Ok.
So this is mostly an update on the CONFUSION!!! problem. haha.
I don't know what it means ENTIRELY but I have a good feeling about it.
So Here's The Story.
Me and my BFF! Sandy were walking to our next class in the hallway when we see the bff I mentioned before, Robin. (If you didn't read the last entry, here is the short story. - Me and my bff Robin kind of made out and I didn't know if I liked him as more than a friend or not, and I didn't know if he liked me as more than a friend or not.)
ANYWAY, Me and Sandy were walking to our next class when we saw Robin and of course we started talking before the teacher got to the class. So he was giving us hugs and we started talking about the makeout incident and he was saying to Sandy " That won't ever happen again." But when Sandy started going into the classroom, he pulled me into this really tight hug and asked "Will that ever happen again?". The tone of his voice was hopeful. Which I'm guessing indicates that he wants it to happen again. I said "I don't know", but in my head I was screaming "HELLZ YEA!!!"lol.
So now I am happy.
Please tell me if you think I am wrong about what the tone of voice indicates, but I'm hoping I'm right!!!
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May 15, 2008
Will It??? ; ]
posted at 10:07 pm EDT | 0 comments
May 15, 2008
Ahhh! CONFUSION! [Please give me ADVICE.]
!!!CONFUSED!!!
Thanks to one wonderful best friend of mine. Do you want to hear the story? Probably not. But you get to hear it anyway.
I was at the wonderful make-out-capitol of the world, when we start to have a bench pile up. Not the "oh, haha, i fell on you" type of pile up, the "RAVE SEXXX!!!" type of pile up. So my best friend in the whole wide world Sydney, is totally being all over my other best friend (that's a guy). And I keep reminding her "you have a boyfriend, you are in a commited relationship." So she finally backs off. Then, since everybody was in the total "RAVE SEXXX!" mood, including me, me and my bff start kind of, cuddling. And to make it worse, I had a teensy-weensy bit of a crush on my bff. So you know, it was kind of all innocent to start out with, and then, as the night went on, you guessed it, wekind of gotnot-so-innocent. And to make a long story short, by the end of the night we kind of made out.
Now, in the current situation, I am VERY VERY VERY CONFUSED. And my bff is too. But we can't be alone long enough to talk about what happened! And to make things worse, We had to tell our other best friend Sandy what had happened. And she was like "How could you make out with our brother? Our gothic brother!" (we call him our brother). I don't know if we're going out or anything! And before you say it probably meant nothing to him, like it would to a typical guy, I know it didn't. And I'm not saying that because I want a relationship or something, I'm saying it because, well, honestly, he's a little bit more like a chick than a guy emotionally. He holds onto things and thinks things over and over and through and through.
Now, the fact is, I'm not even sure of my own feelings really. I am willing to take a chance and go out with him, but I want to make sure that I keep what we already had, a really good friendship. Even if I do end up going out with him and we break up, I definitely still want to be friends. Because, I love him. (like a brother, as a best friend, as everything that I wish I could be.) But I want to know how he feels, and its literally killing me to not know! Literally! I can't freaking sleep! The only small amount of info that I did get from him was this (what he said.) - "I've been feeling horrible the past few days because I wasn't sure of anything, and I didn't really think about what I was doing." (regarding to the, erm, incident?.) But he didn't say that like he meant it in a bad sort of way. Just basically he was feeling ty the past few days because he didn't know how i felt or how he felt or anything. We've both been going through this same HELL the past couple of days.
How do we end this hell and confusion?
ADVICE PLEASE!!!
Thanks to one wonderful best friend of mine. Do you want to hear the story? Probably not. But you get to hear it anyway.
I was at the wonderful make-out-capitol of the world, when we start to have a bench pile up. Not the "oh, haha, i fell on you" type of pile up, the "RAVE SEXXX!!!" type of pile up. So my best friend in the whole wide world Sydney, is totally being all over my other best friend (that's a guy). And I keep reminding her "you have a boyfriend, you are in a commited relationship." So she finally backs off. Then, since everybody was in the total "RAVE SEXXX!" mood, including me, me and my bff start kind of, cuddling. And to make it worse, I had a teensy-weensy bit of a crush on my bff. So you know, it was kind of all innocent to start out with, and then, as the night went on, you guessed it, wekind of gotnot-so-innocent. And to make a long story short, by the end of the night we kind of made out.
Now, in the current situation, I am VERY VERY VERY CONFUSED. And my bff is too. But we can't be alone long enough to talk about what happened! And to make things worse, We had to tell our other best friend Sandy what had happened. And she was like "How could you make out with our brother? Our gothic brother!" (we call him our brother). I don't know if we're going out or anything! And before you say it probably meant nothing to him, like it would to a typical guy, I know it didn't. And I'm not saying that because I want a relationship or something, I'm saying it because, well, honestly, he's a little bit more like a chick than a guy emotionally. He holds onto things and thinks things over and over and through and through.
Now, the fact is, I'm not even sure of my own feelings really. I am willing to take a chance and go out with him, but I want to make sure that I keep what we already had, a really good friendship. Even if I do end up going out with him and we break up, I definitely still want to be friends. Because, I love him. (like a brother, as a best friend, as everything that I wish I could be.) But I want to know how he feels, and its literally killing me to not know! Literally! I can't freaking sleep! The only small amount of info that I did get from him was this (what he said.) - "I've been feeling horrible the past few days because I wasn't sure of anything, and I didn't really think about what I was doing." (regarding to the, erm, incident?.) But he didn't say that like he meant it in a bad sort of way. Just basically he was feeling ty the past few days because he didn't know how i felt or how he felt or anything. We've both been going through this same HELL the past couple of days.
How do we end this hell and confusion?
ADVICE PLEASE!!!
posted at 1:20 am EDT | 0 comments
