bangXbangXdie's Journal

I wanted to write.
I needed to write.
I didn't know what to write.

So here I am.

Is there anyone in your life whom you love beyond all things logical? Is there anyone whom you think about all the time, wondering how his or her day is going?

Lola is my everything. She's my best friend, my sister, my twin, my lover, my wife, my other half. I go to her for everything. I have nothing to hide from her.

It's really amazing. I know that you people either must be tired of hearing this, or really don't care, and that's okay.

Love is a scary thing too. You're left vulnerable as you strip away all secrets. But it's a feeling you can get no where else.

Now that I think about it, we've never fought. It might be because we don't see each other on a day to day basis, but I'd like to think that we simply don't need to fight.

It's been such a long time too. Around 1 and a half years. I don't know exactly why we've been friends for so long, or how it happened.

I'm thankful that it did though. With someone like Lola, I don't need to know why.

So, yesterday instead of working or writing one shots, I decided I'd try to scout out some new writing. You know, browse through random profiles and try to find something interesting.

Well, on my escapade, I noticed that some kids have those little prologue chapters that basically give you the information you need in order to understand the story.

Now, I'm not saying it's a good or bad thing. But personally, I feel that if you need to put that information out in order for people to grasp the meaning and ideas you're writing, then the writing isn't giving enough.

Yes, I am guilty of this. On my Gerard story, which is currently on hiatus, I put two pictures, names, and roles. I understand that, so don't think I'm hammering down on how awful those people must be as writers because they have introductory chapters.

I was just wondering how you feel about this. Do you find it annoying? Helpful? Unnecessary? Necessary? Tiring? Do you know what I'm talking about, haha?

Leave your thoughts, but keep your minds.

Alright.
See, here's the thing: WE HAVE TO TAKE OUR CLOTHES OFF (YEAH).

Mmmkay. Fer seriously, here's the deal.

I am taking five one shots.
First come first serve, message me quick.

NAME
DESCRIPTION
FAMOUS PERSON

I'll change the title of this post or delete it once I get my five.

...and please, be a little versatile.
I don't want to end up with four Pete Wentzes and one other kid.

I hope you know that I want a Patrick one shot. If you ask me who I want you get booted off the list.

I'm sorry, but that's how it goes.
PAY ATTENTION.

EDIT://
All one shot slots have been filled. Sorry.

Okay, this is going to sound really stupid, but I think it's important:

Lately my gums have been hurting. I can't chew, but they aren't red or swollen, and they don't bleed when I brush my teeth.

I was TERRIFIED.
I thought I was getting periodinitis, or something.

So my dad takes a look at it, and it turns out to be a viral infection.
That's just a big fancy term that means I've got blisters on all four sides of my mouth.

I was like "OMGOHNOWHATDOIHAVETODOTOMAKEITBETTER!?!"

The solution?
Drink lots of water and use Listerine to kill the blisters.

That's it?

Yep. And now I do not have to worry about my teeth falling out and my gums deteriorating.

I'm not even kidding.
GO NOW.

Once upon a time on a Saturday night:

Paulina (my cousin whom you might have seen on my photobucket under the sub folder "Paulina") and I went to eat at this Vietnamese restaurant with the entire family. The seating arrangements have always been kids to one table, adults to the other. And Paulina and I always sit with the little kids, because we have a whole lot more fun there.

POINT BEING: We had finished eating, and there was this boy sitting with his family in the table in front of us. He was facing us and we were facing him because of the way our tables were set up. So, he kept STARING at us, no joke. Everytime I looked around the room and caught him in my peripheral vision, I'd burst out in laughter.

And Paulina just freaked and clenched her teeth. "So he doesn't know we're talking about him," she said.

THEN he decides to take out his phone, and tried to inconspicuously take PICTURES of us.

Then he pulled out his camera and told his little brother to sit across from him.
OBVIOUSLY you can see his reason.

Paulina and I kept repeating "Oh my god, this is so awkward."

His family finally leaves, and she looks at me and goes "WHAT IF HE FINDS US ON MYSPACE?!"

The end.
Very scary.
He is a stalking perv, and it's why MySpace is so dangerous.
So pretend you're from Iraq.
Or a descendant of Hitler.
And don't get raped.

...

He wasn't even cute, nor did he have a guitar to serenade me with.

Well, today I decided to tag along with my friend to a retreat kind of thing. A speaker giving a talk on sex. And yeah yeah everyone's like OH IT THE SAME THE THING DUH but I've been to three (they like to come to school and such) it's always really amazing.

I guess because it was more on the Catholic, or Christian, side as well, it was like a double whammy, or whatever. But it was really amazing.

Apparently, HPV is the numero uno STD being spread around. *thumbs up* That's super! Also, after you watch those herpes commercials YOU WANT HERPES! Don't lie! You do!

Wow. That was a Dane Cook thing right there, I'm pretty sure.

He was so funny too. He did impressions and he talked about specific things that happened at other places he talked. Like how girls flirt. Apparently, in the fifth grade if we like a boy we huddle and then we decide to write a note. And in the girls' bathroom we have couches and white erase boards to map out manuevers. And boys do not wear belly button shirts.

His name's Jason Evert, and you can defintely look him up.

And I was just wondering what everyone's thoughts were about not just sex but sex talks or issues that they have speakers come to school and you miss fourth period because the slideshow was too long or whatever.

I don't know why, but everytime I go to these talks I really feel enlightened. And yes, I know and you know I'm a terrible Catholic. I don't go to Church. I don't pray before my meals. When we have church at school I don't sing.

I'm pretty sure it's blasphemous for me to take the crouton-o-christ when I do so much wrong, but whatever.

And it's just by coincidence Celina posted her journal entry today too.

Mmkay, so I had a weird dream. It'll be hard to explain, but here's the gist of it:

Fall Out Boy concert + séance + neucom (a game that plays like volleyball but instead of bumping and such you just have to catch) + Great Wall of China + grass.

Mmhmm.
Oh, and guess who got moved to the back of the room in Spanish?
Sheesh. Like visionary impairment isn't enough, I also am a sucky Hispanic.

Um, there was something else I wanted to touch on, but I totally forgot. Anywho, I've got to do my English and Theology homework. And then shower and study for my Algebra Test.

Oh, who's read The Lord of the Flies? We just finished annotating and discussing it, and what was once a very sucky book is now very enthralling. And mind bending.

Hi guys.
Just a little update on the life of Jolynn.

I've been placed in ninth period PE, or as we call it now, "Lifetime Fitness." Monday through Thursday from 3:30 to 4:15. It's kind of like a taboo thing, and everyone pities you, but it's honestly not that bad. It beats having to spend two hours Monday through Friday at some sports practice.

Seriously. 180 minutes a week, or 600? Plus, with all the meets and competitions, you miss class a lot, and that's not something I can afford.

Homecoming is coming up, and of course, I'm not going, because my parents are way overprotective.

Here's the thing: my little sister is going to her back to school dance. I've NEVER been to a dance. Can anyone say UNFAIR?

Yes, I know some of you will say, "Oh, but dances are boring/stupid/asinine/a waste of time..." etc., but it's not like I WANT to go, but just the concept, I guess you could call it.

Okay, so, new boy named Justin. My friend asked him to homecoming and he said no and now she's in a rage. Or case of depression. We've also got a new girl named Ashley Woods, who's a cousin of one of the sophomores in my class and Ash is supposedly real smart.

I don't need this competition! *stabs Ashley*

Just kidding. I'm sure she's really nice.

I start piano lessons again tomorrow. Boy, that'll be fun :[

Oh, and guess who's taking Organic and Bio Chem classes on top of school and piano? GRRRRRRRRRRR MY PARENTS.

Mmkay. So, it started off roughly.
I planned to wake up 6:30, but my alarm clock was being stupid and I didn't wake up until 7.

Anyway, I have four close friends and the three of them have second lunch while I have first.

So, first class was speech communication. Yada yada yada, nothing really important.

Second period was World History, but it's in the other building (we have two buildings), so I had to sprint. Same old, go over the rules thing. We sat in alpha order, and UNFORTUNATELY I sit in front of this boy named Jonathan. And he gave me a back massage because he's a creep. We have lockers next to each other too.

Then we had break. And then I went to SPANISH UNO. Because I took choir last year, I skipped out of Spanish I. My teacher is crazy. She likes to cuss (in English) and tell stories. And fall.

Fourth period is theology (with is like "RELIGION CLASS!) and it's the same theo teacher I had last semester. This one boy for the oddest reason wanted to get a tissue, but he didn't have the guts to do it, so I had to go and grab him a tissue box. What a weenie.

Third and fourth period are in the same building (thank god).

LUNCH. Yeah, eating, and Marissa (who used to be my friend until freshman year because she was such a WHORE and fucked at least three guys) wanted to sit with me. So, yeah. And my cousin who's a Fish asked me for money.

Imagine me standing there going: "WHAT? NO, DON'T EVER ASK ME FOR MONEY."

Cause that's what I did.

AND THEN I went to Geometry Honors class. It's small, only 15 or so people. We have homework :/

And then I went to the other building for English II Pre AP. I love the teacher, she really knows her stuff.

And, um, then I went to Algerbra II Honors, which is back in the first building. And that class is PACK FULL.

I also have ninth period PE, but we didn't have to do that today.

Mmkay, basically that's it.

Okay.
I did it.

The downloading will take a very long time; it took me a little over an hour to upload.

The only thing you need to use is the verification code (it's a NOTEBOOK program) and the Set Up Application.

I hope hope hope hope hope HOPE this works.

http://www.sendspace.com/file/ep0w3q

Yeah, so everyone's a hot shot and joining communities and groups and what not.

I have joined PanicXMonster, and ... and something else but it was a put off project.

So, here's the deal:

We one shot exchange.
Just message me with your name, about you, and which famous person you want.
Pretty simple.

I'll message you back with an okay, and you should already know I want a Patrick Martin Stump one shot.

If you ever feel the need for getting dirt on me, check out the homepage "About Me" or simply ask around. I believe one of the links at the bottom of my "About Me" is an article The.Interview wrote.

Mmkay.
That is all.
OH and GOD GREW TIRED OF US.

Okay, so now that I'm back and writing, I really wanted to write my own one shot. Like, for myself.

I don't know when I wanted this, or why I wanted this, but apparently I just do.

But then I'm like NOOOOOOOOOOO then I'd just be selfish. Hence name of journal postage.

I've already tried the "Well, maybe I can ask somebody," trick and then my brain scolds, NOOOOOOOO cause that's selfish too.

And it got me thinking maybe I'm just selfish and should shut up.

So I'm just going to write the next Patrick chapter instead.

TADA.

Is not out.
It won't be out until 2008.

Find them on YouTube.

(I only know the names of three)
Middle of Summer
True Love
Back To The Streets

and there's another brand new one that PATD fans have not donned a name upon.

I'm sick of AFYCSO.
I'm hoping that if these boys make a change, they'll make a good one.
I'm willing to buy this CD unless it sucks.

I think this is my favorite out of the four new songs I heard.
This album is a total 180 of Fever, and I hope they know what they're doing.

It'll be nice to hear something of Panic's that isn't full of SHH and great big pauses on the radio.

But then, maybe the songs are still about sex.

Into a place where thoughts can bloom.
Into a room where its night in the afternoon.

What's your favorite song?

Okay, okay.
I did some searching and she does look like Ryan Ross.

http://i152.photobucket.com/albums/s166/Studs_R_Us_Eliza/montanamartiniles-1.jpg

Here at least.

But what about the first face in this picture?

http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g169/sflashing/Blends/montanamartiniles2.jpg

Or just watch her "perform" Thnks Fr Th Mmrs.
I swear, first thing that popped into my head was PLKWIII.

Actually, first thing was "What the fuck? Spider man moves? ... I want some!"

Mmkay.
This is freaky.
She should go AWAY.

I've been standing alone and you've been dancing tonight awaaaaaaaaaay.

Mmkay.
Well, I had the strangest dream/nightmare.

I was just sitting at home, hacking into FBI headquarters (for those of you who don't know, I watched Live Free or Die Hard yesterday, and movies get to my head, haha) when all of a sudden Montana Martin Iles and Maegen the Cbox Ruler came into my house and STOLE MY GUITAR and CAMERA.

And then Montana sang, no, butchered the entire Infinity On High record whilst Maegen took pictures of me squirming on the floor.

Oh, I don't know what Maegen looks like. She just came up to me as Avril Lavigne.
Don't ask me why.

And of course, we all know what Montana looks like.
But, if you don't, she's Peter Wentz.
YouTube her up, if you must.

That is all.

Haha.
Just got finished watching on BRAVO.

Will watch again on NBC @ 7:00 Central Time.

My dad knew who Patrick was.

It must be the fucking apocalypse.

http://www.quizilla.com/users/DragonflyHotaru

This is Maegen.
Her friends are Sonya and Candy.
Though not named, I have done my research.

Read her "about me."
And tell me I'm wrong.

This one too:

http://www.quizilla.com/users/starcatcher385

I have been posing as "Sonya."
I am also the last "Maegen" post.

I was trying to get an email.
All I got was "roboticfrogs" and I don't even know if there are numbers or anything.

But, on DragonflyHotaru's profile, there is an email.
And don't you need an email to validate your account?

I don't want spammers yet, though.
Let's wait it out.

http://www.quizilla.com/users/CheyenneG/

This is Cheyenne.

http://www.quizilla.com/users/violethazard/

This is Violet.

There's also a Kyle, who is Maegen's cousin.
Alli has been posting sexual comments as Kyle.
I just go around and contradict everything.

If you have anything to say, message it.
It's the safest.

Now that Maegen bitch wants to report me.
I've reported her already though.
Let's see what happens.

God, I sound like pathetic in my apologies.

I thought you people were going to email me for polling?
No, not pole dancing.

What are you waiting for?!

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