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- Jan 7th, 2007
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- Aug 5th, 2008
Newest Creations
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| poems |
.:.With her modern-day-masterpiece smile.:.
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5.00 |
| quizzes |
7 minutes in heaven.:[Emo Guys]:. (really long results, pics, & stuff)
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4.75 |
| stories |
Run Run Run Away [03.] [profiles in results]
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5.00 |
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Run Run Run Away [02.] voices
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5.00 |
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Run Run Run Away [01.]
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5.00 |
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Latest Journal Entry
March 19, 2008
Im Still Here. Alive and hanging on.
Im still alive! Hanging on! Ive been gone since forever. Ive been really getting closer to God, and found this AMAZING peace and joy ive never known. It DEFINETLY wasnt easy getting to that point, but it was totally worth it. I wasnt all giddy anymore, but i felt ALIVE, like i could actually REMEMBER everything with a happiness. Ive never had that before. But in the last day or two, its been so hard! Its like i lost contact and all of a sudden everything that comes out of my mind is so SHALLOW. Its like all of a sudden all i can think of is boys, cussing out my mom and dad, getting angry and being a b__ch over nothing, listening to dumb, unChristian lyrics in my head, and ITS SO HARD TO GET OUT! =] just felt like getting that off my change. If i dont repost, chances are ive pulled myself out of that cycle. But d_mm its hard. Like im stuck. I try to read the bible, try to listen to Christian music, and its seems impossible.But for all you people out there who feel like your not alive, or like your stuck in this lifeless, uncared-for, meaningless circle, trust me, its escapable. I know its hard. Like REALLY hard, but you can really break it. I was shocked. All those things i THOUGHT brought me joy were just these things that made me feel like my life was meaningless. I was pretty messed up, but i found my way out of that through Jesus.
And now im falling back in and im having trouble getting out. But theres no way im going to go back to the way i was, not after ive had that freedom. Id rather die. Literally. Id rather be struggling and ALIVE in Jesus then caged and MEANINGLESS here. No way jose. O well, lemme know if you want advice or want to talk. If you plan on getting a message back, message my myspace. www.Myspace.com/Maiahbennett. Thanks n God bless. Prayer would Sooooo be appreciated. Yeah. Thanks.
