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Hi, it's been a while. I've changed so much in a year it's weird. I've had so many revelations, and all these problems have really toughened me up.

Well, in year nine, I was friends with a big group of friends and we had awesome times. This year, that group has been split in two. There's Abbie's side, and Charlotte's side. Me, Krissie, Daniel, Natalie, and Georgia have taken Abbie's side and Zac, Coombs, James, and Chelsea have taken Charlotte's side.

In case you're wondering, Abbie's side is better. Charlotte is a whore and fucked up in the head and so is pretty much everyone on her side aside from Coombs.

Now, Chelsea used to be on our side, and Zac had some creepy obsession with her, he kept sort of kidnapping her and attacking her. So we protected her for a while. She was going out with Daniel and he really loved her (young love).

Turns out, she was using us more than Scott Briggs uses his gob! (A lot in other words)

She never really wanted to go out with Daniel, I don't know why she did in the first place. But now, she’s gone from trusted friend, to shit on our shoes.

But in a way, she did us a favour, because when she hung around us for lunch, it was always boring and conversations nearly always revolved around her and Zac's obsession with her. But now, we’re having fun again!

She is the wannabe emo type of girl who carry's an MCR handbag/schoolbag and has dyed her hair dark purple. She acts like she doesn't have a mind of her own, she laughs when we laugh, agrees with every fucking thing we say. She's a pushover, selfish and can't stand up for herself.

We actually hate her now. I mean HATE her, not just dislike.

She fucked Daniel over and left him heartbroken and feeling like shit. We're all standing by him and each other. She may have used us and left us, but we're gonna stick it out together. And it's not helping Daniel that she’s holding hands with Zac, but he says he hates her now.

So we're just gonna ignore her and when she's around: SHE DOESN'T EXIST. That's the plan we made. Me and Nilufa indirectly took the piss out of her in maths when we sit on the same table. We were just ignoring her and saying things like: "Don't you just hate wannabes?" "Especially ones with MCR bags, they're so fake." By the way, I love MCR, but too many emo wannabes have their merch. Anyway, she was trying to cover her ears according to Nilufa. Lol

I think I've become really harsh and my tongue has become crueler. But I'm more affectionate to those I love and tender hearted. I've started hugging people a lot more. I know when to keep my mouth shut and to stay out of things more now.

All these problems have toughened me up and I'm wiser and I've developed my writing style and general style. I've had lots of new revelations too.

I've realized I don't care anymore. He can go out with as many girls he wants, I'm past caring. I know he'll never like me and I'm fine, I'm content with friendship. Don't get me wrong, I'm not over him, I still like him, but...I've just liked him for so long, I've gone past the stage where every time he goes out with a girl jealousy stabs my stomach. He still makes me smile and makes my stomach jolt with joy every time I see him. I can still dream though right?

Also I've realized, when no-one else is there, my dreams are there, always eager to entertain.

I've realized who my true friends are too. And that Natalia understands me like nobody else does. And that Nilufa is like a sister to me, that Krissie always brightens up my day, that Daniel is just awesome, that Natalie and I are opposites, but we're still really close, Natalie W and Bex have warped my mind lol, Charlotte and Chelsea are whores who should go and fuck Zac and Scott. Also that my older brother is my hero and ideal role model and is on my side and my little brother is sweet and I would go the earth's end for him.

I wouldn't trade any of my friends or my brothers for the world, not when they're all I have in this world in the first place.

I now have two groups of friends, one group is the misfits like me, basically the ones I was talking about in the previous paragraphs. The other is the more popular, rockers kind of people. There's only one problem: The two groups don't like each other and I'm sitting on the fence. But they both respect my choices and don't insult each other in front of me. But if it was a choice between the two groups, I would choose the misfits, simply because we're closer, I trust them more. The other group we're just loose friends we don't trust each other as much, but I still like them.

I've realized, making the choice and breaking away isn't going to be so hard. I just have to fight, and eventually I will get the life I want.

I've been so encumbered with teen problems, school issues and homework and coursework, I've barely had time to read any books whatsoever! I've read some, but that's it.

I've matured so much it's unbelievable and I'm not so immature and childish. Of course, I am childish when having fun, but everyone is. I've learned to cope with everything and help others cope and always be there for my friends. It's gonna be my birthday in 8 days, I'm going to be 15.

I think this is the process I'm going under to become an adult.

I think I've finally grown-up.