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September 11, 2006
I need to confide in someone today, even though the people who read this don't know who I am, I would never confide in someone I actually knew. I like this guy. I REALLY like this guy. I keep dreaming about him, I keep thinking about him, I keep picturing me kissing him or our "first date" but all the fun of liking this guy has finally washed out. I have only met this guy face to face once. We email and IM eachother but this whole summer, I didn't hear from him untill today. He was on IM so I started talking to him, I was so happy that he was finally on. He was being perfectly nice. I asked him if he liked me and he said no, he had a girlfriend. I died inside. The horrible thing is that he used to like me, I mean he really liked me and I was too stupid to see how much he liked me, I didn't like him then. So anyway, then he gets kinda blunt and rude and I ask him if he's mad at me and he sais no and I am just quickly deflating inside and all my hopr, all my exitement is gone, like that and what is left is a gaping hole. Now I am mad at him. He was being nice before I asked him if I liked him. Then., he had to go and at the end of our conversation he said "i gtg and i might not be able to talk for awile cuz i got alot of school work, so dont send alot of stuff and stop spamming and stop callin my cell i will call wen i feel like it." that was the worst blow yet. Maybe I am not seeing it right. Did that sound ruse to anyone but me. I just feel so HORRIBLE right now, what should I do. should I send him an email telling him how horrible that made me feel? Should I ignore him for a little while? I dont know what to do. please coment, i need help from anyone who has advice for me. thank you.
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