~5 MoNtHs LaTeR~
I awoke in the moring to that pain again. Im fed up with it. I got up out of bed and jumped in the shower. When I came out, I got changed, dryed my hair and put my make-up on. I didnt bother to straighten my hair so I just left it wavey (which is my hairs natural state). I wrote a not to Amy explaining that I had gone to the doctors and I didnt know how long I would be. It was quite warm outside so I didnt take my jacket. I walked out of the door and closed it behind me. As I walked down the street, I could feel every guys eyes on me. Most girls would be loving this and acting like a total slutbag whore, but Im not like most girls, Im very timid and scared. I reached the doctors and went in. I saw the doctor and told her what was happening to me. She had no idea what it was that was causing this. I left the doctors and went down to the park. I sat on a bench and I finally let the tears break through the barrier I had put up. The last time I cried was after that day. "Are you alright and if you dont mind me asking whats your name?" I heard a voice say beside me. I looked up and to my left. I couldnt believe who it was. Sitting beside me was Jussi Vouri, the drummer from The 69 Eyes. "Ermm...yeh Im fine. Im just feeling a little ill" I lied to him "and my name is Beth". The look on his face said 'I know your lying when you told me your ill'. I guess he chose not to say anything. "Ermm...if you dont mind me asking this?. Why are you talking to me?", "What do you mean?", "Well, shouldnt you be talking to some playboy girl and not some sad and pathetic girl like me?", "WHAT!?, JUST COZ IM FAMOUS, YOU THINK I SHOULDNT TALK TO SOMEONE LIKE YOU!!" he shouted at me. I jumped back in shock and then put my head down. 'Why do I always do that?' I thought as I looked at my scarred wrists. I sighed and stood up. "Im sorry, I didnt mean to offened you in anyway" I said as I started to walk away. I had a feeling that the razorblade I had in my room would welcome me with its sharp glistening edge. I took my time and started at the pavement, which was looking more appealing by the minute. I heard footsteps running behind me, I took no notice. 'If its someone who wants to kill me, even if they dont know me, they are most welcome to do it'. Suddenly, the person grabbed my arm and spun me around. My head was still down and I didnt bother to look up. The person put their hand under my chin and lifted my head up. I could believe who it was. Jussi had actually ran after me, no one has ever done that apart from Amy, but shes my friend and shes knows all about the shit I have been through in my life. "Im really sorry. I didnt mean to shout at you earlier. I just got a little angry when you aksed me why I was talking to you", "Its alright. Im used to it. I've been treat like shit my whole life, so I dont blame you for it". His eyes had sorrow in them, but it wasnt sorrow for himself, knowing that he had met me. Oh no, it was sorrow for me. "I tell you what", "What?", "How about I take you out tonight. Just the two of us.", "Ermm... Okay. I guess Amy wouldnt mind". He looked at me again and had a puzzling look on his face for a few minutes, just like he was thinking. "Well, how about I pick you and Amy up tonight at about 6. Then I'll drop Amy off at Bams and then me and you can spend the rest of the night together.". I thought about it for a few minutes, "Well let me call Amy and I'll let you know what she says". I pulled my cell out of my pocket and dailed Amys number. "Hello Beth", "Hey Amy. Erm... listen, I bumped into Jussi Vouri and a lot had happened when we were in the park. As an apologie, hes taking me out tonight. I want to know if he picks us both us do you want to go to Bams? I think it is?". She screamed down the phone so loud that I had to hold it away from my ear to be able to hear in it again. "OMG!! BETH ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?", "Ermm. yeh I am", "You better believe Im gonna be there", "Okay then. I'll see you in about 30 mins", "Okay bye", "Bye". I hung up and looked at Jussi. "Okay, you have a date then. Pick me and Amy up here at 6 O'Clock. No later" I said, turning around and getting ready to walk away, but before I colud, Jussi grabbed both my arms, turned me around to look at him and placed a kiss on my lips. He pulled away and winked at me before he walked away. I stood there and I couldnt believe it was real. 'Maybe hes just doning all of this because he feels really sorry for me'. I sighed and made my way back home. Whats the point in all of this becasue I know Im just gonna get my heart broken again.
*END P.O.V*
*JUSSIS P.O.V*
Beth had just hung up on the phone after talking to Amy. "Okay, you have a date then. Pick me and Amy up here at 6 O'Clock. No later" she said, turning and getting ready to walk away, but before she could, I grabbed her arms, turned her around to look at me and placed a kiss on her lips. They were so warm and soft, I colud have stayed latched to them all day if I could. I pulled away and winked at her before I walked away. I made my way back to Bams place with a huge smile on my face. I opened the door and walked in. "What you so happy about?" Timo asked me as he and Kirsty sat on the sofa. "Well, I have a date tonight with that girl I told you about", "Which one?", "That one I told you about. The one that was standing outside having a ciggie", "Oh right. God knows how you do all of this Jussi". I smiled to my self and went upstaris to get myself ready for tonight. I jumped into the shower and got myself washed. When I came out, I put on some black jeans and a casual top. I done my make-up and I spiked my hair up too. Not long after 5:45 came aorund. "Well guys, Im off. So I will see you lot when I drop Beths friend off", "Ok Jussi". I went out of the door and got into my car. I drove to the park to pick up Amy and Beth. I parked the car and got out to find them. I eventually found them, "Well, we meet again Beth", "Huh?. Oh, hi Jussi. I see you came and this is Amy by the way". I looked at the girl by Beths side. She was really pretty but I couldnt be thinking of her, Beth is the one I should be thinking of. "Well, are you two lovely girls ready to roll?" I asked them as we walked to the car, "Yeh we are" they both said laughing at the same time. I got into the drivers seat , Beth and Amy got in the back. I started up the car and we made our way over to Bams house, or should I say castle. When we reached it, I got out of the car and so did Amy. Beth got out and she hugged Amy "I hope you enjoy yourself at Bams" she told her, "Yer I will dont worry. I hope you enjoy your time out with Jussi", "I will". They both said goodbye to each other and I walked Amy up to the door. Beth had gotten back into the car but this time, she sat in the front passengers seat instead of the back. Amy was just about knock on the door, when I caught her hand and pulled her into me. "Now dont tell Beth about this", "Huh?. What do you mean?", "This, I said before I pushed against the wall and I started to make out with her. Amy was trying to push me away but I pinned her arms by her side. 'That should stop her from struggling' I thought as I made it more rough. We must have been up against the wall for a good 5 minutes, before I heard the car door open and then close. I thought nothing of it, until I heard a gasp and then that person to start crying. I pulled away from Amy, which she must have been thankfull for, and let go of her. I turned around and then it hit me in the face. Beth was standing uner the light of the porch crying. I looked closely at her tears and saw that they were red. Not a dark red but a lightish red, as though they were blood stained. Amy gasped, "Beth, plaese dont cry. I dont want you to do that again", "Tough luck bitch". With that, Beth ran off and she wouldnt stop when me or Amy called her name. Amy looked at me with disgust in her eyes. She pushed me away, "I hope your happy about that. She really wanted to give you a chance and you FUCKING BLEW IT!!" Amy said screaming the last part at me, "I just hope for your sake, Im not too late". I looked at her confused as she ran after Beth. I sighed and walked into the house. "Hey, where is your gal at?" Jyrki asked me, "She ran off" I said as I walked up the staris to my room. I opened the door and walked in, closing it behind me. I threw myself on my bed and sighed heavly into the pillow. 'Why do I always blow my chances with girls like that' I thought as I turned arond and lay on my back, looking at the celing.
*END P.O.V*
*AMYS P.O.V*
I ran after Beth. I looked everywhere for her and I couldnt seem to find her anywhere. 'Hopefully shes at the house' I thought as I ran as fast as my legs would take me. I reached our door and put my key in the lock, but the door was already open. 'Why did Beth leave the door open?' I thought as I walked into the house. I switched the lights on as I went in each room. I came to the bathroom and noticed the door was open slightly. I peeked in and saw a figure lying on the floor. I started to panic. I pushed the door open and turned on the light. I froze in horror. Beth was lying on the floor with blood all over her, it seemed to be coming from her wrists. 'Oh god. Beth no please dont leave me' I thougt as I ran over to her lifeless body. She seemed to be out cold and unconscious. I looked up at the counter and saw a container which had sleeping tablets in them, open and empty, lying on there. Beside that was a blood covered razorblade. I gasped even more. "Beth why did you do that?" I asked her hoping to get an answer from her. I really started to panic when she didnt answer me back. I pulled out my cell and called for the ambulance. They eventutally arrived and carried Beth out on a strecher with an oxygen mask on her face. I felt like all of this was my fault. I got in the ambulance with her and they drove to the hospital. 'Plase Beth. You gotta wake up hun' I thought to myself as I held her hand, hoping she would wake up anytime soon.
*END P.O.V*
