GetLostInTheMusic's Journal

okies! updates on me and danny! we kissed!!! lol! on monday!!! yups!!! lol! and when we say goodbye, its usually a hug, a quick kiss, etc...for like 3 times...and the whole week people were saying that we are a cute couple....XD!....im relly happy and so is he....^.^....anywho! i gtg...ermmm....i have homework this weekend, so i may not be on as uch as i want to be...sooo...soory this is soo short..ill try to post a longer one later..okies?! ttfn!

okies! i have good news! so...two weeks ago, i started talking with this one guy at the anime table named Danny...i thought that he liked me, and that i liked him, but i didnt want to ask him out cuz 1) i thought hed reject me
2) i new that there was a chance that he didtn like me....
BUT! on this past monday, he says to me...(now this is as soon as he sees me):
"can i ask you a question?"
"sure:)"
"do you have a boyfriend?"
"no...."
"would you like a boyfriend?"
"and who would that be?"
*tilts his head in my direction while smiling*
"sure!!! yes!!!"
:D!
yups! hez soo sweet! i wanted to act like i had no clue who he was tlkng about..tahts why i said "and who would that be"....he stood up for me last week too..he is so protective...and sweet, and caring..and....and....im his first gf...lol....he was the first one to hold my hand......(meaning i didnt have to make the first move)....and he asked me to homecoming! lol...we write notes to each other cause we only see each other for a couple of minuets a day, and then on maybe 2 days a week, we have the same lunch at school.....so i wrote this to him in reply tohishomecoming question: "*kiss*...does that answer ur question?" and he wrote back with "it might answer my question...;)"
:D! omg! lol....i no! but we didnt kiss....:(....but my friend Erika...(shes so sweet...lol...) tlakd to him and said "when are you going to kiss her? She's sooo nervous!" him:"she isnt the only one"...awwww!
lol....hez so sweet! i must have used the word "sweet" about 20 times....seriously..its like my new buzz word...like i always say it...lol....:D.....anywho, u mite be asking, "what about chris?" well, on an amazing quainkidink, he asked if it would be ok if he dated sum1 in reality...i told him i had the same question for him...lol!....we r still togetehr, but just dating in reality too..i personaly think it would be good for him, and yea it will be kinda hard for us, but....yups!.....:D
thats my story and im stickin to it!:D
love,
amaya

Thisis a jounral dedicated tomy hard week....and also tothe year of high school that i went through so much pain.
My sophmore year of high school was a really hard time for me...i went from day to day trying to be someone that i was not...id be preppy one day, goth/emo the next....and the cycle repeated itself day by day..week by week...that year was also the year i met Brett..the year i let a boy take control of me...only because he said that it was ok....it was the year that started dwindling my self confidence down the drain...i just wasnt...me...and when my "best friend" started to date Brett on my 16th birthday, i thought that i couldnt go on in my life...i had no one to guide me...i was so lost...and after i made an account on here, i felt right at home....it wasnt until this very week of school...our first week of school...that i feel the same way as i did two years ago...on monday, i met a guy..his name (nickname) is Blue...he looks exactly like chris...and i just started to fall for him then...so on tuesday, we were talkng about video games, and i asked him if he wanted to hang out and play video games...he said ok...so i gave aaron a note to give to him, and he did.(they both have art together, and i only did the note cuz they have a different lunch now)...just to confirm our plans tonite...he said that (he wrote back)..that hed call me...he wasnt sure about tonite....i found out that aaron had told him that i liked him....and today in the RP between zac, aaron and i, he completly (aaron did) hurt me...crtized my character...told me taht i needed to stop being depressed and not cry everytime a guy breaks my heart...that i need to get over myself...ha..he evn went as far to say that he was a brother to me..ya no, i thought that he was, but why would he do this to me?....i no that Blue is not going to call me...the strange thing is, i hanvt cried over him....i almost did....at school...but...he told aaron taht he thought i liked him...everythign is jsut going to the ground for me...every other day i want to cry in my english class because i am so afraid that he is going to say that i am a bad writer...and if he does, i think he will....i..i mite just break down...if there is anyone..anyone at all who can lead me out of my highschool depression, please message me....evn zac has turned against me in a way....and aaron (whose rant to me was in responce to the rant i made about him being a total perv...which he jsut said that hed "tone it down"..but..i no hez not....everytime i see Blue i think of chris..and how much i want chris in my reality right now...as far as i no...when it comes to having friends in real life, i stink at it...beacase all they have ever done is hurt me...and if not hurt or backstab me, not even consider my feelings...tell me that i was a poser my sophmore year...tell me..is life and love any better once in college?...i love school this year..and my classes..except for band...im just waiting to see if i can make a difference..and at that same time, always trying to heal my forver broken heart....
forever broken,
amaya..
gettinglostinthemusiof: "You" by Switchfoot
gettinglostinthebookof: "Twilight"

Ok, as you all know, I am desparate to find the song "Bella's Lullaby" in sheet music....i did find this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KK98iKAQ6zA&feature=related
but i cant figure out what notes hez playing cuz of the camera angle...can u?
I got this one too...but its rite, but kindof not relly right...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJhkZvIDiJI&feature=related
Lastly, this one appears to be the best one...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAWOmRIT4LA&feature=related
If anyone can type relly fast to get the notes out...id relly adpreciated it...i relly want to play this...and just cant keep up with typeing the note names.....:P it goes to fast...:P..help! lol..
ttfn! and thnx a bunch!^.^
-amaya

stupid hurricane!...the first day of sch was on monday..but i havnt been in sch since then!...ugh..no sch tomrow either...maybe no sch on friday either..what a way to start out a school year huh?...anywho..im jsut sitting here waiting for christopher to come on...talking with a few friends on xat.com...checking my messages...i couldnt sleep last nite..woke up at 445 and went to moms room...between me, mom, and the cat, we barely had room...lol....mom has to use pillows to support her shoulder...john has no power at his house..and it is a lake infornt of our house..and our pond is overflowing as wel as our pool..its insane..the news says its abtou 30 inches of rain...mmm...sum10 smells good....mom's reheating her prize winning chicken chili...its relly good!.....:)...anywho, ill keep u guys updated...message me if ya wana see how bad our backyard is flooded....
ttfn!
love,
amaya

so the joyous bells of school start to ring again tomrow...oh joy...well, im actually excited for it...i mean, its my last year..and if u saw my journal about my schedule, it looks like a relly fun class schdulde this yr...and i finished that 500-600 word essay!..if u want to no more about what it was about, its int he multi cloured journal below...i wrote for two hours last ntie and its was 515 words..now its 615 words after i typed it! :) ...yups..i loves to write...i guess im only nervous baotu the whole social aspect of school and my english class...i just hope that he likes my writing style... :/ ...so anyways, with school starting, my bed time is 10:00 (yes, i stil have a bed time... :P)...so i wont be able to get on during the weekdays unless my h/w is finished...just so ya no why i havnt been replin to your messages... XD ...i didnt forget you, just trying to pass my senior year...anywho, im hungry...and its 7:05..time for a late dinner soon...anywho...ttfn!..and enjoy school everyone..wow..that was really weird to say...you know what i mean my chickies!..lol...be good...you guys:"yes amaya." lol...i love ya!^.^
ttfn,
amaya

Song im getting lost in? "Bella's Lullaby" by Edward Cullen
Book im in love with? "Twilight"

So, I had my senior pix done yesterday...they look relly good..then i went bowling with zac and aaron...i couldnt stop staring at aaron...i jsut wanted to...jsut go up and hug him...maybe kiss him...but i couldnt...but thats not the worst of what happend...we wur in zac's moms car on the way to zac's house...and were talking about thoose hoodies that have the cat ears on them..and i was saying that i would wear one....aaron says"if you wore sumthing like that, id have to come up to you to ask you if it really was you or not."....and im like"so your saying id look more apealing to you if i wore somthing like that?" aaron:"yeah."...so we move on the convo to seeing this guy ddring at the bowling alley, and two goth girls were with him, watching them...heres what aaron has to say abotu that:"yea, the guy was good, but there were theese two hott goth girls watching him." me:"*coughs*..."i put on makeup for my senior pic, and straightnd my hair, and i never hardly wear makeup!"...(i was trying to act like i was trying to-and i was-to look nice for him too as well as the pix-it didnt wrk)...aaron"im not ready for a gf anyways now..."...oh! more happend...i pointed to my seatbelt cuz he didnt have his on...he said "what abotu you?" thinking i was pointing at myself..i thought he said "i love you". so i said"what?" him"what abot you?" me"huh?"..him"you were pointing to yourself." me"ur seatbelt." him"shhh...."....what do i do?...seriously....so i asked zac when he was wlkn me to my sisters house(the live in the same development), "was it that obvious?".."was what obvious?" "that i still like him?" "well you couldnt stop googlyeying him."..."oh..and he doesnt evn care....does he?"..."idk"...
:(....what do i do....?..hez not bf material at all..but hes soo different around me....:(...and im always ignored! we wur waiting in the short line, and i said to them"guys how many games r we playing?" i had to ask this like 5 times with no answers or acknowledgement...so we get to the desk, "how many games guys?"i asked yet again"oh zac! how many games?!" aaron asks?.."ummm...3."...:O! so im not evn recongized!....what do i do?...

sooooooooooo....i got my schedlue..my LAST h/s schedlue today!!:D..heres how it all ended up:
Period Class
1 Early Childhood 1 (im getting out of this class..they put me in the rong class)...:P
2 AICE English Language
3Alg 2
4 Avid 4
5 Forensic Science 1 (the teacher has apet iguana! its HUGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!)
6Band4 (Wind Ensemble)
7 American GovermentHonors

I wil be taking Art History and/or another type of History class also in the 2nd sem....:)
so..all in all,a good schedulde...first day of sch is on monday..:P...im excited for it i guess...
sorry so short of an entry..gotta get ready for band tonite...thoose earwigs better not be there tonite..O.O.."GET THE BUG SPRAY!!!!!!!!!"O.O...
anywho...
oh! if anyone can find the song "Bella's Lullaby" by Edward Cullen for me, in SHEET MUSIC for the piano, id be sooo happy! that song and also "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl and "My Immortal" by Evanessence...

i love ya guys!!!^.^
-amaya

I am the angel of light...just tell me your problems...your past...your struggles...and i will hold them inside of me...so that you will be free...this is what i do...other people trust me...but thoose who go against me, i loose my trust in...

Aaron and I broke up...it was mutual...he said that he wasnt ready for a gf...I understand, and have noticed...we were just drifting apart...so what am i doing now?...heh...Personal Fitness...I was suposed to wet-vac the porch today, but its raining again...so that leaves me with more wet-vacing to do, but all at once...if im lucky that is...regestration is on tuesday...for some reason im excited...maybe because its my last year...who knows...anyways, idk what else to write...oh...band camp is done!...:)...yay...do i seem depressed to you guys?...heh...who knows...depends on the moment really...and the song...tell me...are you lost yet?...

Listening to: Naked by Avril Lavigne
""I never felt like this before, Im naked around you, does it show? You see right through me and I cant hide. Im
naked around you, and it feels so right""...
Meaning of it: Im invisible.
What do i do about it: didnt you read the opening sentence of this journal post?

love always,
amaya

well...so much of a quizzie aniversary day, no?...yep..today marked my year anniversary of joining quizzie...cheers.....
so why am i sad?...(hense the smiley..erm, sady)...ive been waiting for 2 days for aaron to call me back...but w/e..i see him tomrow at band camp...that sohld be interesting...anywho..i got my hair cut today!!! 4 inches off!!!^.^...it was mid back when straigtnd...now its to my chin!^.^...anywho, i hate to cut this journal short, (no pun intended), but i have band camp tomrow(for the nxt two weeks)...il be able to get on here at different times....maybe in the morning of each day, the afternoon on the breaks, and when i get home at nite...
ttfn...
<3amaya
i love you christopher...

hey!:) hows everyones summer going?...mine has been going good...i still need to get my permit to drive...>.<...and im 17...i relly need to get it before i go off to college...:P...so if your talking to me, and i say im bored, tell me that i shold take the permit test...lol...then id probaly do it...lol...anywho...things here are going good...ive been writing a lot more lately...and have been thinking of my future more and what dreams of mine are possible and what are kinda out of reach for me at the moment...im still working on that english assignment...as a matter of fact, i finished the file folder part, and am now working on the two essays...:P...ive been trying to fill out scholarships(remind me to do thoose too please...)...but im just mainly trying to prepare for this year...its going to be so different...im in the second highest band, harder classes...im in alg2 again...if your good at alg2, please say you are!...anyone!!!...have any of you noticed that i dont space after sentences?...i allways type three periods after it instead...i like odd numbers...and refuse to take only 2 of any thing...i have to take 3...or an odd number...im wierd, i know...but anywho, ill try to post another poem later in the week...pray that our homepages come back b4 school starts...*crosses fingers and toes*...lol...^.^
tttfn and love always,
amaya

i need to just write this out...i have no clue what this feeling is, but i think its love...when your in love, do you listen to one song on repeat for hours at a time?....or constantly cry when you see his picture, because you think he will find some other girl who is far more attractive, or has a better peronality than you, and are notover 2,338 miles away!?!...its so insane....my love for christopher is so immense.....i love him...so much...and its killing me..."Your Guardian Angel"-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus..listen to it...that song iswhat we both feel for each other...theres nothing about him that i do not love....how else can i tell you that i love you my christopher?

ai shite mas-Japanese
Sagapo (greek)
Tiamor(italian)
Jatem(french)
Tekiero(spanish)

An excerpt from the song:
i will never let you fall
ill stand up with you forever
ill be there for you thorough it all
even if saving you sends me to Heaven

i love you...so much my christopher....
......<3amaya........

yup..im sick....:P we think its a cold because the bennydril didnt clear it up...and neither did the other medication i took....:P..i shold be ok by tommorow..hopefully...ill probally go to bed at 1000 tonite...i took a nap at around 430 and mom came to get me up at around 820 or so...im still tired....but i want to be able to sleep tonite, so im waitn up an hr to sleep then......*sighs*...things are going good with me other than that...my new glasses came in, so i think im picking them up tommorow sumtime...:)....
anywho...wow..this is going to be a relly short entry.......blah....lol....
ttfn:)
3amaya

ok...so after church last nite, we decided to go out to dinner at El. Chicos..well....i needed a ride home, so i asked eric if he could take me back home like he usualy does...he said ok, but id have to ask lee because he took eric to the restaurant so eric wouldnt have to waste gas to drive to the restaurant....ok..anywho! we had to go to Sports Autholirt and/or Dicks Sporting Goods to get sum10 for lees dad...so we park at Sports Authority, all troop in, and they dont have it. so we go to Dicks Sporting Goods, and the lights are off except for the security lights inside...i say "i think its closed" and lee says"oh no its not..." and parks the car, and we all go out and see if its open..of course, i was right....*rolls eyes* i said jokingly "lee..when the sign's lights off, and the lights under the sign are off, that means the store is closed..." so we get back into the car, and on the way to chuch..the whole way back, music is BLASTING from the speakers...-.-....an im sitting in the back, all quiet....and we get to the church, and lee says"did u enjoy the music?"...i said"yea!:) thnx lee!"....*rolls eyes*....so i figured it out...boys are from mars...at least some boys are....my boys, aaron and zac...aka we r the three amigos...they are off the planet crazy and lovable....zac is the type of guy you can go shopping with, and he will tell you what looks good and what looks bad on you..he can give u hair tips...:D aaron is the type of guy who u can be moderatly scared of at first, but then as you get to know him, you like him..hez like a big teddy bear...very huggable....oh well....i guess there are different species of guys out there...and i just happend to discover a new one...
<3amaya
ilu christopher!!!

i feel like everything is done for me..all just now..just like that...i got my ACT scores back today..i got a 17...here are what my top 4 colleges want for admissions:

**Flagler: low 500s or higher in the Critical Reading, Math, and Writing sections of the SAT or above 21 in the English, Math, Reading, Science, and English/Writing sections of the ACT.
**Stetson: SAT range of 1030-1240, and middle 50 percent ACT range of 21-26.
**Saint Leo: minimum SAT score of 900 or ACT score of 19.
**Notre Dame: 1350 – 1490 on the SAT I (including Critical Reading and Math sections; excluding Writing section) and 31 – 34 on the ACT.

Its going to be SOOO much more money to go to out of state schools..(which is all of em for me..:P..but the top 3 are where my fam is..and i wanna move to be closer to them..ya no? but notre dame has been my dads dream for me togo there foryears now...all hez concernd abotu is that im in thier marching band)...i DONT want tobe in marhcing band in college...i mean, itd be nice and all..but....no....i want to focus on my college yrs...il still play my trumpet..dont get me wrong....its just that...*sighs*

is there any way for me that i will get into the school i dream to go to?*cries a little*...i no i have time..but this is it...my last yr..:(..i nevr thought id say it, but im gonna miss this place...*weak smile*....

i need you chris...
3amaya

In Chapter 4, John tells us the story of the Samaritan Woman...here is an excerpt from it:
He had to pass through Samaria.So he came to a town of Samaria, near the plot of land that Jacob had given to his son Joseph. Jacob's well was there. Jesus, tired from his jouirney, sat down there at the well. It was about noon. A woman of Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, "Give me a drink". His disciples had gone into the town to buy food. The Samaritan woman said to him, "
How can you, a Jew, ask me, a Samaritan woman, for a drink?" Jesus answerd and said to her, "If you knew the gift of God and who is saying to you, 'Give me a drink,' you would have asked him and he would have given you living water." The woman said to him, "Sir, you do not even have a bucket and the cistern is deep; where then can you get this living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us this cistern and drank from it himself with his children and his flocks?" Jesus answerd and said to her, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again; but whoever drinks the water I shall give will never thirst; the water I shall give will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." The woman siad to him, "Sir, give me this water, so that I may not be thirsty or have to keep coming here to draw water." Jesus said to her, "Go call your husband and come back." The woman answerd and said to him, "I do not have a husband." Jesus answered her, "You are right in saying, "'I do not have a husband'"For you have had five husbands, and the one you have now is not your husband. What you have said is true." The woman said to him, "Sir, I can see that you are a prophet. Our ansestors worshiped on this mountain, but ou people say that the place to worship is in Jerusalem." Jesus said to her, "Believe me, woman, the hor is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. You people worships what you do not understand; we worship what we understand, because salvation is from the Jews. But hte hour is coming, and is now here, when true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and truth; and indeed the Father seeks such people to worship him. God is spirit, and thoose who worship him must worship in Spirit and truth." The woman said to him, "I know that the MEssiah is coming, the one called the Annoited; when he comes, he will tell us everything." Jesus said to her, :I am he, the onw who is speaking with you." The woman then left her water jar, and went into the town and said to the people, "Come see a man who told me everyhting I have done. Could he possibly be the Messiah?"

Now why did I take 15 mins to type this all out? Im teaching my love Chris my Catholic faith...and I relly like this story...
what do you guys think is the message of it?
comment!!!
<3amaya
P.S. fastweb.com i found oodles of scholarships from them!!:D

As my Senior year of highschool begins to start, I realize that i have a lot of things on my plate that I still have to acheive. I got my report card the other day, and it did not come to me that because I recieved a failing grade on both my Economics and Algerbra 2 exams, and recived a C and D in the classes respectivley, I have a good chance of not getting into the college I dream of attending. Unless I somehow recive a scholarship that is in the thousands range of price, unless I win a contest-essay, poetry, or both-, unless I magicaly come up with $40,000 for at least one yr at the school, and $600,000 for all four years of schooling-not to mention getting accepted to attend there!-I have no chance of fullfilling my educational dream. Oh, and did i mention that the application to the school is due by the first part of January?

Moving on to the present day, Im in a class called AICE Language this year. I am trying to complete the summer assignment which involves me creating four files headed Current Events, History, Popular Culture, and The Arts. I have to choose an area of intrest under each, and find articles, essays, editorials and personal narritives that give a variety of perspectives (loca, national, and international) on that topic. And, I also have to list books (fiction and non-fiction) and works of art that can be used to add further insight into my chosen topic. WOW! I know..a lot of work...but thats not all my friends! I have to read an extract from one of FDR's speeches and then write a 120-150 word opening to a speech in which I try to persuade an audience that a particularly difficult situation can be overcome. But there is still more that I have to do. In addition to all of this, I have to compare the style and language of my piece with those of the orginal extract from FDRs speech. This has to be from 500-600 words in length.

As for the present moment, I have to go and clean the kitchen. Zac is coming over today...bonding time!! He is like a brother to me...he knows everything that you guys know about me...basicaly, everything. :)

Forever searching for contests and scholarships,
yours truly,
<3amaya

i thought i was over him.....i really did....but why am i seeing him everywhere? releasing the pain i feel upon myself?....ya...mom knows....dont worry about that....and now aaron knows....we got ice cream..and as he was finishing his, he kissed me...and i couldnt kiss him back....i jsut broke down in tears..showed him the scars....."dont do that again" he said....so then i told him a little bit..not the worst parts about my past.....hes concrnd....but didnt kiss away my pain...."i wnat to be with you for a while" he said...."im not gonna kil myself..." i told him...and thats true...i want to live....i just dont know how else to realase my pain....my poetry...oh i no i can do that there....and i will...tonite.............
i have a lot of things to sort out with myself...and also with God...*listens to Everything by Lifehouse*..i really have a purpose...dont i?....*cries*..its tiem to tell him what happend last yr....and also tell him why i need time...its so fast....i need something more slower....liek a little kid learning to ride a bike for the first time....he never gets riding with his toush up or evn riding for that matter the first day he learns to ride...does he? i think not.
i have my good days and my bad days....let this just be a view for you all on one of my bad days....you havnt seen me like this, i no...and i thank thoose who love me and have kept me strong.
especially with thier love.
I LOVE YOU CHRISTOPHER-never let me go.
*kisses chris and holds*
ttfn,
amaya

ugh....yep...its like the smiley says above...im sick....i have a slight cold, and am congested..and right now for sum reason, whenever i swallow, the entire left side of my head and ear hurt..:P i took 2 tylonal at about 830, so i hope that this clears up b4 i go to bed in about an hour tonite...yay! i just downloaded itunes....:D i have an itunes card that ive had for AGES now, and im gonna use it!:D lol..:D...i hope you all are having a good nite.....i relly want to write something...but idk what i should write about...ok..i no what i want to write, i just dont have the time relly to write it out...:P...any suggestions?....gosh...when are the quizzie homepages coming out? im *dying* to customize! lol....so i took the ACT today.....wow...the Science section was really hard....but the reading was relly easy! and so was the math..(in some areas...i think i got >10 wrong out of the 70 of them....there were either 70 or 40 on it..i dont remember).....so where was i for a whole week? lol...its called Catholic Heart Work Camp....its awsome! lol...check out their link! http://heartworkcamp.com/index.html and check out the musician link to the left hand side of the screen....listen to Dante....hez not only cute, but has an amazing voice! lol...i met a lot of people....the one person whom i met that relly got me laughing was this sophmore named Paul from South Carolina...i was playing vollyball with my church friends Amelia and Bobby, and he walks up....so i invited him to play, and since im not at all a pro at vollyball, (ive only caught it like maybe 2 times if at any), he complimented me on evy throw of it to him....lol..>.<...so i asked him after the game if we could exchange email, so we did...and after i guessed that he was a sophmore, he thought i was an 8th grader...lol...so im like "no....im a senior in highschool" and he said "omg! u are?! well, look at it this way, when you are 40, people will think that you are 20 because you look so young" O.O....lol....well now...i guess i look younger than i appear to be...lol...im gonna turn in for the night soon....evn though its only and hr to my bedtime....im tired...ive been up at 615 evry morning since last monday.....and to bed at 1130 since then too..O.O...
lots of love,
<3amaya
oh yea..this is for you chris:
i love you..
cant ever leave you
but im scared...
scared of tommrow..
scared of today..
scared of not knowing what lies in my way
but i have you..
and your all i need..
you are my prince..
in a shining cloak, and a chariming stead..

wow....i havnt posted a journal in *ages*...lol....so...wutz new? heh....n2m...on summer break...."woohooo!"...lol...and im dating my best friend.....ooo..big shocker there....we have been freinds this yr and at the jazz concert, were passin notes on my cell phone, and it just came out frum both of us....zac is ok with it...lol...hez funny about it actually....they both came over to go swimming on the last day of sch (tuesday, the 3rd of June), and stayed until 8pm to play on the wii and eat pizza...it was relly fun...aaron is a great guy....and im so glad that me and him are goood friends as well as a couple....itll be a month for us this coming saturday..but he will be at a boy scouts camping trip in north carolina.....oh well..i guess im most sad that we will be away frum each other for 2 whole weeks...:( you guys know what that means, dont u? yep..u guessed it....i wont be able to get on here for about a week....:P i havnt evn started to pack yet...lol...an there are clothes and toiletries all over my bed....an its 800pm now, and im watchin "so you think you can dance" at 9, so i can fastfoward all of the commercials....dvr is a wonderful thing isnt it? lol...

as for my sweet, and lovable christopher, we are still happily together and little by little talk about our dreams of a wedding....when i first told him about aaron....gosh i thought hed leave me....but although he is not happy happy joy joy about it, hez slowly starting to accept it i think....this nxt couple of weeks will be hard on chris and i too...hez in college now.....(hez a junior, but is takin college courses during the summer)....who knows when he will be on quizzie....:/*sighs*...

whats else is new with me? n2m..lol..same as b4...reading mcr stories....mainly by brokenheartsandpopsicles: http://www.quizilla.com/user/brokenheartsandpopsicles/profile/you guys HAVE to check out her mcr love stories..and her ninja turtle ones too! lol...:D ugh....ill be a senior this yr....an am takin a college level english course...help! lol....anywho, i could just type the night away on this journal....the mystery of why i wont be on for a week will be solved once i get on again! lol..youll just have to wait and see my luvlies!XD
Chris drew this for me a while back...XD betcha cant guess which one i am..lol....its kinda obvious..lol....
ttfn
<3 allways,
amaya
P.S. ACK! i wrote in pink! lol...