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September 16, 2008

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9/16/08- Greetings!! Haven't seen the new journal in a LONG time! Anyways, I'm listening to Christmas music while writing this; it's like my favorite kind of music...:D. Well, I wrote in this journal a REALLY long time ago when I couldn't post so I've kept it until now so I'll copy and paste it if you wanna read it.

5/9/08 Wow, been a long time since I've posted. Well, now I'm posting with some great news. So, on Wednesday night I went to Youth Group and the day before I went to the dentists and everything was great, as usual and then I had to hold on to the car door while riding back because it broke and it wouldn't shut. So Mom called like all her guy friends asking if they could fix the door and turns out none of 'em could, except A. I just knew it was meant to be when the first two guys said they couldn't. So we went out there and watched Slash put together an entire Bass guitar, take pictures of it then strip it down again, in complete silence. Yes, we all stood there, including Doll, just watching his brother work on the guitar the whole time. But then Mom came back with the car door fixed and we were taking Doll back to his Mom's house. I sat in the back with him and my Mom and brother sat in the front. I knew this was the time to ask him to Youth Group, it was just meant to be. So I gathered my courage and asked him when my Mom and brother were talking so my brother couldn't make fun of me for asking him to come with me somewhere. And he said, after thinking for a few seconds, "Sure." I was SOOO excited I could barely stand it. I asked, "Really?" and he was like, "Yeah, I'll have to ask my Mom and stuff." I was the happiest girl on earth right then. We got to a place we could drop him off and walk and right when he was getting out, I asked him again to make sure he didn't forget and he said, "Yes, yes, I'll ask." I just sat back in my seat grinning, hugely. My Mom turned back and gave me a big grin. We headed out and I went to school the next day, Wednesday, and I had no idea if he was coming and he didn't talk to me all day. Then, when I had an orchestra rehearsal with the full orchestra during my last class, it finally ended and I was thinking, "Ok, just gotta find him and ask him if he's coming." So I packed up and started to walk down the steps of the stage and I looked up right when I was thinking about where he might be, and there he was. He was doing his 'walk' (it's pretty cute and funny) towards me, he lifted his head and looked straight at me. I smiled and said, "Youth Group?" He looked down at me and said, "Yup." I turned back to Nersha and continued to follow her since I was going to her locker. Then realized he was following me wherever I was going so I said to him, "We're going to go to Nersha's locker, ok? Do you mind?" He looked down at me again and said, "Nope." So, we went to her locker and stayed there until I decided to go and we headed outside and got into the car. I offered the front and he took it, obviously. We picked up my brother and went to my house where I changed and made some cookie bars. He was playing a videogame with my brother the whole time. When the cookie bars were about 7 minutes into cooking, Doll lifted his head from the couch and said, "Cookies! I smell cookies! Are they done? Can I have some?" I just laughed and said, "They aren't cool enough yet." Finally, when they were done, I got everyone some and then packed to head to YG early. Of course, my brother was being especially mean to me, saying horrible remarks and putting me down the whole time, since we had company over. I felt hurt practically the whole time we were together, my brother and I. He doesn't know anything about it and probably never will because he's so selfish. Then we gave Doll some dinner before heading there early and we got to the huge street we have to cross to get there. But, Doll doesn't like to cross at crosswalks if it takes longer to get to the destination, so we J-walked across the street. We finally got over there after about 10 heart attacks for me. We got inside and found Micro and Fish (a friend from church who is a grade lower and acts exactly like a fish and even looks like one) in the Cafe. We stayed there for a while and Doll explained how he asked his Mom if he could come to YG. He said that she got really mad and he told he could just say no and she replied that he had to go, so he did. Then we walked around for a while and he looked SOOO bored and I kept saying how bad I felt because he looked so bored. I probably should have stopped because then he looked annoyed. Well, we found the younger group's party and we went down the huge blow up slide and my other friend, who's a grade older, was there and my brother and Doll ate pizza for a while. Then we went in and found Jamie and we hung out for a while it was pretty stupid because he just looked bored the whole time. Then it was finally time to go in and we sat in our usual spot. Turns out the popular annoying people sat in front of us, they kept turning around to look at us, but mainly Doll. Then they'd turn around again and huddle and laugh their stupid girly laughs. Finally, we stood up for worship and he was standing practically a foot from me. Micro and I also didn't have enough room to stand so he pushed the chairs forward just a bit and the popular girls thought this was terrible so they gave us a look and bumped it back with the back of their legs. We discovered this was a game and started to push the chairs forward A LOT. Then Doll thought this looked fun, so he started to push the chair forward a lot more. Micro and I were laughing so hard, and the thing is, he was grinning the biggest I'd ever seen him grin when we were laughing. The populars were then getting REALLY annoyed, mad and loud by this time. We continued this until one of them turned around and asked Doll what his name was and he had to repeat it once or twice for them to hear it. They turned around and giggled and he just gave 'em a look. Then the same one turned around again and said, "Do you paint your nails?" He said, "It's old," and they said, "Can we see it?" So he showed them and they gave a look of pure disgust and started to back away, "The first one came back to inspect and said, "EW, are you emo?" He looked at them and said, "Well, technically, we're all emo." Micro was laughing EXTREMELY hard and said, "Emo means emotional." And Doll said, "So you see we're all emo." They just gave him a look and started to talk this over with giggles and squeals. By this time, Doll's arm was rubbing mine and I was having the time of my life. Eventually, Doll pulled one of their chairs back and put his back so he had taken one of their seats. They turned around and said, "Where's are chair? Go get it!" He replied, "You can go get it, it's not that far." One of them rolled their eyes and got back. Then we finally sat down after our stomachs exploded from laughter. He looked kinda proud of himself, too. I leaned over to him and said, "That was good." We got through the sermon and headed to our small groups. He sat by another girl he knew from school and rarely talked the whole time. The leader of the group said that she was going to be gone next week and that whoever could replace the new leader's name with her name as many times as possible, would win a drink from the Cafe. I could see his eyes light up at this new competition and said, "Well now I'll have to come next week, I'm extremely competitive." I thought, "I don't usually like your competitiveness but right now it's the best thing in the world." I tried to hide my smile and I didn't really talk in the group. So, after we were done in small groups Micro and I headed upstairs to get our stuff and I came back and he was swinging his belt in a circle and I just said to him with a smile, "Having fun?" He said, "Yup, this is a lot more fun than it looks." I started to laugh because he was swinging the belt for like an entire minute and he was grinning again as I started to laugh. So then Micro and I said goodbye as we headed for the cars then he offered me the front seat in a very nice way, but I said no and we got onto the road to drop him off and we got on the subject of hair. And Mom asked Doll if he would trust anyone to cut his hair since his older brother didn't care who cut his hair and how it looked. And he said that there is only a certain amount of people he would trust. So my brother asked if Doll would trust me to cut his hair. Doll turned around and stared at me until I turned around to stare back at him and he said, "I guess so. Probably, because she has long hair too." I smiled and stared out the window again. We finally got to his place and it wasn't a house it was an apartment. It reminded me of when my Dad was living in an apartment and it was terrible, and Doll's house looked almost exactly like it. I was going to ask him if he was coming next week or even for his email because I was thinking about getting it and emailing him. But I never did so I just stared at him walk to his door doing his 'walk' (so cute). Then, yesterday, I was going to school and I asked my Mom if he just liked me as a friend and she said that she thinks he's "taking a second look at me." So now, my week has improved by so much. Well, that's what happened to me that's interesting and most recent, I'll tell ya next week after Wednesday night and if he ever comes. Bye!

I think that was the first time I invited Doll to youth group but now I've gone up to the older youth group (that sounds weird) but I DID invite Doll to that one and I don't think he liked it. I don't know, maybe he did, he just always seems so bored there. So, I'm just gunna summarize the months in between these posts. Well, summer was great and I went to my Dad's for 4 weeks of the summer and went through a mini-depression... that wasn't fun. I got back home and my mom brought my friend Raigne to the airport to pick my brother and I up. I almost cried I was so happy to be home and to see my friend. Oh, I also got blue streaks in my hair while I was there. They're REALLY cool. Aaaand, what else is there? Oh! Almost forgot about my other journal I started with a friend. It's SO cool, we share this journal and read each other's entries and then write our own and switch. The cover is really cool too, it has a bunch of emotions typed out and colorful from Word. I taped it down all by myself! :D So Doll has also begun to express some interest in me; I was told from one of the leaders at Youth Group. He's also talking to me and waving at me at school WAY more often because I told him he didn't even talk to me over Myspace messaging. He said he didn't even realize he did it. I was kind of angry at that. But anyways, I had a great summer and a wonderful first month of school although it may've been a little difficult at times. :D

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