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June 8, 2008

June 8th, 5:00 p.m.

June sucks so far. I stopped taking my guitar lessons on the first, andI broke down crying like a little baby. I wrote a letter to Brian (the teacher) and I told him "Don't read this untilI walk out the doors." BecauseI knew that if he read it whileI was standing thereI would have broken down. Here's the letter:

We are creatures of habit. When something changes our life gets turned upside-down. As for me, I am no different.

I have been taking guitar lessons for a year and a half and tomorrow, they will cease to exist in my life anymore. This will be the last lesson I ever take, once I step out of the doors that’s it. I may take guitar lessons again, but for now that is all.

Knowledge is precious; it is one thing that no one can take away from you. For eighteen months my knowledge has grown. I have learned to live and love music. Now I listen to what we nowadays call "music" and it’s a disgrace.

Sure there are some musicians now who create great music, but nothing like Beethoven and Bach. Great musicals, masterpieces that will be remembered for ages to come.

I am writing this because I am sad. I am sad that when I look at my guitar and remember all the good times I can laugh and say "Hey do you remember-" but they won’t remember.

There are things that only certain people will understand. As for my guitar teacher, the person I call friend, we have a bond that nobody can understand. It is not only about the lessons for my guitar that he has taught me, but about the life lessons he has taught me as well.

Never back down, never give up, don’t let anybody tell you what you can and can not be. We have shared so many stories, jokes, and the occasional tear (by me). All my life I have been looked down upon, people sneering at me, pointing and laughing, but now that has all changed, all thanks to you. Brian, you will never know how much you mean to me. You are the person who gave me strength to pursue my dreams, the person whose little pep talks inspired me beyond belief. Brian you are a God-sent and He is still doing wonders with you; I know that he sent you to me purposely.

"There is no such thing as goodbye. In Hebrew there are two words for goodbye, one meaning I will see you again, the other meaning goodbye forever." A quote from the tenth grade bible doctrines teacher. This is not goodbye, this is "I will see you again."

Romans 8:28, And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who's been called according to his purpose.

With love from the God above

*Sigh* so there's that. Tomorrow starts a new day for me;I start my drivers education courses. From 6 in the morning to God knows when in the afternoon. I'm kind of nervous, but not for the reasons you may think, "Oh I'm SOOOOOO excited that I will be free of my parents!" it's not that. I don't bond well with people my own age, at all costs I try to avoid them (except for Rei, Skye, Keki, Boss, and Emilee).

Lets see... Today Skye went with me to my church picnic. We had the police force, ambulances, and firefighters and all kinds of jupiter jumps. Our pastor when up eighty foot in the air, and it was pretty windy lol.

WellI guess that's all i have to go to bed in about 3 hours so I can get up early. Night!

-Flair

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