You clenched your eyes,feeling that the sun hit your face trough the window.. Groaning you turned around pulling the cover closer to you, just before Mikes sent hit you. You shut you eyes open and were met by the sight of Mikes wardrobe staring empty back at you. You quickly moved your hands to Mikes site only to feel the covers flatten to the bed. The first thing that hit your head was;
* Oh no, what's Mike thinking about this?!* until another thought hit you..
* Have i been sleeping with my back towards Mike all the time?*.... In the end you were the one to look stupid since he was the first one who hat god up. You sighed and rolled on to your back and looked at the ceiling.. Now when the sunlight were shinning through the window Jeepers Creepers didn't seem scary anymore.. You sat up and breathed in the scent of the cover before slowly getting out of the bed.. You walked with bare feeds over the wooden floor in the hallway and in to the bathroom and took a nice shower.. After that you took some clothes on and walked downstairs to see where Mike had gone. You couldn't see him in the living room and he wasn't in the kitchen either, but you could definitely hear him laughing, AND someone playing bas... Was there a room you had not seen yet?.. You followed the sound to the wall by the stairs and found yourself standing in front of a door you always had ought to be a small locker. You opened the door en peeped inside, seeing Dave and Mike jamming and joking.. Then you saw Chester sitting too and you looked at them stub founded..
”Hey Cath!” they all replied and jammed on..
”So could sleep to night, or were you too scared?” Chester asked innocently.. You immediately blushed and looked over at Mike, who quickly looked away from you..
But that was also just about that.. The day went on just hanging out in the little studio hearing them making music and just chillin’ .. You went to the bye a dress for the VMA awards and then you slept pretty well, still with a little bit paranoia going on, but well..
By the morning you and Mike packed all your stuff together, now the days in LA were over . After that you headed for the airport meeting the guys by the plane.. .. You had felt a wird kind of tension between you and Mike lately, and you almost felt that you had given up on him, though your feelings still were strong.. You wondered what Linsey would do to the after party, cause you were afraid of saying no to her..
You had gotten first class with the guys and enjoyed it, until about 4 ours of the ride had past trough.. You aimlessly looked around firstly at the clock and then at the date who said 6th of June like it had done all the time.. Brad was sleeping on the other side of you so there was no one to talk to unless you turned around, but you were to lazy to do that..
Then, finally.. After 2 more ours you landed in NY.. You sighed cause you were going back to work soon and you didn’t really feel that you had gotten anything out of staying with Mike..
”Okay guys we are going to win this shit!” Mike suddenly said behind your seat..
”yyyearh” they all cheered and gave high fives to each other.. You all got a car and were droved to your hotel in Manhattan.
It was a nice little hotel and you got a little nice room... You put on some beautiful make-up and put you dress on.. It wasn’t a stunning dress but a little more descent.. You were SO exited and couldn’t wait! .. It knocked on your door
”Hey Cath are you ready, we’re leaving now” Mike said from outside the door.. You ran in your high heels over to door to open it fore him..
Mike looked up from this shoes and to you and looked rather chocked, just staring at you..
”What do you think?” you asked smiling big, his face was priceless..
”Eh” he said suddenly becoming nervous taking a hold of his neck, while looking you up and down.. You skewed your head waiting for an answer..
”Eh” he said again still looking you up and down..
”Miike?” you asked waving a hand in front of him..
”Huh?.. Oh, yearh.. You look stunning Cath” he said still getting over his trance..
”Thanks” you squeaked.. Mike had a red T-shirt and some, somewhat brown trousers on, and of cause his DC’s.
”You don’t look bad yourself” you said smirking, teasing him a bit.. He smiled scathing his neck.. He seemed rather nervous?..
”So should we go” you asked and looked over his shoulder to see the other guys walking out of their rooms ..
”Yearh..” he said nodding for you to follow.. Mike actually looked rather regular, and so did the other guys, which made you feel a little uncomfortable.. Linsey which Dave had brought with him, came over to you... As you all walked to the elevator..
”Hey Catherine, wow, lovely dress” she said smiling to you..
”Thanks, and you too” you said being mostly polite.. But it was nice to have another female around..
”So are you ready to find a guy?” she asked... Damn, you had hoped that she would forget that. You wanted Mike for god sake!!..
”Eh.. I don’t really knoow” you said taking a finger to your mouth..
”Come on it’ll be fun.. It can be that you end up hooking up with 50 cent” she said, mostly joking..
”50 cent.. My favorite rapper in the world” you said sarcastic..
”Favorite.. Rapper.. Did I hear my name?” Mike suddenly asked ...
”Yearh.. It’s you Mike.. You are my favorite rapper” you said smiling big..
”I am?! I thought you hated my rhymes” he said looking hurt..
”Come on! You are great!.. I don’t even have to tell you” you said as the elevator opened..
”Your dope” he said smiling to you, actually meaning it..
A limousine picked you all up, you were going to the Metropolitan Opera House at Lincoln Center and.. You actually became quite nervous now.. This was so unreal.. A real taste of how it was to be a celebrity, tough you weren’t a celebrity.. For a moment you sat there looking at everyone joking laughing and having fun.. It seemed so unreal, like you didn’t belong there.. Mike elbowed you gently in the ribs, smiling to you..
”Are you okay?” he asked.. Did he really know you that well? That he could see that you were feeling a little uncomfortable..
”.. How could you see that?” you asked him completely melding cause of his caring..
”It’s okay Cath.. I’m not into this celebrity shit either” he said patting you on the back.. You felt slightly better by hearing that you weren’t the only one.. It felt so wird cause there had been this silence between you and Mike all day.. Chester reached a hand and slapped Mike leg..
"Don't ruin her mood" he said, like he new what you were talking about..
"I-i'm helping her Chester!" Mike said back, like, come on?
"Fucking cock smoker" Chester said more to himself.. Mike laughed at that comment.. And you softened a little more up.. You drove a little more until a huge crowd suddenly appeared as you drove past it..
"Oh my god look at all those people!" Dave said, and immediately all the guys were glued to the windows looking out on people.. Girls were screaming and were banging on the car tough they couldn't see trough it.. They all backed a little away from the window..
"BRITNEY IS IT YOU?!!" A girl screamed while punching the car until a guard forced her away..
"Oh my god, she thought we were Britney spears!" Mike said with gapping mouth..
"Look at them, they are like, fucking wild" Chester said smiling to you all.. You were a little taken back by this all of this. It was a little too much..
"Look, you can just stare them right up in the face" you said, pointing at a dude outside the car.. Mike laughed and studied the dude, before he at took a felt-tip pen up from his pocket..
"You have a PEN in your pocket?" Brad said looking at Mike like he was a freak..
"In case some fans should step by!" Mike said matter-of-factly.. He turned around and drew a moustache on the dude outside the car who was just staring trough the window... Cause the car was holding still.. Everyone began to laugh wildly especially Mike..
"That is cruel man" Rob said in a laugh.. After that, you slowly arrived at the backstage were all the paparazzi was taking pictures of everyone..
"Oh my god look! It's Mary Kate and Ashley" you said and looked over the rest of the line of celebrities entering the award show. ¨
( To everyone.. I keep this story as real as i can.. This award show is real at the exact time.. )
"Lets do our entrée" Chester said as the door was opened and Joe stepped out first followed by Brad, Dave, Linsey and Chester, and then Mike, you and Rob.. Camera flashes almost blinded you as you stepped out, staying close to Mike.. You heard Journalist talking to cameras every were..
"Linkin Park has just arrived at the VMA awards, what a great, bla bla.. " The voices quickly disappeared as you walked further in, on the red carpet.. You cached a glimpse of metallica, still staying close to Mike and the others... It was wild experience..
"Yo Linkin Park over here!" a women yelled and held her camera up, as everyone else did.. The guys lined up in front of the plastic wall, preparing to take a picture.. You stayed with Linsey, avoiding the camera, just waiting for the pictures to be taken.. God Mike looked so handsome.. Like always.. 
Anger burst up in you, cause you couldn't just have him and picturing him with someone else was just heartbreaking!..
You sighed as the guys were finished and walked over to you and Linsey..
"How does it feel?" Mike yelled, because of the all the people talking..
"Good! It's really exiting!" you yelled back .. He smiled to you as you began to walk again.. A lot of people were yelling for the guys to come over..
"Okay guys split up" Joe said and you all began to walk to walk over to different journalists.. You walked with Mike, still staying close to him cause you were a little shy..
"I'm standing here with Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park at the VMA awards 2001, and Mike, are you exited?!" the journalist asked..
"Hi, yearh I'm very exited cause this is our first time at the video music awards" Mike said to her as she held the microphone over to him..
"Okay Mike, and you have brought your girlfriend?" she asked and looked over at you.. Ugh! Why did everyone have to ask that!
"eeh, actually, she's just a good friend of mine" Mike said scratching his neck.. You sighed and smiled at Mike..
"A good friend, now, we wont believe that, will we?" the journalist asked the camera..
"Wha . seriously" Mike said frowning a bit..
"And thank you to you Mike, and next we ha - ..." The interviewer interrupted .. Mike turned around to give you a pitiful look..
"Well, there's nothing we can do about it" you said shrugging your shoulders.. You walked further on to be seated inside..
"I think our seat are here" Mike said as you walked down a huuge stairway with a lots of people!..
"Oh my god look Mike.. Look at all those people...." you said..
"GOD i can't wait! YES YES!" he said while punching the air.. You laughed at him and made your way trough all the peoples legs..
"Here" Mike said and sat down in a seat.. Chester took place beside you with Joe on his side.. The show got on and everyone was looking as the different artist was called up..
"Haha looosers" Chester said to Joe ..
"Yearh totally.. " Joe said..
"Hey show some respect man" you said annoyed..
"Shut up maan" Chester said waving your face away..
"No i mean it!" you said seriously..
"But" he said
"No!" you said again..
"Cut it off man Chester" Mike said .. Chester slunk down in his seat looking like a little mad child.. After wathcing Britney spears perform Joe spoke..
"Hey guys we'r up next, we better get going" he said... Everyone agreed and all the guys left you and Linsey in the seats.. Different nominations went on... And then, it was the guys turn to play One Step Closer.. They were really good like usual and you felt that Mike was soo in to the music.. You could just see how much he loved performing.. The x-ecutioners were there too, and it was just awesome to watch!..
( You can see it here if you want to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mx5caM9jRTg )
They all came back to their seat, talking about the show like usual..
"Damn it was nice to see the x-ecutioners again!" Mike said to you as he took a seat beside you..
"You guys really took the stage!" You said smiling to all of them..
"Yearh! But Amphitheaters are a tricky thing to play. Only the last two bands that play get to really take advantage of production, so nobody gets a light show until the headliner. Secondly, it's like a 100 degrees inside, and 90 percent humidity, it's a tough stage!" Chester said ..
" which can deter people from wanting to come, especially in a bleaker economy" Mike said back..
"Well then it's good that NY is a good town!" you said ..
"~Best Rock Video.. Nominated are; .. Aerosmith - Jaded .... Linkin Park - Crawling..." by here everyone from the band was cheering ..
"HELL YAH THAT'S US!!" Mike shouted..
"Staind - It's been a while ... Limp bizkit - Rollin.. Weezer - h*** pipe"... All the guys from the band was sitting anxiously looking down at the person reading the winners up..
"AND the winner of Best Rock Video is... " he opened the little folder and read it out loud..
"LIMP BIZKIT WITH ROLLIN!" the man shouted.. as everyone began to cheer.. Your heart dropped feeling sorry for the guys... Mike looked at little disappointed so did all the others..
"Those mother fuckers" Chester mumbled though you knew he liked Limp Bizkit..
"Another time guys" Mike said and leaned over you to give them all a high five..
"You're gonna win just as many as Limp bizkit has!" you said giving Mike a high five too...
"Yearh!" Mike said smiling.. After having watched all the others and the performers you all walked by the red carpet entering the after party who laid at the same place.. Linsey came over to you.
"Are you ready Cath.. Oh i can't wait to meet some people" she said smiling happily .. You got a bad feeling inside, walking behind Mike who was talking with Dave..
"Is something wrong?" she asked now..
"Oh.. No, no everything is fine" you said lying to her.. Again, anger swelled up in you towards Mike.. Also because all of the things he had done, letting you hold his hand, kissing your neck, sleeping with him.. It seemed like he didn't care the day after!..
"Yearh.. It'll be fun to find a guy" you answered her.. You could hear the music play loud from the disco as you all entered..
"This is fucking awesome! I'm gonna be drunk as hell! Wanna bet of who can drink the most without vomiting Cath?!" Chester yelled to you standing in the small hallway that lead to the main disco.. The music was so loud he had told..
"Yearh it is!!" you yelled back hugging him eagerly, when you caught Mikes eyes who was looking at you in a wird way.. You looked away from him feeling bad of your decision of dancing with SOME guy.. A guard led you all to a table with sofa seats, making a little corner..
"I'm gonna go catch some drinks!" Chester yelled and disappeared in crowd of people.. Mike was sitting in the end of the sofa, making it easy for him to come out and you had accidentally gotten a seat besides him ..
"Do you feel okay now?" Mike yelled to you in your ear..
"Yearh, this is awesome" you said back in his ear again, wanting to kiss him.. He just smiled to you when Chester came with a huge plate with vodka and drinks.. He pushed aside people saying something like "Watch it dick head", though you couldn't hear it.. Everybody around the table cheered at him.. Phoenix was sitting opposite you, and Linsey was sitting opposite Mike..
"FUCKING DRINK" Chester cheered so you could barely hear it while he walked over the solid table to take place besides Joe and Rob.. You all began to drink and tried to hold conversations though it could be a little hard to hear.. You enjoyed sitting besides Mike though, as you got more and more drunk...
"MIKE?! How come you don't like this?! It's awesome?" you said in his ear..
"I do, cause all of you are here!" he said back giving you the famous Mike smile while pulling away from your ear..
"What about you?" Mike said ..
"Like i said before i love it!" you said back..
"Cath?" you suddenly heard someone.. It was Linsey trying to get in contact with you..
"Yearh?" you yelled over the table..
"Wanna go dance?" she asked.. Your stomach suddenly turned .. You didn't wont too.. God you were so confused!!..
"What?" you said trying to hold it..
"Wanna go dance?!" she yelled back.. You couldn't turn her down now.. Besides there was probably not going to happen anything between you and Mike.. You stood up on the seat trying to walk over Mike, but he grabbed your arm..
"Where're you going?" he asked looking up at you with his melting eyes..
"Eh, going to dance... " you said looking rather confused about what to do..
"Wait.. Eh.. eh.. aren't you going to be a little more drunk?" he asked, actually looking rather insecure.. Did he want you to stay?..
"Come on Cath" Linsey yelled again..
"Eh, have to go Mike" you said and ripped your arm out of his grip.. You jumped over him not looking back.. You felt that this was kind of wrong in a way..
*You HAVE to try and see what happens with other guys* you thought while walking out in the middle of the dance floor beginning to dance.. You moved your hips dancing smoothly watching for a guy.. But none of them looked like.. Mike.. A tall blond haired guy came over to you from behind dancing with you.. You turned around to test him and danced to the rhythms of the music.. He seemed drunk and looked you deeply in to your eyes.. But you did not feel attracted by him, and you actually wanted to get away from him.. But it was all confusing.. Being drunk, and all the lights and people everywhere.. You danced for a while.. He tried to kiss you a couple of times but you just turned your head away..
"I wanna show you something" he suddenly said and took your hand and dragged you trough the crowd..
"Eh what?!" you asked suddenly being nervous, he dragged you to a huge glass door leading out to a big balcony.. He led you out there..
"ii know your type" he said and suddenly pushed you up against the wall..
"You don't like it in front of others" he whispered.. You felt quite weak cause of the drunkenness.
"Get away from me!" you said.. You felt panic raise up in you, why did you always end up in these situations!!..
"Shut up man, I just wanna have some fun" he said touching the edge of your dress..
"Get away!" you said and punched his chest, but it was not hard enough!.. Shit shit you were panicking so much!!..
"You are wild one huh?" he said smirking.. He leaned in to kiss you..
"Hey dude, leave her alone!" Mikes voice suddenly rung .. You both looked over at him with drunk eyes.. Mike looked rather mad and confused..
"Why you" the man said, letting go of you, and you took that as a chance and kicked him right in the guts making him fall together.. You ran over to Mike again..
"Oh my god!! I think he was going to rape me!" you said holding your hand to your heart.. Mike looked rather.. Hurt and in a way mad down at you.. But you could see in his eyes that he was rather drunk too..
"Come on, Brad is looking for you" he suddenly said taking a arm around you shoulder to lead you indoor again, but let go of you as you saw Brad in the bar.. Brad, had looked for you.. So Brad had just asked Mike to find you.. great.. Not that much of a hero though!.. You looked grumpy back at Mike who disappeared in the direction of the table..
"Yo Brad, what's up" you said and took place beside him by the bar..
"Hey Cath.. Having fun?" he asked and took a sip of his drink..
"... Well.. I had" you said smiling to him..
"What do you mean?" he asked..
"I-i went out to dance, with a random guy, and then this wird dude shows up, and I actually didn't want to dance with a random guy, so it was really wird" you said sounding drunk..
"Well.. Which guy did you want then?" he asked you.. You opened your mouth to say Mike but shut it again..
"eeh" you said taking a pointer finger to your chin..
".. Why don't you go dance with Mike.. He's single, and you always seem to be good together.. ?" he asked you innocently..
"Mike?... " you looked down in the table.. Mike didn't want to dance with YOU
"Yearh.. " he said .
"I don't think he sees me in that way " you said..
"In what way?" Brad asked you..
"You know.. Dance-with-me way..." you said cocking a eyebrow..
"Are you kidding me Cath?... Of cause he wanna dance with you!" Brad said like it was the most obvious thing in the world..
"What?.. It sounded like you said that he WANTED to" you said taking you head closer him..
"I did!" he said back.. Everything in you suddenly tossed and turned.. And all your anger disappeared, only having thoughts of Mike in your head.. .. But..
"But.. But he saw me dance with that guy" you said confused pointing everywhere..
"Then make it up to him" Brad said smiling a big smile.. You stared at nothing and got of your chair and headed for the table with all the guys.. You were drunk, so being nervous was not something that got through your head.. Though you felt butterflies in your stomach.. The guys table suddenly became clear and Mike was sitting at the end like before.. The warmth from the disco made it all seem tight and un breathable.. Mike looked over at you and then back at the guys.. So the hurt look was really a hurt look before.. The others looked at you too but continued their conversations.. You walked over to Mike, and just stood in front of him while he was talking to Dave.. He skewed up at you..
"wanna come in" he asked and leaned backwards..
"no" you said simply.. He looked at Dave and laughed hiding his head in the table.. He was obviously drunk now!..
"Come and dance with me Mike.." you asked him looking deep in to his eyes..
"What?" Was the first thing he replied like it was a joke..
"Come and dance with me" you said again..
"Weren't you gonna dance with some of the other guys" he asked looking back and forward at you and Dave..
"But i wanna dance with you" you said and took his hand to pull him up..
".. Okay then" he said smiling big and got up.. See ya in a few moment Davy" Mike yelled as you dragged him to the dancefloor.. A more silent techno song was playing now and you dragged Mike to the middle of the dance floor.. You felt completely emerged and began to move you body to the rythm and so did Mike.. You pulled close to him dancing up against him, taking hold of his neck, moving as seductive as you could.. Mike was good at dancing and he leaned a little backwards with his upper body allowing you to intertwine your legs.. It just felt so right! You were so happy at that moment that you were almost afraid of taking a next step.. After dancing a few minutes like that you pulled even closer to Mike, holding you head over his shoulder so you couldn't see each others faces..
"You're a really good dancer" you said to him in his ear.. Where had you got all this courage from?! ..
"You too, like you are REALLY good" he said back... He suddenly pulled his arms around you pushing you up against his body.. This moment were NOT going to be interrupted by ANYONE ore you would smack them to death!!.. You held your arms closer around his neck.. He glided his one hand over your rips, making you almost moan cause of the burning sensation!.. You couldn't hold yourself anymore and pulled out from him, and leaned your forehead against his, looking him deeply in to his eyes.. Did he want this too?.. His eyes looked lustful and admiring back at you.. You slowly closed your eyes and leaned in to kiss him... You touched his lips softly making everything in you explode!.. He had closest his eyes too and the kiss was at first really soft, but then you both pushed harder and the kiss became really passionate.. He licked the bottom of your lips asking for permission to enter your mouth.. The kiss became really wild and lustfull, and it all seemed like a dream and all your feeling came out in that kiss.. His lips were soft and perfect against yours.. His moustache tickled a bit making you wanting even more from him, until you both pushed apart to breath.. You both breathed hard, but immediately kissed again, wanting eachother so much.. It was like you both had hold your feelings so much that it all came out in this kiss, and you couldn't get enough!.. You nuzzled his soft hair as his one hand slipped higher up to the site of your breast.. It was like all the people who bumped in to you didn't exist.. UNTIL someone stepped on your foot..
"Auch" you said and pulled away.. DAMN!.. You looked for the lady who had done it...
"We better should go back anyway" Mike said smiling you..
"Whyyyy?" you said and took your arms around his neck again.. He smiled and kissed you again, pushing you backwards the same time.. You couldn't get enough of his lips and just kissed and kissed, until Mike pulled apart, and pulled you with him out of the crowd.. You supported him cause he was so drunk, as you walked over to the others table..
"Had a good dance?!" Dave asked, sitting with Linsey.. She looked surprised at the both of you.. Mike took place by the end of the sofa, his head twirling a little.. None of you answered Dave.. You were still standing up and looked at Mike who held your hand.. You weren't thinking anything.. Just that it had been so amazing! Why hadn't you just kissed him before?!.. Mike looked up at you skewing his head a little.. You giggled a drunk giggle and moved to sit on him, with your legs on both side of him, so you were facing him.. He looked up at you taking a hold of the back of your tights.. He smiled to you in the cutest way.. You cuffed his cheek, taking control.. Then you ended up kissing again, Mike had to look up and you had to look down to kiss him and it really turned you on cause you could feel that he caressed your tights.. You kissed with tongue making it really passionate.. You couldn't stop, you wanted to kiss him all the time, everything in your were going crazy... But the drunkenness made you tired, and then you couldn't hole the stance more.. You both pulled away, just looking at eachother... The way he looked at you made you satisfied, like he wanted you and liked you.. You sat down in bridal style, not having any sense of what was happening around you... You hugged Mike leaning your forehead on the site of his head as he caressed your waist..
"I like you so much" you whispered in his ear, nuzzling his hair.. He made a satisfied sound and closed his eyes...
"I've like you for so long that I never thought that this would happen" he whispered back.. You closed your eyes too feeling safe and satisfied....
