I Hate Everything About You [[Gerard Way]] Why Do I Love You? 001

Gerard's POV:
It was a Monday morning and the morning we had to go back to school, let's just say a couple of days off for Easter was never enough time off of school. I stopped outside Frankie and Aims's house to pick them up and beeped on the horn loudly and clearly. Mikey was sulking in the seat next to me because I ate the last pop tart and apparently he was going to die from hunger. Frankie stomped out of the house and opened the cardoor with such force I thought he'd pulled it clean off. Mikey pulled out his earphones and turned to see Frank. "Where's Aims?" he asked conversationally.
"Boston," Frank replied angrily. Mikey laughed.
"Is she sick?"
"No she's not fucking sick she moved to Boston to finish her final year of high school living with our nana," Frank snapped.
"What?" Mikey asked. I felt physically sick and I clamped my lips tightly together, turning to look at Frankie as well. "She decided on Friday," Frank muttered begrudgingly.
"Why?" Mikey asked. "When is she coming back?"
"She's coming back in three months to get the rest of her stuff so she can go to college,"
"She didn't say goodbye," Mikey murmured quietly.
"Because Mikey, she can't stand the sight of Belleville," Frank paused. "Or rather she can't stand the sight of certain people in Belleville," He glared at me.
"Frankie, give me a break," I groaned, slamming my fist on the steering wheel. Frankie snorted and held out an envelope.
"For some reason she spent some time writing you a fucking letter," he explained acidly.
I took it off him and shoved it in my coat pocket. "Oh yeah, you treat my sister like rubbish-why not treat her letters like rubbish?" Frankie asked sarcastically.
The drive to school was not only long, but excruciatingly painful and you could almost cut the tension with a knife. A life without Amy Maria Iero. It wasn't exactly going to be the easiest thing I'd done. It wasn't until I'd made it to my bedroom and in complete silence I opened her letter. I bit my lip, I didn't expect it to be anything charming or loving, I was kind of expecting on of her tirades that she went off on that made her look comical. The paper was scented, she had a note to say that she was sorry for the incredibly stupid paper but she wasn't bothered to find other paper.
"Dear Gerard,
I'm not sure ifI should write "dear" really because it's not going to beyour original letter. I'm leavingfor my Nana's in an hour and for the past three hours I've been trying to think of a sufficient way to say goodbye to you without actually confronting youor speaking to youdirectly. So I decided the old fashioned letterwoulddo the trick.Ihope you're happy with Sara because I realisenow that there was a reason that youcheated onme with her a year ago and I realise that there's a reason why you're with her now.
So I'm not going to play second best for you and I know I've said that before and Ihave accepted that you've gotten everything you've ever wanted out of here.Idecided to move awaybecause for about two years of my life I've been in love with you and I need to stop. I need to stop loving you because you've stopped loving me and it's no way for me to live my freaking life.
Ialso know that if I stay, thetwo of us will just spoil everyone's last few months atBelleville High and that would never be my intention. It's not my intention to causeupset either so if you told everyone that I loved them loads and I'd see them in a couple of months, I'd really appreciate it.I think I need to be alone for awhile because I never get to be alone anymore because evenwhen you're not there I still think you're there because you're running through my head about 100% of the time and it's kind of sick and twisted that I think about something thatmuch.
Anyway, I'm going to sign off now because I've to go.I don't wantyou to contact me. I want to get overyou and you are going to let me get over you damn it. So no phone calls, no e-mails, no texts, nothing. Let's just cut the wires okay?
Much Love,
Aims
xxx,"
I kind of dropped the letter because it wasn't what I wasexpecting. Ialmost wished there was a tiradeofinsults and bitchy comments so at least I could hate her for it butcould I really let her leave thinking that I was over her? "I want to get over you," was ringing in my head, I could even clearly hear hersaying it even though she never said italoud. I sighed angriled and thumped the wall and then pushed my bedside lampoff of the sidetable.I wasn't going tolet her get over me. I wasn't going to lether cut the wires, who did she think she was? Theofficial wire cutter? Fuck that.I rang Frank. "What?" he askeddully.
"I need your Nana'sphonenumber,"
"No,"
"Please?"
"Why?"
"Because I made a mistake,"
"Yeah, it's your mistake and Aims isn't going to put up with yourcrap when she's trying to get away from you,"
"Please Frankie," I whined.
I heard him sigh as he reeled off thenumber and I grinned. "Thanks Frankie. I love youreally,"
"I love you too, I'm just in a piss with you, and so is Kayleigh,"
"Why?"
"Her best friendmoved awaybecause of you,"
"And you would know because?"
"We're dating since yesterday-butdon't tell Aims,"
"Like I'mgoing to ring her to tell her you're dating her best friend,"I rolled my eyes.
I dialled out the number and I waited until someone answered the phone and it was her. "Hello?" she soundedbright.
"Hey," I greeted.
There wasa click as she hung up. I rolled my eyes and rang back. "What?"she demanded. "I wanted a clean break and you'reringing me? Is the house on fire? What?"
"Oh whatever, if you're going to be a bitch,"
"What?"she snapped.
"Tell me that you love me," I told her.I could hear her choking on theotherend of the phone.
"I will never admit that I love you," she told me icily.
"Okay, put itthis way. Do you ever want me?"
"...sometimes,"
"Do you ever need me?"
"...I wouldn't call it 'needing you'-"
"You left before you said goodbye,"
"Because it was easiest. Now look, I'm finished now. I don't want tohear from you again. You let me slip straight through you hands-so let me know how it feels to be alone,"
"I lo-"
*Click*She hung up the phone.
"I love you," I muttered to myself."Mikey!" Mikey was walking past my room and he put his head around the door.
"Yep?"
"I love Aims but she wants me to stay away and leave her alone until she comes back-what should Ido?"
"Er...if you love her, I'd say you should leave her for a while and let her simmer," he advised and walkedoff.
Let her simmer.