TheBlackRoseSuicides's Journal

SO, I've made a new account, but nothing will go on it.

It's main purpose is too stay in contact with my favorite writer's here on quizilla.

PLEASE ADD IT IF YOU WANT TO STAY IN CONTACT WITH ME.

It is named TheLasting

Because possibly by the end of this month, I will be deleting this account after moving everything from here to my two lj's.

I'm really sorry everyone, but to be honest, I just can't get used to this new quizilla. I've playing with it for the last few hours and really hate it.

With Love, Lara.

Okay, that's it. I disappear for a few days, and this is what happens!!!!

Quizilla changes everything! The new beta site SUCKS ASS!!!!!!!!!!!! IT IS CONFUSING AND SOME OF MY STUFF IS MISSING!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, this is the decision I've come to. I miss the old quizilla, I've been on this site for years and the old one worked out just fine, this new one, no, nada, don't like it.

I will be leaving Quizilla in time.

Not now, no, not yet, but I will be. Once I've finished a few things here, I'll be permanently moved to my livejournal account, endlessfinality, where all my fanfics will go, and to lara_manic, where all my original fics will go. Both lj's are up and running and have been for a while.

I don't know if this will come as a shock to anyone, I just don't lke the layout of this new version and well, from what I've read on here, alot of other's agree with that sentiment.

I'm sorry to those of you who like my stories and were looking forward to the new stuff I had planned, but it just has to be.


I will possibly make a new quizilla, just to keep up with the writers I adore on here, but for now, I'm in process of moving stories.

Bye for now.

Lara.

Here it is, the day we've all been waiting for, the 10th anniversery of hide-sama's death.

The day a whole country cried at the loss of such an amazing man.

The day the music industry lost one of it's most talented.

The day the world mourned for the end of X Japan, a legend of Jrock and the Fathers of the much loved Visual Kei movement.

So many were inspired by him, so many loved him, so many adored him, and no matter what was said about his death, as his fans, we still believe he is here, still rocking out with Yoshiki and Toshi and Pata and Heath.

Hide is still a bright star, still an inspiration, still one of the best. ((Bring him up in conversation and everyone else just utterly FAILS!!! LOL))

I'm sitting here writing this with X blasting on full in my ears, actually crying over someone I didn't much know about until I was 13, and by that time, he was deceased several years, and when I was getting into jrock at 14, X was one of the firsts, next to Laruku and Dir en Grey. ((although Dir en Grey suited my tastes, X Japan was good for rocking out around the house))

I'm 18 now, and would dearly love the chance to see X just once in my life before they trully fade away, but hey, I've still got a few years and I've got some odd plans, so who knows? X Japan has returned and with new vigor, giving us a new hope in a way, that hide wasn't forgotten.

The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty, it has yet to be decided.

All I will do, is write, and smile, and listen, to the words, the melodies, and the emotions, of the songs that saved my life.

This one's for you, hide-sama!!!!!!

FOREVER LOVE THE PINK SPIDER.

Without You, where would JRock be?

[[Before I really get into it, for readers of other stories updates are coming soon, I'm just slow, (but we all knew that), I've written the next two parts of Pink & Piercings and can't stop laughing, its ridiculous, the series is total crack meets jrock romance!]]

Anyways, for the readers of Boy Meets Boy The Unconventional Way, I've got some questions for you guys & girls:

1) How much did you like the story?
2) How much did you like the characters?
3) Would you like another original slash fiction from me?
4) How would you feel if I brought the BMB cast back for said next original slash fiction?
5) And, if there are positive answers to these questions, would you like a preview to said next OSF?

SO, that was what I wanted to know, please let me know your opinions and ideas on this. I admit, I really wanted to end BMB permanently, but to be honest, I love that cast way too much, and really don't want to let them go. If anyones noticed, references to BMB are everywhere in my recent works.

I am wide awake. Too much fucking sugar all weekend and it's finally catching up with me. And i have to deal with teenagers tomorrow before dealing with little children the day after...Normally I don't have posts like this, but I needed to do something, otherwise the personality that is obsessed with porn would take over and we'd have one too many my chemical romance slash stories fighting their way out of my brain.

Ah yes, did I ever mention that used to be my main fandom/OTP? All I used to write was slash stories about MCR, The Used, and all them other lovely bands I still hold dear to my heart. But that was on an old, long forgotten account that I no longer will try to remember the password. Forget it, I'm not even going to try and remember the name.

This is a journal thing, right? Well, then I shall vent/rant/squeal. I had another strange dream about another JRock band, althought, more specifically Kanon from An Cafe, Kyo from Dir En Grey, and Mao from Sadie. And for some reason, I was a guy in my dream, and how do I know this? Because at some point, Mao walks in a bathroom and finds me masterbating to his picture, strange, no? Yes, or this could just be the rambling of someone who really wants to drown in alcohol and write mindless porn, and go to a strip club and see every jrocker do a happy dance for me.

But yes, Kyo/Kanon/Mao. Odd set, if you ask me. But the Kyo/Kanon thing, I've been floating around recently, and then started a one-shot on them, as well as another one-shot about Kyo/Ruki, then Reita/Ruki. Yeah, mindless porn mode.

And the dream, really weird, I fucked Mao, and then we walked in on Kyo fucking Kanon, and then it became one big foursome. Hmmmm, I really could go into detail about this, but I don't want to. My brain is replaying the images and well, I may need to exscuse myself for a freezing shower very soon, because holy hells, it was HOTT. I mean like, Kanon was just begging, Kyo was being a sadistic prick, and well, I had Mao tied to the headboard, just teasing the fuck out of him. *stares into space*

((Damn it, someone stop me...this is getting too long -_-;))

And then well, i started biting kyo and we started fucking around, just to tease Kanon and Mao, both who were tied to the bed at that point, damn that was one big bed...and so i'm like, biting Kyo everywhere I can attach my teeth and he's just loving this, and then Mao's whinning, so I get off Kyo and return to Mao, but then Kyo jumps me from behind, and well, trying to get me, but I push him off and on to Kanon, so then they start going at it AGAIN, (and oh my god, Kanon moans like a whore...), and then Mao somehow get's loose and pins me down--

(and have you ever noticed how easy it is for me to write from a guy's prospective? creppy, right? not really, I'm told I'm a man in a woman's body and the only one a guy friend of mine would go gay for, which is cool)


--and so now he's trying to torture me, but its not really working, because I'm a little sadistic/masochistic freak, and love being bitten and weird shit like that (fucked up mentallity), so I'm just grinning at him and he's getting all pouty, which is absolutely adorable! Then I really start laughing, cause Kyo starts making out with Mao, which is kind of an odd sight, cause Mao absolutely idiolizes Kyo and looks almost like him, so it's like seeing Kyo fuck a younger version of himself. And well, poor Kanon's left all alone and me being the nice person I am, decided to be nice and help him out with him 'problem'! Kyo fucks Mao, I fuck Kanon, and we all go to bed happy after one very interesting night.

okay i'm stopping right now. Raven, I blame you and that insane amount of strawberries and whipped cream for this....

good night.

YES! This site rocks!!!!! So does JRock Revolution!!!! But to anyone wanting to get up-to-date on new stuff concerning JRock in the US, I highly recomend Tainted Reality, and JRock Revolution

Right now, I'm listening to their interview with Die from Dir en Grey, and holy crap, his voice is amazing!!!!!! Turns out, the title for "Agitated" came about during their Las Vegas show during the Family Values tour.

http://www.taintedreality.net/final/content/media.htm

that is the link to their media section to find all kinds of goodies.

http://www.jrockrevolution.com/index.php


there's the link for jrock revolution.

can't you tell I'm being a jrock whore right now? i'm just in that kind of mood.

(love this pic)

Okay, so this morning I had one of the strangest and weirdest dreams I have ever had, and it involved Dir en Grey for some freakish reason.


First off, let me get some stuff straight: I never dream about musicians, I never dream about musicians I would love to see, and I swear to hell I never dream about the people I write about. BUT, this morning I did! So, here's how it went.


It was after a Dir en Grey concert somewhere in the city, and somehow me, Raven and her boyfriend Liam, my brother, our friends amber and zak all got backstage passes and stuff and got to meet the band, which was cool, because we got to meet them all in their V-Kei costumes and stuff, which was weird cause they haven't done that in years. At some point, we all ended up on their tourbus, how, I have no idea.

Anyways, so Raven and Liam are having an interesting comversation with Kaoru about the most random of subjects (ie; sex, rabbits, world domination, photography, guitars, music, cat ears and tails, etc.).

My friend Amber, who gets creeped out by the weirdest shit, is getting chased around and hit on by Toshiya, and it's the funniest thing, because she's squealing for help and he's squealing about how much fun she is and keeps trying to hug her and stuff and she's like crying because she's not a big fan of men per se.

My brother, who is a video game freak, is literally kicking Die's ass on ever video game the man owns. I mean seriously, Daisuke is getting pissed cause he's getting beaten by a 15-year-old at all his favorite games. My brother is just sitting there with this smirk on his face like "Hehehe" and Die's face is seriously as red as his hair. It was hella funny.

And then, here's one of the weird parts, somehow my two youngest sisters Becca and Lizzy got there and Shinya was playing with them! I mean really! And they were loving him, because he was like "Aw! Kawaii!!!" and they were playing with Miyu and Shinya's outfit and brushing his hair like he was their favorite doll, it was absolutely the cutest thing!!! Zak was sitting there freaking out because he'd never seen so many effeminite men in his life, so he was all panicky and blaming me for everything wrong in his life, (but then again, his mom don't like me too much...lol)

And then, there was Kyo. Kyo was like, dead quiet throughout this whole thing, and we were sitting on opposite ends of a couch, just kind of giving each other weird looks the whole time. So at some point, we end up at Raven's house, how, I seriously don't know, because I'm wondering how the hell you'd get a tourbus up her freakin' hill.

So, all of us and the band are spead about the bottom floor of her house, some were in the living room, some where down in the kitchen/dinning/living room area. And once again, Raven and Liam are still talking to Kaoru, brother is still owning Die, Shinya is still playing with my sisters with Raven's cat, and Zak is now glaring at me for dragging him into this. And once more, Kyo and I were on the couch, still partially glaring at each other, and I'm trying to figure out why.

So then I turn on the couch and face him, but he doesn't face me, yet he's still looking at me sideways, and I'm like, staring at his neck for some reason, because it's like, OUT IN THE OPEN!!!! (And I'm warning you know, I love to bite people, because well, I have a biting fetish, among a few other others). So, he doesn't notice that I keep scooching closer to him and doesn't realize it until I lean over and bite him on the neck! And really hard too, like, hard enough to draw blood you know?

Hm, and it was weird, because it was like I could taste his skin, and he tasted like sweat, blood, and that salty skin taste... SO in other words, he actually taste really good, (no pun intended).

He like freaks okay, and I pull off and I'm kinda giving him this evil look, and he's like "What the fuck?" SO we sit there and he's staring at ME like I'M the one whose PSYCHO, and then he just grins at me. It's like this really evil/perverted/'I'm gonna get you back' kind of grin, so at that point I'm like "Oh. SHIT!!!" as he leaps on me and bites my neck!

And so, this leads to this massive bite fight between me and kyo and I swear, I took on Nami's personality and was like, biting him every where I could get to and he was doing the same. Then we fell off the couch and were wrestling on the floor and trying to pin each other, still biting each other, and still not really get anywhere. Then, I finally pin him the the floor after we somehow rolled into Raven's kitchen, where her mom is just like "Oh, hello!" and goes upstairs.

So I've got him pinned and he's glaring at me, I'm glaring down at him, and we're both panting from the wrestling and stuff.

And then I go, "YOU BASTARD!!! YOU FUCKING BIT ME!!!"

And Kyo yells, "YOU FREAKY AMERICAN CHICK, YOU BIT ME FIRST!!!"

I yell back, "IT'S YOUR FAULT!! YOU SEXY ASIAN BASTARD!!!"

Then he tries to sit up but I bite his neck again, and then he bites my shoulder really fucking hard, but it felt so GOOD! Cause I like to be biten sometimes...(don't ask). SO that started off a whole other round of arguing, and we're like, cussing each other out in Japanese, English, and I'm yelling at him in French a bunch, (which is funny, cause I haven't taken french in YEARS!!!), and at this point, every one else has taken a seat to watch the show.

At some point, Zak, Toshiya, Die, and my brother try pulling us apart, but we bite them too, so Kaoru tells them to leave us alone and let us go at it until we get tired.

SO, after about another hour of this, we finally end up in Raven's other living room with this big open space on her floor, just laying there trying to catch our breath. I look over at him, he looks over at me, and then we both start laughing our asses off.

We turn over so we're facing each other, both grinning like idiots and he sticks his hand out at me and is like, "I'm Kyo, nice to meet you."

I'm just like, "Wow, that was amazing. I'm Lara."

And after that, we just hang out with every one, sort of, because we're still on the floor in one room and everyone's in another. But, we had fun. Then I woke up.

And on a personal note, I woke up this morning feeling pains in a lot of strange places, and after getting dressed and going to school this morming, I realized, the pain I was feeling was in all the same places Kyo bit me in my dream.... I'm seriously still in pain, and my backpack was rubbing at my shoulder and it hurt like HELL, because I kept feeling the bites.

See? One freaky assed dream

Well, I've been updating like crazy this week because I've had the week off from school, so after this, it might be a while again, so I'm trying to get as much done as possible! Anyways, I've got a few more chapters to go on Aquamarine until I take a break from it for a while, it stops for a while, because in the timeline of the story, that when the band goes on tour again for the "It Withers and Withers" tour.

Also! A preview of my upcoming Kyo story! It's slashy, so warning! Nami and Kyo can't keep their hands off each other in Aquamarine, and neither can they in this one, since well, it's a story all for them! It picks up where Aquamarine will officially end in 2007, where I know how it will end, I just have to get there!

Other stuff, a couple new poems, but thats no big deal right now... OH! Coming soon is also my next one-shot for my Ruki (The Gazette) mini-series, it's a sequel to "Smile For Me", and I'm having waaaay too much fun with it right now. I started it a few days ago at Raven's when I spent the night, and well, haven't been able to get it out of my head fast enough!!!!

Well, that's all for now, thanks for the patience!

~updaLara/TheBlackRoseSuicides.

I've been on this earth 18 years yesterday at 5 pm. Hahaha, christmas and birthday aren't the best events to have together, but it works out some years, and this was one of those years. Anyways, I'm on vacation now and hope to get a lot of updating done the next week and a half, so look forward and to it.

And it has nothing to do with any of my current stories that I'm working on. It's not bad, its just... really... fucked up in a way, maybe not a bad way, but it is kinda kinky and well, a little on the sadistic/masochistic side. And, it involves Kyo and Shinya. But, if I did post it up, it would be the one that is password protected and WAY over the M rating. Maybe. So, if anyone's interested, I might be posting it sometime tonight ((as in, Sun.Nov.18, 07)) or sometime tomorrow if I have time. Hell, I might just do it tonight to get it over with, cause I've been sitting on it for a while now....well, later.

SO, I'm basically just... not doing anything right now.... I'm in American Lit, where I'm supposed to be typing an essay on the Crucible, no such luck. Hahaha, my teacher loves me and I love her but all my stuff for it is at HOME!!!!! SO, I just wanted to do a bit of an update concerning 'Boy Meets Boy', ((albeit it is a bit hard to concentrate with my friend Rolland playing DOOM next to me and D'EspairsRay blasting in my ears...)) Anyways, there will not be any updates for a LONG while, at least until I write new stuff and at least rewrite some of the more recent chapters that I believe are so off it's not even funny! SO, I need to get everything re-organized again because I haven't worked on that story in a long time, so, if you love it, enjoy those chapters that are posted now, because that's all the love that poor story is going to get for a while.... Thanks to my readers! -Lara Manic.

For the time being at least. I've started writing new stories with (at the moment) little intent on poasting them until I've finished 'Boy Meets Boy' and 'Aquamarine'. Anyways, thanks for the patience, the messages, the rates, and all the lovely stuff. It's cool to know people read my stuff sometimes. Gives me that warm fuzzy feeling right now, especially since I've got bad migraines and other weird ailments with names I can't remember.... Later, Lara.

I will have updates soon, just not right now, shit happens and life hates me, so we'll see. May be later today!

Hello again Loves, I'm back for the time being and am cleaning out the old stuff to make way for the new. I have deleted most of my stories on here for a reason and am not at liberty to disclose that reason. BUT! I have two new sotire on the way, the original version of my MIKEY WAY story, the original slash it was based on, and a Mat Devine and Jon Radtke story. SO! They will be up soon, so be patient.

Yeah, this is Lara peeps. I'm back. I'm Alive. I've taken a look at my quizzes activity lately and its pathetic. I mean seriously. It was read at least a hundred times and guess what? 1 vote. ONE!!!!!!!!!!!! That is the only thing I hate about the readers of quizilla. They never take 5 fucking minutes to vote. it sucks people, honestly. And I'm fed up with it. But I will not threaten to stop writting my stories, why? Because I am quite proud of this one. Even though it takes awhile to get it out because I can never be truly satisfied with one part or another, I am constanly going over it again and again so that to me, it is perfection. And in all honesty, you who don't vote but read...need to really get a life. Well, these are my nightly rants. Later Loves,~*~LARA~*~