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Well the update tonight is because it's my birthday ! I'm old! Ha.
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"Amanda! Wake up! It's your first day of school!" Sitting up straight, I couldn't believe that I forgot that school was today. Groaning, I wanted to go back to sleep. I hated school, and I know I'm going to hate it even more since it's a new school I'll be attending.But it couldn't be that bad, Jacob, Embry and Quil will most likely be in some of my classes. However, Jacob's been acting really strange towards me now. Ever since Rhiannon and I visited the Black's a few days ago, he would usually try to avoid me. Even though he tried to avoid me, I would usually catch him staring at me. It was really starting to piss me off, but I decided to just ignore him if he was going to act like a dumbass. I didn't even know why it bothered me so much the way he was acting towards me.
Maybe, it's because I like him? No, I don't. I barely know the kid, even though he is a family friend, I never actually took the time to talk or even associate with him.
I shook my head to get rid of the stupid possibility of liking him, and went to take the morning shower I always took. Fifteen minutes later, I was walking down the stairs to see a happy and bouncing Rhiannon in the kitchen, I couldn't help but laugh at her appearance. Her hair was tied back, but with a lot of bumps in the center and had pancake mix in there too. Her face had some splotches, and so did her jeans and shirt.
"Nice outfit Rhi." I couldn't help but let out a roaring laugh when she jumped, and dropped a few pancakes on the floor. I shook my head and helped her by picking the pancakes off of the floor. She could be a loving sister when she wanted to be for me.
I sat at the kitchen table waiting for Rhiannon to drive me to school. I had my license, but she never let me drive her 'baby' as she liked to call it.
"Rhiannon, when are you taking me to school? I still have an hour or so to wait, shouldn't I get there early?" I watched apprehensively as she shook her head, with a huge smile plastered on her face. I was going to ask her what she was so happy about, but that was when the door bell rang, and Rhiannon skipped to the door.
What the hell got her panties in a bunch this morning?
I couldn't believe it. I hated her so much sometimes. I watched as a smiling Rhiannon came in, and behind her was Jacob, Quil, and Embry. I could tell Jacob didn't want to be there, but I couldn't help but feel the butterflies fluttering around in my stomach when I looked at him.
"Hi Qui, Embry... Jake." I whispered the last name, but kept the same small smile on when I looked at them. I was greeted with the same bright smile from Quil and Embry, but a bitter scowl from Jacob. I wanted to stand on my chair and rip that scowl off his face, but instead I controlled myself.
"I thought that they could take you to school instead, they could show you around and everything." I looked up from the table that I was intensely staring at, and pleaded with Rhiannon to take me to school instead. She didn't budge, and probably was going to come up with some lame excuse. "I'm not much of a good tour guide, considering I've never been inside this school before Mands." I groaned, and rolled my eyes at my sister, who right now I loathe.
"Well we should get going Amanda, we don't want to be late on our first day, now do we?" I couldn't help but smile at Embry. He was trying so hard not to make me feel uncomfortable, it wasn't working well, considering Jacob kept glaring or scowling at me everytime our eyes would connect. I just smiled more at Embry so he wouldn't worry much.
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I pulled out my schedule, and tried to remember it so I wouldn't have to always look at it everytime a class ended. Embry was supposedly in my first class, which was Literature, so I was glad for that. However, I had lost him in the herd of people that were trying to get to their lockers and classes. I felt panic run through me as I looked for the classroom, I hated being by myself in a new territory. I hated it with a passion, I would always get panic attacks being by myself in these situations.
Before I could start hyperventilating, I heard someone behind me. "Need help?" I heard the voice call out, I turned around and saw a very handsome boy. His sandy blond hair was slightly shaggy, and fell into his gorgeous hazel eyes. His skin tone was like everyone elses, except slightly lighter. He was tall, but not quite as tall as Jacob.
"Yeah, I can't find my class. Literature." He just smiled, showing his pearly whites. I couldn't help but smile at him, he was so friendly looking. His smile was contagious.
"Follow me, I'm heading in that direction, considering it's my class also." I sighed out in relief. "My name is Silas by the way."
"Amanda." I heard my small voice say, I held in a gasp when he suddenly turned around. Why was he so intimidating now? His eyes weren't friendly anymore, and he had a weird look on his face.
"Amanda.. Winters?" I heard him question, I only slightly shook my head in approval. His face then turned back to his original expression.
What the hell is wrong with these boys here? What's with the damn hostility and the change of moods?
I didn't realize that Silas had stopped walking, and being the clumsy moron I am, walked straight into his back. I heard him snicker before he opened the door, he grabbed my hand and brought me into the classroom. I noticed that his hand wasn't abnormally hot like Embry's, Quil's or Jacob's. Matter of fact, everyone at the Black's house had that suffocating and abnormal heat, even Rhiannon started to have the warmth radiating off of her.
"Ah, you must be Amanda Winters." I only nodded my head at the woman. Mrs. Munroe was mid age most likely, she had curly black hair. It was in a tight ponytail, her brown eyes were hidden behind thick brown glasses. She seemed friendly, the aura around her was personalable. "You can seat anywhere, they aren't any assigned seats." She announced, waving her hand to open seats. I looked for Embry, and saw that a seat was empty beside him. I also noticed one next to Silas, but I wanted to be with Embry. I gave Silas a small, weak smile before walking towards Embry.
I barely even noticed the glare Silas shot me as I turned my back towards him, and walked towards my friend. I smiled at Embry before sitting down, I watched him smile back but it didn't reach his eyes. Furrowing my eyebrowns, I wanted to ask what was wrong, but decided against it. He never would tell me, especially if it was something personal, which it probably was. A million questions flooded my mind. My mind became hostage to the million possibilities of why Jacob was being cold and distant towards me.
I was brought out of my thoughts when the bell rang. I pulled out my schedule and showed Embry it. He only smiled and said that he was also in my Trigonometry class, and announced that Jacob was also. My smile faltered slightly at the name of Jacob. I noticed that Silas was walking up towards me, and I thought I heard a slight growl come out of Embry's chest, but only shook my head.
"Do you have Trig next Amanda?" I smiled at him, and nodded my head once again. He took my head and walked out the door. I hadn't even noticed that Embry had already left. What was wrong with him? Did it have anything to do with Silas? I felt anger rise in the pit of my stomach, did they not want me to make friends? Did they want me to feel unwanted, cause that's sure as hell what it seemed like according to Jacob.
I walked into the Trig class and was surrounded by chatter filling the room, it was noisy as hell. The hallway wasn't even this loud. I felt eyes on me as Silas and I sat down next to each other. I didn't even realize that we were still holding hands. The only thing I was focused on was across from me. Jacob Black was intently glaring at Silas, then to our hands, then to my face. I could tell he was clenching his jaw tight, and his hands were in fists. He was slightly shaking also, and I noticed Embry whisper in his ear. The shaking stopped, but his jaw and fists were still the same.
What.. the... hell?
Silas noticed the glare that was radiating off of Jacob, and only smirked in his direction. But being the oblivious moron that I am, I never noticed it. I wanted to get up and talk to Jacob, but that was when the teacher walked in. He was an older man, due to the streaks of grey. He was short, and also had glasses.
All through out Trig, I could feel the unwanted wrath of Jacob Black burning holes into my head, chest, and face. I needed to get away, I couldn't bare knowing that someone hated me for no reason, and it sure seemed like Jacob did. I didn't like being stared at, well no, more like being glared at. I didn't want to be the center of someone's unwanted hate. I didn't want to be the center of anyone's emotions.
I started to feel the tears form behind my eyelids as I closed them tightly. I didn't want to feel vulnerable and weak, especially on the first day of class. I didn't want rumors or gossip to start flying around. But that already began when I walked into Trig, hand in hand with Silas.
How could I be so stupid?!
I shook my head, blinked a few times, and took a couple deep breaths. I looked over for a mere second in Jacob's direction, and didn't notice the glare. Instead, it was a look of sympathy? What, does he feel like a jackass for being the way he is? Nope, the look vanished and is now back into a glare.
Cursing underneath my breath I heard the bell ring. Sighing in relief, I walked towards the door. I didn't want to wait for anyone, so I darted for the door. I walked in the direction of my next class which was art. And thank god, no one was in that class that I knew.
Art was my favorite subject, I usually found myself drawing when I would close off others. I never thought I was good, it was just a hobby and I enjoyed it. For the first lesson, our teacher Mr. Finn wanted to see how well we could draw. I picked to draw a wolf. Well more like Bear, I missed that little mutt. I smiled when I heard the bell ring, I couldn't believe how well the picture came out. It looked exactly like how Bear did in real life, I was actually proud of it. Getting up I placed the picture on Mr. Finn's desk, and walked towards the lunch room.
I dreaded this time of the day. I would have to sit with Quil, Embry and Jacob. I felt a hand in mine as I looked around the lunchroom for them. I thought it'd be Silas, but instead I saw Quil's smiling face behind me. I laughed and threw my arms around his shoulders. "How are you holding up today?" I heard him ask as we walked towards the lunch table all the way in the back corner.
"Eh, fine I guess. Everyone seems nice I suppose." I left out the fact that Jacob looked like he was about to murder me. He probably already knew though, Embry and Jacob never keep anything away from each other.
"Yeah, I hear you're warming the cold heart that belongs to Silas." I quickly glanced up at Quil. I heard another growl from someone to my left. I furrowed my eyebrows, what is with the growling? Can I growl? I wanted to see if I could but then I didn't want to look like an idiot. So instead I rolled my eyes at Jacob, who the nasty little growl belonged to, and just shook my head ignoring Quil's statement.
During lunch, I kept stealing glances with Silas across the room. He was actually starting to really annoy me, but I kept it to myself. I also noticed that Jacob kept moving closer to me, but then would move back to his original spot, which was to the end of the bench.
After lunch, I withdrew myself from everyone. I closed myself off, and didn't bother to sit with anyone that was in the same classes with me. Today was to much for me, I couldn't forget the way Silas looked at me after he figured out who I was. I couldn't forget the way Jacob handled himself when he saw me, and the terror I felt when he looked like he was going to rip me to shreds.
And I couldn't comprehend the feeling like my heart was being torn apart whenever I would see the disgusted look on Jacob's face when he would look at me.
