alternativelyxwrittenx47's Journal

Mmkay. So I got messages, so I'm working on the next chapter of Pros and Cons. I've also got another chapter of Beckett done, but it didn't turn out how I wanted it to, so I'm going to re-write the second half of it. But I should be posting another chapter of each by the end of tonight.

I really love getting feedback, and really, is it so hard? I don't care if you tell me you don't like it, I just want to know what you think.

Just don't be too mean xD

And I've also been feeling sick lately, so I haven't been in a very good mood. So if I update, you guys should feel lucky.

I love you guys!

Okay, so if you read my most recent chapter of Lies, you would know that I am NOT in the mood to write, at all.

Well, there's this guy who goes to my youth group who I've been in love with (For real) for like, three years.

I'm one of those people who doesn't believe that we can really be IN LOVE with someone so young. I just think, you know, that we're not really capable of it. But I'm pretty sure I'm head over heels for this guy.

Well I'm really pissedbecause I tookmy best friendto youth group (Because I talk about this guy 24/7 and she wanted to meet him). So,after we do prayers and stuff, we "Greet each other in peace" which means we go around hugging people and shaking hands.

Sothis boycomes up and hugs me and while were hugging he whispers in my ear, "Who's your friend?" and I was like, "*Insert name here*"

Then we went outside to play a game and while we were walking to the upper parking lot he comes up and he's like, "Hey, can I talk to you?" So I was all like, fuck yeah (cept not really, I was just excited) andmy friendgave me a look because I talk about him A LOT.

So he took me aside andmy friendwas just kinda wandering over somewhere else and he says "Hey is she going to *insert school here*?" And I'm like "Why?" And he's like, "And is she gonna be inour grade?" And I'm like, "Maybe, why do you want to know?" And then I was like, oh shit. Then I said "I think I know why." And he's like, "Yeah probably." And I was like, (lying, half-way) "Well she has a boyfriend. They're kind of off and on." (She doesn't have a boyfriend currently, but she is off and on with someone) and he's just like "Oh."

And whenmy friendasked later what he was talking about I was like, "He was just asking a question about *Insert school here*" (Which again, was only a half lie) and she was like, "Damn, I was hoping he asked you out or something." And I laughed.

And then when I get home, I get right on Myspace and I'm all like, I bet someone a million bucks thathe messaged me asking something about my friend.

And sure enough, right when I click on the New Messages! button, I have a message from him. So I read it, and it says something along the lines of "I bet you keep bringing her and she'll dump her boyfriend." And so we talk for a little bit and he's all like, "So did she say anything about me?"

And I want to tease him right? Since I'm way pissed and stuff. So I'm like "It's possible she did." And he's like, "Come on you can tell me, I got Most Trustworthy at my school last year." And I just about died laughing.

So I just told him that she asked if he was going to *insert school here* "And stuff"

And now I don't know if I should tell him that I've liked him forever or what, I'm just so fucking confused =/

He's such a sweet boy and so funny. We used to be like best friends at youth group and we always hung out, but when other guys our age started coming he ditched me for them. We still talk sometimes, but we're like, not very close anymore.

So, every year my youth group goes to Wild Waves (A theme park) for Big Splash (You go and ride rides, then there'sa big concert at the end with like, five to seven christian bands) and my first year this guy and I spent the WHOLE day together. We were supposed to be in groups of three, but we "Got separated" (ditched in the line for a roller coaster) the other two girls in our group and ran around by ourselves until we got caught and yelled at (then we did it again).

It was so amazing, hanging out with him for twelve hours in the sun at a water/amusement park. I miss these days when we were the best of friends. I missed the year after that, but this year when we went I hung out with five other girls (Even though we only had to have groups of two). He ran off with two other guys that weren't there our first year. After lunch though, the girls in my group wanted to do water stuff and I didn't (it was raining) so I tagged along with the boys and we went on roller coasters.

It was then that I found out the reason the guy I like can't go to Warped Tour. It was because he was caught SMOKING at a different concert. SMOKING?! I almost died.

So then after we went on a roller coaster and the bumper cars, the other two guys didn't want to go on the upside down roller coaster, so we went by ourselves. We waited in line forever, him flirting with two girls we met, and me wishing he would talk to me. Then, the ride wouldn't work, so we walked around trying to find a ride with a line short enough to go on (Which we couldn't find).

So then we had to go meet up with the rest of our church for the concert. I walked around with the guy a little bit, but when one of the other guys (who's a jack-ass) told us we were stalking them (even though we were ALL told to stay together), so me and two or three other girls stayed together. Then, my guys and the other one got in trouble for not staying together, and got banned from leaving the meeting spot for the rest of the night.

But I remember when we were in the mosh pit (even though they said it WASN'T a mosh pit) I looked over at him and he actually SMILED at me. I almost died for like, the tenth time that day. It was the cutest, most genuine smile I've ever gotton from him.

Then they left and I had to leave them since I got a ride there from my dad.

I just (still) don't know what to do and I wish I had a sign on what TO do. This sucks, really bad.

So, if you read this, then you're truly amazing and we should talk 'coz you're really cool too =]]

Okay, so Haleigh (that's me) has two kinds of updates: Quizilla life, and normal life.

Quizilla life posts will basically (obviously) be about updates and posting new stories and stuff like that.

Normal life posts are basically me talking about what's going on in my life and what's new with me.

This is one of the latter.

Sometimes I find it easier to vent to people I don't know and will never meet, because then they won't judge me. Which is why I'm going to tell you guys this instead of my friends.

So basically, I like this guy. A lot. And we're really good friends. Not like best friends, but we have all of our classes together, and we always hang out in those classes and at track. A couple weeks ago I asked him to be my escort for graduation (of middle school, not high school), and he said yes, but I think it was only because he didn't want this other girl that liked him, who's like a creepy stalker, to ask him first.

So he's a pretty flirtatious guy, I think, without being like a "player" or a "man whore" really. I think he just talks to girls and ends up flirting with them without even realizing it. I get super jealous easily though, and whenever I see him being all giggly and stuff with other girls (especially the girl that sent me the nasty message a while ago, if any of you saw that on my old account's journal) I get so mad! I seriously have to force myself not to go over there and steal his attention away from them and onto me. I find myself digging my nails into my palms in gym, and biting my lip in math (which hurts because my teeth still aren't used to braces).

So yeah. I have no clue what to do. I think my other really good guy friend (who is also best friends with the guy I like) is starting to catch onto me liking him. Which is NOT cool. I seriously don't want him to tell him! And what's worse is that my best (girl) friend used to like the sameguy (Idk if she still does) and she gets all pissed off at me for liking him, even though I can't help who I like! It really upsets me that she'd get that angry at me for liking the same guy she does.

So yeah. It makes me angry.

Grr.

Okay, so I finished loading up my William story. But I hate the title for LTFLUTNS, so I'm going to change it before uploading that one. I'm also working on another [[Sigh... I know I know. How many times?]] story that I think will work out really well. My inspiration for it came from a really good book, so don't message me saying I copied it. Kaythanks.

Anyways. I've been so insanely busy lately, it's not even funny. Just to give you a taste of what's been up lately...

A day in the life of Haleigh:

Mondays and Wednesdays- School [[8:35-3:01]], track [[3:15-5:15]], snack [[5:15-6:00]]. dance [[6:00-8:00]], and then go home, eat, shower, do homework or whatever, then sleepy time.

Tuesdays- School, track, go home and do homework, then a different dance class [[8:00-9:00]], then go home, eat, shower, do homework or whatever, then sleepy time.

Thursdays- School, track, go home and do homework and chores, shower, then sleepy time.

Friday- School, track [[Ends at 4:15 this day]], go home and just chill or take a nap or whatever.

Saturday- Get up at the crack of dawn [[No, just kidding. 7:30ish]] and go work for my mom, then go home and do chores and crap.

Sunday- Sleep in until 1 PM and do whatever I feel like.

And this week and next week I have dance try-outs, so on Monday-Thursday in between track and go home I have more dance.

So yeah. Now you know.

I think what I am going to do, is write whenever I get the chance, and I'll probably just be taking a break from Quizilla until summer, when I'll have craploads of free time. Then I'll be like, postpostpostpostpostpostpost like you would not believe.

So yeah. Lot's of love!

Okay, so I have the first four chapters of my William story back up. I was surprised because it took me only aboutten minutes to repost them, or about three and a halftimes of listening to "Coffeeshop Soundtrack" by All Time Low.

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I'm too lazy to go find my flash drive and post the rest from there because Quizilla hasn't transfered all of my stories onto my old account yet, so I only have the first four chapters of William on there. So I will be doing that, and Fireworkstomorrow night after work. I might even possibly be updating both, or just one. I haven't decided yet.

Thanks guys!

Okay, so some of you might have read the story, "Two Years Ago Today" You know, the William Beckett one by Dancurgurl47?

Well, that's me, Haleigh!

I'm really upset, because after the Quizilla relaunch, I went to log-in topost a journal sayinghow stupid I think [[Sorry to those of you who like it!]] it looks now and how we were better off with the old one. But, when I clicked on "My Stuff", it told me to log-in. I was like, Oh crap, I don't remember my password! Since I had always used the "remember me" feature. Remember?

Anyways, long-story short, I forgot my password and my main e-mail was being used by my oldest account, which I promptly deleted today because the story I started but never finished on it sucked ass. So I guessed a few passwords, then a few e-mails, and after almost throwing my laptop on my floor, I just decided I'd create a new account and repost all of the stories.

Which shouldn't be that hard, because, you know, it was only months and months of hard work.

Anyway, I added myself as a friend and probably this weekend, I'm going to be reposting all of my stories onto this account, and continue life on Quizilla with this one. I hope everyone who read my stories found me!


Love Haleigh