ONE STEP AT A TIME~Nick Jonas~(0)
Chapter 4 : ONE STEP AT A TIME ~2~
sorry for no update my computer was mesed up and i ve been busy getting things ready for school and helping my mom and sister. heres the link fro the pic. sorry if it blurry. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=2830267
I cried the whole way home which was a good 7 miles away from my house. surprisingly it only took me 25 minutes to get home. as soon as I walked through the door I collapsed and cried for about and hour. after that little breakdown I decided on going up to the roof and playing my guitar.
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
After playing the guitar I took a shower. I practically cried the whole time. I mean I lost the only person I could really tell all me secrets to. the girl who helped me find the office and all my classes on the first day of school. the girl who told me the truth no matter what even if it ment hurting my feelings. the girl who help me get out of a funk after moving away from nick, Joe, Kevin, my best friends. The girl who my brothers and I thought of as a sister. My best friend. I mean think of it, if the only girl who new all your secrets died wouldn’t you be upset. I decided I would go running to clear my head. So I changed in to this and took off.
I was listing to the ending cords of ‘Man! I feel like a woman’ when I was passing Rachel’s house. I didn’t even look at it cause I new I would start crying again. But then her song came on the song she wrote. The song nobody had but me. The song that made me break down in tears again. Luckily it had started to rain again. So I ran to the park and finished listing to her voice.
So sick of hearing your words
All I can hear you say
Is how you want me to live
My life a different way
I'm gonna pack up my things
I'm gonna do it just
Watch me, watch me
I'm like a rat in a cage
About to lose it all
And I ain't gonna give up until I'm standing tall
I'm gonna throw it all in
Just get it over with
Watch me, watch me
Cuz life is way too short
And I can't wait no more
Here I go
I'm gone, I'm going
I'm so over you, and I don't care
And I wont go back
Cuz I know if I do, I wont make it
Forgive me, I can't take it anymore
So sick of falling apart and crawling back again
So sick of playing the games that I can never win
I really had it, just so so sick of it
Watch me, just watch me
Cuz life is just way too short
And I can't wait anymore
Here I go
I'm gone, I'm going
I'm so over you, and I don't care
And I wont go back
Cuz I know if I do, I wont make it
Forgive me, I can't take it anymore
I wont look back
I wont look back no more
Hey (2x)
So here I go,
I'm gone, I'm going
I'm so over you, and I don't care
And I wont go back
Cuz I know if I do, I wont make it
Forgive me, I can't take it anymore
By this time I had listen to the song 10 times and the rain wasent letting up. And I could barley see 2 feet in front of me, plus I was soaked to the bone. I figured I should call someone to pick me up. I decide to call Adien. Seeing how we were close. And he was like my best friend. I decided to text him hoping he couldn’t tell something was wrong. (im lt. blue he‘s green)
Hey Adien can you come pick me up please?
Um im kinda at basketball practice now. Wats wrong? Aren’t you supposed to be shopping with Rach?
Um yeah I should buts that’s part of the reason I need you to get me please I starting to go numb. Just please come pick me up
Y r you going numb? Where r you? SEND ME A PIC.
He was always one to have to see himself. You see I could have picked a picture of me looking fine but I wasn’t thinking clearly and took a new picture of me standing in the sand box with bloodshot eyes and being soaking wet.
There I sent it im at the park I was jogging. I really don’t want to talk about it rite now so please just come pick me up. Adien please. Please. Please.
Im not the kinda of person who asks for someone to drop something and just come be with me. If that makes any sense. I usually just fend for myself. So if I ask for someone to help me people no its serious.
Im on my way don’t move.
His school was about 15 minutes away. It wasn’t but 5 minutes later that I felt someones arms wrap around me picking me up in the process. I really didn’t care who it was I just continued to cry into his shirt. Once we got to his car I realized it was adien. When he got back in the drivers seat I told him the whole story. After we sat in the parking lot for about 15 minutes so he could pull himself together we left. Even though it was only about a 5 minute ride home I fell asleep.
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