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(I want people to stop chasing me unless they're ready to catch me. I'm not pushing anyone away, I'm holding on for dear life but I need them to need me back. It's all of me or nothing. The only people you need in your life are the people that need you) "There's a reason why people in your past never made it to your future" (relationships are like glass,sometimes it's better to leave them broken than get hurt trying to put them back together) "you can choose to blame your circumstances on bad luck or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world and that's just the way that it is, but for the most part we get what we give. The rest of you life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase and the choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now" (now is the time for us to shine, the time when our dreams are in reach and possiblities vast. Now is the time for all of us to be the people we've always dreamed of being. This is you're world, you're here, you matter, the world is waiting.) "Make a wish and place it in your heart, anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good, now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next smile, the next wish come true, but if you believe it's right around the corner and you open your heart and mind to the possiblity of it, to the certainty of it, you might just get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it. Good. Now believe in it, with all your heart" (tragedies happen. I realize now that when your heart breaks you got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive, because you are, and that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion, the fear? That's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that something is worth fighting for) "Most people are stronger than they know. They just forget to believe in it sometimes" (when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home) "Losing your heart's desire is tragic, but gaining your heart's desire is all you can wish for. So if that's tragic, then give me tragedy" (life kicks you around sometimes, it scares you and it beats you up but there's a time when you realize you're not just a survivor, you're a fighter.You're tougher than anything life throws your way and you are) "the hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what is right for you even if that means breaking someone's heart,including your own" (I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling. I'm not scared of the dark, I'm scared of what's in it. I'm not afraid of love, I'm afraid of not being loved back) "Every person, all the events of your life are there because you have drawn them there. What you choose to do with them is up to you"
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About Me
My name is Courtney and I'm 16. I'm a leap year baby, I was born on February 29. I love the wwe, it's so exciting and wrestling is nonstop action! I'm pretty much in love with JOHN CENA and CM PUNK and I would love to be in that business one day. I am also pretty much obsessed with the show ONE TREE HILL, it's amazing and it's taught me alot about life. I watch the secret life of the american teenager, supernatural, reba, still standing, grounded for life, 8 simple rules, I love money, life with derek, brooke knows best, new york goes to hollywood, etc. I really like the v.c. andrew books. The casteel, or heaven, series is the best and dean koontz is a good author too. My favorite colors are black and green and my favorite holiday is Halloween. I tend to be a pessimist and I'm fighting DEPRESSION. I'm also a pisces and I tend to be alittle emotional at times. For music I listen to flyleaf, barlowgirl, staind, papa roach, good charlotte, simple plan, linkin park, evanescence, daughtry, paramore, tokio hotel, 3 days grace, 30 seconds to mars, breaking benjamin,etc. If you have a problem I will try my best to help you and give advice, but really at the end of the day it is just about me and how I'm going to get through the day. I have over 200 poems, that's amazing! I love this site and I do believe that quizilla has saved me in every way, without it I don't know where I would be.
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Latest Journal Entry
October 9, 2008
TIME OUT
You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel. What seems like the right thing to do could also be the hardest thing you have ever done in your life.I'M RESIGNING, I'M HEREBY OFICIALLY TENDERING MY RESIGNATION AS A TEENAGER! I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an eight-year-old again! I want to go down to McDonalds and think it’s a five-star restaurant. I want to think that M and M's are better than money because you can eat them. I want to eat a whole packet of Tim tams without feeling guilty afterwards. I want to return to when all you knew were colors, multiplication, tables and nursery rhymes. I want to return to when you didn't know and you didn't care. I want to remember the whole morning was filled of what your Mom had packed for lunch and the whole afternoon what you were having for dinner. When a simple matchbox car or a Barbie doll represented a whole week's worth of entertainment. When you actually had an imagination. When magic really existed. When 'Jaws' didn't look fake. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good would always triumph over evil. When a member of the of the opposite sex was just some annoying disturbance. When friends were real and you didn't care if they were black, white, Catholic, Asian, African, Muslim, fat, skinny, pink, green or from a whole other planet, it just didn't matter... until others told you differently! I want to believe that anything is possible all you have to do is Dream. I want it to be unknown to me the complexities of life and to be completely ecstatic by the little things again like the sound of music! I DON'T want to know of school, homework, clothes, friendship, relationships,popularity or even gossip! I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams and human kind. I want to believe that all adults must know everything (How wrong we were). So here's my money, keycards, my makeup, and my adolescence.
Sometimes all you can give is love
Sometimes all you have is not enough
Sometimes life is like a dream
Sometimes dreams aren’t what they seem
Sometimes laughter can heal your heart
Sometimes it’s laughter that breaks it apart
Sometimes the world goes faster than you can go
Sometimes even fast is still too slow
Sometimes going home is the only thing on your mind
Sometimes home is the only place you can’t find
Sometimes you are too tired to sleep
Sometimes you are too sad to weep
Sometimes freedom holds you back
Sometimes a wedding dress is black
Sometimes loneliness is what you need
Sometimes there’s a harvest without a seed
Sometimes darkness can be too bright
Sometimes rain gives you delight
Sometimes you think you understand
Sometimes you know you really can’t
Sometimes what sets you free are restrictions
Sometimes what makes most sense are contradictions
I like to pretend that everything's alright. Because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not. Not all scars shows. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't see, the pain someone feels. Sometimes you just can’t open up to someone.
Not because you don’t trust them. But because once you tell someone how you feel inside, you’re giving them permission to hurt you… I am the author of my life. Unfortunately I'm writing in pen and I can't erase my mistakes... Sometimes I wonder if little kids have it easy. Scrapes from bike riding are the worst pain, the biggest concern is that recess isn't long enough, mommy or daddy can make anything all better, anyone of the opposite sex is yucky or has cooties, two kids of the same sex can hold hands and are just cute and nothing else, ‘good-bye’ means ‘see you tomorrow’, the worst fighting you do is over who gets the red crayon, if you hang out together one recess automatically you’re best friends forever, a valentine made of construction paper is the best gift you can give, and no one was afraid to say ‘I Love You’. the beauty of photographs are that they never change....even if the people in them do... It's not that I'm afraid of dying, it's that I'm afriad of time. You know, not having enough of it. I love sleep. My life has a tendency to fall apart when I'm awake. I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
Isn't it funny that your heart can be broken by someone that was always pretending?
Funny how your friends can make you feel better about any situation.
Funny how when something bad happens, it's all you can think about?
Funny how bad we think we’ve got it, compared to others who have it worse.
Funny how no matter how much we have, we’re never thankful.
Funny how we can have so many friends, but if we fight with one, life sucks,
Funny how your best friend can hurt you even more than your worst enemy can?
Funny how no matter how hard we try, life will never be perfect,
Funny how many times we can be hurt the same way, and how much more it hurts.
Funny how one person can make you feel pretty even on your worst days
Funny that no matter how much you like someone, if nobody thinks you should be with them, you give into peer pressure.
Funny how on rainy days it’s so much easier to smile,
How one fake friend, can ruin a life.
Funny how your best friend can become your worst enemy with one mistake.
Life isn't just about keeping score.
It's not about how many people call you
And it's not about who you've dated or haven't dated at all.
It isn't about who you've kissed,
What sport you play,
Or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair
Or the color of your skin,
Or where you live or go to school.
In fact it's not about grades, money,
Clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.
Life isn't about if you have lots of friends or if you are alone,
And it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about how you feel about yourself.
It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
It's about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance
And building confidence.
It's about what you say and what you mean.
It's about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have.
Most of all it is choosing to use your life.
In a way that could have neverbeen achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about. Pain never really goes away; you just elevate and get used to it by growing stronger. There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go. I'm just me . and that's all I can be, no more . no less . no 2nd guess. Ilaugh .I love . I live .I cry, and some timesI wishI would die. some day im funny. others im not. some times im in overdrive andI cant stop. you may not like me . but thats ok, this is me . and this is how I'll stay. The hardest part about moving forward is not looking back. Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about the things that matter. Don't listen or think about anything other people say about you. Just live your life and prove them wrong. When you love someone, they never get lost; wherever they go, they are still somewhere in your heart and as long as they know that, they will always know that when they find you, they find themselves once again. fake smiles can only hold in your tears for so long. Give them happiness, if happiness is what matters to them,
give them courage, if courage is what matters to them, give them love, if love is what matters to them, but never give them yourself, unless and until you matter to them. She'll be the first to admit that she's not perfect. Her life's a wreck, and the only thing holding her up is the hope that it'll get better. She's got some friends who would die for her, and she has friends that would kill her, given the chance. She has the mental stability of a psychiatric patient, and the constant drama that surrounds her doesn't help. She's lost all of the people she depended on, whether it be death, or betrayal. Despite everything that has happened to her, the reason she keeps hanging on is the hope that it will all get better. on the inside she's a sad little girl who's crying her heart out, but on the outside she's really just all too sick of it to even care... Who is she, she's me. Sometimes you just want to yell it out to the world.. but then you're scared they might hear you. Its funny how you can do nice things for people all the time and they never notice. But once you make one mistake, its never forgotten. Everything you want comes after you stop looking for it... Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up. Eventually;; it'll all make sense. You'll realize why you don't have the same group of friends,You'll realize why your first love didn't work out,And you'll realize that it all happened . . .So you can have something better.
"How can you know what pain is? You're too young to know pain. You're too young to know real hurt." "Maybe you're right. I don't know pain. I guess sitting by the phone for hours waiting for someone to call, but knowing they won't isnt pain. Crying myself to sleep for hours, because every word they say cuts me worse than the knife that cuts my wrist isnt pain. I guess having my heart ripped out and thrown around every day by someone new isnt pain. Waking up alone every morning and going to sleep alone every night isnt pain. I guess you're right. I'm too young to know pain."
Life- 4 simple letters, yet so complicated
Love- 4 simple letters, yet so confusing
Destiny- 7 simple letters, yet so unpredictable
Feelings- 8 simple letters, yet so unexplainable
Words- 5 simple letters, yet there aren't enough to express
Regrets- 6 simple letters, yet they never seem to disappear
Silence- 7 simple letters, yet it can be so loud
Time- 4 simple letters, yet there is never enough
Sadness- 7 simple letters, yet it lingers everywhere
Pain- 4 simple letters, yet it takes so long to heal
Mistakes- 8 simple letters, yet they can never be erased
Beauty- 6 simple letters, yet so hard to see
....sometimes goodbyes really are forever...
