dragongirl37's Journal

naturally id try to sound sympathetic for my baby sister but im just so ticked off at those doctors. Well my baby sister has been going to the doctors about three serious medical conditions ever since she was just a month old... now shes 7 months old and they're finnaly checking her problems. why did they have to wait so long to take action? They even ignored our calls to make appointments! she was just at her worst lately and i fear that if they dont figure out whats wrong with her as soon as possible she might die. the medical conditions she has are extreemly serious and SHOULD be taken care of right away but for the doctors are just so damn slow and caught up in their precious payments. and when my mom was in the waiting room she had to wait an extra hour with the poor baby screaming bloody murder cause a few other kids who had the flu got to go in first. Then to make matters worse they checked her in the most inhumane way possible. They put her on anestesia and stuck a fucking tube down that poor baby's throat. She was in so much pain afterwords and they found out absalootly NOTHING except for what they had already known about her problems. Now theyre planning on giving her heavy medications. the only smart thing they did was injecting her with vaccines every few days to see if her problem was related to allergies but its still terrible to make an infant suffer so badly. i really wish i could trust these damn doctors but everything that theyre trying for my sister is just making shit worse. i dont wanna see my sister in so much pain at such a young age. those god damn doctors killed my first sister and i dont want it happening again

alright, i had another dream worth telling you all... this ones kind of strange and i just wanted to write it somwhere so i dont forget. okay so i was driving down to my grandparents with my cousen. as soon as i parked the car in their driveway my crush pops up almost instantly in my cars window. he shaved his beard and sideburns which kinda looked alittle strange. so he starts a conversation (which is very odd because he barely knows me) with me and my cousen that sounded somthing like this: crush: so hows it going? me: umm... good... im kinda trying to visit my grandparents cousen: im bored crush: did you watch the movie with the boat? me: umm... no... i gotta visit my grandparents crush: it sinks cousen: TITANIC!... im bored me: yeah i saw that... now cmon, i gotta visit my grandparents crush: it was a good movie cousen: IM BORED! *runs into grandparents house* me: i think my brother is at the warehouse, if thats who your looking for (thats where they practice their wrestling shows) crush: *not paying attention* stupid whore let her boyfriend die, hehe me: are you drunk? crush: *looks back at me* what? me: nevermind, why dont you come in so we can continue this conversation inside we go inside my grandparents front door but suddenly i appear in a giant submarine/boat thing. i start running to the other end of the boat where the rest of my brothers friends are. for some reason everyone who had a beard no longer had one and everyone without a beard had a gigantic (maybe about 3 foot) beard. i kept running down the hallway and full-head tackled this one guy that i hate. his head smashed through one of the windows of the boat and a little bit of water starts to leak. i attempt to pull him out but my brother says: brother: no! dont pull him out! we can use him as a cork to keep the boat from leaking guy in window: help me: *thinking* oh.. okay *kicks him in the shin and walks through a door* suddenly im in the posidon dining room (yeah it was upsydown) and this wall of water starts to flood through. the guy i hate comes running by yelling "im free!!". i trip him and duck tape him to the base of the door to keep the water from coming in. i randomly climb up a wall and jump onto the chandaleer and begin to sing a maria cary song (surprisingly it sounded good :P) once again the guy i hate comes running by yelling "im free" as the water blows the door off of its hinges and hits him in the back of the head knocking him out. i just sit up there laughing for a while but eventually dive into the water. when i surface i somehow appear on the deck of the boat. my cousen and my crush are sitting on a bench at the front of the boat. i walk up and sit between them. me: whys it called a poopdeck? *they stay silent for a moment* cousen: O.O i... dont... know me: *farts* .... maybe.... maybe thats why (i cant remember a few parts of it so ill just skip to the end) well we were swimming in the ocean now. i decided to dive underwater and when i came back up i hit my head on a layer of ice. suddenly i begin to drown and i pass out (wonder why there would be ice in the middle of the summer? O_o) suddenly i wake up (still in my dream though :P) and im in my bed. as soon as i leave my room i appear inside my grandparents house. "this is strange" i say to myself as i go to enter the bathroom of my grandparents but end up appearing in my brothers room. "damn! i gotta take a crap!" suddnely a toilet appers in his room. i go to sit down but it dissapears so i exit his room to use my own bathroom but as soon as i leave his room i appear in the basement. (wow this is getting confusing o.o) then when i exited the basement my crush was standing in the doorway with a fredy crugar mask holding a plasic butter knife. i started laughing at him as he attempted to stab me with the knife but then as soon as i walked out of the basement with him i appeared in the boat again where the guy i hate was still running from the wave yelling "im free!" o_e thats where i woke up. i dunno, i thought it was pretty funny ^-^ and yeah i did eat tuna before sleeping that night... man i really gotta stop eating crap before i sleep

okay, well erm... i dunno what the titles about either, i just felt like writin that :P well now that the messaging systems down its kinda hard to keep in contact with my friends here so ill put up my email adress if you want to contact me. but ive also noticed that alot of people are pretty bored so im offering to make one-shots, personalized stuff, or anything elts that you want me to make ^-^ contact me at c3kristina@comcast.net heres the things im probably best at making: -a real life oneshot -a naruto oneshot -a vampire (mythical or dark creature) oneshot -a personalized story of how your life would be in my school -a oneshot about you and your crush -a horror mystery oneshot -you can be a character in my talkshow -or if you want somthing special then thats fine too ^-^ just keep anime related stuff down to naruto cause thats the only anime that i have actually watched just send me the email sayin what you want me to make and ill give you a list for you to fill out and i promise to get back to you as soon as possible :D .... or you can just contact me to talk :P thatd be nice! again my email is c3kristina@comcast.net hurry before my boredome goes away! :O

heres what happened in my dream, i was outside, behind my house, with my two friends. (one is a guy who i trust the most. the other is a girl who doesnt seem to care about me but still hangs out with me) i was venting to them about my problem. eventually i got to the point where i was screaming and i began to punch the side of my house. my knuckles started bleeding as i continued to punch the house and scream at my friends about my problem. i finally dropped down to my knees and cried. then my guy friend turned to the girl and wispered to her somthing like "whats her problem" and the girl said somthing like "i dont really care" at the very end i lifted my head up and my face was covered in blood. heres when it gets strange. when i woke up the morning after i found that i had scars on my knuckles and a few scratches on my face. im not really sure if i had gotten so emotional in my dream that i began to punch my tv or somthing, but its not just the scars on my knuckles afterwords, its the thought i had about the dream. i really dont want to talk about this problem i was venting about in my dream, sorry, but its somthing very bad. i wonder if maybe this problem is even worse than i thought it was and nobody is really listning to me, just hearing my words and assuming that im just some shitfaced complaining bitch. i vent on my journal on quizilla just to relieve some stress so that i dont take it all out on a family member or a friend (i have very bad anger issues) but it seems that all of my stress is starting to come out in my dreams as well. im thinkin about getting therapy (even though im against it) just so that i can talk to them and keep myself from hurting somone i care about. i dont really want to talk to another family member or a friend because i dont want them to pity me over my problems. people who pity me piss me off more than anything. but im wondering if maybe i should go confess myself to a therapist or even use the confession box in church (and im an athiest). im just really scared that these dreams and the problem i have will turn me into some kind of monster. im so afraid of hurting somone and these dreams keep coming, reminding me of all the stuff i dont wanna remember. i really dont wanna hurt anyone.

rumors really do suck >.< a few days ago it was raining and i was getting off of the bus when... of course... due to my clumbsyness, the wet floor, and these dumb shoes; i fell. better yet i landed on the person behind me o.e he managed to stop me from falling... with his boot... his STEELTOE boot O_o which kinda hurts if you get a steeltoe right to the spine. i just said sorry and walked off. im not really upset about it. i dont get embarrased easily. i actually thought it was kinda funny. i had to bite my lip to keep me from laughing. but now i guess some moron started a rumor that "i did it on purpose just to land on the guy behind me" eh... for one, i dont even know who it was that i landed on, and also the guy who started the rumor wasnt even there. as long as i dont end up with some screwed up paranormal related rumor again then im sure ill live through this stupid rumor. (i once had a rumor spread about me that i was possessed by satan XD long story, please dont ask!) now that i look at it my school is kinda like the comunity in the book the giver. if you make yourself look too much like an outcast youll have to tell a whole fricken speach as to why you acted the way you did, just to get all of those rumor spreading bastards off of my ass. it really is funny how somthing as simple as slipping as i get off of the bus can start so much chaos, because of that rumor.

why is it that everyone around me is constantly calling me an idiot for denying their ideas of suicide? I hate it. I can understand when somone wants to kill themselves, its because of sheer pressure and severe emotional pain. None of these people know what real pain is. i dont either, ill be honest. but they talk about having no friends or feeling unloved as though it were some kind of blade to their fucing heart. I wish they would listen when somone more mature tries to tell them that just because they dont have many friends, just because they lost a family member, or because they feel that no one cares, doesnt mean that they should try and kill themselves. Deaths may seem bad but if you lived my friends life then you wouldnt be able to compare. throughout her whole life she lost both her parents in an accident and was sent to a phoster home for about three years until she was adopted. her new father soon became abusive and the mother came down with a cancer a few years later. she was beaten and abandoned her whole life and for some reason nobody in school ever cared. you wanna know why they dont care? because she never told them. she never wanted them to know and kept that secret away from everyone. and better yet she told me after i noticed the bruises on her arms, face, and legs (since i was the only person who ever seemed to care). she didnt want to tell me but eventually i got her to. and the last thing she told me was that she loved her life. somone who had absalootly no one to turn to when she was being beaten by her father, somone who witnessed the death of her parents at such a young age, and also somone who values their life. shes has real courage. facing suicide is not courage. and there are people out there with worse problems than herself and their not killing themselves either. some homeless people refuse to do it also. some people tell me because i dont wanna commit suicide that makes me weak because im afraid of death. well i told that person that their weak because their afraid of life. their so stubborn too. i can garuntee you that there are probably quite a few people who are reading this thinking "your friend's life isnt as bad as mine" or "you wouldnt understand" to hell if i cant understand! if you dont think id understand this situation then insted of telling me so, try explaining it because maybe i actually WILL understand, or maybe ive went through this before and i understand by experience. these suicidal kids are just trying to act older by imitating a roll model which they cant even see that this imitating action is floating above their head. theyve actually tricked their own mind into thinking that theyve had a hard life just so that they have a reason to kill themselves without knowing the arogance behind it. i say go ahead. im tired of trying to help people on the journal section who wont even take my advice because their too stubborn, too fucin blind to see that their wrong. i say let them decide because there are a few people on this site that actually deserve respect and that id rather help insted of listning to the wining cries of people saying that they 'have no friends'. so i say let those wining children decide if they truely want to kill themselves in disregard to the fact that there are people who would love to trade lives with them. or if they want to come over this pathetic phase and realize that they were wrong (like myself) think about it before posting a comment saying "you wouldnt understand" just give your thoughts of suicide another chance and see that if you kill yourself, what will happen. ask yourself all the questions you can think of before you try and kill yourself. i was going to once but i realized that i was wrong. i just pray that the people of quizilla will come to realize this because this site is great but its being haunted by a bunch of fucs claiming to be "emo" or whatever the hell it is they call themselves. im sorry if i got alittle moody there. i just really needed to vent. thanks for reading and sorry if i offended anyone.

i cant stand how people on this site will make such a big deal about a band or song that they dont like just because of its label. and sometimes they say that a band sucks because they 'heard one of their songs and couldnt handle listening to the rest of their music' because that one song sucked so bad. its wrong. i dont give a shit about what bands i listen to anymore. i dont care about what my favoirite band's label is. if its music and i like it i call it music. if its music and i dont like it then i call it crap. if its a little kid using pots and pans for drums then i dunno what the hell to call it but to the kid likes the sound he makes so to him its music. alright i may have said that i hate bands such as fall our boy, my chemical romance, panic at! the disco, or avenged 7x. but that doesnt mean i hate ALL of their music. ill still listen to their songs. i still try to listen to them and if i like them, then thats what i like. i hate the songs teenagers, sugar were goin down, and bat country. i may hate those songs but i admit to still liking some such as i write sins not tradjadies and many more. my favorite band is godsmack and i admit that even though i love the band to death i dont like the songs voodoo too and situation. and why do people flip out on quizzes when they ask you what your favorite band is. they give you the option in the queston of rap or country and next to them it says (me: EWWWW) or somthing like that. maybe i like some rap or country. maybe i hate some too. im actually a big country fan and i do like alot of different kinds of rap and hiphop. like i said before. to me, if i like the song then i call it MUSIC, if not then i just dont listen to it. so why do we have to say stuff to eachother like "you suck because you listen to rap" or "why dont you go listen to your country insted of metal you loose f*ck" ive heard tons of comments using music as a label. i hate being labeled for the music i listen to. I listen to everything that appeals to me, not just the types of music i like. two of my favorite bands are the beetles and dethklok. death metal and classic rock. go ahead, music labelers, call me wierd for listening to mainstreem because i like the song, because i listen to country. because i listen to metal, because i listen to rap, because i listen to MUSIC for gods sake. you can say you hate a type of music because it 'sucks' but in reality i can garuntee you that you will beable to find AT LEAST one song that you like from that category that you say that you hate. im sorry for sounding like a bitch but im just sick of all of the comments on youtube. fighting over if the song is 'emo' or not, or if somone says they like a different song better the other people flip out on them. its pathetic how much people let music run their lives and yet they still try to defend their rights when, not knowing, they are just repeating the lyrics of the same song. the same damn song that they listen to because theyre too afraid to admit that they were wrong about hating a certain type of music and deny their ideas of choosing new music to listen to. because they dont wanna admit that some of the music they thought was bad, just may be good. so why cant we all just stop complaining that a certain type of music sucks and just TRY listnening to a couple of songs? (P.S. dont worry though, i dont see this crap as much on quizilla as i do on youtube so im not blaming all of you guys on this site. just a few that really pushed the limit of arrogance here)

its seriously hard for me to beleve it but im almost sure that ive fallen in love. its not that i dont beleve in love, its just that i never thought that somone like me, only being in my late teens, could ever fall in love. its usually easy for me to just shrug off a crush but ive been telling myself for two years now to let this one go. but the crush wont go away. almost every one of my dreams are haunted by this guy, i cant stop thinking about him, and even the smallest thing that reminds me of him makes my heart skip a beat. honestly i hate it. i truely hate this feeling, mostly because i have many problems to why i shouldnt ask him out. hes way too old for me he already has a girlfriend (whom love eachother very much) and hes my brothers friend O_o i dont wanna wreck his relationship, (not that id ever think of doing that) so i perfer to just leave him alone and just stay to myself. the funny part is how i never actually cared about how he looked. its just his personality that i like. but this is becoming a problem. its slowing me down in school, makes me feel uncomfortable around him and his friends, and i admit that ive actually cried a few times because i missed him so badly. i really dont want to be in love, i want to find a way to ignore this feeling. i just wanna forget about that and just leave him alone.

i usually dont like to judge people but ive been bothered alot lately by the crushes and oppions that other people have on this site. no offence but all of the stuff that they like all seem the same to me. I kinda feel left out for liking the guys or doing the hobbies i enjoy but it doesnt bother me too much. I just hope that its not some kind of trend or somthing thats starting to take over quizilla O_o quizilla is meant for people to express their own thoughts. not convince others to what they should and shouldnt like. crushes take a huge part of that stupid crap but im definately not going to start liking gerad way just because everyone elts does. Ive actually had a few people yell at me because of the polls ive made talking about how i dont like certain bands and that i dont like the emo style (no offence to my friends ^-^') and now people are begining to ask me why i didnt put the jonas guys or the my chemical romance guys my "hot or not" poll. I made that poll cause i was bored and its titled hot or not so if you dont like the guys i put in there then just say their ugly. yup, seems more simple than trying to write a message asking me why i dont like a guy you do -_- i hate venting about the same thing over and over again but you all must know how im constantly bugged at school for the crushes i have. well i go on quizilla to hope to find people who dont do that but it seems that most of the people here are just as bad as those dramatic girls at school. but i guess you can say its kind of odd for other girls on this site to know who i have a crush on cause well, they like guys with the long shaggy hair, i like guys with a little hair (sometimes i care so less for their hair that they can be bald and ill like em :P you get the point, i like personality over appearance). of course im not talking about everyone on this site, there are quite a few people who like what they do for a reason and not because thats what their friends or their favorite celeberaty likes. i just wish there were more like that though.

you know what the funniest thing in the world is? when a person sends you hatemail that is so ill written that you cant even understand what their trying to say. one girl (who i made fun of in my talkshow :P) wrote somthing like this: "What teh hell?!?!?!?! why the hell woudl u fucin rite talkshow bout munky!?!?!?! I NO HIS CUZ AND IV MET HIM PERSONLY!!!! D:< HE LOVES ME DAMNIT!!!!! and he woulnt want to be usd in some stukpid ass talkshow!!! if u dont fucin delet that cu.m talkshow ill show munky the talkshow and hell fucin hate u forevr!!!!!!!!!!! you damn stupid fucin ho!!!" .......... yeah thats just about the same way she wrote it. first of all im not gonna be offended by somone that writes LIKE THIS or uses !!!!?!?!?!?! or uses smileys such as D:< in a rant. i wont take them seriously, it just makes them seem even more childish. and another thing, i wonder if she ever yells at people on youtube like that. if she ever read the messages on youtube saying that they love munky, will she threaten them to "show it to munky and make him hate them forever" too? and if your gonna write hatemail, make it convincing by using, umm... maybe proper grammar. i dont mean like writing perfectally, im a horrible speller too but just learn how to spell so that people can understand you. and does she even know what a cu.m is? geese -.-' dont use a word if you dont know what it means! another thing which ALOT of people do on quizilla is use swears between every word. like "dont fucin say that bout my fucin friend you fuc" (yes i took the k out of the swear so that i wouldnt have to worry about getting in trouble for swearing too much :P) if your smart enough to know that many different kinds of swears then you should be smart enough to know how to insult them in a complete, not-so-pathetic, sentence. Im sorry if i seem like a bitch right now, im just a bit stressed from a few frequent hatemailers. to my surprise i could actually understand what one of the people were yelling at me for :P i replied nicely back to her appologysing (cause, well, it was my fault in a way) but the others i didnt even bother saying anything to, it was just as bad as the message i showed you earlier on this post. but it still puzzles me why people think WRITING LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! appears offencive and intimidating to them.

hey! ill be starting a new story soon. its basically about a boy who tries to fufill his dream of being a guitarist while battling cancer. i dont really have many ideas about the story itself but i did some research on cancers. one thing i have to say is that even though i just read it off a simple site like wikipedia, i still came close to crying. its so upsetting how badly cancer affects somone's life. anyway, i decided to choose luchemea (or however you spell it :P) for the cancer in my story. but before i start writing my story i just want to make sure no one is offended by it cause i know alot of people here could have lost a loved one to cancer and i just dont want to make anyone feel upset when im writing this story.

hehe, well my week off of school hasbeen pretty exiting :P i think i might be in trouble though O.O this is what had happened... me and my cousen were outside talking (she really enjoys talking... alot :P) and well we started hearing this strange noise, like a choking laugh. then it began to smell bad. sure enough, there were two 11 year olds smoking pot that decided to hit on me and my cousen. so one of them comes over and grabs my butt O_o i didnt notice him before but as soon as he did that i got startled, turned around, grabbed him by the wrist and the elbow, and snapped his arm over my knee.... hehe... so i look at the little pothead kids, ones arm broken and hanging at an angle and the other was laughing. im not sure if he was drunk or high because my cousen found out that he blacked out the next day and couldnt explain to his parents what had happened to his wrist :P i guess im safe. but should i say somthing to the kid's parents about the butt-grabbing and explain the whole "i broke his arm" situation, or should i wait till he sobers up and kick his ass again? ^-^

sorry that i havent been on lately, ive spent my whole week off of school at my cousens and my grandparents house. it kinda sucks >.< my grandparents dont have a computer and my cousens dont have the internet connected. ill start workin on my nightmare story again (though im not really sure if many people still read it :P) also ill be workin on my talkshow too ^-^ my cousen gave me some ideas for my next one.

alright i need to vent again ^-^, i just got made fun of by some rich bastard the other day because i... eat spam. ynow, ham in a can :P go ahead, you can laugh if you want, i find it funny too how my family is too lazy to cook real ham XP but was there really a reason to start picking on me for it? basically what the guy had said to me was "you eat spam? *breaks out in laughter* how do you even have a house? you must be poor as hell! do you grow your own veggies or do you buy em at price rite?" of course i got pissed off (i get pissed real easy :P) but i managed to keep calm and i told him "yeah i eat spam, and sometimes normal ham, and also packaged ham, i eat sliced deli ham, and i eat grilled ham, and i also use ham juice in my chicken broth to make soups. so are you gonna laugh just because one food that i eat? would you still laugh if i told you i eat snow cones too? and yeah, i do shop at price rite" he still picks on me of course but im just glad i didnt break his nose insted of just yelling at him. eh, maybe i should next time he says somthing >:D

my brother and his friends have come so far with their backyard wrestling :D they started doing it about eight years ago. they used the classic trampoline and built their own entrence. then five years later they bought a profetional ring (though the ropes were messed up :P) and they began to get hundreds of fans coming to their shows. a year after that they began doing profetional shows at places like the turnvarine and the elkslodge, and now they also have a profetional trainer! theyre gonna do their fourth profetional show on the 23 :D im so exited! you can check out their site if you want ultimatewrestlingdynasty.com im proud to say that my brother is danny vengence XD and im also so proud of them all for how far theyve come ^-^ theyve been told by so many people that they might become the new WWE and i completely agree with it. im gonna miss hanging out with em all in the backyard but im just glad that their doing so well. their last three shows they had about 100-250 people there. once again thanks for reading my pointless journal :P im just so exited for the next show!

no im not talkin bout the people on this site. ive spoke to alot of people claiming to commit suicide on this site and theyve all had some pretty good reasons... well... most of em anyway -_- but yeah, the kids in my school are completely suicidal. i have the most dramatic school and it seems like suicide is the new trend ._. everyone makes up their own excuse to why they want to commit suicide and they fight over who has the hardest life. yeah. there actually that desperate for attention that they need to fight over whos life is the most difficult. well there are a few students in my school who have REAL problems. the funny part is that they dont admit that they want to commit suicide. i rarely hear them talk about their problems at all. one kid i know lost both her parents in a car accident, her grandparents died before she was even born, and her older sister is a drug addict. she lived with her sister who beat the girl her whole life and it took me seven years to figure that out. she always seemed so happy though, and she never even seemed sad about her life at all. she even told me that she valued her life and despite what he sister has done to her she still loves her sister. people like that, i wish thered be more of them in my school insted of these whiney punks claiming to kill themselves because their parents grounded them or somthin stupid like that -_- i wanna get transfered to a different school but there are only two other schools here and in both of them people get murdered alot, so... ^-^' yeah, id rather stay in the crummy school im in now. But still im sick of having to listen to all of those people complaining about their lives. i wouldnt mind it if they didnt repeat it every day, and if they had a better reason to wanna kill themselves. so far ive heard people say they want to kill themselves because: -they were grounded -their boyfriend dumped them (boo-frickety-hoo, happens every day to the slut that used that excuse) -they have no friends (neither do i, but i enjoy it so -_-) -they have no future (alittle early to be worryin bout that :P) -their little brother/sister is too annoying (hehe, yeah) -their parents wont let them get xbox live (spoiled bastard) their all reasons to be upset, yeah, but not to kill yourself. and as you may have guessed, the kid who didnt get his xbox live has an extreemly rich family. i could say that at least 90% of the school wants to kill themelves for stupid reasons, 8% dont even concider suicide, and 2% have a reason to wanna commit suicide but dont because they dont wanna be part of the drama. its sad to see what my school has come to. hope you guys go to better schools :P

at first it all started as some joke, that my mom was loosing her mind, but now im actually starting to belive that shes going insane. you know my new baby sister? well today i caught her venting to the baby about her problems and the kid was crying badly and she wouldnt shut up (not to mention my mom was yelling) and she also had some kind of 'attack' today. i dunno what to call it, she just started yelling at me for no reason. i think if anything, she just lost her mind because of all of the problems in her life. she is a REALLY hard worker, but i fear this behavior of hers is going too far. i cant tell anyone though. i live with just my mom, but if my father hears that she was sent away and that i need a home, then my overprotective grandfather and my real father will fight over me. my grandparents are the reason my mom posibly lost her mind, and i dont want that to happen to me. my father lives in washington and i dont wanna move that far away. a long time ago my brother (hes 21) said that if anything happened to my mom, hed make sure that'd never happen but, knowing my father and grandpa, one of them would overpower my brother and get custody insted. my mom tried therapy but it costs way too much. my family is poor as it is, especially with a newborn in the family now. im just unsure of what to do. i do care for my mother, but i couldnt stand all of that family pressure if she was taken away. the biggest reason why i want to send her to an asylum of some sort, is because im afraid that if she really does have some kind of psychotic disorder, i dont want it to worsen and endanger herself, the baby, or me. please help,

ever since ive joined this site there always seemed to be somthin good to do here, but now ive noticed that most of quizilla has turned into a wasteland. there are still some people tryin to make original stuff but their being overwhelmed by all of the lemons, chainletters, and other pointless stuff that well... really isnt nessicairy. The quiz section is inhabeted by stories now. one thing i have to say is DONT BE AFRAID TO POST YOUR STORY IN THE STORY SECTION. you shouldnt feel intimidated by other writers. its not like your competing with steven king or the writer of harry potter. i can honestly say that ive seen a wide range of both good and bad stories in the story section though. even some of the shortest, most poor writen stories manage to make it on the most popular list so dont be afraid to post your stories on the story section. also theres the lyrics. i still dont understand why or how you could get a rating of 5 for writing lyrics made by another band. i hate to sound rude but insted of wasting your time writing lyrics on a site that clearly says "make lyrics original, do not copy from other bands" why not leave it to sites like azlyrics and try writing your own lyrics. if you really like music that much then im sure you can write a great song. Chainletters have also become a problem. i dont mind surveys, their fun to write out or post on myspace n stuff but when it comes to the ones where theirs a threat at the end then, no offence but its kinda dumb to believe "lucy, a little ghost kid with a chainsaw, is gonna appear in your room at 2:13 and kill you" if you dont repost a message on the computer :P ive read at least 50 different chainletters and so far i have not yet seen a deranged little girl in my room with a chainsaw O_O and im definetly not dead yet. and lastly, please, i know most of my friends make these kinds of stories but do not take it offencively. im gettin kinda sick of fanfiction. i dont mind alittle of it but when the entire story section is full of nothing but "sasuke love story, garra love story, mcr love story, twilight love story" well you kinda wish there was a good war story, or an action novel, or maybe even a mystery. i like reading some fanfictions but the bandfiction really REALLY bothers me. have any of you ever seen that little icon on photobucket where team 7 from naruto is reading a fan made lemon and it says somthing like "sakura and kakashi spent the night together" and they all get freaked out. yeah haha, its pretty funny but the naruto characters are fictional so you all have no worries about writing your anime fanfictions. but well those band members are real people and uhhh... if they were to read one of these saying "gerad way pulled you behind stage and did it with you. then three months later you find out your having a baby" then well, ^-^' dontchya think that'd be kinda awkward. yeah there is a really low chance that one of the band members have a username here and are reading the stories but it could happen, and if i were famous and had people writing stories bout me, id be pretty freaked out O_o sorry if i offended anyone, just felt like venting :P seems like venting on this journal really reduces stress haha XD thanks for reading

if theres one thing in this world that annoys me more than being forced to listen to techno pop music, its having somone in class sitting RIGHT behind you making all these annoying sounds >.< first thing i hear when she sits down is a loud fricken pop from the gum shes chewin. not to mention she chews like a friggen cow x.x i dunno how the teacher cant hear her. once i thought that maybe the teacher dont care but as soon as i pulled out the piece of gum i got yelled at. now shes sneaking snacks into class. all i hear now is her munchin on crackers... which doesnt help at all when its only 8 in the mornin and you feel like your gonna barf XP another thing she does is every few seconds she has to whisper to her friend all the way across the room... well i guess its not really a whisper cause shes basically shouting in a raspy voice :P i got so exited yesterday cause my teacher said we were switchin seats but *with my luck* she stayed right behind me and i got a perverted manwhore moved right in front of me O.O at least the class is only bout 45 mins long ^-^' sorry, just had to vent :P thanks for readin my pointless journal!

i dont really understand why people get so exited over seven mind in heaven and spin the bottle. i dont mind if it has really good stories insted of just "they locked you and itachi in the closet and he kissed you and told you he loves you before killing you" or worse. the fangirl written ones where it says "garra kills you instantly with his sand coffin and makes out with me cause he LOVES ME AND HED NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELTS!! RAWR!!~ *fangirl blows up" i just dont understand why somone would make those or even like them when the story is that horrible. like i said before, if the story itself is really good, (i dotn mean detailed. i dont need ALL of the details O.O especially what happens after, if ya know what i mean) but honestly the three things that tick me off are 1. people changing characters personalities. exact quote from one of these: "'i love you ____!' garra grabs your hands and begins to make out with you. you later get married and have four kids..." four fricken kids?!?! GARRA?!?! woah, what the hell?!?! 2. having somthing strange happen like. "naruto got up happily and began to walk over to you to give you a kiss but he tripped over the bottle and ended up landing face to face with sasuke and accidentally kissed him insted" ............. hehehe, that kinda sucks if you like naruto 3. be creative! think of somthing other than chacacters from anime, bands, or putting emo kids there (if i concidered myself emo, id probably take that as offencive). why not make up your own characters, describe who they are and stuff, or you can even try using characters from a show that no one used yet if you have to. i just wish that people who make crappy spin the bottle and 7 mins things would just put alittle more effort into it. and if they do that "sasuke kills you and runs away with me" crap then no offence but they probly shoudlnt be making them at all. And if their really good at writing the story part then they should try making a complete story of their own. look at me, i suck at writing compared to most other people on quizilla, and i still try to write. id say about 90% of the people who wrote the spin the bottle things could write a full story if they wanted to. i just wish that therd be more series than the 7 mins and spin the bottle stuff