Sawamura's Journal

Please post anything you would like to tell me about my story.

But please be gentle if you aren't too fond of the story.

Thank you!

I finished one 5 page paper and 1 power point. Just another paper and another power point to go! I really can't wait till summer. I have 4 actualy days of school left. *squeel* I'm so excited!

I dislike a number of people right now. There are girls who start rumors about me at school. I don't know how they can do that if I'm only there for an hour.There is a girl who is completely annoying on quizilla. There are some mean people who hurt my friend here too. I have a 5 page paper to write and 2 power points to make. Did I mention I dislike a number of people right now? People have such a lack of empathy and are so mean these days.That is not righthurting people just because it makes someone feel good! Half the time those people don't even have a purpose! And if any one of you think you can get involved with your friend's fights DON'T! Their buisness is not yours, no matter how long you've known them, no matter how much you love them! SO STOP BEING MEAN TO PEOPLE! You will burn in hell and never have friends again if you do! May this be a warning!

This is the fifth time I've attempted to post this journal...Quzilla screwed up the chapters to my stories...it won't let me post a quiz...I dislike a number of people right now...I'm bored....

What kind of stuff is going on in your life?

I can't do anything! I thrive on simplicity! This is not simple! I'm so confused! I'm lucky to know how to post on this journal! I may have to move to another more simpler site. This is too much for me...

I might be at fictionpress.com or freewebs. I don't know yet. This new site is a pain...

Yes people, I believe my block has left for a moment. "AHH! Theres a vampire in my closet!" [45] has been posted. I'm terribly sorry if its horrible. Hopefully the next chapter will be better.

Probably later tonight the 9th chapter of "I'll Say A Little Prayer For You: The Magical Journey" will be posted.

Again, I can't apologize enough for not posting.

I need to stop getting on quizilla in the morning, because nobody is on. I have a bad case of writers block for both of my stories and there aren't any messages for me...*sigh* 

Yep, I returned to my evil Father's house for once in my life. And for once, he didn't make me sleep on the ground while my brother got a bed. I GOT A FUTON BABY! Its a pretty black one, and when it folds out its huge and comfy. I slept so well on it, and I had a bad*ss dream too! In my dream I beat up these two girls that I really hate! Thats one awesome dream come true!

How was your day?

When nobody puts time and effort into a friendship. All the "friends" I have in the outside world think they can walk all over me. Then I tell them how I feel and they tell me I'm "messed up". NO! YOU MESSED UP! You don't care about my feelings, you don't care about my friendship. The latest friend I've had in the outside world just thought she could do this to me. Nope! You don't value me, I don't value you. Simple as that. Now get h*ll out!

Fuck this. I'm so fucking sick of people always acting like stupid little emo babies. All they want to do is cry over their "issues". Oh my life is so horrible, I dress in all black and I have to act dark because life is just sooo hard. Fucking suck it up you shitty little people. You don't know what real problems are. Be fucking happy once in awhile! Oh my god!!! Get a LIFE! I'm sick of your emo shit.

Yes, I have a big, big secret. Do you want to know what it is? Of course you do. Because everyone wants to know a secret. They want to know something you don't know, and you'll have that advantage if you read this journal, and others don't. Drink it in, it shall be a big secret indeed. It might be something you know or not know, and to some of you it will be very irrelevant. Yes, again, I have a big secret. But! First you must know the secret of the secret of the big secret. And that secret to the secret of the Big secret is: you will have to message me to know the secret of the secret of the Big secret...

No forwarding address! Memeco has left quizilla! she was a great friend, what has made her leave? *sob* COME BACK MEMMY-CHAN!

My Mom leaves for a whole day for once, and there is NOTHING to do. I have writers block, and it was a pain to write chapter 8 of Magical Journey (its out by the way). Now nobody is on quizilla and nobody is talking to me and....its just a stupid, boring, annoying day!

They say you can express your opinions freely on the internet...

Apparently, my opinion was replied by the label of an unintelligent person.

HA HA! PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID!

People, I am not preppy! Have you seen the things I write about? Have you spoken with me? Do I sound like an airhead? NOOOOOO! I forgive my new friend Pro-Naruto-Stalker for thinking that, because she didn't know me that well. But the next person to cross my path and call me that again is going TO GET IT! RAWR!!!

I don't feel well today, I didn't feel well yesterday either. I have mild depression symptoms once in awhile, and sometimes I can manage them well, sometimes not. I either get really sad or really angry during these monthly slumps. I'm not bi-polar at all. My therepist said so. Today I am feeling worse and worse. If anyone would understand this, I got angry at a friend in my anxious state. I told her I didn't feel well and she asked why and I told her. But she still asked why. I get very annoyed with her easily since...in all honesty...she is an airhead. I don't need anyone to tell me I need to get over it or stop being angry or sad. Nobody gives me any medicine for this and nobody really gives me guidance on how to deal with annoying and un-empathetic people. People MUST understand that when going through depressive periods, there is a long process to which we must try and heal ourselves within that state. It takes a very long time, and it is very hurtful to tell someone to "hang in there" or "suck it up" or "get over it". It is very hard to do those things when depression immoblilizes your thinking processes. If you are not the best advice giver, please don't say anything. It will only amplify my sadness. I won't be like this much longer, so I think you can hold those comments in until I get better.  In the meantime, I would just like some comfort. Thanks for listening.

I'm not happy today. Just not happy. All I can tell you is that I'm tired. Don't try and tell me to suck it up or get some rest. I'm just expressing my feelings. Rawr... I'd rather just... eat something. Hopefully it isn't your head, I don't want to upset anyone just because I'm not feeling well. Again, Rawr...

My Mom and brother always argue, ever since my brother started to have problems mentally and ever since my Mother and Father divorced. This conversation is particularly scary since they're talking about the strange, creepy man living in my Dad's house who has pictures of women (n*de women) on his walls and hugs all the young girls around town. This guy is 65, and my brother is 16 and I am 14. The perfect ages to become victims of sexual abuse. I'm really scared right now...

So, to take my mind off  the scariness, I like to inform you that Chapter 44 of "AHH! Theres a vampire in my closet!" is out with its new banner up! ^-^ I really hope you like it...

I apologize profusely for the agony I have caused in not being able to post chapter 44 of "AHH! Theres a vampire in my closet!". As we reach the conclusion of the story, I have reached the conclusion that I have had a horrible case of righters block. Again, I am sorry for the long wait, but it should be posted by either the end of today, or tommorow. And just as a reward for all my good, patient readers, I have made a gorgeous banner to grace the features of Chapter 44. Bear with me. And thank you.

Chapter 6 of "I'll Say A Little Prayer For You: The Magical Journey" is out. It even features a pretty banner I made my self! Sorry about its shortness but it looked really long on wordpad! Hope you like it! Happy reading!