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December 8, 2007
I have no life. Well, if you count reading, work and ignoring those who call themselves my friends.)i'm very peeved with them right now.) I suffer from insomnia and I have nightmares. I'm afraid of nohing in particular, but i hate thigs like heights and incects ( have NO problem with spiders) My faveorite food (as of now) is a bowl of tomato soup and a grilled ham and cheese. I am average.
I have a cat Named snowball, and a dog named bear.
You are dying to know who is dying aren't you?
My love has always been with me, he kisses me everyday after school, and sometimes when my parnts don't notice, i let him sleep with me. He streaches out accorss the bed, and steals the covers. He has always been there for me. His shoulder by now must be stained with me tears, his ears have heard all of me secrets. He comforts me when i'm nervos. Sometimes late at night i wake him up and read to him, he sits paitently listening to every word noy once has he ever fell asleep on me.
I love him more than anything
I know he loves me more than anything.
and he's sick and more than likely dying.
You think he's a boy right.
Well he's not he is my dog Bear.
To put things simply his brain is swelling. He either has a bactrial infection, or a virius. He has no control of his jaw, and his tounge lolls out of his mouth. he won't eat. no matter how much i beg. he can barley drink. when he tries all he manages to do is salivate.
I can handle blood, open wounds, and vomit no problem, but flem saliva. God it makes me gag. I can't eat because of it.
Personaly i think Bear had a stroke.
If Bear is going to be like this even if he gets better I won't let him live. I will have him put to sleep......
I don't think my friends understand my agony. The don't understand why i'm so miserable. they can't understand why i sit alone at lunch than rather with them. I try to put on a smile, but it hurts.
My friends are forgetting me.
I have no time for them i need to be spending my time with the one who really loves me.
You know who you are. DO NOT post my journal DO NOT talk to me during school if you didn't care enough to talk to me before I see no reason for you to talk to me at school.
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