Wishing: That I could go back in time
Thanking: Poetry for being there when I want to give up and cry instead
Worrying About: Going back to school. Or rather, Science class.
Thinking about: Song lyrics, when to get offline and eat lunch
Listening to: 'I've Got a Dark Alley and a Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth (Summer Song)', Fall Out Boy
Loathing: A guy
Envying: People who can take pain so easily

Hearts::Yesterday [[science class, to be exact]] was horrible. A guy who I thought was my friend said he disliked me.  And to make it worse, I secretly liked him a little bit. Even if he hated/disliked me so much, he didn't have to say so. It was better when he was pretending to be so nice. He gave me a hadache too; from thinking about him too much last night. I even had a dream that I was yelling at him to get out of my dreams.

Lies::I think we pretty much already covered the 'lies' part. He was pretending. Either that or he just didn't tell the truth. Then again; he didn't lie. It was just the best-kept secret. After, all I believed that he was everything I wanted in a good friend [[that was a guy]]...and the best part of believe is the lie.

Friends::Well, yeah. I think we covered that part fairly well too. Most of my friends didn't even notice I was totally depressed. And if they did; most of them didn't know it was about him. He was friend; classmate; secret crush; and...just a person. Well, of course he's just a person. But one person can make a big difference in the life of another.

I'm still coughing. -coughcoughhackhack- And I am officially creeped out by chinese horoscopes now. Also, I have a dentist appointment I have to go to in 45 minutes. >.< But then I can probably get online again. Yay! But then I have a piano lesson, then dinner. Maybe I can get online after dinner; like I usually do. Well, that's it. Bye.

Yes. I'm sick. I've got a cough, a minor headache, I'm exhausted, and I'm sneezing. >.< I've got
-A History Project Due the 25th
-A Math Essay Due Monday
-Vocabulary Quiz on Monday
-'Out of the Dust' Test on Wednesday
-Quiz on Causes of the Great Depression on Monday
Ugh...