TCBUCDTP ended differently, and you all knew it would from the second you finished reading its prologue a few months ago.
however, i continually was told to make frank live, for melody to wake up & have it all be a dream, to find a cure for a helplessly punctured lung, etc.
sadly, i didn't.
i've said it a lot in the past, but 20% of my readers still don't grasp the concept that these are my stories that i've decided to share with you all.
you don't like it, then you can suck your mum off.
i will not be manipulated, as i'm not forcing anyone to read my shit.
i adored writing this story.
it was the most daring thing i've done yet, as it was both - in my opinion - my most comical and depressing work to date.
i made a bold turn by putting all of that lust & loss into one story, and i don't know if it worked well or not.
i guess i'll find out when i get comments back on this post.
anywhore, TCBUCDTP had a purpose.
if you love and/or cae for someone, whether it's a friend, relative or crush, tell them. even if you see this person daily, let them know just how much they mean to you.
you never know when your last day or their last day on this earth's gonna be, so make the most of it.
don't waste time being paranoid, insecure & all "but what if he doesn't feel the same and embarass myself?".
if you don't speak up, you'll never know. you could lose something amazing before it's even started.
look for the good in people, & scrap the bad. there's no need to search for people's faults, because you know they'll have them. no one on this planet is perfect - not even frank iero :O [xD].
this brings me to my next point.
"popularity" is a dangerous thing. i was the kind of person who never wanted to be popular in school, or absorb all the limelight. i wanted to keep to myself, so i started to write stories.
only they then became popular.
it's amazing to look at my friends list on my profile, seeing all of the people that have added me or picked my creations. that's why being "popular" on a website is pretty fucking amazing.
however, because people enjoy my writing so much, "certain" users have begun to delivberately search for my faults - both in writing, my personality, my friends, & the way i fucking type.
the last four or so weeks have been tough on my cbox.
URL-less, chicken-shit pussies have started to leave spiteful, rude messages, slating how i ocassionally string words out, such as "youuuu", and how i sometimes writes words all in one, ie, "thankyou".
what-the-fuck?
& if it's not that, it's a tiny word i've made a typo with, or something with no relation to the outcome of the story - such as a plan flight duration.
I'M SIXTEEN - I'M NOT STEPHENIE MEYER.
I'M NOT A PROFESSIONAL WRITER - I'M JUST NOT COMPLETELY SHIT, IS ALL.
& now it's flooded to my friends' cboxes!
people think that gena, rach, cassie & i are a clique or something, and you have to be good at writing to get in it.
it is possible that people can just be friends, you know.
gena thinks all of this shit is because people are jealous of the fact that i have a load of lovely readers, and that i write pretty okay.
it could be, i don't know - but it throws the last three years of confidence building i've done for myself pretty off course.
BLEH, goddamnit.
this next part is about my next story.
IT IS NOT CALLED "WHEN THE HEART GUIDES THE HAND" ANYMORE!
i have changed it to "CHOKE THE AIR FROM YOUR WORLD."
why? because i used to be really into "heart-shaped glasses [when the heart guides the hand]" by marilyn manson, therefore giving me th title for the story.
however, when i heard an interview that MM did, teasing frank because he's short, i decided i wanted a change.
this means all of the banners people made me are non-existant.
that's the only regret i have for chnging the same, and i am truly, deeply sorry. they were all amazing banners, and i'm sorry that you spent your time making them so that they could go wasted >.<
yeah, so i'll start writing "choke the air from your world [CTAFYW]" soon.
it's going to have a lot of elements in it that remind you of my other stories. it will be set in the present day, so MCR-do-not-exist-as-a-band. i just wanted to have myspace and all the bands i like now in the story, as to make it easier and more realistic for me to write about.
frank's also going to be different in it, too.
i've had him as an arrogant jerk, complete perfection, a hero/life-saver, and a childhood sweetheart.
now it's time for something different =D
that about finishes what i had to say.
oh, except for one more thing.
IF YOU CAN'T BE A PLAYER, DON'T BE A PLAYER HATER.
adiosss.
exoh.



Comments
@ 12:29 AM EST on Sunday, August 24, 2008, Littlemissrandomness said:
you are so lucky to have all these people read your stuff, I always wanted to have a bunch of fans and if people see my page then they know I am trying and you are amazing just remember how lucky you are and how unfortunate others like me are. btw you are a VERY lucky person. lots of love -Sam@ 12:37 PM EST on Sunday, November 4, 2007, darkdragonesindestress said:
i loved how you ended the story. fuck the haters, cause honestly your amazing :] & its better to concentrate on your skills than to get mixed up with jealous mofoss and hold yourself back. anyways cant wait to read the new story && thank you i love tcbucdtp.@ 2:48 AM EST on Thursday, September 20, 2007, Dynasty[Dreadful]xx said:
Dude, I love you =]You're such a fun person to read!
People suck, and if they've got your confidence down, they aren't worth it.
@ 6:22 AM EST on Tuesday, September 18, 2007, MrsIeroWay20 said:
You are the greatest writer EVAAAA!! I loved TCBUCDTP very very very much, and it made me want to cry soo badly but my mummy was in the room so I couldn't >_>. Anyway, I just want to thank you because your story was the only reason I've been getting on the computer lately. Oh, I've also read your Bam story which is equally amazing!! I may not know you but I love you to piecesss! [and not just because of your writing, I think you're a very cool person] XD Lotsa Love ~Aisha@ 11:04 PM EST on Tuesday, September 4, 2007, AFI.IS.BOSS.77 said:
who ever is being a shithead to you, just ignore them like XxCreativeWriterxX said, cause they're so beneath you if they're stooping low enough to attack you and your friends on a cbox. your stories are amazing, you are sucha nice person from what i've read and seen in your leetle video blog with your awesome MCR room@ 11:26 PM EST on Friday, August 31, 2007, a.chemical.romantic said:
'Choke the Air From Your World' is an awesome title. If you got that from Say Anything, I love that song. Sorry for taking up so much space. XP@ 11:23 PM EST on Friday, August 31, 2007, a.chemical.romantic said:
You. Are. A. Genius. It honestly pisses me the fuck off that people trash you like low-life, fuck-faced, dumbasses. That put aside, I have got to say you are amazing. That last chapter was, like....wow. I have no words to describe how it made me feel! I'm not gonna tell you to bring Frank back because, honestly, I can't imagine it better if he lived. As bad as that sounds. Good luck in school and what not.@ 4:58 PM EST on Wednesday, August 29, 2007, DancinCorpse said:
Your stories are amazing and are the only ones that can make me cry .__. Don't let some jealous idiots ruin your confidence. You've been my favorite writer in Quizilla since MYL and I'll fully support you in whatever you want to write about =D Because I know it will be outstanding. *applause*@ 8:10 PM EST on Monday, August 27, 2007, ShadowXxDreamer said:
I love you're stories. I'm sorry to say that I haven't read you're stories in a while because I've been on a different fanfic site. I know I started, but I'm deffenitly going to go back and check it out. Luck, wishes, and kisses can't wait for the new story Jessi@ 10:27 PM EST on Sunday, August 26, 2007, Mcrluver1991 said:
Those fuckers are probably jealous of your writing because you are way fucking better than them. Don't let them tear you down over something stupid as a story. You're smart, strong, and creative; and you deserve to be treated a lot better. We love the way your last story ended and can't wait for your next one to come out! Michelle & Danni xoxo@ 3:15 PM EST on Sunday, August 26, 2007, -Bullet-4MV-Lover- said:
Id just like to say thank you for the story & explanation too. Its actually really close to something bugging me at the moment; that Im rubbish at telling people whats on my mind (being VERY insecure and paranoid myself) and I think Im losing out because of it. For some reason its the scariest thing in the world to me to do, but want to change that thing about myself. Im going to try before its too late (if it isnt already) Love your stories :D@ 1:59 AM EST on Saturday, August 25, 2007, ieroxisxmyxpansy said:
Duuuude. I have messaged you on myspace so much I'm messaged out. I feel SOOO bad for you about all the cbox shit. Really, I think you've figured out how pathetic they are by now and don't need another person telling you they're "dumbfucks". TCBUCDTP@ 10:11 PM EST on Friday, August 24, 2007, dancekrazie5151 said:
Don't let jerks pull your confidence down. People are rude and ridiculous because they wish they were good writers or had a lot of readers and other crap. confidence is hard to build and easy to destroy and people know that and use it to their advantage. Use the fact that you are a good writer and a well liked PERSON to renforce your confidence (it's what i do) =D@ 7:39 AM EST on Friday, August 24, 2007, hermione5280 said:
I LOVED TCBUCDTP!!!!!!!!!!! But it made me cry soooooooooooooooooo much in the end =*( You're an amazing writer!!! =)@ 7:17 PM EST on Thursday, August 23, 2007, XxCreativeWriterxX said:
whoever is blabbermouthing in your c-boxes just ignore them, their scum and of course they are jealous of you're friendships and your skills at writing. it's because they probably have no social life away from a computer. F.I.I.H you are a talented writer, not only do you capture the interest of many readers and writers the like you entertain us with every story, we're all hooked upon your work and with your skills comes a great personality! i don't know you personally, but from every journal you post i can tell you're a sweet, caring, funny and speacially talented person. dont let anyone take away your confidence, they have no right.@ 7:10 PM EST on Thursday, August 23, 2007, blackflagandfrankiero said:
Whoaa. I'm honestly speechless. You're stories are amazing. To me, you're the only writer on this site that I'll always come back to for more. As corny and weird as it sounds, keep up the amazing and beautiful work. You are so much more than an 'okay' writer, as Molly said before, you are AHH-MAZE-INGGG.@ 6:28 PM EST on Thursday, August 23, 2007, I.am.doll.parts. said:
and im sure no one else thats a fan would either..@ 6:27 PM EST on Thursday, August 23, 2007, I.am.doll.parts. said:
its crazy really, when i first started to read you stories..or at least you first frank story then there was MYL that got me hooked like heroin..as crazy as that sounds your an awsome writer , your stories are awsome the way they are and im pretty sure your new one will be too and i wouldnt want them any other way..@ 11:22 AM EST on Thursday, August 23, 2007, bexyrox said:
you had to go and change the title, didn't you? :P i'm just kidding. making a new banner... NOW! xD@ 10:27 AM EST on Thursday, August 23, 2007, XXanythingXcanXhappenXX said:
people just need to get over theirselves. You one of the best goddamn writers on this mutafuckin g site so they can go live in a shitcan. Dont listen to them kimi! You are the whole reason i freaking come onto this site. i