HAYLEYS POV
My breath caught when he touched his hand to mine, pressing it against his cheek. I swallowed hard, and waited for him to speak.
“Hayley....I’m falling in love with you.”
My eyes flew wide and I stopped breathing. I felt my pulse quickening as my hand fell limply from his face, his hand lamely holding it still against his jaw. My mouth grew dry and I felt like I was gagging.
My jaw fell slack, hanging open weakly.
“wha-…what?”
His eyes turned down and he took a deep breath.
“I’m in love with you.”
An electric current pulsed through my body. I felt it extra sharp a few inches below my belly button. My heart raced, the blood pumping hard through my veins.
He slowly looked up with his big, sad, chocolate eyes. My chest heaved heavily, trying to breath.
That was the last thing I thought he was going to say. Infact, I had never even imagined that he was able to feel that way about me.
My head began to hurt, in a swirl of alcohol, confusion, and shock. I couldn’t even think of anything to say back. The momentary clearness of my thoughts quickly began to dissolve as I tried to think. As I tried to feel...
“I know. I know this was probably really really incredibly stupid of me to tell you. Im sorry to just spring this on you, at a party no less. But I just feel so strongly about you. Youre amazing, you know that? Simply amazing. Youre beautiful and…and..smart and clever and I have so much fun around you…I just…I had to tell you. I couldn’t stop at you not knowing. That would be the worst. And seeing you…with all of these other guys…It’s just…I'm a fool for you and I think I'm going crazy. I can't control myself or contain my thoughts…It's eating me up insi-“
I leaned in quickly and cut him off.
I was drunk.
I was so drunk.
And it was beginning to hit me fast.
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Caleb’s POV
I could taste the alcohol from the moment her lips crashed onto mine.
I kissed back immediately, but stopped once I realized that she was drunk, I pulled away. You see I didn't think it would be
right, so I said
“Let's save this for some other night.”
And she said
"No, no, no! I know that everything is gonna be just fine."
How could I do this when I want her to be all mine? She looked at me with her big green eyes, questioning what I was doing.
“I cant do this. You’re totally drunk. I know you don't care about me, I'm sure when all is said and done. And then tonight I’ll go home feeling lonely, but you will have had your fun because you wont even remember!”
“No I will remember! I know what I’m doing! Just kiss me!” She pulled me to her, but I leaned back. “Caleb.” She whispered my named, placing her hands on my chest.
I felt a jolt of want run through me, but I had to ignore it.
“Hayley…I cant let you do this unless you are sure you want to. And youre drunk so your judgement is off. I cant let you kiss me if you don’t like me like I do. If you wouldn’t when you were sober.”
“Caleb, I do though. I feel like you do. I love you.”
I got up from where I was sitting on the bed, turning towards the bedroom door. Hayley grabbed my wrist and tugged me back.
“Please don’t leave.”
I yanked my wrist out of her grasp softly. I faced the closed door and sighed.
“Please Caleb.” I could hear the tears in her voice, and instantly I felt horrible.
I turned back around and sat across from her on the bed again.
“Hayley…I cant do this. Im not going to be that guy who takes advantage of a drunk girl.”
“I promise you this is what I want.” She said as she leaned into me again.
She kissed me so intensly that I just couldn’t argue. We continued to kiss, her hands tangeling up in my hair.
Soon she was pulling at the hem of my shirt, lifting it over my head. I was hesitant, especially when she pulled me down ontop of her as she fell onto her back on the bed.
We kept kissing, becoming more and more desperate, full of passion. I knew I should have stopped but I couldn’t. I had wanted this for too long. I had waited for too long.
But I had to behave.
I couldn’t go to far because I had to stay in control of the situation.
I had to keep level thoughts…
And then everything changed.
Hayley moaned my name, moving her hips harder into mine as she did so.
And right then I couldn’t control myself as she put her hands on my belt buckle, and I lifted off her shirt.
I had lost myself in pure lust and passion.
And if I would’ve known the immense pain and problems and epic drama this would have caused?
I would have tried to stop myself.
But even then I doubt Id be able to pull myself away from her..
