Love2Read's Journal

hey yall i miss every one who i know on quizilla.,my friends emily(emmy),rebekah,cassie and kayla japan is greate i love it yesterday i went off base and i got a chines/japanese style dress(for my england friends the dresses im very good at drawing^^)its lilac purple.and i kave a kamono rob its so pretty its white with a pink sakura trees with a shrine near the tree its so pretty oh and i have a japanese naruto card booyeah^^and i have japanese manga,spiral but i cant remeber the manga name for it^^ my firend PeiceofLove knows it^^ and i have hikaru no go^^ but the bad thing about them is that i cant understand them^^
well got to go^^

Meggie

well today is my last day in england.im moving to japan but im going to NC first to visit my family then im going to Florida to also visit family then im going to japan.im going to miss all my friends in japan.and my sissy emmy said she wont find a nother sissy but my friend beacky7 said that me and emmy wont be sissies anymore cuz im moving and shes going to steal my place as emmies sissy im just so mad at bekka rite now i can almost kill her.not really but still after what beka said i dont think i will make friends in japan.i dont think ican fit in.and i dont eant to make friends cuz if i do try and make friends then pl wouild think im weird.well 2day is my last day in england i have to call some of my friends and sa good bye. and im not going to be one quizilla for a while so i wont be able to update in a while^^srry.

okay im so sad cuz im moving in like a week im moving to japan.and i will never see them again and now im grounded and i may not beable to spend the night at my friend emmys house and they know how importent this is to me to se my best friends thats a girl.cuz ill never see her again and im mad and i couldnt go and do community servis cuiz emmy asked if i could help cuz there wasnt alot of ppl to help out there and my dad said no cuz im grounded and i didnt do anything.

im so sad right now becuz im moving and ill never see my friends again and for my last 2 weeks here i just want to spend time with them but i cant cuz they are doing this red cross thing and i cant do it cuz im moving and mostly all my frinds are doing it and i cant be apart of it and they get to be togehterand i can be with them cuz of the red cross thing and my friends say i cant do it cuz it started earilier this month and i cant do it once i move and i ....i just HATE THIS I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I JUST HATE IT I NEVER ASKED TO MOVE AROUND THE WORLD I JUST HATE IT.I JUST WANT TO BE WITH MY FRIENDS I WAHNT TO BE WIOTH THEM.i want to help out at things and  i want to volinter at things like the red-cross thing but i cant.i really do want to be with them and help out but i cant.

i just rembered while looking back over the year that me and nick really liked each other.wehn i used to like him.and i do now but earlier on the year.tht we were close to going out.and to all our friends surprise we didnt tell them that we almost went out.^^
and i know that if any of you who are my friends from school you will be pretty pissed off rite now^^srry i didn't want to tell you cause welll i know you guys to much and i know thqt you will try to get me and niock together no matter what i t took^^
so yeah i have to go^^
~meggie~

okay i cant stop blushing about my friend nick.i looked at all the pics he drew me and and most of them have hearts in them^^and i can help but blush and every time i think of him i blush.am i in love?or ist it just a middle school crsh?
because he is my best guy friend.and we were never seperated and we were always together most of the time.and now hes gone and i keep b;lushing when ever i think about him and im blushing now^^
but im confussed  is my situration just a
middle school crush?
am i in love?
or am i just feeling lust?

okay you know how i was rambling about how i loved someone thats not real but i was wrong.i love my best friend nick.the that moved.and at my friends yesterday with al of  my  friends.okay we were talking about my drawiongs and nicks drawings and my friends beaky said that my friends nick always had little hearts that really werent noticeble  at the bottom of every page i was on.(we were doing our own manga)and all the pic of my character.there were hearts or a heart.and i now relised that i like him...no wait hold the phone i LOVE him.and my friends say that he likes me.and well i believe and hay on is my sister(emily not really but we are so close we act like sisters)said that he digs me and well i believe her its just i dont want him to forget me and meet another girl that can replace our friend ship.well i have ot go and re do my manga^^
g2g
~meggie~

okay it has been 3 weeks since my best friends nicks last day.and well im sa.and im listning to a song that reminds me of him.and i dont know what to do what if he forgets about me.and what if finds a new best friend better then i am.and i miss everything about him his laugh and smile and the way he cheard me up.which ws a lot cause he never wanted to see me sad or to see me cry.and i try not to cry about but it hurts so much cause i know that im never going to see him again.and i love him(as a friend)and i just dont want him to forget about me cause i know i wont forget about him.he changed my life around.i know more about anime and i can draw alot better then i did last year.
and i have very few pictures of him.and he let do everything wel not really but he let me hugg him ahd put my arms around his soulders and we linked arms alot and every one tought we were a couple cause well we were al ways together.and i always grabed his sleve of his hoddie and it looked like we were holdoing hands and well no matter ehat i will never forget him and well im so sad.well i have to go now.and i will always have that picture of him to rember him by.and i love him(as a friend)
well bye.

i think im going crazy im in love with an anime character.
okay i know what you guys are thinking who?
the one and only  kai hiwatari.i know i know im going crazy but i cant help it.well hes so cute nad hott and sexy but
oh i cant help it maybe... oh nevermind i just need advice can i be in love with a anime character?and when i say love i dont mean hight skoo crush love i mean like your parents get married and have you love.true love like soul mates true love.that who ifeel aabout kai hiwatari and i am not going to say wut anime he is in cuz well im ashamed of well im not but when i was at skool not many ppl liked me cuz well i liked anime and i liked beybblde.and i belive i was destiend to like it but i dont know why.
well anywhosers i really do think i am in love with kai hiwatari and like i said im not going to sa wut anime he is in cause well im not
going to explain it.
g2g

well yesterday i reliased that i love some on that is not real.but i'm not sure if i could love him or not.i grown to know about him so much and know what he's been through and what he wants and what he needs and i just can't take it anymore i just want to shout it out to the world that i love some one that is not real.but if i do im afraid of what ppl would think of me.and on saterday and sunday my friend kayla PISSED me OFF.she keep saying that he was hott.and sexy and my my sister like friend emily said that to but she like my sister and i dont mind when she says it but when kayla said it im PISSED me off cuz she knows i like him and but now i know that im in love with him and i mean true love. well i have to go bye.

well 2day was m last day of skool yay but also sad bcuz i wonht get to see most of my friends again cuz i am moving.well 2day was fun i got a lot of autographs and i sighend a lot 2.tody we went to all of our classes 4 like 20 mins and we got sigs and pics and well a lot of stuff.well to day was funa nd no more skool yay but i am going to miss all of my friends and i will really miss my best friends that is a girl (Tears2Shed)megan bailey.she may move to were i am moving to so yeah but i have to go bye 

well it all started last tuesday when my friend came to school late after she got her shots.well me and my DD asked  our music teacher if we could go to the bathroom but we didnt go to the bathroom we snuck down to my locker and grabed my cd player. and i had my cd player with me all da and noone noticed.and then i stool something from a teacher (pencil and ruubber pencil)and then i chewd gum during class(its a agenst the rules to chew gum in class)and today i cheew gum all day and i snuck out of band  god im turning bad haha

i cant belive my dad is i think have a afair with my mom or something like that and i think m 'rents are getting a devorce i dont want that to happen my mom and dad have been fight all week end cause what it is sounding like to me that he lied to her for a whole year saying that swore on her life on mothers day last year the he didnt watch porn on his computer and my mom found out that he lied to her and oon mothers day and know they have been yeeling at each other all weekend and my mom found out that he has downloaded porn on his computer and now they wont stop yelling at each other and my mom is so tired from staying up late yelling at my dad and im tired to for them yelling and i couldnt get very much sleep cause they kept on fight ing i woke uo really early yesterday hearing my mom yelling at him i just dont know what to do anymore i just dont want them to get a divorce cause i want to go to japan and sometimes i hoped that when my mom used yell at him they will get a divorce because i miss my family but i just dont know what to do they have been yelling at each other all weekend it is starting to scare me well i have 6to go and each luanch b4 i wake my mom up from her napp and see if my dad is a sleep cause it really quet bye