Maryland's Where The Heartbreakers Go [Alex Gaskarth] {Chap Thirteen} (Sequel To WCDTB)

Alex POV

I felt like an ass more than an ass. I felt like a dick that used someone which I shouldn’t have but I did. I felt like I used Riley for kisses and pleasurable things when I wanted way more than that. I chose Brittany because she threatened to tell Matt and I knew it would make thing hell for Riley.

Matt is how Riley is even on the tour, how she has a job, how she has a place to live, just plain how lots of things work out for her. I understood all that and I did what I didn’t want to do go back with Brittany.

I was walking inside warped the day after it all happened by myself before the doors opened when I saw a crowd of what little girls were on the tour around the From First To Last booth giggling. I saw the heads of Vicky-T, Hayley, Katy, Casidee, and Greta they were all giggling and making noises like they were gossiping about something good. I followed the noise and walked up to the booth to see a hand thrust out I couldn’t see whose hand though. The hand had a ring of some sort on it, it looked like an engagement ring.

“Its so pretty when did he propose?” Vicky asked

“Last night” Riley’s voice said.

My heart sunk. Rileys voice said last night. She was getting married? What happened in a mere twenty four hours. Riley got married to Matt I mean there was no one else she could get married to. I pushed Greta out of the way showing her a smile. Riley saw my face and her smile fell into a frown.

“Hey Riley” I said semi quietly “Whats this?” I took her hand into mine and felt the stone over and over on top of the tips of my finger tips. She pulled her hands back quickly and looked at the ground.

“Matt and I are engaged” she said smiling “I’m soon to be Mrs. Good”

Hayley bumped her hip into mine “Isnt that sweet Alex?”

“Yeah yeah really sweet” my eyes locked with Rileys and I was sure she could read my mind just by looking into my eyes a simple look my way with her could do that and somehow I liked it. She looked over at Vicky-T who was fawning over the ring and went into conversation about how Matt proposed. I thought I was going to throw up.

I saw Matt walking this way and I knew I should walk away but I didn’t I stayed and acted like I was fawning over the ring just like everyone else was. It was funny how he didn’t see me the only male there at first. He walked up to Riley and kissed her
deeply in front of everyone making all the girls oh and ah. He then sat next to her in the chair that wasn’t occupied and looped his fingers through hers.

“Hey bro” Matt said nodding towards me “Whats up?”

I shook my hair all over along with my head “Nothing I hear your officially a taken man” I forced a smile.

“Yeah I found the girl for me” he said then took Rileys hand and kissed it.

“You guys are so cute” Casidee said “I mean it really is so cute”

“Thanks” Riley said shyly.

Watching the two of them tore me up. It made me want to talk to Matt and hope he’d understand that really I wanted her so much more than him, I’d known her longer too. Something about her made me tick, something about her she seemed to get me inside and out even when I was down and that made me happy.

I fucked up a year ago I knew it there was nothing I could do to take it back. There was nothing I could do to say sorry and make everything all better or wave a magic wand as much as I wanted to. I tried calling her multiple times after she left on the last day of tour, she never answered. She moved soon after and everything changed.

I got with Brittany, Zack and Emma got engaged, Riley wouldn’t pick up anyone of their calls making it harder to get in contact with her day by day. No one really knew where she went either.

“So Riles we have to go do sound check and the doors don’t open for another hour and a half but after I’m all yours.” Matt said getting up and kissing her forehead and cheek. She smiled and kissed his lips quickly.

“Kay babe I’ll be here”

He walked away and the girls told her they had to go too. I had just sound checked and could spend all day here if I wanted since we went last. I looked up at her and she looked up at me giving me a sorrowful look trying not to give me what looked like a dirty look.

“What can I do for you Alex?” she asked crossing her arms over her chest the ring glinted in the light. More than anything I wanted to throw the ring off her finger and bury it under all the dirt in the ground and then stomp on it like an immature five year old. But honestly that wouldn’t be proving any point.
“Why did you say yes?” I asked

“Because you don’t want me, no one else does I don’t want to be eightly with gray hair and have no one to love me. Because Matt does love me and I love him on some level and so I may not love him on the level of having kids with the picket fence but really” she rolled her eyes

I got angry “But Riley that’s what marriage is about the picket fence kids it means forever!”

“Alex how about you shut up and mind your own business!” she replied yelling.

“You are my business!” I replied getting quieter “Riley I love you”

“Utter and complete bullshit” she spat back at me. I went to take her hand in mine and she pulled it back away from mine hard and shot me a glare and put her hand on her lap. I looked her trying to make my eyes soft trying to make myself look like I wasn’t about to go and find Matt and beat him.

“Riley it is not” I hopped over the table and then crouched down so I was eye leve with her. She looked like she was fighting back tears. It made me feel like the biggest piece of shit ever and like I shouldn’t be here now.

“Alex don’t do this to me now” she said tears starting to roll down her face. I wanted kiss them away. I wanted to be the one marrying her, I wanted to be the one having the chance to have the kids and the white picket fence. I never could see myself doing it but somehow when you feel the one person being torn away from you its like you have to fight for it because you know someone got that chance before you.

“I’m not doing anything” I replied “I’ve wanted you since I saw you. You know what go get married but I don’t think your heart will be in it at all” I looked at her face and tried to direct it to look at mine. It didn’t work as she fought her way to look at anything but me. Finally I brought both my hands up and put her head so it was directly looking at me “Riley don’t say you don’t want me I know you do”

Tears were streaking down her face even though I knew she should be happy. She should be happy she was getting married. “Alex don’t tell me this now your way too little too late”

I got up to walk away because it was evident she no longer wanted me there, it was evident she no longer wanted anything to do with me other than to tell me she hated me, it was evident that as much as I would give it all up right now and marry her in vegas if she would give me the chance she didn’t want it.

As I got up to walk away she pulled me back down and pushed her forehead into mine “I don’t get you Alex I never will you never want someone when they want you but as soon as they find someone else you want them! I mean GOD DAMN!” she pushed the chair away and stood up. I followed and stood up from the ground. I was taller than her and I towered over her.

“Riley I’ve wanted you since day one I was just too much of a pussy to tell you” he paused and took a breath “I didn’t know how to say it or even what actions to take”

She stepped towards me “You big dumb FUCK!” she exclaimed “You could have said anything along the lines of I like you and I was yours! YOUR TOO LATE! Matt got here first” she pounded her fist against my chest hard as she could but it barely hurt because she was crying while doing so.

I pulled her into my chest and let her cry there for all of two seconds before she pulled away and balled her hands into fists digging what little nails she had into the palms of her hands. “Alex I feel like I’m trapped in that fucking ten things I hate about you poem and I hate everything about it” she rolled her eyes and wiped under her eyes. “I hate everything about you but in the end I hate the fact I don’t hate you not even a little bit not even AT ALL”

I walked up to her and pressed my lips to hers quickly and hard and tried to snake my tongue into her mouth. I failed quickly because she pulled away swiftly and slapped me across the face like the night when she poured beer on me.

“Alex don’t think I’ll be putty in your hands so easy this ring means something” she said then stomped off leaving me to my thoughts of what the fuck I did when I choose Brittany when I meant Riley all along.