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April 30, 2008

me and my bff hold hands...uhh is that weird? lol

I love you. My best friend and I have gotten close. Some of you might have read my past journal entries about her. (It’s gotten to where we hold each other when we sleep and hold hands when we are awake). It doesn’t bother me or her. We get into small fights all the time. (We had one HUGE fight to where we had a ‘break’ from each other. I was effected by it during the ‘break’ but yesterday after 55 days after the ‘break’ she broke down and realized how bad she had hurt me and herself.) Anyway, that’s not even what this is about! Haha. Last week my school had a beauty pageant and I and she had gotten into a fight just before it. We went anyway and sat by each other to watch everyone. It was dark and we were sitting by another friend. (Which now we don’t like because she’s mean. Haha.) Right, well I wasn’t talking to my best friend but I grabbed her pinky just because I was bored. She pulled it away without thinking to fix her shirt and I put my hand on the bleacher I was sitting on. I wasn’t paying attention but I could feel her hand slowly making its way to mine until she finally had her whole hand on top of mine. I always get that feeling when you’re like on a rollercoaster or your suddenly going down a hill when she grabs my hand. I could tell she was scared because she was avoiding eye contact. I said something funny about the girl singing on stage and her fingers finally laced with mine. The other friend stood up, and I tried to let go but my best friend held on tighter. Later on she texted me telling me how she knew I was mad but wanted to show me that she loved me and she didn’t care if anyone saw her holding my hand. Then she sent “Bleeding Love”, I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you, to me. She said she doesn’t really care what they say or think just as long as she’s with me. She’s straight and so am I. (I like her totally hot older brother.) But, is it weird that we hold hands? Do you love me too?

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