narutobabe12's Journal

Soo, I updated Hold Me Tighter [Neji]. And guess what! I didn't know this when I was writing it, until the end, but it's the last chapter! Omg! It's over! Well, not yet! Please read and message (or just comment here) about the possibility of an epilogue. I know how I could end this story for real, but I don't HAVE to. And still, if you don't want to read the epilogue, you don't have to! [of course, if it were my case, I would read it even if I didn't want one.] So pleeease read and message about the epilogue!

Me, and my two friends, Alex and Cat, like the same guy. Like a lot. Me and Cat are single, but Alex already has a boyfriend, and she STILL reallyyyy likes him. It pisses me off. Me and Cat are best friends so I was venting to her about it, and she and I got in a fight about it. She said I didn't own him, and that I couldn't stop someone from liking him. I'm not though. I just don't like Alex liking him, cuz she already has a boyfriend, and I don't want him to get hurt, because it's like hell when someone leaves you for another person, so I'm watching out for him. I'm also just a little jealous of like everyone liking her and everything. But still. It's wrong. I think Cat gets the impression that I don't want ANYONE to date him, but he has a fricking girlfriend now (he just got one). Of course, I stopped talking to him like I usually did. I used to always tell him I loved him and he was gorgeous [which is true] but I stopped! I wouldn't do that to the poor girl. But I just found out that Cat loves him. But so do I. I don't know if I should let her have him, or fight for him myself? I know Cat though! She just sits and talks about how he never talks to her, instead of doing something about it! That pisses me off too. But seriously, I love him, and I think she does too. And that's ALL Cat and Alex talk about. Him. I never do, even though he's all I think about. Please, if you read this, tell me, am I doing this right, or wrong? What should I do?!

My favorite manga, Hana-Kimi, is finally finished! I feel so sad it's over, and it has one of those happy-but-sad kind of endings. I like the ending, but it's over now, so I'm sad. I've been reading it for almost a year now, so it gives me an empty feeling inside, to see it over. I'm going to miss it. It was my favorite. But I think...I'm just happy now. It was a good release. I love the manga, and I miss it, and always will. Love you, Hana-Kimi

So a few weeks ago, me and my boyfriend broke up. He dumped me. Today, I thought, wow, I'm not just moving on, but letting go! I don't think I love him [[soo much]] anymore, and I can finally not feel jealous of him and his new girl. But then, I found out his parents were seperated. Now, I want to help him, because I don't know if his girlfriend is helping, because I know her, and she doesn't seem very compassionate. I want to be there for me, but when I tried, he jsut said, stick that sorry up your ass. But I guess I deserved it, because when he apologized for calling me fat I said I didn't care. But this is different. And when I told him I deserved it, he said I didn't, so I was happy about that. And I'm just worried. I don't think he's gonna make it too well, and I want to help him so bad but I don't know what to say! Or if I should say anything! What should I do?

Anyone bored on AIM? IM me: SWIMKTTY ! I know it's stupid, but I can't change it with my AOL system.

Sorry. My quizzy fucked-up, all messages deleted. So if you sent one to me recently with no reply, then you must send it again or just comment what you said or whatever. Sorry, haah.

Oh my god! Tokio Hotel is amazing! So eerie and dark and soft and screamo and just a mix of everything plus your grammy and darkest fear...it's like so amazing. It's scary how amazing they are. German, and English, they kick ass. I swear, nobody is as good as them. And the lead singer, is a hottie!! Holy cow! But anyways, the music is so nice. I like Monsoon, and Ready Set Go, and Schrei. They are so totally amazing. Amazing doesn't even describe it. I NEED this CD and I shall NEVER turn these guys off!

Revenge is sweeter (than you ever were) by the Veronicas. I've been listening to the song all morning. It's so amazing. My ex did this to me. I'm still broken, and it really annoys me that my friends won't even let me talk about him...it's part of the healing process. They say I'm obsessed and I have to stop thinking about him, but when I can't talk about, then I end up thinking about talking about him all day! I get so depressed when I'm all alone. Like, when I'm with my friends, I'm okay, but sometimes I do get sad, and if I tell them they just say "shut up about being depressed. Stop talking about him. Get over it. Stop obsessing." It's kind of like they are saying they don't care! I try my best to make sure they are happy and not sad and when they are like suicidal I help them! (of course not many of them GET suicidal but if they happen to or if they would!) Even though I am not that good at cheering people up, I do it anyways. But seriously, I really wish I could just TALK about him, without them telling me to shut up AND THEN telling him I'm obsessed with him and making HIM mad. This is all so hopeless. And I love this song. Check it out -----> http://youtube.com/watch?v=ImYHBDqQRCQ&feature=related

What's worse? Preps or posers? Just wondering...

Anyone read my poems? What did you think of them? Which one did you like best? Any comments about them or anything? If so, please tell me here, I'd love to know what you think of my poems! Thanks, Sarah.

For those who read my stories, and for those who don't, I do bring up certain types of things that people may (even though nobody brought this up, I still wanna say this) think I'm joking around with the stuff I bring up (rape, abuse, underage sex, teen pregnancy, underager dating somebody overage, drug use, prostitution) but I am really not. I don't think people who get raped, abused, get pregnant underage, or use drugs are necessarily bad people. I don't. And underage sex doesn't really bother me all that much, as long as the two are safe. But I'm just saying, in my stories, I'm not joking around with this stuff. Sure I am a very hyper, kidding, joking person, yes I am. But this stuff is serious. Rape is something I am afraid of, and it's a very bad thing. It's horrible. And nobody should have to go through that. And I do think that rapists are bad people, but so does everybody, except for rapists and the stupid people who love them still. I'm not talking about like mothers, but girlfriends and wives. That's just wrong. And abuse is also just as wrong, whether it's in relationships or at home. It's still horrible. And another thing that pisses me off is when underage girls -or boys- date people in their like, thirties. THAT makes me mad, because if they have a choice to be in that relationship, then why are they in it? Especially if the guy is abusive. I mean, I'm not saying those people are bad or anything (the underage ones, I mean), but come on. You shouldn't be dating anybody that much older than you if your underage. That's just wrong. And if people hate me, then fine, go ahead. I'm just saying. And I'm not saying that those who use drugs are terrible people, just people who make mistakes and get hooked. And prostitutes aren't all necessarily sluts, especially the ones who are forced into doing it or have to do it to get money for an important reason. But still, I don't think you should do it. It's really dangerous, in a countless number of ways. And so, in conclusion, as I started, I don't make fun of these, and I never really meant to open people's eyes, but I think I might be. But, hey, if you think I'm totally conceited and stupid and everything for thinking I'm doing something saintly, then fine, I don't mind what you think. But still, these aren't very good things. And I never meant to offend anybody, because I'm not trying to. I don't think anybody addicted or who made a mistake are totally bad people. I just think it's a bad mistake. That's all.

This happened a few days ago, but anyways, I'm gonna tell you everything that happened. In one of my classes, I sit in a group with this girl named Mary, my boyfriend Ethan, this one kid named Justin, and my best friend Catherine. Cat was absent when this happened. So anyways, my boyfriend, Ethan, is kind of a bad ass boy, but it's cool, cause he's sweet to me. But he doesn't like Mary. And Mary and I were friends then. He called her garbage, and she FLIPPED. They got in this fight, and blahblahblah, she told me and Ethan to go kill ourselves. Okay, you don't just SAY that to somebody. And she knew that me and Ethan both have cut ourselves before, so she knows that its totally possible we might. Of course, I know Ethan would be fine, since he don't care what she says, but still. You don't say that to somebody. And when I said, "Fine I will." She said, "Good. And I'll do it with you." That night, she called me and is all like blahblahblah and I'm like, "Okay," and thinking, "Shut up and go away!!" I will never be her friend again. I don't want to be friends with somebody who can't SUCK IT UP and be HAPPY because somebody called her GARBAGE. Jesus. And she says I didn't stick up for her, but I DID!! I said to Ethan, "Don't say one more thing or I will break up with you." What do you call that?! Flirting? She claimed he said more after that, but I never heard it and nobody told me! I barely heard anything he even said to her! He called her garbage, I didn't hear it! He said more, I didn't hear it, and nobody said it! And when she called me that night, shes like, "I'm not asking you to break up with him but you have to stick up for me more!" And I'm thinking, "I stuck up for you! This is what you said the last time we fought. I'm not breaking up with him for somebody like you." Well, whatever. I won't be her friend again. Her only friend now, Kate, said that Mary said she was going to apologize, but it's too late. This was like Wednesday and it's Saturday now. Doesn't matter. She told me to kill myself. I considered it. I didn't, though. But what if I did? Huh? Would she be able to apologize then? Well...what does the public think about this?

I can't figure them out! Please, message or comment on how!! How do you put spaces and everything (dont worry, I have underlining down at least). Just, please, tell me how!! Everything you know! Or just a site that EXPLAINS it good (the quizilla thing made NO SENSE and none of it worked).

And any sites with good layouts are accepted too!!

Please, I want it to look good, but I don't know how!

Yes! Finally! One of my quizzes (What Beautiful Picture Are You {Girls only} Accompanied by sad quote!) has finally made it to the most popular list!! I am so happy! I never thought it would! Thank you to everybody who tooks it and messaged me about it and rated and everything! I so totally appreciate it! I'm just so happy! I never thought that one of my creations would be so popular! It's in the thirties, but I don't care! Thanks so much!

A Great and Terrible Beauty is a book by Libba Bray. I absolutely love it. I'm in the middle of the sequeal, Rebel Angels. I love reading, and this series is very awesome. I highly recommend it. I love it a lot! I like Gemma and Pippa and Felicity. But Fee (Felicity) is kind of mean, and Pippa is a little bit of a snot. And Gemma is a bit too sarcastic. But its a really good books anyways. Message me if you read it too.

Heres the thing...I don't know how to make a homepage thing for Quizilla. I see people with these...but I can't figure out how to make one!! I tried tons of times before. Could someone just get me started? I could make it from there. Just tell me where to go.

So, yeah, I'm gonna be a fortune teller! Not like, take your palm or look into a crystal ball, but with cards. And not tarot cards, with the pictures of freaky people on it, but regular playing cards. I got the meaning off of one site off of www.bored.com. So, I wrote down the meanings on all except for two (I didn't have enough time) and I'm going to try and memorize them...and yeah. It'll be fine. Giving readings in school. I'm only going to focus on relationships, but I might do life and that. But relationships for now. I did readings for my family at my fathers birthday party, even though most didn't want any. My first victim was my cousin, Cindy, and I did pretty bad. But my second wasn't as bad. I started analyzing them better...and it just got better. I like it. Even though they don't. Can't wait to prey on my friends tomorrow in school.  

So, I was on the computer, and I got real sick of the radio so I started listening to my stepsister's iTunes. I was on shuffle, and then this nice song came on. It was Vanessa Carlton. I let it play, and then like realized, it was probably the most beautiful song I had ever heard. It's "Ordinary Day" and it was off of my step's CD, Now 11. So it's really old. But I love it. I stole the real CD so I could bring it back to my moms house, and even now I'm listening to it. I love her voice, and just the way this song is. It's one of those happy songs that make you want to cry. I am near tears each time. Still, even. It's so pretty. I love it. Half the time I can barely tell what she is saying, cuz her voice is so...brilliant it gets so deep and discombobulated, but still. It's amazing. I love the ending, the beginning, and what I can get from the middle. I love it. Listen to it. I dare you.

"Blue is for Nightmares" is a book. It's like a mystery. I am only halfway through. I think the psycho stalker is either Chad, PJ, or Donovan. I'm guessing Don. The hints are subtle, they are barely even subtle hints, but they are there, so Don is my favorite choice. They make Chad out to be the murderer, but maybe he is, but if he was, it wouldn't be much of a mystery. If you read it, and you know who it is, don't give it away. But I should be finished soon.

 

Speaking of reading, I started (again) another manga, called "Life." I read the first two volumes, and I've gotta say, it's freaky. Especially the sadistic dude, whatever his name is, I forget. But the series is good...I like Hatori the best. She's cool. And I also started "Sand Chronicles" which I love, and "Descendants of Darkness" which is okay. I only read the first two volumes of those.

And I got the third book in the Morganville Vampire Series, "Midnight Alley." I like that series!

This is only for people who have read up to at least volume 7 of "Godchild", so if you haven't gotten there yet or someday plan on reading it, don't read this, because I may ruin some of the story. (I'M SERIOUS HERE).

First of all, I can't believe that Riff betrayed Cain like that! I was so sad! I mean...Riff...of all people?! Oh my god! Poor Cain. I felt so bad for him. I was like, "NO! NOT RIFF! WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN LIKE MARY OR SOMEBODY ELSE!!" I like Mary better than Riff, don't get me wrong, but I would rather that Mary betrayed him than Cain. I mean, Riff! That's just so mean! I can't believe the writer (and Alexis, mostly) did that! Poor Cain. I keep thinking, "Maybe Riff will become better and go back to Cain! It may happen! See how nice he's being!" But is hasn't yet! (I haven't read volume 8, so don't spoil it for me). I hate seeing Cain so sad...he's my favorite character.

And on another note, (still "Godchild" though)...I like Jizabel, believe it or not. I feel so bad for him. And when he was talking about, in the beginning of volume 7, Misericorde, scene 1, Jizabel thought "The searing pain that burns my body. Much like the feeling I got when I buried my face in the intestines of that stranger" I thought it was just a metaphor! Like, he stuck his nose in somebody else's business...boy I was WRONG! He really did that to a person! Jizabel's story was so sad...I felt bad. I knew it automatically, though, that he was going to eat Snark during that one part...no surprises there!! Jizabel is so misunderstood...I like him. I really like Mikaila, too. She's really sassy...horny...but I like her. I like he better in 7 than in 4...maybe because she's older, I dunno. And Mary Weather and Oscar are funny...But Cain is definitely my favorite! Of course, there isn't many people to pick from, because everybody either dies off or sucks. I really hate Alexis though. He's just...god I hate him. There's noone else to really discuss...Nobody else stands out or is still alive...I cannot wait until volume 8!! I love "Godchild" so much! I love it! I didn't think I would at first...but wow...now it's like one of my favorites.