The Fantasy...30 seconds to mars 21

I sat down on the cold waiting room floor of the hospital. I didn't know i was going to be back inone so son but it wasn't for me. I brought my knees up to my chest. My eyes stinging and red. I felt as though part of me died. My cold hands quivering and shakey. My head hung in shame of myself, I was really scared at this moment. This is probably how Dani and the boys felt the last time I was in this kind of place. I picked up my head and glimpsed over to my mom. My brother, Miguel, was holding her in his big arms. My mom was just shattered, I could tell that inside her she was dark and glomy. I wanted to go over there and comfort her but I knew in some way they were upset with me. Like if they didn't want to speak to me at all, they just gave me blank stares. It just made my heart hurt more. They knew I should of been responsible and went with Jovita. And because of me I have to see everyone suffer from my mistake. Everything around me seemed dead to me now. I was suppose to be by Jovita and protect her...it was my job to. I was the only person who she had left plu smy mom since everyone left and moved onto their own lives. I had to stay back and support Jovita. She relied on me...both of my mom and her relied on me. Now I failed them. This is the worse thing that could possibly happen to me. I looked back to the white tiled floor and didn't look up or talk to anyone. I shutted down every surrounding near me.

BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

My mobile in my navy checkered hoodie pocket started to vibrate. Everyone moved their eyes to me. I didn't know if I should answer it or not. I slowly pulled out my "buzzing" cell as everyone still had their eyes glued to me. It was Tomo calling.
What should I do?
I arrose from the floor gently and paced myself to the hallway around the corner.
"Uh Tomo, this isn't a good time" I answered first as I wiped my tears.
"Why? Is everything okay?"
"No" I began to weap again, "No it's not"
"What's going on Gaby?" Tomo started to get alittle serious.
"I'm in the hospital right now, it's not me" I started to shrug my back down the wall and cried more, "It's Jovita".
I put my left hand across my face.
"Tomo I ca-can't talk right now" I added.
"Yeah, okay" he said in a faint whisper.
"Bye" I sobbed.
"Bye" Tomo ended
I dropped my phone on the floor and just hid my face with my sweaty hands. My eyes runned tears like a waterfall. I heard someone stand near me. I looked up and this time it wasn't Tomo, it was my brother, Gerardo. He sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. I continued to cry like a baby and layed my head on his shoulder.

Tomo's POV:
When I hug up the phone talking to Gaby, I just felt worried about her. She must be really broken right now. I know how much she really cares about Jovita. Just hearing her voice through the line made her pain go through me.
"Hey how's Gaby doing?" Jared asked coming out of his dressing room. I looked away from the phone.
"Actually nothing is going okay with her" I stared at him, "Jovita is i the hospital".
"Is she going to be alright?" he continued to ask.
"I don't really know, but Gaby sounded really torn on the phone" I got up frmo the small stole I sat on by my dressing room.
"Does Shannon know yet?"
"Uh no"
"He's going to freak alittle about this......you know what we should do?" Jared walked towards me and just rested his elbow on this shelf by me.
"What?"
"We should make an announcement about it during tonight's show. Gaby means alot to us *cough* more to you*cough*..."
I laughed abit.
"...And so we need every heart and soul with her and her family" Jared explained.
"That's a really good idea Jared" I said while getting my guitar around me.
"Yeah?"
"Yup"
"Okay so I can annouce it sometime around when we get around to 'RE-volve' since that's a song Gaby adores"
"K cool" I gave him a high-five adn then he walked to get his guitar too.
RING RING RING
WHY IS SHE CALLING ME?! THIS HAS BEEN THE SEVENTH CALL SHE HAS GAVE ME SINCE SINCE THE BEGINING OF THIS TOUR! WHY WON'T SHE F***ING UNDERSTAND THAT I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER ANYMORE?!
I just put the call to ignore.
"Was that Gaby?" Jared asked nearing me.
"No, it wasn't anyone important" I assured him...