My Boyfriend Is A WHAT?!?!?!

Read the memo????

Ch.24

Gabe’s P.O.V

I woke up hearing my phone ringing; it was 6:30 am I groaned rolling over. Nobody but Rachel ever called me at this time looking at the caller id I saw it was Rachel’s house phone. “Hello?” I asked sitting up in my bed and rubbing my eyes. “Hey Gabe its Julia.” The voice answered on the other end. Slowly I got out of bed and looked in the mirror my hair had gotten really long I hadn’t cut it since the accident. “Hey Julies what’s up?” I asked hoping it was something important since she woke me up so fucking early. “Well Donovan and I have finally decided to go through Rachel’s stuff. But everything has a lock or password on it. And I thought you might know what it might be, I would rather you go through her stuff anyway.” I noticed her voiced crack when she said Rachel’s name. “I’m not sure what the pass ward is Julia but I’ll come over and see if I can get it.” I said sighing as I got clothes out and a towel for a shower. “Thank you so much Gabe I know it’s really hard on you. I knew you loved her.” She whispered and hung up not saying good-bye.

I was sitting alone on Rachel’s bed and it was so overwhelming. I could smell her and fell her in the room like she was with me but I knew she wasn’t. I just needed to get away but I knew at the same time that this was right this is what I have to do. I got up and walked around the room looking at the locks then it flashed back. It was a lazy day snow day and Rachel and I were sitting on her bed hanging out. She sat up and smiled at me. “I think I’m going crazy.” She said laughing as she sat closer to me. “What do you mean by that?” I asked smiling and sitting next to her. She giggled “These past couple of days I have been putting locks on everything my desk, bath room, closet, anything and everything.” She smiled and pulled her knees to her chest hair falling in her face. At the time I thought it was cute. “Well I don’t think you’re crazy. What is the pass ward? You know incase I have to get something from your room one day.” I said looking over at her and seeing she was thinking about.

“Ok. I’ll give you a hint my favorite number is 57 and 7125. The combination is the secret code number for the love of my life.” She said this being completely honest I could see it in her eyes. “Thanks for the helpful hint. But I’ll figure it out one day.” I said laughing she got up off the bed and headed towards the bathroom. I through a pillow at her but she shut the door before it could hit her. I gasped coming back to the present. The code is the love her life. But who is that and how would I find out the secret code for them. Wait 7125? That’s a weird favorite number could it be? Then I remembered all the times I walked in on Keri and Rachel talking and they became silent then started talking with weird names most of the time they talked about 7125 VS 6288. I pulled out my cell phone and looked at the numbers.

6-m n o 2-a b c 8-t u v what would the name be??? Then it hit me like a ton of bricks 6-m 2-a 8-t MATT! She was talking about Matt but who was 7125 I looked at my phone and it made no sense. So I thought again.

Then I started thinking how Rachel always flipped numbers backwards and did things weird with letters. Then gym class 6th grade flashed back. “Hey Gabe.” She said sitting down next to me. “Guess what I just thought of!” she said smiling and I knew it was one of her crazy ideas that she did all the time. “What?” I asked eyebrows raised. “A=1 b=2 c=3 and so on and so on. This is the perfect way to make up secret names!” She said to my and pulling her shirt down. She wasn’t always as skinny as she is now. She used to be a little over weight but at the end of 7th grade she lost a lot of weight struggling with an eating disorder. Then I started counting “5=e 6=f 7=g…” then I stopped and putt it together. “Gabe” was all I said going over to the locks. The first one I opened was to her desk drawer and a letter fell out.

Dear Gabe,

It’s like 2:30 am and I couldn’t sleep. I was thinking about how love sucks. How it only brings you pain it makes you take that blade to your wrist again and again. Wow happy way to start a letter isn’t it? Ok yea, just so you know I don’t cut myself it’s not my thing. Now lets get back on subject. So it’s like 2:35 am and I can’t sleep. I keep having nightmares. Yes weird that I’m telling you this like I’m five. Well the nightmares star you and Dana. *sigh* this is really hard to say on paper. You know I don’t like sharing my thoughts. But the thing is well I like you love you. I really do I have since the first day I saw you. It was just you and me. I understand if you don’t like me but I wish you would come with me. I think I’m gonna run away I wish you would forget the world and run with me to. Hell who am I kidding? You don’t love me. But to me you are the air that I breathe the ground I walk on. The voice that echoes in my head. Not like it matters you don’t like me and will probably never get this or any of the other letters I wrote. It’s about 3:30 now and the sky is perfect I wish you were with me. Oh well I’m going to try and get some sleep. Good night Gabe. Forever my love. I love you

Always and Forever,

Rachel Kelsey.

I dropped the letter with shaking hands tears in my eyes. Keri was right Rachel does love me. Quickly I picked up the letter and put it in my pocket. “I wonder.” I said aloud walking to the window by Rachel’s bed. I opened the window and right there on the window sill like Keri said written in black sharpie was Rachel heart Gabe always and forever. I shut the window shaking my head allowing more tears to come. Why didn’t she tell me? It could have saved her so much pain. I pulled out the letter it smelled just like her and looking at it again I noticed the tear stains. Ones that don’t belong to me. It pained my heart to know that she cried over me.

I ran out of the house I couldn’t be in there any longer not without her. I know she never coming back I just don’t want to face it but I have to. I ran down the street and got my hair cut. Then I bought new clothes since I kept wearing the same ones almost everyday. After that I went to the store and bought food I’ll make dinner tonight. I can’t just sit around and wait for her she’s not coming back. Deep in my heart I knew she would want me to move on. She would of wanted me to of moved on by now. All that matters is that she loved me. At some point in time we shared the same feelings and that made me fell better. Not like the whole was gone but like it was starting to be sewn together. It will never be whole again but it could always be better.

“Mom I’m home!” I yelled walking towards the kitchen to put the food away. “Oh my!” she said coming over and helping me. I looked up at her and saw she was smiling to herself happy to have her son back instead of the grieving boy I was this morning. “So your felling better I see.” She said carefully so she didn’t hurt me. I smiled and turned to back to what I was doing today. “Yea. I finally came to terms with it I know she won’t come back but that doesn’t mean I have to cry over her. I’m in a way moving on but I will never forget the impact she had on my life. Mom I still and always will love her.” She looked over at me with tears in her eyes and pulled me into a tight hug. “I’m so glad to have you back. And don’t ever forget her, never. Don’t be like the others and just push it to the side. Don’t forget her always love her and hold her close in your dreams and heart.” My mother said this wiping her tears away and helping me start dinner.

After we finished eating a looked down at the charm bracelet on my arm and smiled. When I picked it out it reminded me so much of Rachel people always gave her charms to put on it but she never did innless they came from me. It had a broken heart, a pin, a razor; you know a lot of emo crap I used to tease her with. Right in the middle was the biggest charm the one I gave to her in the first place it was a diamond hear that looked clear but was really a locket. “I wonder.” I said opening it. I never told her it was a locket but I want to see if she knew. Inside was a picture of us we were kissing on the beach for a dare and on the other side was a picture of us on the beach she was on my back and we were smiling. A folded piece of paper fell out, reading it slowly I saw it said. He is my everything. Always and forever I love him. I will never understand why she didn’t tell but at least I know now.

I walked outside and headed out to her house to go through her stuff like her mother asked. The sun was setting and it looked wonderful it was always Rachel’s favorite time of day. I could almost hear her saying the words in the wind. “I love midnight with the stars and the moon. But my favorite time of day would have to be sun set all the colors falling in to the distance. The sense in the air that the day is ending. The warm slowly falling into cool breezes. Your blows in the wind as you watch a show of lights showing that everything has to end sometime. And I wish things could end as beautifully as a sun set.” Hearing her voice in my head always reminded me that I will never forget.

When I got to her house I walked right in with the key they gave me years ago. “Hey Donovan, Julia? I’m here.” I shouted going to the kitchen for some water. “Oh Gabe!” Julia said wrapping me in a huge hug. “I thought you weren’t gonna come back.” She said holding me tighter. “Julies of course I came, you asked me to. I figured out the combo too.” I said and she pulled back from me a smile on her face. “Really you did! Thank you so much but we changed our minds we don’t want to get rid of her things. Oh I hope it wasn’t to much trouble.” She said frowning a bit I knew she didn’t like making people go out of there way for anything. “No, it’s fine. You were right she had told me what it was before. In little hints our whole life together. I don’t want to forget her so it’s always good when I can remember a time when we were together.” We all smiled and walked into the living room to talk.

“Julia how is work going?” I asked lately I hadn’t seen any good movies coming out for her to star in or any good tours for her to go on. I always liked to keep up with her “It’s going good really. My book is coming out next week, they asked me to star in the movie Love is Voodoo which is weird because it is like the title of my book. Also I’m going on tour with The Falling Souls((I made all those people up so don’t think there really based on something.)) I’m so happy it’s really starting to pick up again.” She said a huge smile on her face. Wow they really are putting her in a lot of things but she is great. “That’s wonderful Julies I’m so happy for you.” I said looking over at Donovan who was staring at my wrist. Quickly I covered it with my sleeve as he looked at my neck. He most likely thinks I stole them from her room but I didn’t he needs to understand. “Donovan can we go talk up in your room for a minute.” I asked getting up he looked away from the small white gold chain on my neck to my face. “That was just what I was thinking.” He said walking off towards his room.

Once we got there he slammed the door and looked right in my face. He was mad really mad and yea he must think I stole it. “Where did you get those.” He asked/demanded/yelled I looked up at him and shrugged. “I found them on the beach.” His face softened a little as a said this. “I want to know what really happened on that cliff. I know you must of loved her I could tell by the way you looked at her. But something big had to of happened to make you be worse off then everyone else.” He said this with hardness in his voice but at the same time careful not to hurt me. I sighed and sat down starting the story. I told him how I loved her since the first day I saw her. How I asked Alice to dance only to run away when Rachel came flying down the stairs. How I stopped her from suicide and told her I love her. The kiss I gave her then tried to walk away her pulling me back and kissing me. The pain I felt seeing how ashamed she was after she kissed me. Her finale words and how she screamed. Then I got into what happened after the phone call to Blake the guilt I felt as they yelled they couldn’t see her. How I knew that she was still alive I could fell it in my every breath.

How I sat there waiting and wanting nothing more then to hold her. I told him what Keri said to me that time on the edge. How I felt afraid of forgetting. The hate I felt towards Jacob and Blake for moving on. My flash backs, how I found her locket and stuff. What I said when I saw Jacob and Keri together after seeing the locket. The guilt I still feel. What I found in her room. How I can still smell her in the air on the streets hear her scream. I told him everything and more. But I didn’t cry I couldn’t. I had been crying to long I have to live my life for her to share with her what she’ll never have now. Once I was finished Donovan sat there stun at what had been said.

He looked up at me and said five simple, deadly words. “We need to tell them.” With that he got up and walked out the door to his car. I was afraid this would happen. What am I going to tell them? Rachel loved all three of us with her whole heart but I knew they wouldn’t understand. They would want to kill me for doing that to her. They will blame me. They won’t even listen to my side of the story.

But it’s not like their innocent they both started going out with her best friends after she died. It pained me to think it but it’s true she’s really is dead she’s not coming back. I ran outside and got in the car with Donovan. “I’m sorry Gabe but it has to be this way. Do you think you can tell them the same as you told me?” Donovan asked as he started driving towards there house. I just nodded and waited for the long car ride to be over. Once we got there we sat outside of the house thinking. Well at least I was thinking Donovan was waiting for me to stop thinking. I sighed and opened the car door better get this over with. Donovan soon followed and we knocked on the door. A few minutes later Keri opened the door her clothes weren’t straight her hair a mess and makeup smudged. She was surprised to see us. “Keri who is it?” Jacob yelled coming into view with only a pair of pants on.

“Donovan and Gabe what a surprise.” Jacob said in a strained voice and Keri blushed. “I’m going to go get fixed up in the bathroom.” She said quickly running away. Jacob sighed and let us in heading towards the basement door. “Is Blake here?” I asked and Jacob nodded pointing upstairs. “Blake can you come down here.” I said in my normal voice knowing he could here me Donovan and Jacob looked at me weirdly. Almost as if they were surprised I said it normally. “Blake I know you can hear me.” I said again at the same volume as before. With that Blake came downstairs. “Why did you think he could hear you?” Jacob asked me his voice tight. “I’m not stupid I know the difference between human hearing and vampire hearing.” I whispered incase Keri was near by. He looked shocked and Blake who was drinking something nearly choked. “How do you know?” they hissed at e and I sighed. “I’ll explain later right now we need to talk about Rachel.” With that I went down stairs hearing them following whispering quickly. “How could he know?” “He is human I’m sure of it!” “Does he know about Rachel?” I heard bits and pieces with my over sensitive hearing. But not all of it seeing as I am still human.

“Ok let’s get this over with” I said sitting down and launching into the story I told Donovan. Knowing that if I changed it even a little bit Donovan would eat me alive. Though I’m not nearly as scared of him as I am of the others. Vampires really just freak me out even if these guys only drink from animals they still are vampires. Their family holds so much power, Aaron used to be the king. Soon it will be Blake or Jacob depending on who Aaron chooses and who wants to take the thrown. It doesn’t matter who gets it though, they still all of great power and I don’t like it. The faster I do this the sooner I can get out. Finally I finished and they all stared at me different emotions mixed on their faces. Hate, anger, love, pain, sadness, confusion, happiness, etc. etc. I knew this was not going to be good.

~sorry for all the grammer problems I havent slept in 4 days and its like 5 am~