What Do You Get When You Cross A Normal Girl With An Abnormal Boy?

"So let's get this straight, you expect me to just randomly go up to him and ask him out??" I asked Carmen as we sat in first period. "Yep." She nodded. I scoffed and rolled my eyes.
"Mel, come on. What he did for you was... amazing... I mean he basically SAVED you from that creep."
She sighed as she realized I wasn't going to answer. "I'm just saying Mel, it was really brave of him. If I had a guy do that for me I'd be all over him."
I decided to tone her out and listen to myself. Yeah but we were just friends.... right? Michael wouldn;t feel anything for me would he? I mean sure he saved me... but it didn;t have to mean that he liked me or anything... did it?
"Mel, do it. Not for you. For him." SHe finally said. I turned and looked to her. She had a serious expression on her face.
"Carmen, it's not that i'm afraid that of being with him. I'm just afraid of what he'll do in return." I admitted. Her look grew to concern. "What do you mean?" She asked curiously.
"I'm not a big fan of rejection."
When I was in the 7th grade I had this huge crush on a boy. Nick Anderson.
I remember carving that name into the back of my notebook almost everyday and tracing the letters over and over. As if some type of magic would happen and he would appear.
Nick never knew me quite well, and I never knew him. I saw him almost every single day, walking with his friends in the halls, standing around talking to everyone. But of course I wasn't the only girl crushing on him.
I remember I was called up to the office one day and they told me that my schedule had been changed because of some stupid tranfer student. The next day I had my new classes, and i nearly fainted as I realized that Nick was in almost every single one of them. He seemed to notice me then, and we began talking. Our first conversation was about how he had to move next year. I felt so low and depressed.
Nick and I became pretty good friends, we would walk together to our classes and some of the girls seemed to notice. The one day my friend, who also had a major crush on him, decided that I was officially her enemy. Days passed and my friends grew more hate than I ever imagined. SO one day she finally decides do to something that would most likely change my life forever. She walked up to Nick that day and told him that I wanted to go out with him. I remember Nick looking straight at me with a horrid expression on his face.
"No way, i'd never go out with her." He said right in front of me. In that whole moment I felt my world crash and burn. All of the laughs we had, all of the talks, blew up in flames. I nearly fell to the ground crying.
Ever since that day, I have never found the courage to talk to any guy that looked my way. All I could see was Nick's horrid face from that day.
Until this year.
When I saw Michael, there was something different about him. He gave off this I already hate you vibe. And for some reason it seemed to comfort me. It was like I knew exactly how he felt.
Maybe I could ask Michael, but no no no.
No i'm not going to loose another good friend over some stupid girly feelings NO.
"Mel, you ok?" Michael asked as he sat in his seat. I jumped to his touch on my shoulder and turned a deep shade of red.
Oh god.
This was going to be harder than I thought. "Huh? yeah... yeahjustfine." I said quickly. Michael stared at me for a moment after my spazz attack. Why couldn't he have taken longer in the bathroom.
"Um... ooook..." He mumbled. I gulped and looked slightly towards Carmen. She was of course turned towards me. "Michael-" I immediately slapped my hand over her mouth. She looked at me in shock.
"Shh!!!!"
She narrowed her eyes at me and pulled my hand off of her mouth. "I just needed another pen." She murmured. I took a deep breath and immediately began to feel my face burn again.
I turned slowly and saw Michael staring straight at me in shock. He must have seen what I'd done. I gave him a wiry smile and snapped my head back foward.
This is sooo stupid. STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!! Someone just slap me in the face right now.
"Mel... is there something wrong-"
"NO!" I snapped at him. He leaned back as I glared at him with wild eyes.
He creased his eyebrows. "Jeez ok calm down." He let out a short laugh.
I turned back around and began chewing nervously at my bottom lip. "Are you going to start your homework?" He asked. I stared at my untouched spanish paper in front of me.
I suddenly heard a scooting sound of metal against the carpet. My desk suddenly bumped with another desk.
"Here, i'll help you." He sighed. I leaned away from him as I realized how close he was. "Mel..." He noticed.
My heart began racing, my temperature rising, my throat swelling. I think I was going to pass out. Or I was having a mini anxiety attack.
"Sr. Lopez!" I yelled out before I raised my hand in the air. He looked at up to me from his desk, startled by my sudden shout.
"May I use the bathroom?" I asked. He stared at me for a moment curiously and nodded. I flew out of the desk and out of the classroom in a matter of seconds. I tensed up as I began to think of the awkwarness I had left Michael in as I literally ran out of the room.
I let the cool air from outside rush into me and breathed deeply before pacing to the bathroom. I needed to take control of myself, what was I thinking?
I walked into the musty aired bathroom and leaned against the sink while staring at myself in the mirror.
This was just plain stupid. Michael is a really good friend, why on earth should I be feeling this way at all? I mean, just think of how weird it would be to even be with him as a girlfriend. I shuddered to the thought.
I stared straight back into my eyes in the mirror and began to picture Michael's face for some reason. His baby blue eyes and light brown hair.
The way the corner of his full anxious corner of his lips turned upwards as he smiled and the way his soft cheek lifted. Oh and his awsome brilliant teeth.
"No!" I yelled at myself in the mirror.
I looked behind me in the mirror suddenly and saw a girl staring at me from behind. I laughed as she kept staring at me wide eyed. My laugh became lower as I realized she wasn't going to stop staring.
"Hahah...haha.....ha..............h-" I shut my mouth and walked out of the bathroom as quickly as I could. This stupid feeling was never going to quit. Was it?

"Are you avoiding me?" Michael suddenly asked as I was walking to lunch with her group of friends. They all turned as I did and stared at him. "Erm... uh-" I looked back to everyone. "I was just...." I bit my bottom lip.
"No, I was just...." I couldn't finish my sentence, I began to choke up. "She just wanted to meet some new people, you know... seeing how we haven't introduced her to anyone else. She doesn't need to be a mystery." Michael paid no attention to Carmen as she tried to explain, instead he was staring at me curiously as if I was up to something.
"Y-yeah..." I mumbled. A smile started on his face. "I don't think that's possible." He retorted. I looked back up to him and met his gaze briefly. "What isn't?" I asked.
His smile widened, revealing his perfect white teeth.
"I have a feeling you'll always be a mystery to me." A crease formed between my eyebrows.
"And how long do you think that will be?" I asked curiously. His smile vanished as He looked down to the ground.
"As long as you want it to be... I guess."