While I was gone- Edward Cullen

"You don't want me?" Bella said it more like an answer than a question. I couldn't see any sign of her wanting to cry. She was numb. I hated doing this to Bella. I was sick. If I knew that it would come to this, I would never have given her a chance to love me. I was screaming inside. I wanted to get down on my knees and beg her to forgive me. AllI wanted to do was be with her. I wasn't a man, I was a coward. I would spend the rest of my life telling her I loved her. But it was too late, she could never forgive me.
"No" I could barely get the words out. I had just told the biggest lie anyone anywhere had ever told. What amazed me more was that my head was still on, nose the same as ever. But she would move on. I know she would.
" well that changes things." Yes, she would move on. And that cut deeper than a knife.
"It's just that, I'm tired of pretending to be something I am not. I am not human Bella." But I would have pretended forever for Bella. My Bella. My Bells, My B. Not mine anymore. she belonged to herself now. I had no right to her. I never did.