All Around Me (Song Fic) Lawliet

Sometimes I feel so cold.
Like I'm waiting around all by myself.

I took a seat next to the window in a small cafe' downtown.
It was the first place he took me...
Matt.

Loneliness gets so old.
I'm in the lost and found,
Sitting on the shelf.

I looked over at the exact place we sat.
I remember us laughing together,
Talking about how much we hated that American singer,
Hannah Montana.
I chuckled at the memory.
It's so lonely here...
Without him.

Been stuck for way too long.
I hear your voice.
You're who I'm counting on.

I've been staying in this town for a while.
Too long for my liking,
I just...
Can't seem to leave him.
Though he seems to havealready left me.

Oh, tell me you're here.
That you will watch over me.
Forever.

"Don't worry... I'm here."
Matt?
What... how?

Oh, take hold of my heart.
Show me you'll love me.
Forever.
Forever.

I felt my heartbeat grow faster.
It can't be him.
No, I saw him die with my own eyes.
The blood...
the pain...
the suffering...

I know that you can tell.
When I start to let my hope fade away.

"I'm only allowed to speak for so long."
My breath was hitched in my throat.
"I want you to leave, go out.
Get out of this town.
This country even."
I nodded, knowing he was watching me.
I could tell he was smiling when he said this...
"Go to a Hannah Montana concert.
Have yourself a good laugh.
Just one thing though."
I wiped my cheeks from the tears that stained them.
"Don't lose your hope."

I need to catch myself.
Open my ears to hear you calling my name.

"Please, Alexis."
I wouldn't answer him.
"Alexis... please."

Been fighting way too long.
I hear your voice.
You had me all along.

"I don't know," I whispered.
"Please Alexis...
I love you."

Oh, tell me you're here.
That you will watch over me.
Forever.

"I'll be watching over you.
I promise nothing will happen to you.
But I'll be watching you.
As long as it takes.
Forever even.
Just go." He repeated.

Oh, take hold of my heart.
Tell me you'll love me.
Forever.
Forever.

I don't want to go.
I don't want to leave him.
"Please go Alexis.
It kills me to see you here everyday."
Does he not know how it killsme more?
"Please, I love you."

When I'm starting to drown,
you jump into save me.
When my world's upside down.
Your hands they shake me.
And wake me.

"Alexis, please.
Wake up and go.
Get out there."
I could almost feel his hands on my shoulders,
His eyes boring into mine.

Oh, tell me you're here.
That you will watch over me.
Forever.
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me you'll love me.
Forever.
Oh, tell me you're here.
That you will watch over me.
Forever.
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me you'll love me.
Forever.
Forever.

"Okay." I gave up.
"Just please, don't leave me." I cried.
I don't care if the people in the cafe saw me or not.
I was talking to Matt.
He smiled down at me.
"Atta Girl."
I felt his lips on mine, though I saw nothing.
"I love you."
It's been three years since then.
I live in America now.
I saw that Hannah Montana concert.
I enjoyed it, because I knew he was watching it with me.
Today's the third aniversery of his death.
Though I don't feel him anymore.
He left.
He's gone.
But I still know he'll watch over me.
Forever.