I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING. I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE.
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April 4, 2008
I came home from school today, and just like any other friday, i relax and watch some tv. Everything was the same until the phone rang. My sister answered it and from the expression on her face, i knew that she had just heard some bad news. After she hung up, i immediately asked what happened. She told me that my aunt said that her father was dying. Meaning my grandpa, and most importantly my dad's father, was dying. I just looked at my sister and tried my best not to cry. The only time I'd seen my grandfather was when i was about 3 years old, and so i don't really remember much about him. Nonetheless, tears were forming in my eyes because of my grandpa, but mostly because of my dad. I didn't know how my dad would handle it. Eventually about 30 minutes later, I somehow forgot about the whole thing for I was too frusterated with my stupid algebra. After I finished with my homework, I decided to go to my room and gather all my laundry so I could finally wash them. As I entered the hallway, I stopped once I heard what sounded like my father on the phone. I listened instensely, hoping to hear what he was saying. Then I heard something I wish I hadn't. I had heard my father sniveling, and crying. I could tell - even without really seeing him - that he was an emotional wreck. I always saw my dad as the strongest man in my world. The one who looked as if nothing could make him flinch or make him scared. Hearing him cry really hit me in the heart. It was pretty emotional. And I sit here and think thta death really is a crazy thing. Why did people have to die? And it's weird because one day you're as happy as can be, and the next day, you hear your father or grandfather is dying and your whole world comes tumbling down. and another thing is that you know people will eventually die, but everyday as you look at them, it always seems as if they're always here to stay. I hope there is a heaven. Because I really want my grandfather to go up there, where someday, he, his wife, his children, and grandchildren, may someday all be together.
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