God my head hurts.
It doesn't mean anything.
This won't make sense.
Executive decision RIGHT THERE.
I'm so sick of all this.
I won't delete jack .
Everything hurts.
Making myself ill again.
Eugh.
Stupid.
Alone- again. Most likely forever this time.
I don't have a back-up plan.
Sh*t.
I need to revise.
I suck.
This sucks.
People suck.
Most things, generally, suck.
Sh*t.
Gonna piss off now.
xx
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May 14, 2008
Wooooohooooo
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!
All my stories have FINALLY been move across!!! I'm so happy!!!!
*partays*
All my stories have FINALLY been move across!!! I'm so happy!!!!
*partays*
posted at 7:54 am EDT | 0 comments
May 11, 2008
*sigh* Changes.
Right, well, I guess this is the new quizilla and we're gonna have to live with it.
I think it will get easier to use with time...
But there were features about the old one that I liked. Like the homepages- they were amazing. I'm annoyed that mine is gone. I psent so long on that, that was where all my updates were. Gr. And my c-box with my comments. Damn thing.
I'm a little cofnused as to where all my creations are. I know there was a lot to move, but it shouldn't have taken this long- right? I dunno. I'm not very good with these things. But I'm sure that my stuff should have turned up by now.
Tell you what else I'm annoyed about- the backgrounds and layouts to the quizzes. I thought they were cool as they were, when you could put them in the original style and have some really sexy ones. I never did like the new story editor, but I guess they did. Damnit. *sigh*
Well, this is how we see it now, and this is probably how it's gonna stay, no matter how many comments/complaints/petitions these guys get. Changing it back would just make it more messed up, I suspect. It would take ages for it to get back to the way it was.
I jsut hope my stuff turns up soon.
I think it will get easier to use with time...
But there were features about the old one that I liked. Like the homepages- they were amazing. I'm annoyed that mine is gone. I psent so long on that, that was where all my updates were. Gr. And my c-box with my comments. Damn thing.
I'm a little cofnused as to where all my creations are. I know there was a lot to move, but it shouldn't have taken this long- right? I dunno. I'm not very good with these things. But I'm sure that my stuff should have turned up by now.
Tell you what else I'm annoyed about- the backgrounds and layouts to the quizzes. I thought they were cool as they were, when you could put them in the original style and have some really sexy ones. I never did like the new story editor, but I guess they did. Damnit. *sigh*
Well, this is how we see it now, and this is probably how it's gonna stay, no matter how many comments/complaints/petitions these guys get. Changing it back would just make it more messed up, I suspect. It would take ages for it to get back to the way it was.
I jsut hope my stuff turns up soon.
posted at 6:26 am EDT | 0 comments
May 1, 2008
Odd
I know, sorry I haven't written a journal in FOREVER. This is weird.
But this is just about the only place where I can say this and people I don't want to read it, won't.
It's hidden. Hehehe, my hidden journal.
But anyway. On with the story- I wasn't expecting to think that. And I really don't know why I did. But today, someone crepped up behind me when I was sitting on the wall in the Square and hugged me from behind- y'know, wrapped their arms around my waist as you do.
But I thought it was someone completely different. And I shouldn't have thought that at all, and I don't know why I did. It was ridiculous, because I know I'm over that shit. And it freaked me out- I thought it was him, for no apparent reason. And it's pissing me off, tbh. Eugh. It's not like I wanted it to be him, I just thought it was and it was really fucking creepy.
Was glad, and yet so very very surprised, when it wasn't.
ARGH.
But this is just about the only place where I can say this and people I don't want to read it, won't.
It's hidden. Hehehe, my hidden journal.
But anyway. On with the story- I wasn't expecting to think that. And I really don't know why I did. But today, someone crepped up behind me when I was sitting on the wall in the Square and hugged me from behind- y'know, wrapped their arms around my waist as you do.
But I thought it was someone completely different. And I shouldn't have thought that at all, and I don't know why I did. It was ridiculous, because I know I'm over that shit. And it freaked me out- I thought it was him, for no apparent reason. And it's pissing me off, tbh. Eugh. It's not like I wanted it to be him, I just thought it was and it was really fucking creepy.
Was glad, and yet so very very surprised, when it wasn't.
ARGH.
posted at 2:08 pm EDT | 0 comments
January 14, 2007
Continued
Okies, now, where was I?
Hmm...
Hungover.
Um...I wasn't completely straight with you last time. Well, partially. I kindda missed out the part where he kissed me. Twice... *hides* But I controlled myself!! See, I just didn't mention it, it's not like I lied.
So for the rest of the next day, there were l'il glances, but a lack of words that mentioned it. We both remebered. We both knew each other remebered. And we were both wondering what it meant.
He had to go back home on Saturday afternoon, but came back again with my brother later that evening and Ash (another one of mine and my brother's friends). They stayed over again on Saturday. And Andrew told me he wanted to talk to me. So I was getting kindda nervous, and eventually 'Cus (my brother) and Ash went off, and Andrew could talk to me without it being obvious and without them being around.
Conversation went something in the way of-
"Was it just the drink?"
Now, I didn't know what to say. I mean, this is Andrew. He's one of my closest friends. And saying it was just the drink would cover-up perfectly. I wasn't even sure if I liked him. For a while, about a year ago I thought I did, then I convinced myself I didn't, and then I thought, well, maybe I did. And that was in about July. And since then I'd dismissed it from my mind. But I know I was getting very excited, a little too excited, and very smiley about him coming round. I was buzzing, to be honest, on the Friday when 'Cus said he was coming.
But let me explain about Andrew. He's a bit...Slutty. No, he is a slut. Well, he can be. And he's always told about the people he's got off with at parties, and his girlfriends, and how he thinks he really likes someone whenever. And it's been like that for two years. And I know, about two years ago, he was having a really hard time. And he was so close to killing himself, and everything. But that's better now.
BAck to the convo.
So I said it was the drink. And...I dunno...I think there was disappointment on his face. I lied. And I realised this the next day. And I really wanted to tell him. But I couldn't. I coudn't just say- "Oh, by the way, yesterday I think I lied." He would have uderstood. But it would have been weird. So I was scared. And he slept over again on Sunday, and came to school with us on Monday.
Through out the week, I was thinking about it, and wondering how/when/if I should tell him I'd lied. And I was going to, next time he was online. But he wasn't online, like, ever. And eventually, I couldn't not tell my friends that I had kissed him when he'd stayed over. And I also told them that, yes, maybe I liked him a little.
Which was a mistake. Emily told Andrew. And I only found this out the day before school ended for Christmas.
It was lunch time, and The Lunch Crew (Emily, Fox, Tamara, Clare, Andrew and me) were going to lunch where we always do. We go to Tamara's grandparents house and stand in their back agrden so the smokers (Emily, Fox, Tamara and Andrew) can smoke, whilst Clare and I go off to buy food that they've told us to. It's a great system. But this was one of the days where Andrew decided he'd come with us. He does that sometimes, so he can roll his ciggerette whilst he's walking and buy his own food after several mistakes Clare made (buying normal coke instead of diet and a ripple instead of a Red Bull. She wasn't having a good week). On the way back to the garden, we were walking down the l'il alley, and Andrew holds me back to tell me something, shooing off Clare.
This is when he mentions that he's been speaking to Emily. And the first thing I think is "Shit, she told. Fuck. What do I do? This is gonna be awkward.". And it kindda was. Because he was like "Yeah well...I think I do too." And I'm praying to God that we're thinking about the same thing here. Fortunately we are, I'ms tnading there, cursing Emily, and not sure what to do. He's 17. He's my brother's friend. He's my friend. He's a bit of a slut. He was drunk. I dunno. It was a bit of a mess.
So we go back to the garden, to find that we didn't even need to buy any food because Tamara's Nana had prepared us a l'il Christmas buffet inside.
Things get a little awkward where Emily goes- "Just because yyou two, like, love each other." after I tell her I could kill her. The silence was... Horrible. Until Tamara sings, in her awesome voice "Oh I Wish It Could Be Christmas Everyday!" breaking the tension and making everyone laugh in one swoop.
And now, that is what we do if anythig is ever awkward. The Lunch Crew will all sing loudly, no matter what time of year, I Wish It Could Be Christmas Everyday.
More to come.
It gets...A little less exciting to be honest, but oh well.
=P
Too long
Too long!
Grrr...
Never mind.
~Jules~
Hmm...
Hungover.
Um...I wasn't completely straight with you last time. Well, partially. I kindda missed out the part where he kissed me. Twice... *hides* But I controlled myself!! See, I just didn't mention it, it's not like I lied.
So for the rest of the next day, there were l'il glances, but a lack of words that mentioned it. We both remebered. We both knew each other remebered. And we were both wondering what it meant.
He had to go back home on Saturday afternoon, but came back again with my brother later that evening and Ash (another one of mine and my brother's friends). They stayed over again on Saturday. And Andrew told me he wanted to talk to me. So I was getting kindda nervous, and eventually 'Cus (my brother) and Ash went off, and Andrew could talk to me without it being obvious and without them being around.
Conversation went something in the way of-
"Was it just the drink?"
Now, I didn't know what to say. I mean, this is Andrew. He's one of my closest friends. And saying it was just the drink would cover-up perfectly. I wasn't even sure if I liked him. For a while, about a year ago I thought I did, then I convinced myself I didn't, and then I thought, well, maybe I did. And that was in about July. And since then I'd dismissed it from my mind. But I know I was getting very excited, a little too excited, and very smiley about him coming round. I was buzzing, to be honest, on the Friday when 'Cus said he was coming.
But let me explain about Andrew. He's a bit...Slutty. No, he is a slut. Well, he can be. And he's always told about the people he's got off with at parties, and his girlfriends, and how he thinks he really likes someone whenever. And it's been like that for two years. And I know, about two years ago, he was having a really hard time. And he was so close to killing himself, and everything. But that's better now.
BAck to the convo.
So I said it was the drink. And...I dunno...I think there was disappointment on his face. I lied. And I realised this the next day. And I really wanted to tell him. But I couldn't. I coudn't just say- "Oh, by the way, yesterday I think I lied." He would have uderstood. But it would have been weird. So I was scared. And he slept over again on Sunday, and came to school with us on Monday.
Through out the week, I was thinking about it, and wondering how/when/if I should tell him I'd lied. And I was going to, next time he was online. But he wasn't online, like, ever. And eventually, I couldn't not tell my friends that I had kissed him when he'd stayed over. And I also told them that, yes, maybe I liked him a little.
Which was a mistake. Emily told Andrew. And I only found this out the day before school ended for Christmas.
It was lunch time, and The Lunch Crew (Emily, Fox, Tamara, Clare, Andrew and me) were going to lunch where we always do. We go to Tamara's grandparents house and stand in their back agrden so the smokers (Emily, Fox, Tamara and Andrew) can smoke, whilst Clare and I go off to buy food that they've told us to. It's a great system. But this was one of the days where Andrew decided he'd come with us. He does that sometimes, so he can roll his ciggerette whilst he's walking and buy his own food after several mistakes Clare made (buying normal coke instead of diet and a ripple instead of a Red Bull. She wasn't having a good week). On the way back to the garden, we were walking down the l'il alley, and Andrew holds me back to tell me something, shooing off Clare.
This is when he mentions that he's been speaking to Emily. And the first thing I think is "Shit, she told. Fuck. What do I do? This is gonna be awkward.". And it kindda was. Because he was like "Yeah well...I think I do too." And I'm praying to God that we're thinking about the same thing here. Fortunately we are, I'ms tnading there, cursing Emily, and not sure what to do. He's 17. He's my brother's friend. He's my friend. He's a bit of a slut. He was drunk. I dunno. It was a bit of a mess.
So we go back to the garden, to find that we didn't even need to buy any food because Tamara's Nana had prepared us a l'il Christmas buffet inside.
Things get a little awkward where Emily goes- "Just because yyou two, like, love each other." after I tell her I could kill her. The silence was... Horrible. Until Tamara sings, in her awesome voice "Oh I Wish It Could Be Christmas Everyday!" breaking the tension and making everyone laugh in one swoop.
And now, that is what we do if anythig is ever awkward. The Lunch Crew will all sing loudly, no matter what time of year, I Wish It Could Be Christmas Everyday.
More to come.
It gets...A little less exciting to be honest, but oh well.
=P
Too long
Too long!
Grrr...
Never mind.
~Jules~
posted at 8:44 am EST | 0 comments
January 5, 2007
Eek!
*Dramatic Music*
Journal Entry!!!
*Bang*
*Boom*
*Shablam*
*Woosh*
And I'll stop putting those sounds in now... Although it was fun.
First Journal Entry (yes, those two word need capital letters) of the New Year! A lot has happened since... October?! That was when I last wrote an entry? Jeez, this could be a really long entry...
Or what I could do is just post what has happened in l'il bits, instead of a really long entry, because I know they can get kindda *pause! phone*- Where was I? Oh yeah, they can get kindda boring. Well, mine can because I babble. =P
Well...Let's see...October... Actually nothing much has really happened since October. Um... I was in hospital for a bit, 'cause I was ill in October and November. And I've missed loads of school. They're not impressed. But it's great, I can walk in and look like I'm about to break down in tears, and they don't get at me about anything. I mean, I've given up on school uniform and they're jusst like: Are you alright?
I do look a little insane I suppose... And a bit psycho. Or maybe just fragile. I dunno, but they do seem quite concerned for my well-fare a lot of the time.
Meh, maybe I'm just a l'il... Crazy lookin'.
So yeah. School is rubbish. Have missed loads. And parents are getting me extra work so I can catch up and they're even seeing if they can get me moved up a year because, even though I've been off for ages, the work still seems really easy. It's slightly ridiculous.
Okay...That was October and November. December... *ponders* What happened in December?
Well, Christmas obviously, but before that.
Um...About 2 weeks before Christmas, one of mine and my brother's friends, Andrew, came over. His parents were away for the weekend, and they didn't trust him with the house. Not surprised, really. Even though he's 17, I still wouldn't trust him with my house for the weekend. So yeah, he had to stay over. With his bottle of Southern Comfort that he produced from his bag.
Ah, a fun night. My brother went to bed, and instead of waking him up like he'd told us to, Andrew and I drank the bottle of SoCo with coke. Trying to get that boy to watch American Beauty (he hadn't seen it before! I had to make him watch it!) was one of life's biggest difficulties. Especially when he's hugging you, and saying cheesy things. But I wasn't so drunk as not to be able to control myself. He drank most of it. And then threw up for about an hour.
Best part was, we're weren't even hungover in the morning. Well, he was kindda, but I wasn't, so that was awesome.
More coming soon in the next journal entry!
This one is already a l'il longer than expected.
And I can't really be bothered to type anymore.
And I'm not going to be at a computer until Sunday.
So you'll just have to wauit. =P
This is so pointless...
~Jules~
Journal Entry!!!
*Bang*
*Boom*
*Shablam*
*Woosh*
And I'll stop putting those sounds in now... Although it was fun.
First Journal Entry (yes, those two word need capital letters) of the New Year! A lot has happened since... October?! That was when I last wrote an entry? Jeez, this could be a really long entry...
Or what I could do is just post what has happened in l'il bits, instead of a really long entry, because I know they can get kindda *pause! phone*- Where was I? Oh yeah, they can get kindda boring. Well, mine can because I babble. =P
Well...Let's see...October... Actually nothing much has really happened since October. Um... I was in hospital for a bit, 'cause I was ill in October and November. And I've missed loads of school. They're not impressed. But it's great, I can walk in and look like I'm about to break down in tears, and they don't get at me about anything. I mean, I've given up on school uniform and they're jusst like: Are you alright?
I do look a little insane I suppose... And a bit psycho. Or maybe just fragile. I dunno, but they do seem quite concerned for my well-fare a lot of the time.
Meh, maybe I'm just a l'il... Crazy lookin'.
So yeah. School is rubbish. Have missed loads. And parents are getting me extra work so I can catch up and they're even seeing if they can get me moved up a year because, even though I've been off for ages, the work still seems really easy. It's slightly ridiculous.
Okay...That was October and November. December... *ponders* What happened in December?
Well, Christmas obviously, but before that.
Um...About 2 weeks before Christmas, one of mine and my brother's friends, Andrew, came over. His parents were away for the weekend, and they didn't trust him with the house. Not surprised, really. Even though he's 17, I still wouldn't trust him with my house for the weekend. So yeah, he had to stay over. With his bottle of Southern Comfort that he produced from his bag.
Ah, a fun night. My brother went to bed, and instead of waking him up like he'd told us to, Andrew and I drank the bottle of SoCo with coke. Trying to get that boy to watch American Beauty (he hadn't seen it before! I had to make him watch it!) was one of life's biggest difficulties. Especially when he's hugging you, and saying cheesy things. But I wasn't so drunk as not to be able to control myself. He drank most of it. And then threw up for about an hour.
Best part was, we're weren't even hungover in the morning. Well, he was kindda, but I wasn't, so that was awesome.
More coming soon in the next journal entry!
This one is already a l'il longer than expected.
And I can't really be bothered to type anymore.
And I'm not going to be at a computer until Sunday.
So you'll just have to wauit. =P
This is so pointless...
~Jules~
posted at 2:10 pm EST | 4 comments
October 7, 2006
2:33 AM, UK Time
You know when you can't sleep and you just kindda read, or listen to music, or think or something? And then you come up with these little revalations that you want to tell someone about, but there's no-one to tell? Or you manage to think so much you make yourself really upset? I'm always doing that. I swear I think too much. If I don't think, I'm sure I'd be happier, but as it is, I'm always thinking so I manage to make everything seem shit.
I've been thinking this over for ages, and have any of you guys ever felt like a sad-ass? I mean, have any of you ever wondered why you have posters of people who you're never gonna meet? Who say they care but don't really? Because they don't opurtunity(sp?) to care?
And yet I still find myself thinking these people might care, or comfort me or something. But what's really making me different from everybody else who has the exact same poster up and is thinking the same thing? I mean, it's crazy. Nobody is ever going to really understand what you're going through, so why would these people be any different? And do you really want them to understand? I know that there's a part of everyone where you don't want people to understand, you just want them to listen.
Half the time I feel like I'm really wasting my life. I don't do anything. But when I thik about it, I realize there isn't anything to do, so I just go back to doing nothing. Which happens to be sitting on Quizilla all day.Which I love doing.
It gets me really down. It always gets me really down. And there's all t is shit that gets me down too, but then when I think I'm depressed, I know there's somebody out there with it a hundred times worse. I mean, today I read someones journal entry where they'd been raped and were pregnant and I thought: shit, I thought I had it bad.
But what pisses me off is when people go: You think your life's hard, you should try being me. They don't have it bad, I know they don't. They have it bad in the way that there hair goes frizzy if they get a drop of water on it and they don't get something they want from their daddy. That's not having it bad.
When I get depressed, i think about them and that just makes me feel worse because then I feel selfish. I'd love to help them, but I wouldn't know how to even if I met them and had the opurtunity(sp?) to. So it's like a big circle. And I hate circles...
Jules.
Song Of The Day- Backstabber. The Dresden Dolls. Yes, Virginia.
I've been thinking this over for ages, and have any of you guys ever felt like a sad-ass? I mean, have any of you ever wondered why you have posters of people who you're never gonna meet? Who say they care but don't really? Because they don't opurtunity(sp?) to care?
And yet I still find myself thinking these people might care, or comfort me or something. But what's really making me different from everybody else who has the exact same poster up and is thinking the same thing? I mean, it's crazy. Nobody is ever going to really understand what you're going through, so why would these people be any different? And do you really want them to understand? I know that there's a part of everyone where you don't want people to understand, you just want them to listen.
Half the time I feel like I'm really wasting my life. I don't do anything. But when I thik about it, I realize there isn't anything to do, so I just go back to doing nothing. Which happens to be sitting on Quizilla all day.Which I love doing.
It gets me really down. It always gets me really down. And there's all t is shit that gets me down too, but then when I think I'm depressed, I know there's somebody out there with it a hundred times worse. I mean, today I read someones journal entry where they'd been raped and were pregnant and I thought: shit, I thought I had it bad.
But what pisses me off is when people go: You think your life's hard, you should try being me. They don't have it bad, I know they don't. They have it bad in the way that there hair goes frizzy if they get a drop of water on it and they don't get something they want from their daddy. That's not having it bad.
When I get depressed, i think about them and that just makes me feel worse because then I feel selfish. I'd love to help them, but I wouldn't know how to even if I met them and had the opurtunity(sp?) to. So it's like a big circle. And I hate circles...
Jules.
Song Of The Day- Backstabber. The Dresden Dolls. Yes, Virginia.
posted at 7:11 pm EDT | 5 comments
September 10, 2006
Whoops
Damn, I keep meaning to write an entry but then getting distracted or forgetting or something.
Anyway.
I've been ill recently. I hate having colds. But yeah, so I was off school for most of last week. I woke up this morning feeling fine then about 15 minutes later, I was coughing and sneezing all over the place, feeling awful again. My throat hurt like ten shades of the unholy f*ck earlier, and it still kindda hurts. But I'll probabaly be going to school tomorrow, not sure my mum would let me off.
I hate that feeling on Sunday nights where you realise that you have to go to school tomorrow, and you start wondering if you had any homework that needs to be in on the Monday (I was just having this conversation with Dan..). Fortunately, I don't think I do have any homework that needs to be in tomorrow, and if I do, I have a the great excuse of not knowing because I wasn't there.
And for you readers of my stories, I made new story with angels in it. Thought it was an alternative idea to fan fiction, or vampires. Although I probably will be going back to the vampire some time soon, because they're always good.
I was reading the first story I wrote the other day and realising just how awful it actually is. Everybody was all: Oh wow, it's a great story, but I really can't stand it, it's awful. Oh well, you guys liked it.
I have to go to my grandparents golden wedding anniversary next week, on Saturday I think. So that'll be...cool, I guess. I'll have to sit and smile, with no one to talk to except my cousin, who annoys me a bit, because we have nothing really to talk about. Even though she is only a year younger than me. But at least I don't have to sit with my younger cousins, which would be...kindda disaterous because I'd be incharge of them (because my brother gets to host a table-Good luck with that 'Cus!). And I'll have to refrain from swearing, which I generally manage.
So it can't be that bad.
Anyways, I better go because I'm expecting my dad to come in anyminute and tell me to get off the computer. I do have school tomorrow- Joy of joys. ¬.¬'
Jules
Song Of The Day- Hate To Say I Told You So. The Hives. Your New Favourite Band.
^I went on a huge updating spree on my iPod, 'tis cool. Plenty of differnet music to listen to on the bus tomorrow. Was getting kindda stuck on what to listen to because I'd listened to everything else on it so much.^
Anyway.
I've been ill recently. I hate having colds. But yeah, so I was off school for most of last week. I woke up this morning feeling fine then about 15 minutes later, I was coughing and sneezing all over the place, feeling awful again. My throat hurt like ten shades of the unholy f*ck earlier, and it still kindda hurts. But I'll probabaly be going to school tomorrow, not sure my mum would let me off.
I hate that feeling on Sunday nights where you realise that you have to go to school tomorrow, and you start wondering if you had any homework that needs to be in on the Monday (I was just having this conversation with Dan..). Fortunately, I don't think I do have any homework that needs to be in tomorrow, and if I do, I have a the great excuse of not knowing because I wasn't there.
And for you readers of my stories, I made new story with angels in it. Thought it was an alternative idea to fan fiction, or vampires. Although I probably will be going back to the vampire some time soon, because they're always good.
I was reading the first story I wrote the other day and realising just how awful it actually is. Everybody was all: Oh wow, it's a great story, but I really can't stand it, it's awful. Oh well, you guys liked it.
I have to go to my grandparents golden wedding anniversary next week, on Saturday I think. So that'll be...cool, I guess. I'll have to sit and smile, with no one to talk to except my cousin, who annoys me a bit, because we have nothing really to talk about. Even though she is only a year younger than me. But at least I don't have to sit with my younger cousins, which would be...kindda disaterous because I'd be incharge of them (because my brother gets to host a table-Good luck with that 'Cus!). And I'll have to refrain from swearing, which I generally manage.
So it can't be that bad.
Anyways, I better go because I'm expecting my dad to come in anyminute and tell me to get off the computer. I do have school tomorrow- Joy of joys. ¬.¬'
Jules
Song Of The Day- Hate To Say I Told You So. The Hives. Your New Favourite Band.
^I went on a huge updating spree on my iPod, 'tis cool. Plenty of differnet music to listen to on the bus tomorrow. Was getting kindda stuck on what to listen to because I'd listened to everything else on it so much.^
posted at 3:52 pm EDT | 2 comments
August 30, 2006
Guidance Teachers *Sigh*
So, I had to go and see my guidance teacher at school last week after I completely broke down in class and then in assembly.
Which was fun. [note my sarcasm.]
Last week was really sucky. The only good thing was that I got to miss half of two lessons. Because he didn't turn up, soI waited for half an hour before going to look for him (Mr. B. my guidance teacher that is). It turned out he'd been called up to take a class and didn't have time to tell me,so I went back at the begining of the next period and missed half of period two as well!
This week he just walked into my form class and was all: I'll see you period 4. So I went to see him, and it was really rubbish. Because he just went on repeating his self, and he was trying to figure out how unhappy i was. he drew this like, line thingy with happy at one end and unhappy at the other was asking me how unhappy i was. I just told him I didn't know because I didn't want to tell him quiet how unhappy I was and stuff.
I didn't tell him half the stuff I'm unhappy about either.
He still thinks it's just the lack of people to talk to in school.
Or rather, the complete abscence of them.
I didn't tell him about my mum and stuff.
So you know, it was pretty.....uneventful. o.0
Goddamnit!!! It's my mum's birthday tomorrow *panics slightly*.
UH-oh, I sure hope my brother mbuy her the card he said he'd buy....
I suck at birthday....
Jules
Song Of The Day- Chemical, Chemical. Pretty Girls Make Graves. The New Romance.
Which was fun. [note my sarcasm.]
Last week was really sucky. The only good thing was that I got to miss half of two lessons. Because he didn't turn up, soI waited for half an hour before going to look for him (Mr. B. my guidance teacher that is). It turned out he'd been called up to take a class and didn't have time to tell me,so I went back at the begining of the next period and missed half of period two as well!
This week he just walked into my form class and was all: I'll see you period 4. So I went to see him, and it was really rubbish. Because he just went on repeating his self, and he was trying to figure out how unhappy i was. he drew this like, line thingy with happy at one end and unhappy at the other was asking me how unhappy i was. I just told him I didn't know because I didn't want to tell him quiet how unhappy I was and stuff.
I didn't tell him half the stuff I'm unhappy about either.
He still thinks it's just the lack of people to talk to in school.
Or rather, the complete abscence of them.
I didn't tell him about my mum and stuff.
So you know, it was pretty.....uneventful. o.0
Goddamnit!!! It's my mum's birthday tomorrow *panics slightly*.
UH-oh, I sure hope my brother mbuy her the card he said he'd buy....
I suck at birthday....
Jules
Song Of The Day- Chemical, Chemical. Pretty Girls Make Graves. The New Romance.
posted at 8:35 am EDT | 6 comments
August 29, 2006
Pre-Occupied Thoughts
Don't you hate it when there's something on your mind? And you can't stop thinking about it all day? You can't focus because you're thinking about it? But you can't tell anyone what you're thinking about?
Damn it sucks.
I've been like this for a few days... And no, it's not like I'm in love with anybody or whatever, I just can't get thi one thought out of my mind, and it keeps repeating over and over. It's driving me insane. And I really can't focus.
There is no-one I can tell about it either. It's just me and my thoughts.
It's probably not as bad as half the things you just thought of. But it's pretty bad...and it really is driving me crazy.
I'm just kindda hoping the thought will finally give up. But I'm not holding much hope.
I feel kindda ill too. There's this cold going around, and my throat really hurts and my head was doing me in. I was coughing loads too...meh. I'll get over it.
And I still don't know when ballet begins, which is kindda annoying me about now.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Cemetary Drive. My Chemical Romance. Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge.
Damn it sucks.
I've been like this for a few days... And no, it's not like I'm in love with anybody or whatever, I just can't get thi one thought out of my mind, and it keeps repeating over and over. It's driving me insane. And I really can't focus.
There is no-one I can tell about it either. It's just me and my thoughts.
It's probably not as bad as half the things you just thought of. But it's pretty bad...and it really is driving me crazy.
I'm just kindda hoping the thought will finally give up. But I'm not holding much hope.
I feel kindda ill too. There's this cold going around, and my throat really hurts and my head was doing me in. I was coughing loads too...meh. I'll get over it.
And I still don't know when ballet begins, which is kindda annoying me about now.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Cemetary Drive. My Chemical Romance. Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge.
posted at 3:54 pm EDT | 3 comments
August 25, 2006
Computer-Ness
Yeah, apologies tyhat I haven't updated anything recently. I couldn't get on a computer with the internet. But now I have a computer in mjy room that has the interent!!! wOOt!!
But, my dad needs to tranfer my story files to this computer so I can continue writing them and then publish them. But I have been working on them when I had a differnet computer in my room. So they should be out soon.
I now have no reason to leave my room when I'm at home. Except to eat and go to the bathroom and stuff. But it's cool.
Meh, I'm falling apart. I hate evrything. Especially my mother. I cannot stand a thing she does. It sucks. I just wanna hit something everytime. But I don't say anything. I swear, it's not worth the trouble. Because I know what everybody'll say. My step-dad will turn everything back on me, my brother'll try t make some smary comment, and my mum, she'll go into a silent mood and just go off, not saying anything. It's so fucking predictable.
I hate it.
It's driving me insane.
But oh well.
Jules.
Song Of The Day- Snow (Hey Oh). Red Hot Chili Peppers. Stadium Arcadium. Disc 1 'Jupiter'.
P.S. I'm going to ballet. wOOt.
P.P.S. Hope you guys are all well, sorry to dump all that shit on you!!! =D
But, my dad needs to tranfer my story files to this computer so I can continue writing them and then publish them. But I have been working on them when I had a differnet computer in my room. So they should be out soon.
I now have no reason to leave my room when I'm at home. Except to eat and go to the bathroom and stuff. But it's cool.
Meh, I'm falling apart. I hate evrything. Especially my mother. I cannot stand a thing she does. It sucks. I just wanna hit something everytime. But I don't say anything. I swear, it's not worth the trouble. Because I know what everybody'll say. My step-dad will turn everything back on me, my brother'll try t make some smary comment, and my mum, she'll go into a silent mood and just go off, not saying anything. It's so fucking predictable.
I hate it.
It's driving me insane.
But oh well.
Jules.
Song Of The Day- Snow (Hey Oh). Red Hot Chili Peppers. Stadium Arcadium. Disc 1 'Jupiter'.
P.S. I'm going to ballet. wOOt.
P.P.S. Hope you guys are all well, sorry to dump all that shit on you!!! =D
posted at 2:50 pm EDT | 3 comments
August 14, 2006
I Have Retunred
And after my over-excited self-written excerpt, I think it's clear to you all that I'm a little excited about being back on the internet...on Quizilla especially. It's strange, I'm such an internet junkie, I missed the computer more than I actually missed my house. Meh, oh well.
So, I went to my friend's house and then she came back to my house after like, a week at her place and then she went home and I went to see my family on my dad's side in Edinburgh. And whilst I was there, I did some Fringe-ing. It was the Fringe, you see (the Edinburgh Festival) and so I saw some stuff there. Me, my two brother's and my eldest brother's girlfriend went to see Dylan Moran (he's Bernard in Black Books, if you've seen it), and he was hillarious. And then the next day, the four of us went to another stand-up comedian, in the back-room of a pub. He was pretty funny and on Saturday, we went to see another comedian. She was alright, not the funniest, but alright.
I didn't really want to see the last two stand-ups, I wanted to go and see some plays, but my two brother's had their hearts set on seeing stand-up, so I didn't mention it. Oh well.
Edinburgh, as I discovered, is amazing for hot-guy spotting. And my brother just went out and I swear he just sat around, watching free preformers and looking for chicks. But what do you expect?
My family we all alright, so that was good.
Other than that, it was pretty uneventful. But by the end of it, I was sick of being at someone else house, and having to put up with someone. It was driving me insane and making me feel constantly sick and chlaustrophobic (sp?). And I'm still feeling pretty sick now, I'm dreading tomorrow when I have to go back to school.
Yes, I do go back to school tomorrow. It's gonna be hell. I really really don't wanna go back. I have no proper friends, they're all dicks, and it means that I have to leave the house. I can see my pattern re-forming already.
Actually, I was thinking about joing the drama club, because I kindda wanted to try it...and I was also thinking about seeing if I could find somewhere to do ballet, because I remember doing it in London and I just remembered how much I enjoyed it, even though it was my choice to quit. But I don't know if I will. I don't think I have enough courage to sign up for the drama thing on my own, and I know nobody will do it with me.
I was thinking about completely ditching and ignoring the people who thought I was their friends, tomorrow. Because they all really really really annoy me. We have absolutely nothing to talk about when I hang around with them, because we don't like any of the same stuff.
Oh well.
Jules.
Song Of The Day- Hard To Concentrate. Red Hot Chili Peppers. Stadium Arcadium, Disc 2 'Mars'.
So, I went to my friend's house and then she came back to my house after like, a week at her place and then she went home and I went to see my family on my dad's side in Edinburgh. And whilst I was there, I did some Fringe-ing. It was the Fringe, you see (the Edinburgh Festival) and so I saw some stuff there. Me, my two brother's and my eldest brother's girlfriend went to see Dylan Moran (he's Bernard in Black Books, if you've seen it), and he was hillarious. And then the next day, the four of us went to another stand-up comedian, in the back-room of a pub. He was pretty funny and on Saturday, we went to see another comedian. She was alright, not the funniest, but alright.
I didn't really want to see the last two stand-ups, I wanted to go and see some plays, but my two brother's had their hearts set on seeing stand-up, so I didn't mention it. Oh well.
Edinburgh, as I discovered, is amazing for hot-guy spotting. And my brother just went out and I swear he just sat around, watching free preformers and looking for chicks. But what do you expect?
My family we all alright, so that was good.
Other than that, it was pretty uneventful. But by the end of it, I was sick of being at someone else house, and having to put up with someone. It was driving me insane and making me feel constantly sick and chlaustrophobic (sp?). And I'm still feeling pretty sick now, I'm dreading tomorrow when I have to go back to school.
Yes, I do go back to school tomorrow. It's gonna be hell. I really really don't wanna go back. I have no proper friends, they're all dicks, and it means that I have to leave the house. I can see my pattern re-forming already.
Actually, I was thinking about joing the drama club, because I kindda wanted to try it...and I was also thinking about seeing if I could find somewhere to do ballet, because I remember doing it in London and I just remembered how much I enjoyed it, even though it was my choice to quit. But I don't know if I will. I don't think I have enough courage to sign up for the drama thing on my own, and I know nobody will do it with me.
I was thinking about completely ditching and ignoring the people who thought I was their friends, tomorrow. Because they all really really really annoy me. We have absolutely nothing to talk about when I hang around with them, because we don't like any of the same stuff.
Oh well.
Jules.
Song Of The Day- Hard To Concentrate. Red Hot Chili Peppers. Stadium Arcadium, Disc 2 'Mars'.
posted at 6:38 am EDT | 3 comments
July 20, 2006
LONDON!!!!
Yay can't wait.
But I seriously do love London, it's so much cooler than Scotland (especially where I live i Scotland). I don't know what it is that I miss about London, but there is definitely something comforting about being back here. I just like it...
Ok, on the edge of a ramble.
Have to get up early tomorrow (just like today) to get ready for me friend to pick me up, since she's picking me up between 9am and 10am. Meh, it's all worth it, I haven't seen her in a year and all. I'm supposed to be meeting her friend as well. I hate meeting friends of friends. Because there are three ways it can go (for me anyway).
1- It can be really awkward because you can't really talk to the person and so you turn to your friend and your friend's friend is there, so your friend ignores you (don't see that one happening with my friend bt you never know).
2- You find your friend's friend really anoying and then the rest of the scenario unfolds much like the first option (that could well happen...)
3- Or you get along really well, and your friend feels neglected and then makes you feel bad... (that might happen...not sure...)
But I don't think I'm much of a people-person to be honest...
Oh, by the way, the only reason I can update is because I'm using my dad's computer in his flat. This will be the last update for a while...Have fun doing whatever you're doing whilst I'm not here.
I will check comments and messages in the morning, but that will be it.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Spend The Night. She Wants Revenge. She Wants Revenge.
But I seriously do love London, it's so much cooler than Scotland (especially where I live i Scotland). I don't know what it is that I miss about London, but there is definitely something comforting about being back here. I just like it...
Ok, on the edge of a ramble.
Have to get up early tomorrow (just like today) to get ready for me friend to pick me up, since she's picking me up between 9am and 10am. Meh, it's all worth it, I haven't seen her in a year and all. I'm supposed to be meeting her friend as well. I hate meeting friends of friends. Because there are three ways it can go (for me anyway).
1- It can be really awkward because you can't really talk to the person and so you turn to your friend and your friend's friend is there, so your friend ignores you (don't see that one happening with my friend bt you never know).
2- You find your friend's friend really anoying and then the rest of the scenario unfolds much like the first option (that could well happen...)
3- Or you get along really well, and your friend feels neglected and then makes you feel bad... (that might happen...not sure...)
But I don't think I'm much of a people-person to be honest...
Oh, by the way, the only reason I can update is because I'm using my dad's computer in his flat. This will be the last update for a while...Have fun doing whatever you're doing whilst I'm not here.
I will check comments and messages in the morning, but that will be it.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Spend The Night. She Wants Revenge. She Wants Revenge.
posted at 1:34 pm EDT | 5 comments
July 19, 2006
Motorbike
Well, I was not expecting that. I knew they hads gone somewhere but I didn't bother to ask where. It turned out, they went to see this guy and bought a motorbike. Spontaneous, huh? My step-dad used to ride motorbikes apparently and my mum wants to learn. But they bought one, I didn't think they would actually do it.
It;s a red Honda CX500, old yeah, but cool none the less. I really want a ride now...but my step-dad has just ridden it at least 100 miles when he hasn't ridden a motorbike in a long time so I'm not sure he'd appreciate giving me a ride. And I don't have a helmet, I'd have to use my mum's, but I'm not sure if it'd fit or even where it is...
Meh, it's so confusing.
GOING TO SEE MY FRIEND ON FRIDAY! Yay! Can't wait. I'm going away tomorrow and then to my friend's on Friday.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Weather Girl. Shiny Toy Guns. We Are Pilots.
P.S. Kindd short entry, huh?
It;s a red Honda CX500, old yeah, but cool none the less. I really want a ride now...but my step-dad has just ridden it at least 100 miles when he hasn't ridden a motorbike in a long time so I'm not sure he'd appreciate giving me a ride. And I don't have a helmet, I'd have to use my mum's, but I'm not sure if it'd fit or even where it is...
Meh, it's so confusing.
GOING TO SEE MY FRIEND ON FRIDAY! Yay! Can't wait. I'm going away tomorrow and then to my friend's on Friday.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Weather Girl. Shiny Toy Guns. We Are Pilots.
P.S. Kindd short entry, huh?
posted at 12:06 pm EDT | 4 comments
July 17, 2006
Kindda Angry...
I'm pissed off at my brother's girlfriend. She's messing him around, and I know it because one of my brohter's friends is good friends with her and my brotehr's girlfriend (Rachael) told Emo (bro's friend) that she likes messing with his feelings and having a guy after her. But it's even worse because 'Cus (brother, actually called Marcus) has gone out with Rachael before and was really upset when she dumped him. And you ould tell he still had feelings for her, even when he got a different girlfriend.
But they're going out again and 'Cus is completely blind to the fact that she's messing with him. He doesn't even see that it's a bit weird that she agreed to go out him, even after she dumped him. But, according to the conversations I've had with Emo about the conversations she's had with Rachael (o.O), Rachael only agreed to go out with him because-
1- He clearly still has feelings for her and it make him leave her alone a bit more (he was totally flirting with her all the time, it was completely obvious)
2- She thinks that messing with him will pay him back for screwing with all of us (basically all of his friends and me included...he did some pretty bad things when he was going out with her...don't need to elaborate) &
3-She said she likes having a guy after her, makes her feel special or something.
But to make it worse, apparently Emo was talking to her last night, and she said that they were over. Emo asked if 'Cus knew because he still thought that they were still together and she was like 'Oops, I'll go talk to him in a minute'. She didn't tell him when she spoke to him on msn later. I know she didn't. Emo turned up here this morning (so we collect stuff to take to band practice...will talk about that in a moment) and she told him she was sorry. He didn't know so of course he was all 'About what?'. So Emo told him and he was quite clearly not okay with but said he was. He spoke to Rachael earlier today and she said she lied to Emo, and that they were still going out. So now I don't know what to believe.
But because she's messing with his feelings so much, it's just going to make it worse when they break up, because he'll know she was messing with him and he'll be in a bad mood for ages. But he'll take it out on everybody else. The arguements him and Emo get into when he's in a bad mood are really bad. Because he just randomly explodes. And he's really nasty to me when he's in a bad mood. God, it just be better for everybody if she didn't bother. Really, their relationship and 'Cus momentary good mood is just a ticking time bomb.
And band practice was completely pointless. Because it was just like all our other band practices. Basically, nobody but me and Emo focuses. I would have practiced today, but there wasn't even a drum kit there!!!! Grrr. But there were pool tables, bad idea. 'Cus, Fox, her boyfriend Tom and Andrew got really distracted (not Andrew as much) and played their instruments for about half an hour put together. Nobody listens to me and Emo when we tell them that their not doing anything, and say they are. But they aren't and it's completely hopeless. They piss me off soooooooo much sometimes!
Alex, the guy who is giving us the practice space, is the only truely (sp?) fabulous person there is. His hair is black, red amd pink. and styled perfectly. It's got so much hairspray in it, it's completely unreal. But he managed to get it to stand up at the back, liked curved spikes, but not thick...Grr, I can't describe it! But anyway, and he's a goth but a gay goth (hence the fact that he's fabulous) so not as gothic...That made no sense.
He does have a bit of a problem turning up on time though. He was a late. And we knew where he lived, so we were debating going to wake him up. But Emo decided it wasn't the best idea to wake up 'a goth with a hangover'. He has a hangover alot of the time...But he works really hard, so I guess he deserves to drink. He has like, 5 jobs. It turned out he was at one of his other job places, and 'Cus and Emo found him. We had to find him because he had the key to the place where we were practicing.
Geez, talk about a long rant. Congrats if you bothered to read all of that.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Box Of Sharp Objects. The Used. The Used.
But they're going out again and 'Cus is completely blind to the fact that she's messing with him. He doesn't even see that it's a bit weird that she agreed to go out him, even after she dumped him. But, according to the conversations I've had with Emo about the conversations she's had with Rachael (o.O), Rachael only agreed to go out with him because-
1- He clearly still has feelings for her and it make him leave her alone a bit more (he was totally flirting with her all the time, it was completely obvious)
2- She thinks that messing with him will pay him back for screwing with all of us (basically all of his friends and me included...he did some pretty bad things when he was going out with her...don't need to elaborate) &
3-She said she likes having a guy after her, makes her feel special or something.
But to make it worse, apparently Emo was talking to her last night, and she said that they were over. Emo asked if 'Cus knew because he still thought that they were still together and she was like 'Oops, I'll go talk to him in a minute'. She didn't tell him when she spoke to him on msn later. I know she didn't. Emo turned up here this morning (so we collect stuff to take to band practice...will talk about that in a moment) and she told him she was sorry. He didn't know so of course he was all 'About what?'. So Emo told him and he was quite clearly not okay with but said he was. He spoke to Rachael earlier today and she said she lied to Emo, and that they were still going out. So now I don't know what to believe.
But because she's messing with his feelings so much, it's just going to make it worse when they break up, because he'll know she was messing with him and he'll be in a bad mood for ages. But he'll take it out on everybody else. The arguements him and Emo get into when he's in a bad mood are really bad. Because he just randomly explodes. And he's really nasty to me when he's in a bad mood. God, it just be better for everybody if she didn't bother. Really, their relationship and 'Cus momentary good mood is just a ticking time bomb.
And band practice was completely pointless. Because it was just like all our other band practices. Basically, nobody but me and Emo focuses. I would have practiced today, but there wasn't even a drum kit there!!!! Grrr. But there were pool tables, bad idea. 'Cus, Fox, her boyfriend Tom and Andrew got really distracted (not Andrew as much) and played their instruments for about half an hour put together. Nobody listens to me and Emo when we tell them that their not doing anything, and say they are. But they aren't and it's completely hopeless. They piss me off soooooooo much sometimes!
Alex, the guy who is giving us the practice space, is the only truely (sp?) fabulous person there is. His hair is black, red amd pink. and styled perfectly. It's got so much hairspray in it, it's completely unreal. But he managed to get it to stand up at the back, liked curved spikes, but not thick...Grr, I can't describe it! But anyway, and he's a goth but a gay goth (hence the fact that he's fabulous) so not as gothic...That made no sense.
He does have a bit of a problem turning up on time though. He was a late. And we knew where he lived, so we were debating going to wake him up. But Emo decided it wasn't the best idea to wake up 'a goth with a hangover'. He has a hangover alot of the time...But he works really hard, so I guess he deserves to drink. He has like, 5 jobs. It turned out he was at one of his other job places, and 'Cus and Emo found him. We had to find him because he had the key to the place where we were practicing.
Geez, talk about a long rant. Congrats if you bothered to read all of that.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Box Of Sharp Objects. The Used. The Used.
posted at 11:25 am EDT | 6 comments
July 16, 2006
22 Hours
Yeah, I can't sleep. I just can't, I was awake all night, in my room, listening to music very quietly, staring at the ceiling and writing stuff for the stories because I was bored and couldn't sleep. At abour 4.30 I went downstairs to watch the sunrise (it rises early here because we're so far north) but got bored, because it was being really slow and i didn't have the patience! o.O So instead I went and watch movies. I watched The Incredibles because it was sutiably stupid for that time in the morning then I watched Corpse Bride where I left off last time. Then I was watching sh*tty morning T.V. when my mum came down (it was really early still, like 7) and made coffee and muffins. It was really random.
She made muffins because she got this new mixer thing that she's trying out and decided to make muffins...they're really nice.
5 days until I'm going to my best friends house!! Yay! But I have to pack. I'm rubbish at packing, because I'll always forget something. Always.
It's like a tradition that I forget something important.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Blue And Yellow. The Used. The Used.
She made muffins because she got this new mixer thing that she's trying out and decided to make muffins...they're really nice.
5 days until I'm going to my best friends house!! Yay! But I have to pack. I'm rubbish at packing, because I'll always forget something. Always.
It's like a tradition that I forget something important.
Jules
Song Of The Day- Blue And Yellow. The Used. The Used.
posted at 3:42 am EDT | 4 comments
July 15, 2006
That's What I Call A Lie-In
I didn't get up unil 12:40. But I didn't get to sleep until 2am. Damn, I love sleeping in! But I haven't been getting to sleep until 1am at the earliest recently...oh well.
You Vampire By Your Window fans will be glad to hear that I have started work on the sequel, just in case it wins the poll. I might even try writing two stories at the same time. o.0 Never done that before because I've convinced myself that I'll just get confused...But I'll give it a go...
I'll probably write the sequel to A Life of Strange Looks too, because I know what I'll write in it....
You remember me telling you guys about my brother's kitten? Well, I think the kitten has scared my cat from coming upstairs, even if she is locked in my brother's room alot of the time. It's just, my cat doesn't come upstairs at all anymore. And I reckon that she has other people feeding her too because we've put her on a diet because she's quite fat (to be blantently honest) but she doesn't seem to be loosing any weight. And she disappears for ages and doesn't come back...but that could just be her being a cat and going off hunting something and then sleeping somewhere. But seriously, I think that she's been eating food somewhere else because she doesn't leave the house all that much...except for recently....*is suspiscious of cat*
Jules
Song Of The Day- Come Out And Play. The Offspring. Smash.
You Vampire By Your Window fans will be glad to hear that I have started work on the sequel, just in case it wins the poll. I might even try writing two stories at the same time. o.0 Never done that before because I've convinced myself that I'll just get confused...But I'll give it a go...
I'll probably write the sequel to A Life of Strange Looks too, because I know what I'll write in it....
You remember me telling you guys about my brother's kitten? Well, I think the kitten has scared my cat from coming upstairs, even if she is locked in my brother's room alot of the time. It's just, my cat doesn't come upstairs at all anymore. And I reckon that she has other people feeding her too because we've put her on a diet because she's quite fat (to be blantently honest) but she doesn't seem to be loosing any weight. And she disappears for ages and doesn't come back...but that could just be her being a cat and going off hunting something and then sleeping somewhere. But seriously, I think that she's been eating food somewhere else because she doesn't leave the house all that much...except for recently....*is suspiscious of cat*
Jules
Song Of The Day- Come Out And Play. The Offspring. Smash.
posted at 6:29 am EDT | 4 comments
July 14, 2006
Grrrrrr.....
Ok, so maybe the excerpt was a little overdramatic but whatever!
Anyway, so my dad decided that once the parcel arrived then he'd walk to where we were going to go and look for good place to climb. I didn't want to walk all the way there and back (it's like, three miles at the least, with climbing in the middle...I don't think so, however much I love climbing), so I decided to just walk a bit with three of our dogs (we have 4...it's alot...they're really big too). The dogs were fine until I decided to turn back and dad kept walking on. The dogs decided they wanted to go for a longer walk and not leave dad, so I got two of them walking and one of them just stood still! I had to drag her half the way back, then I carried her, then put her down. I kept carrying her and putting her down for a while because it was killing my arm and it was really hard with two other dogs. But finally I got her walking again and she decided I was going to have to drag her when I could see the f*cking house!!!
I don't like that dog...
It reminds me why I don't leave the house...
Jules
Anyway, so my dad decided that once the parcel arrived then he'd walk to where we were going to go and look for good place to climb. I didn't want to walk all the way there and back (it's like, three miles at the least, with climbing in the middle...I don't think so, however much I love climbing), so I decided to just walk a bit with three of our dogs (we have 4...it's alot...they're really big too). The dogs were fine until I decided to turn back and dad kept walking on. The dogs decided they wanted to go for a longer walk and not leave dad, so I got two of them walking and one of them just stood still! I had to drag her half the way back, then I carried her, then put her down. I kept carrying her and putting her down for a while because it was killing my arm and it was really hard with two other dogs. But finally I got her walking again and she decided I was going to have to drag her when I could see the f*cking house!!!
I don't like that dog...
It reminds me why I don't leave the house...
Jules
posted at 5:44 am EDT | 4 comments
July 14, 2006
Stupid O'Clock
Argh, my dad woke me up about three hours earlier than I normally get up...He woke me up at 9am. This sun stuff kindda sucks. We were supposed to be going walking today (me and him) to find some good rock to climb on, but then my mum remembered she had a parcel that is supposed to be coming today, so we can't go. But they had to discover this after I was awake and dressed and everything...So sleepy.
I couldn't sleep last night, I didn't get to sleep until about 2:45am. So I really objected to be woken up at 9, especially when I haven't gotten up until at the earliest 11 in the past week. What are summer holidays for if not a good lie in?
But I haven't left the house either, so the whole early-morning-sun thing is kindda beyond me. The only natural light comes through the skylight in this room, and that's about it. Unless I take the dogs in the garden...
I like the night. It's really nice...unless I let myself think to much, and then (with my over-active mind) I can conjur up really creepy looking ghost...Well, not really ghosts...I just manage to get myself onto thinking that a really creepy pale face just appears at the window all the sudden, not doing anything just staring at me. Yeah, that thought gives me the creeps...
Jules
Song Of The Day- Taste Of Ink. The Used. The Used.
I couldn't sleep last night, I didn't get to sleep until about 2:45am. So I really objected to be woken up at 9, especially when I haven't gotten up until at the earliest 11 in the past week. What are summer holidays for if not a good lie in?
But I haven't left the house either, so the whole early-morning-sun thing is kindda beyond me. The only natural light comes through the skylight in this room, and that's about it. Unless I take the dogs in the garden...
I like the night. It's really nice...unless I let myself think to much, and then (with my over-active mind) I can conjur up really creepy looking ghost...Well, not really ghosts...I just manage to get myself onto thinking that a really creepy pale face just appears at the window all the sudden, not doing anything just staring at me. Yeah, that thought gives me the creeps...
Jules
Song Of The Day- Taste Of Ink. The Used. The Used.
posted at 2:29 am EDT | 4 comments
July 12, 2006
Updated iPod!
I now have more songs on my iPod! Yay. But I've just realised that I've put on one H.I.M. album (And Love Said No), without putting on some of my favourite songs because they were already on my iPod on Razorblade Romance. But what I've just realised is that I've taken off Razorblade Romance by accident!!!! And now I'm really annoyed because I can't get on the toerh computer that has iTunes on because my dad's using it at the moment...and it takes ages for me to log on etc.
Argh.
Anyway, in two weeks (I think that's how long it is...Wait...it's next week I'm leaving actually! Yay!) I'm going to see my best friend who I haven't seen in a year. I've spoken to her and stuff but I only get to see her about once a year. It really sucks, but I can't wait to see her! And then she's coming up to Scotland (where I live) for a week. She hasn't been up here before...I dunno what we're gonna do, there's not much to do up here. Whatever, I just can't wait to see ehr. Even though when I'm in London I have to go to the doctors...But that means I get Krisy Kreme donuts!! Love them *drools* (what? I like my food...even though the doctors are always getting angry at me because I don't put on enough weight...Darn stupid doctors...*mutters*).
Oh yeah, and I'm gonna see my grandparents after my best friend goes back home. They live in Edinburgh, so we're gonna go to some stuff that's on at the Edinburgh festival. Which'll be cool.
Woah, the weirdest thing just happened...I got all lightheaded all of a sudden and the world seemed to spin slightly. I'm fin now...that was weird...
Jules
Song Of The Day- Le Disko. Shiny Toy Guns. We Are Pilots.
(yes, Le Disko is spelt with a 'k')
Argh.
Anyway, in two weeks (I think that's how long it is...Wait...it's next week I'm leaving actually! Yay!) I'm going to see my best friend who I haven't seen in a year. I've spoken to her and stuff but I only get to see her about once a year. It really sucks, but I can't wait to see her! And then she's coming up to Scotland (where I live) for a week. She hasn't been up here before...I dunno what we're gonna do, there's not much to do up here. Whatever, I just can't wait to see ehr. Even though when I'm in London I have to go to the doctors...But that means I get Krisy Kreme donuts!! Love them *drools* (what? I like my food...even though the doctors are always getting angry at me because I don't put on enough weight...Darn stupid doctors...*mutters*).
Oh yeah, and I'm gonna see my grandparents after my best friend goes back home. They live in Edinburgh, so we're gonna go to some stuff that's on at the Edinburgh festival. Which'll be cool.
Woah, the weirdest thing just happened...I got all lightheaded all of a sudden and the world seemed to spin slightly. I'm fin now...that was weird...
Jules
Song Of The Day- Le Disko. Shiny Toy Guns. We Are Pilots.
(yes, Le Disko is spelt with a 'k')
posted at 11:58 am EDT | 7 comments
