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O.K. so i need advice or some thing. There is this guy named alan and he's my friend but i wish we were more. i know it's dumb but i can't help it. i dream of him very night. i make up fantasies and stories about me and him.
I come up with fantasies in my mind about how we would fall in love. i imagine evry detail from what we would sya to what we would wear. Some times, most of the time, i'm almost practical, coming up with things that could happen in our real lives. Other times i alow my mind to wander. To go to places and come up with scenerios that i know will never happen. i can't help it tho. i hate it.
I'm just so naturally drawn to him tho. Something about him attracts me to him. it's not just the way he looks either. I think it's his innocence. Something about him is so innocent, i think it's his eyes. But i contradict myself when i say that his eyes are so innocent but yet so knowing. It's like they look through your soul. it's so strange but i love it. It's like when you meet a young child and the first thing you notice is their eyes. Most children have innocent eyes. But there are only a few who retain that innocent look but still have that knowing wisdom to theeye it's weird. plz comment or message!