Stain my rose {Bill Kaulitz} With scarlet tears (chapter 1:New friends and old enimies)

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Sam's POV

The worst day of my life, officially. Hours of long, painful labour and I never got to see my daughter. I never even heard her cry, she ws just... Taken from me. I know it was to save her, but I just needed to see her with my own eyes, I wanted her to know that I loved her. It killed me to be so helpless, I wanted to be the first one to hold her, but it seemed like I'll never be able to do that. I hated every secod of this, these last seven months have beenhell.The worst part is that Bill doesn't know her at all, she knew her uncle better than her father. I started to cry as Bianca squeezed my hand. I was lucky to have a friend like her, she was with me through this whole experience.

"Sam, she's beautiful..." Bianca whispered. I was confused at first, but then I realized that she could've seen her. "Everything's going to be fine, if your daughter is anything like you, then she's a fighter." I nodded. I knew Bianca was trying to help, but she only made me worry more. "Have you heard anything from Tom?" I asked quietly. I knew that was a stupid question since Bianca hasn't left my side since she got here, but I needed to know if he was still here, breathing. She shook her head, sitting down on my bed. "I wish I did Sam, I really do-" "Then go, please. I really need to know..." I begged weakly, letting go of her hand. I closed my eyes to keep my tears from escaping. I was shaking,I was scared, I was empty. "Please Bianca, you know Bill is my everything, I can't stand not knowing..."

She looked at me with pity then nodded. She started to stand up, but gave me one last tight hug before she left me. I watched her until I couldn't see her slim figure anymore. This is not what I wanted right now, I couldn't be alone. I wanted to be with my husband, with my baby, anywhere. I needed to be with my family, the people who really need me right now, the people who I need right now. I grabbed at my blonde hair, which was tied in a messy ponytail behind my head, then started chewing on my nails. There was nothing else I could do, but they had to save my baby. My nervous breakdown was approaching, I needed to think of a way to keep my family together. If I had to spend another second in this bed, so helpless, I might just go insane.

Tom's POV

"Tom, please! I'm fine, just let me see my wife!" My brother pleaded in a weak voice. I wanted to hit him so bad right now, we both knew he was weak and tired, but I understood that he had to support his wife and children. "No, Bill. We need to have a doctor check you out because I know you're not okay." I looked down at Bill's pale, desperate face, I just wished I could do more for him. "Everything is going to be fine, with you, Sam, your daughter..."
As I looked down, a glint of happiness appeared on Bill's face. He smiled and looked me in the eye. "M- My daughter?" He asked, his voice cracking. "Yeah, I guess I forgot you didn't know. You're having another baby girl Bill." I said, smiling too.

The smile dissapeared as soon as it came though, mine and Bill's. He grabbed my hand and dug his nails into me. "She's my daughter, and I- I've never seen her... I haven't been there for any of them..." Because you were in a coma! It's not your fault Bill." He closed his eyes, warm tears running down his, still cold, cheeks. "But it feels like it..." He mumbled. I opened my mouth to tell him that I don't care if he was in a coma for seven and a half months, he still annoys the shit out of me, but the door opened. I expected it to be he doctor, but the person I saw was not. Bianca walked into the room nervously, staring at me the entire time. I suppose she was to afraid to look at Bill, scared of what she might see.

I laughed as she turned away from the bed Bill was on. "You can look now." I commented. She shot me a death glare before looking at Bill. At first she smiled, then she started to squeal. "Bill, I can't believe it! You're awake! Sam is going to be so happy, how are you feeling?" She asked, smiling wider than I've ever seen. "I'm fine, but Tom won't believe me." He said childishly, "but how is Sam?" Bianca looked at the floor akwardly, picking at her nails. "Um, she's taking everything pretty hard right now... But she's a fighter, she just really wanted to know if Bill was okay." I was on the edge of my seat to get any new at all, bu since she didn't say anything more, I aksed the question Bill and I longed to know the answer for.

"And the baby? Is she okay?" I asked quickly. She looked down again, I could tell she was still nervous. "We don't really-" I never heard the rest of the sentece, for the door slammed open one more time, and this time, it was the doctor. She smiled at Bill as soon as she saw him. "Well I'm glad to see that you're awake. How are you feeling?" I heard Bil sigh in annoyance, he has been asked that question a million times. "I'm okay, really. I'm a little tired and I've got a headache, that's all." He replied shortly. I looked at Bill and wondered how someone can just wake up from a coma and be almost back to normal, I've seen the shows, this doesnt usually happen.

"Um, excuse me doctor, but can you just... Explain what happened. I mean, is it possible for Bill to have any kind of brain damage or anything?" I asked worriedly. Bill shot me a glare, but I pretended that I didn't see it. She smiled and sat down on Bill's bed, looking at me now. She looked very friendly from what I could see in her features. She always had a friendly smile on her face and kindness in her eyes, and she looked very young, if it waqsn't for the grey streaks in her blonde hair, I would've thought she was in her 30's.

"Well, as studies have proven, short comas are more likely the cause permanent brain damage, ones that last between 5 and 6 weeks. Those are also the ones who's chances are slimmer of making a full recovery. But Bill on the other hand, has exceeded all expectations we had for him. When most people wake up from a coma, it only lasts for a few minutes, then slip back into one. Though I don't see that happening to Bill..." I smiled at the news. "So, he's going to be fine, right?" The doctor nodded. "From what I can see, yes." "So, when can I get out of this bed? Because I really really need to see my wife right now." His voice sounded desperate, but I know he only added the part about Sam to get a lillte simpathy if it was against the rules.

"Well Bill, you've made an amazingly quick recovery and I still don't understand it. But I know you really need you to stay in bed now, you need to rest." "But all I've been doing for almost eight months in lay on that stupid bed, please, just let me see my family!" Bill was shaking as he pleaded, I know I would've done the same thing. I hated seeing my brother like this, all I wanted was for him to be happy once again, so I knew I needed to step in and try my luck. "Please, just five minutes. Bill can handle that, I mean, he doesn't have to stand up or anything. This would really mean the world to Bill and I..." I was begging, and I didn't care, I really wanted this. We had to know what was going on with Bill and Sam's daughter. The doctor was frowning, but I could see she was considering it. She looked from me, to Bill, then down at the watch on her arm. She smiled and looked back at me.

"Okay, but only five minutes, nothing more. But you really have to be careful and since I'm not going to let you stand, I'm going to have someone get you a wheelchair." She said. Bianca and I hopped out of our chairs as I started thanking the doctor. I just hoped everything's allright when wesee them.

Bianca's POV

My mind was with Sam as Tom and I helped Bill into a wheelchair. I was relieved that Bill was okay, it was amazing that he was awake again and I knew Sam was going to be happy about it. But still, we didn't know what's going on with the baby, we didn't know if she was going to live. I mean, she can hardly breathe.We took our time walking to the ward Sam was in, I could feel the anxiety in the air. It felt like we were walking in slow motion as we walked down the white halls. Children were running past us, grandparents following, we walked past rooms with sleeping patients, we heard soft crying coming from a few rooms, but we didn't stop once.

The doors of the Intensive Care Unit were closed, but we could enter. Before we did, Tom, Bill and I stared at eachother. I was the first to look away, biting my lip, I turned and pushed the doors open. We walked in slowly, while Tom was pushing Bill, I knew he was scared shitless by the looks of it. In the ward, we saw an incubator. There was no one around it now, which I found weird, but I did see alot of wires, but a steady heartbeat too. We looked at her without any form of movemnt, I remembered when I saw Lucy the day she was born, she wasn't this small. It broke my heart to see her shake as she struggled to take a breath. There were tears in my eyes because I didn't think it was fair. We couldn't reach for her, or touch her.

"So this is my daughter..." Bill whispered, placing a hand on the glass. There was a long silence where we just stared at the baby, until Bill spoke again. "If I could trade places with her right now, I would. I just wish I could let her know how much I love her..." I placed my hand on his as he looked up. "She do-" "B- B- Bill?" Someone whimpered, only loud enough for me to hear. The three of us looked up when we heard a familliar voice and before we knew it, Tom and I rushed to her for she looked like she was about to lose her balance. "Sam, what are you doing here?" I whispered as she closed her eyes. We basically dragged Sam to a chair, the one closest to Bill. It seemed like the drugs the doctors gave her hasn't worn off yet, she seemed delirious.

"Sam, you shouldn't be here." I whispered. I watched her clutch her stomach, a look of pain on her face. "I- I needed to-" She stopped and clenched her teeth in pain, "I needed to see my daughter..." I kept quiet after that, I had nothing to say because I knew if it was me, I would've done the same. It seemed like Sam was wise beyond her years, like she's had so much pain to deal with in her life... And she did. When she opened her eyes again, she looked straight at Bill and didn't look away. "Bill... I'm sorry, for everything..." She mumbled, "It's all my fault..." Bill took her hand and placed it on his heart. As I looked at the two of them, I knew it was love. Even in tough times, they had their love to pull them through it.

"Sam, it's over now. We're still here, we're together, and once this is over... We'll be stronger than ever. I love you, and I always will." He said and it made me wish that I had a husband like that. He was so sweet. Sam attempted to smile, but failed as she looked at her daughter in the incubator. "It isn't supposed to be this way..." She shook her head, looking down at her beautiful daughter, her hand still in Bill's. I watched the family as they tried to deal with this, then all I could see was Sam's eyes go wide.
"Wait a minute... Why isn't she breathing?"