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March 2, 2008

My Ex wrote a poem about me. . . Sorry if I laugh

Now, I need you to read this. This is the poem that I just found out was about me. . .
By Daymond. . .
Yeah. . .
It's awkward to say the least. . .

written April 2007
Hold your breath for as long as you can or UNtil you finish the poem, and you'll begin to grasp how i feel
Un-requited, UN-expressable, UN-returned love
UN-intelligable, UN-excited, UN-relenting
UN-understanding of love, of life,of anything
UN-touchable,
standing right next to me but can't touch like i have no appendages,
like i'm UNable to move with my own free will
jailed in, locked up, imprisoned, blocked in, bound, caged, confined, enslaved, ensnared, imprisoned, in custody, incarcerated, locked up, penned, restricted, subjugated, UN-free
a constant hurt, UN-affected by affection
wishing for a look, a touch, a kiss,
wishing for more than what i have
more than what is
dreams of:
stolen kisses
stolen carresses
nervous glances taken and run with
waking up seeing things in a new light
an impossibility
like Prometheus being chained to the rock
in an endless world of pain and regret
but back to the real and not the metaphors
i've tried to prove my worth and to no avail
shut down at every turn
and yet i keep trying
hoping to break through
to smash down the walls
to shine in the over oppressing UNknown
a classic Underachiever
attempting to UNdo what had been done and re-done
UNrivaled in your ways of expression
UNgiving in your expression of self
UN-believing in the endless professions of love
UNable to breath near you
my heart beats UNcontrolably fast
my last wish is always UN-stated
my hopes UN-satiated
and i sit here, and under achiever, attempting to over achieve
to do what seems the impossible to me.
when i know in reality who has been a success at this
doing what i have been UNable to do
proving his worth where i can't
unrivaled in my success at failing you
i've grown aware that i'm not the one
so i'm un-wishing my wish
taking a step back
and slipping into the UN-intelligable, UNtouchable UNknown



So, I'm going to make couple of notes:
1. He cheated on me. Multiple times
2. We kept it a secret because he was known for his ahem, activities before we got togehter
3. I had to deal with interrogetions from both his and my friends, wondering why I would deal with him
4. He was a jerk
5. He sucked at foreplay
6. I had to deal with girls all over him. ..  in my face
7. I literally devoted 3 out of four years of my highschool career to him.

We officially were like it will never happen again in late september 06. So why is he catching remorse 7 months later? Idiot. I'm over you Sorry if you're not

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