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March 3, 2008

Lets see how long this lasts....

I can't remember the last time i started to write a "journal" as it were, in fact i've been visiting Quizilla for YEARS now and i've only just got up off my arse long enough to actually sign up and write something!!!!.....shocking i know..

Im not sure if anyone will actually bother to read this, meaning i am talking into the void, but hey-ho.

The main reason im even here writing this now is i've come to somewhat of a crossroads, and i've almost re-awakened my lvoe of writing and English in general, it was actually my best subject when i was school, i got the best marks in it and was encouraged to take it further, of course my response was a resounding "HELL NO" and i went off to study Animal Science instead, whch i thoroughly enjoyed and led me to work as a Night Nurse in a 24 hour emergency Vertinary Practice.

Thats where the trouble started, i don't know whether it was the year and a half of sleep deprevation that did it, or that face that my Head Nurse was the biggest bitch alive and just looking at her made me want to knock her out, but i started to question what is was that i really wanted, where do i fit in, where do i wanna be..blah blah blah!!

Don't get me wrong, working there was amazing, i saw and did so many different things that im proud of, it was what i wanted to do at the time, but with any job, the frustration came thick and fast....basically most people in this world should be allowed to own animals, either that or they mean well but simply can't look after them properly.

So in the end i left, now im at a job which i refer to as my "in between" job, basically i don't know what the hell i want to do with my life, i have no plan, no clue, zip, zilch, nada. I struggle with making decisions at the best of times...so you imagine what the impending life choices are doing to me.

I've always felt i've been "average" at everything, i don't feel there is a particular thing that i am really, really good at, most people seem to have that, my boyfriend, for example, is a real little computer whizz kid, give him a computer and off he goes, so much so that now at 25 he's just finishing his honors degree and off to the exciting world of Networking (i assume its exciting by the way he talkl about it). I can see it all around in my family in friends, their talents and strengths, yet none for myself.

So in a rather long winded and roundabout way thats how i can to write this entry and the stories etc that are on my profile, a creative outlet if you will. If you have taken the time to read this, then thankyou and i would gladly read yours or anything else you want to throw my way. let em know because there are some seriously talented people writing on here, and that comng form one serious (and fussy) book worm :).

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