darkwolf444's Journal

Some jerk went and took my sketch book! I left it on the lunch table and went up to get my lunch...and when i came back the book AND the pen were gone! I asked everyon around me if they had seen anyone take it...they all said no...i got my suspicions on the vice principal/nun but that's a different story...a couple of people are trying to help me find it...some kids are even pretending to be cops and act like i lost a diamond or my kid -.-"

I got at least a week where I only got an hour on quizilla a day...oh well it was my fault anyways...

*sigh* My dad went through my messages the other day...he didn't like what he was reading...(you don't need to know what he was reading!) So he's only letting me on for an hour a day...so sorry to everyone that has messged me in the past couple of weeks...your messages were read by my dad! *growls* I swear sometimes I wish my parents would just die! This shows me that he doesn't trust me at all! If he did he wouldn't have been going trough my private stuff...he told me had trusted me before that but I'm pretty sure that was a big fat lie...

I finished my akatsuki sleepover!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! It's done!!!! I'm so relieved!!!!!

Me and my camp went to six flags today! I went on Kingda Ka for the first time! Woooo!Lol there was this guy in a food stand and my counselor asked him to smile after she ordered and he flat out aid "No..." I was snickering silently in the backround...

I just found out that I acidently made four accounts instead of two! Now I have darkwolf444(the one I'm on now and will be on mostly),emosforever,vampireofdarkness444,and ilovetobeemo(the other three i won't be on as much)

I'm finally back! God that week seemed like a month...We accidently took back an extra bag and now we're trying to get it back to the owner!XD Well I'm glad to be back and I had a great time! I can open my personalized quiz again!

Song that should be playing while reading this entry: Angel by Sarah McLachlan

If there is one thing I can't stand it's animal abuse! Just picturing those poor innocent animals brings tears to my eyes...There is one thing I can say about animal abuse:

It's Not Cool It's Cruel

How would you like it if you were that poor innocent animal? Would you be happy? If you or someone you know is doing animal abuse STOP IT RIGHT NOW! Because all you're doing is hurting the animal and it's not helping...Animal abuse is not only bad but elegal so you could get arrested for it...I thank the people out there who are trying to help...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=b9kpYgoJXiY
http://youtube.com/watch?v=GYqc0Ci8LME&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFG6i3eAlMA&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CC-N4n8oK1Y
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLV6vzucBZ8&feature=related

Watch these videos and see just what people do to animals!(Warning:May cause you to cryand may have graphic pictures)How would you like it if you were one of them? They're like us! We're animals too...But animals don't have voices! We need to speak up for them! We need to be their voice! If we don't stop the abuse it's just going to get worse! Animal abuse can be found in places w never expected! Rodeos and dog fighting are forms of animal abuse! Millions of animals die each year from animal abuse and being put down because we couldn't save them from animal abuse when we found them...so help stop animal abuse! Voice your opinion! Help stop the cruelty! Help stop abuse! Help stop the slaughter of the innocent

I'm going to Bermuda from June 22-June 29...IU'm coming back the 29 so if you send me a message between thenI can't answer for a while...So I'll see ya in a week!

I made a new account like a week ago...the username is vampireofdarkness444...strange that all of my friends are making one adn I just happen to make one a while ago...

...I thought I would know what it feels like to be loved...looks like I was wrong...I am actually crying right now...I've looked back on my life...and it....SUCKED!!!! I hated it...it was like living the torture all over again...the death...the tears...the demons...the hatred...no love...the pain...and the broken heart...I just want to die...MAKE THE TORTURE END SOMEBODY PLEASE!!!!*starts to cry* Somebody...anybody...help...I hate life right now and I don't see it getting any better



Oh yeah and.......................


I HATE YOU ALL!!!!!

I can't do it because the quiz maker doesn't have enough space to write the story part of it...Well I could always make it a story and put the answers at the end...YEAH! I actually might do that! What do you think?

Normally most kids are happy on the last day of school...WELL I'M NOT!!! One of my best friends,Larry ,left because he was expelled and another kid,John,is moving to a different school. I'm gonna miss both of them...today must have had the most people crying in our class in the whole school year...Robert cried,Luisa or as some people know her Kira cried,I would have if I knew how to,Larry cried,Victoria cried and I'm sure a lot more people cried...also one of the best teachers in school is leaving but on the upside our fatass b*tch of a principal is leaving too!^w^ Yay!!! And she's the whole f*cking reason Larry is leaving! If I had my way I would torture her to death!

Forget I ever made the last journal entry because well I don't feel that way anymore...a little misunderstanding when I read the thing my friend sent me ^^' But there is still a little thing inside me that still feels that he's cheating but ignore it...

I made this quiz about if I would date you or not to get a bf and it worked!*blush* I love him...even if I don't even know his name or anything else yet...I finally know what it feels like to be loved by someone...

I LOVE YOU VANGDEMON!!!!!

I wonder what's it's like to feel loved...to get love back for the love you give...to know that someone out there cares about you. Will I ever know? I might. No one really knows what will happen in the future...Does it fee nice to be loved? Is it fun? Does it hurt? I really don't know...All I've ever felt is pain when there should be love...But who knows...not me that's for sure...but still that question resounds in my head...:

What is it like to be loved?

My friend Luisa's ex is trying to set me up with some guy he met on myspace. All that I know about him is that his name is Chris,he's 13,and he lives in New Jersey. I don't even know what he looks like! Now Luisa's ex is telling everyone that he's my bf when I haven't even so much as seen him!

Let me tell you the reasons why:

1.I'm too shy

2.I'm weird

3.I'm different

4.I'm dark

And I'm sure I'll find more reasons but now I'm the only person around me that hasn't had someone like them or had a date. It seems I never will...I hate being me...it sucks more than dying but I don't have the gutts to do suicide...one of these times you'll never see another journal post up here because I'll be dead...

Missing by Evanescence

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

This is how I feel right now in- F*ck this how I've felt for my whole God D*mn F*ckin life! You want to know how much people cared? None...If I wrote a suicide note it would go like this:

Dear Friends,Family,and Others,

If you want to know why I'm dead, look around or look in a mirror! It's all your God d*mn fault! You did nothing but criticize me, kick me when I'm down! If I go to hell it would be better than this hellhole they call life! I have no regrets killing myself. The only reason I didn't kill myself earlier before is because I feared the pain. I'm sure you've all felt what it's like to be loved right? Well I never knew what it felt like! I tried to show you love so you might return it...you crushed it...I gave you my heart and you broke it...I fixed it and gave it to you again and you broke it even more. I'm sure you feel no regret or guilt about me being gone...

With no one to love,

Kristen

I just found out today that Phillip,the guy I like, likes my best friend, Patty. I am so confused about my life right now...and I hate it! And Phillip acts like I never told him I liked him! Now I'm scared to even look at him let alone talk to him...I don't know what to do...I need help...Kira give me some of your happy pills